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Towards the path of Samyam
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"Your revered father has crossed the farthest horizons of the perceptible universe and has attained the Siddhashila situated on the fourteenth Rajlok. Now, he is absolutely free from all kinds of agony and anguish, from all physical, psychological and inherited ailments and he is absolutely free from the cycle of birth and death. His soul has become immersed in the sublime radiance of the supreme light-giver. The splendour of his soul has become a part of the supreme splendour. He has become a part of that loveliness which he once adored. Dear son! This is my only aim in life. This is my supreme objective!"
She paused for a while. She kept looking at the blue sky for a while and then holding Bharath's hands, she said :
“Dear son ! I am fully aware of the blunder I committed in compelling you to remain in this unreal and illusory world. I know that I caused great grief to you. At that time, I was unwise and thoughtless. I placed impediments on your path on account of my attachment and infatuation. If I had this spiritual awareness and awakening at that time I would not have prevented you from becoming a Sadhu. I would have gladly agreed to it and I too would have become a Sadhvi, but it was my misfortune. It was on account of my evil karmas that I acted thus at that time. I knew very well that after Shri Ram went away to the forests and after you ascended the throne as the king of Ayodhya, you began despising me. You showed contempt for me and you kept shunning me. But I have also found that you are an ideal son and as a son you have been respecting me and always you have been carrying out my orders with a genuine feeling of filial devotion. But please realise this truth also. My conscience never forgave me. I have always been feeling guilty of my action. Well, what is the use of remembering the past ? Now you need not have any hesitation or conflict. You may become a Sadhu breaking off all bondages and for your sake I will break off my bondages also. Not only this; when the people of Ayodhya come to know of my decision to become a Sadhvi, the stain sticking to my name will be washed clean. Now they have been reproaching me but after I become a Sadhvi I will be free from all blame. Actually, I was respon
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