Wave of Bliss

Author(s): N P Jain
Publisher: Jain Meditation International Centre

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THE WAVE OF BLISS
There was one girl who was coming to me and she was very unhappy. I say, why are you unhappy? She says I have so much love but my boyfriend he is ungrateful, he does not know how to receive it. I want to give my love. I say you have so much love, you want to give to him, a little portion of it, why don't you give to yourself, so at least you will not be unhappy, you will not cry, you will not be depressed. What you want to give, a little portion at least you give to yourself. Because you want to make him happy, "Yes, if I give him love, he will be happy." I say so much love and such a good quality you have, give that portion to yourself, so at least you will be happy and you won't be here to come and ask the question. We are very generous, we want to give to everyone. We want to give free advice. We want to do everything, but we deprive ourselves. We hardly take time to be with us. If we are alone we feel uncomfortable So we call somebody, we invite somebody, we talk to somebody, because we have not learned to be with us. One is not enjoying the solitude, but solitude is the beginning and solitude is the end whether we believe it or not. . .
There are people who want to give to you, the universe is there to give to you, but if we are limited, we are in fear to take it, how can we take it? So the person is not good in a relationship because of his/her own fear. Fear is reflecting in the relationship. And that fear you remove through awareness and understanding...
Sometimes guilt pursues us. And small mistakes we have made become large. And if you start believing in your own mistake and say what a bad person I am, what a horrible person I am. I did such a horrible thing. But the thing was not so horrible as you think. It was small, but because of telling yourself again and again it becomes horrible in your mind. Because the neurons go on
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