Voyage Within With Vimalajee

Author(s): Pratap J Tolia
Publisher: Vardhaman Bharati International Foundation

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"HARI BIN TERO, MERE MANAVA! APNA KOI NAHIN...!"
Really God is the only solace, only shelter, only companion! And this was the indirectly reply of our worldly sufferings. I was reminded by my inner self of Srimad Rajchandraji's significant observations: "NEITHER YOU NOR I AREAT ALL UNHAPPY. WHATEVER SUFFERINGS THERE ARE, ARE NOT WORTH EVEN AN INCH OF THE SUFFERINGS OF ONE DAY OF THE FOURTEEN YEARS OF RAMA'S SECLUSION IN THE JUNGLES AND NOT EVEN A MOMENT OF MEDITATION OF GREAT MUNI GAJASUKUMALI...!"Comparing this was cent percent correct of our sorrows and sufferings.
Soon after the meditation sittings, we had a long personal sitting for which Vimalaji was kind again to spare her most valuable time. She graciously and joyously went on expressing her intimate, deep, sharing concerns of reflections.
Catching the link of Chi. Kinnari's singing and talking with her she said, "Chi. Kinnari has, like her elder sober siste Parul, a very wonderful sense of understanding. At this tiny age, she has a caring and balance attitude. After all your family's background of sublime contacts and influences of awakened seers and saints like Pandit Sukhlalji, Mallikji, Sahajanandghanji, Mataji etc. are reflecting through her. Let her elevate herself unfolding through her creative
arts..."
Then turning to her in the context of her recent talks with her, she told her, "It's a matter of joy that you want to stay with me for some time. Do come again with a long time at your disposal. No, i won't allow you to stay then at the Dharamshala. You will stay with me here at the Shiv Kutir. This Shilpa will teach you Yogasanas."
Then Deedi went on inquiring of her normal health and problems if any. She suggested one Flower powder for her and recommended the name of Bombay parsee Babaji.
Elder brother and past Ashram President, Late Chandubhai, not only aspired to make HAMPI ASHRAM ATEERTH of DILWARA'S stature by constructing a unique JINALAYA but also by founding a JAIN VISHWA VIDYALYA with the undersigned, tried to put the ashramon sound footing (in spite of adverse circumstances and nil co-operation from other co-workers., constructed some fine buildings, dedicated himself to the orders of Gurudev, but very, unfortunately he met with an accident and died prematurely without seeing his dream materialised at Hampi... It was rather tremendous shock to this humble self that after shifting from Ahmadabad, resigning Gujarat Vidyapeeth Professor ship and leaving Sri Pandit Sukhlaji pious shelter in May 1970, both passed away soon on 2nd October(Gandhi Jayanti Day)1970. Not only this Gurudev Sahajanandghanji also breathed last in SAMADHI exactly after one month of brother's passing away,on Nov. 2 1970.
As if following in the foot step of elder brother, our creative and highly talented eldest daughter Kum. Parul (M.A. Gold Medallist, seven Journalism Awardees, Critic and writer and Musician), who used to remain in Holy Mother's company at Hampi and writing and editing several articles and recorded discourses of Guru dev Sahajanandghanji, also met with similar accident and died on 28th August 1988, leaving behind her dedicated Articles and Editings of Gurudev, Mataji and Srimadji's Literature...!
Wife Smt. Sumitra has also assisted throughout silently in rewriting and editing Gurudev's PARAMGURU PRAVACHANAS in a constant series since several years. Additionally, she has musically composed Gurudev's Verses and helped in my Ashram pursuits from time to time.
Second daughter Chi. Dr. Vandana (I.N.Y.S.Jindal's Naturopath and commentator of Gurudev's Discourses, etc) and youngest above referred Chi. Kinnari have their own aspiration full contribution for future development of the Ashrams of course if utilised consciously..!regarding this humble self past and present contributions are much more before the eyes of Paramgurus and Future's are also in their hands...what to list and what not! Everything is dedicated to them... and hence to wing up with surrounding silence only, indicating this attachment of our whole family with the Ashram, the future unique and Paramgurus, visualised seats of learning, seekings and aspirations through the far-off Jinalayas and jain Vishwavidyalayas...!Which are the wishes of the Great Masters and not this or any single, limited self...!
All these were not at all required to be conveyed to Deedi Vimalaji, since sailing in the same boat of the Great Masters, she knew these all in spite of the un told., unexpressed expression through SILENCE.
After some silent moments that evening, she turned to the subject of the Elevation of the departed soul Late Kum. Parul whose sudden death in the series of our family deaths had stunned myself, Sumitra and all of us all these years.