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cave, she could not see him but he could see her. Upon seeing her, Rathnemi could not control his passion and thought how fortunate it would be to get Rajimati in his arms.
When Rajimati realized another person's presence in the cave, she quickly dressed herself and demanded to know who the person was.
"I am Rathnemi who loves you. It is a solitary place and the golden opportunity has arrived. Let us not lose
Rajimati, having recognized the voice, was greatly annoyed. She rebuked him, “You are a monk. Your ideals are high. You are serving penance. Why are you talking like a person who is tempted by carnal desires? Think, who you are and who I am.”
Rathnemi explained, “Although I am a monk, I am still restless to have you. My only desire is to have you. Penance and spiritual practice lose their importance in your presence, Rajimati.”
Raji --You should be firm on your vows. Do you remember your vows?
Rath-- Yes of course I do, but who can see us here?
Raji -- Ask your own soul. Would you not be committing a sin secretly?
Rath-- If you don't want us to do it secretly, we can get married and later on in old age become monk and nun.
Raji--Why didn't you drink that liquid you brought for me?
Rath -- Because it was a vomit.