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APRIL 2015
PRABUDDH JEEVAN
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All that I had seen, felt and experienced was put to could be gone, the game would be over and just the test. A part of me wanted to lash out, got upset, the thought that while all the senses are still functioning, other remained calm and said the words that in the fifth while sanity is still intact, one can do something about adhyayan--Akam Maraniya of Shri Uttaradhyayan it,imagining a lifetime gone without finding, and sevSutra, the lines by Bhagwan Mahavir Swami say very eral earlier lifetimes gone without a Sadguru...also categorically that if a grahasth a (householder) of a thinking that every moment now seems like I am living higher antarang dasha, is not only put on the same in eternity. level as a Muni and in fact sometimes might even be in the next in the series was card design, audio video a higher state of awareness than a Muni. It is really all delegation. musicians for Bhakti and food where about the antarang bhaav dasha.
decided to take help from the experts- people who I humbly invited him to come and attend Gurudev's handle all of this for Gurudev in Dharampur. lectures with an open mind and then draw his own
That was a lesson in efficiency, quick and prompt replies, conclusion.
and literally each department took between five to 25 Speaking to all these different people, gave me four
minutes of coordination (the long 25 minutes also for food distinct feelings -
menu which I took time in selecting). Each one of them (1) ONENESS with the Guru because so many people had an answer or a prompt solution. There was nothing spoke to me as a medium to reach Him. I was like a they were doubtful of or confused of in their fields. Giving flute-those phone calls of two minutes when they felt them the task, you know they will see it to completion connected to Him through me.
even if i did not speak to them again. They reverted (2) A huge sense of responsibility: because most when they promised, they delivered what they people who are going to be present are in their bud- promised like clockwork. ding stages of awe towards this Guru and I felt the Finally, I am still 15 days away but this feeling of need to ensure that they are comfortable, involved, in welcoming the Beloved, of setting the stage so to my capacity food, mikes, acoustics, monitors, com- say, of wanting to just fade in the background, fortable seats- simple things but so essential to the dissolve and the feeling of a connect all the while. entire experience for a first or second time listener. This soft all sustaining feeling of devotion that just stays (3) A feeling of Blessedness-like Gratitude but more. and gets deeper when you are doing something from
the disposition of a disciple. That gosh, my search ended before it even began, that
There are many things I learnt and am learning, just to have the Master's words, eyes, access all the
including a sense of well being that comes only time because I am already a believer, a follower, a devotee. That till one does not know, everything seems
from this doing, being, using your heart and brain's
inner recesses to create something perfect for the so far and scary and humungous and one only has
one you love. partial knowledge, and other people's opinions and
So lets all find this spot within us where a beloved chatter in one's head-unsure of whether one is even
resides, be it in the form of a master, a lover, a doing the right thing, slightly scared.
child, a mother, a friend... and lets just join I have been in that space just a few years back, the
togather in this creation of an event, an object or space where one is a skeptic, then a curious bystander,
a thought process that takes us to a higher plane then a little more involved and then leap-jump! The
-- where love remains steadfast, where faith remains firm, journey from the point of zero to surrender which can where devotion helps in dissolution, where surrender take 15 minutes, 15 hours, 15 months, or 15 lifetimes.
brings you closer to self. (4) A sense of Anguish- That oh my God, this is such
Reshma Jain a rare treasure because people speaking to me were
The Narrators of all ages, from all strata of society and conditioning
Tel: +91 99209 51074 and that how time is so so fleeting, that anytime you પ્રબુદ્ધ જીવન” કોર્પસ ફંડમાં ત્રણ લાખનું અનુદાન આપી પંદર વર્ષ સુધી કોઈ પણ એક મહિનાનું સૌજન્ય પ્રાપ્ત કરી.
'સ્વજનને શબ્દાંજલિ જ્ઞાનકર્મથી અર્ધી જ્ઞાનપુણ્ય પ્રાપ્ત કરો.
