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Vishuddha-Abundance, Experiencing the Limitless
What, previously, you took to be your real self-depression, dependence, resentment, anger, insecurity, unhappiness-are, in fact, not the real Self. The real Self is Love. In the past, your awareness of this Higher Self has often been obscured by the rage and resentment which are part of the unreal, part of the borrowed mental programs and expectations. To uncover the Real within, you must take the time to dive deep into your inner being. Nobody is going to do it for you. You must make the effort yourself.
In your meditation, begin to let go all the ill feelings you are harboring toward anyone. It may be helpful sometimes to visualize a blackboard on which you mentally write the names of anyone you resent or dislike. If you find it difficult to visualize, then write the names on a piece of paper. Now, gradually go deep, deep into yourself and for each name examine how and where and why this resentment started. Did it start with some thoughtless words? Was it the result of your projection or misinterpretation? Perhaps you had expected something from someone and in your disappointment, anger and bitterness were born. Perhaps you heard second- or third-hand that someone had spoken against you and you took it to heart and now you are estranged from that person. In so many, many ways we have become alienated from the people around us and carry the burden of our resentments in our minds.
As you probe deeper into your memory, you will suddenly realize that you have bound yourself to the very people you have disliked. Anger and resentment tie you to the object of your anger so that you are not free to move forward. I have seen people experience the heights of joy and moments of the most serene meditation only to re
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