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JAIN RAMAYAN
"Probably, they will not ask me about it and they may ask Lakshman to tell them about it. Not only this; they will be eager to know all about our life in the forests.”
Sita looked out through the window. Shri Ram closed his eyes and fell into deep thought. Even now a question began cropping up in Sita's mind repeatedly, confounding her. She wondered whether she could ask him anything about that matter. She could not ask any question about it inspite of all her eagerness to know everything about it.
When she married Shri Ram, it was evident to her that she would become the future queen of Ayodhya but events came about in such a way that this expectation of hers did not come true. Her desire to become the queen of Ayodhya was still a dream. An unrealisable dream. But after Ravan was slain in the battle-field, this question arose in her mind again and again. She thought, "After we reach Ayodhya, Shri Ram will be crowned king of the country but will Bharath give up the throne ? Of course, he has no desire for kingship or the throne. After the death of Ravan, Vibhishan also was unwilling to accept the kingship of Lanka and my lord prevailed upon him to accept the kingship of Lanka. My lord did not desire the kingship of Lanka. Probably, he does not desire kingship at all.”
This doubt kept worrying her. Shri Ram opened his eyes; looked towards Sita and said :
"Dear Sita! You seem to be thinking of something deeply. Let me know what it is.”
"Dear Lord! I am thinking of your spirit of detachment and disinterestedness."
"I do not understand you." "My lord ! You do not seem to have any desire for kingship." "Well! Who told you so ?”
“No one need tell me about it. It is well-known that you do not like power and prosperity. The life you are leading is it
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