Wave of Bliss

Author(s): N P Jain
Publisher: Jain Meditation International Centre

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THE PRACTICE OF RELIGION
- forgiveness is not a big religious act, is a dance of life. If you forgive you enjoy your life. If you don't forgive you carry the load, you carry the burden, you carry heaviness of bitterness so you don't know what life is. Life is passing by and people are sad because of their heaviness. One man came and he said that he was not enjoying the vibrations of the people who are meditating. He was looking around and he said these people are relaxed, their jaws are not tight, their eyes are not staring, they are relaxing, and they are just sitting as they are, not trying to become anything else. And this man saw that I don't do that thing, I don't enjoy that thing, but the teacher had insight. The teacher knew the vibrations, he experienced the vibrations of the person. So just when he mentioned why are you carrying the sack of the stones on your back? You are sitting in the chair, leave it there. So he started thinking. What is the sack of stones? Where are the stones? And then he thought, yes I do. I have the big stone of ego. I have the big stone of resentment to people.
have a kind of deception, pretension to prove to the world I have inside bitterness, and I also see the world everybody is enjoying and I feel heavy. One by one, he started seeing the stones he was carrying on his shoulder. And that is why he was not relaxing...
This philosophy tells you one thing it is very clear. How can anybody love you if you always become something else to be with them. How can anybody love you for who you are, or for what you are, if you are continuously becoming something else to be with them. And we are always trying to become something else to be with somebody. To be with somebody we try to become something else and at the same time what we are demanding from the people is, why don't you love me for what I am? Why don't you love me as I am? But we don't think how can they love you when continuously you are
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