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to a normal spiritual life. Natural impulses are allowed to appear in the realm of consciousness only after they have gone through the process of “sublimation ". What is called conscience acts as the censor, and would not permit civilised human beings to act according to the impulses inherent in their very existence, unless these are dressed up in the glittering garbs of hypocrisy and falsehood.
The Hindus have the symbol of Lingam. Na thing bears out the Freudian theory of the libido more pointedly. The natural desire for the pleasure of sexual life is suppressed by the cult of Brahmacharya ; but nature takes her revenge. Sex-instinct is one of the two sovercign factors of the higher forms of organic existence. It cannot be suppressed. So, it appears in the singular custom of worshipping the sex organ as the symbol of God. The sovereign power exacts homage as if with vengeance. Religious ceremonies and social institutions of the Hindu provide innumcrable instances of the sublimation of natural impulses.
Since all the spiritual exploits of man-religious, artistic, moral-are ultimately governed by forces emanating from the unconscious, that is, the storehouse of animal (biological) instincts, my venture into literature is not such an unnatural event as it may appear to be.
There is nothing to prevent it except my deficiency as regards the power of speech. But I have
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