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THE WAY OF LIFE
Poorva. He wanted to go to Dashapur after completing his study of the tenth Poorva. But the tenth Poorva was like a boundless ocean. He became impatient. He approached Shri Vajraswami for the second time and asked him politely, "Gurudev! How much of the tenth Poorva is still remaining ?" Shri Vajraswami said, "Aryarakshit, you have been carrying out your studies with remarkable quickness. Yet it will take time for you to master the tenth Poorva. Therefore, you carry on your studies with concentration and without thinking of anything else".
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Aryarakshit had not told Shri Vajraswami anything about his mother's message to him. He thought that it was not proper to mention it to Vajraswami. He again plunged into his studies. He mastered one half of the tenth poorva; now he suddenly became extremely impatient. Again and again, his mother's call began echoing in his mind. He approached Vajraswami for the third time and said, "Gurudev, how much more remains to be studied?" Shri Vajraswami looked towards Aryarakshit and found that he was feeling restless, impatient and agitated. These feelings were reflected on his face and he seemed to be experiencing some inner agitation. He began to meditate spiritually. He used his spiritual vision and realised, "Oh! He cannot complete his study of the tenth Poorva. He will go away from here and if he returns, he will not be able to meet me. I am going to die very soon".
Shri Vajraswami opened his eyes, looked towards Aryarakshit and said,
वत्स गच्छ त्वं मिथ्या दुष्कृतमस्तु मे ॥
(Dear child, you can go. I say unto you (Michchamidukkhadam); I repent my fault, if I have hurt your feelings at any time and I make atonement for it).
The tears flowed from Aryarakshit's eyes. He placed his head upon the feet of Vajraswami and began to weep like a child. He too said Michchamidukkhadam to the Gurudev; obtained his blessings and then he set out on foot to Dashpur with Phalgurakshit.
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