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## Āgama Sūtra 39, Cheda Sūtra-5, 'Mahānishīth'
Study/Purpose/Sūtrāṅka Sūtra-886-889
Understand well the way in which utsarga is described in the सिद्धान्त. O Gautama! Despite doing tapas, he had the great rise of bhogavali karma. Even then, he experienced the arousal of the object. When he performed eightfold severe mahatapas, even then the rise of the object did not stop. Even then, he consumed poison. He performed bhṛgupāta from the mountain. He desired to do anashana. While doing so, the Cāraṇa Muni stopped him. After that, he went to an unknown land after offering rajohaṛana to his guru. O Gautama! Know this remedy described in the śruta. Sūtra-890-894
Just as one should not engage in any misconduct against the conduct until the rajohaṛana and pravrajyā are returned to the guru, so too, this veśa-rajohaṛana, taught by Jineśvara, should not be left in another place, leaving the guru. One should offer rajohaṛana to the guru with folded hands. If the guru mahārāja is capable and can understand him, then he should be explained and brought back to the right path. If someone else can understand him, then ask them to explain to him. If the guru has perhaps been pacified by the words of others, then one should not object. The one who is a bhavya, who has understood the advice, who recognizes the state of the world, O Gautama! The one who hates this position, just as the 'āsadane' wandered in the four gatis due to māyā, prapanca, and dambha, so too will he wander in the four gatis. Sūtra-895-900
O Bhagavant! Who was the āsad who was naturally inclined to māyā and prapanca? We do not know. Then, for what reason did he wander here, troubled by great sorrow? O Gautama! In the tīrtha of another, the last, tīrthankara, who was like a shining kāñcana, there was a disciple named āsad, who was the ācārya named Bhūtikṣa. Having accepted the mahāvrat, he studied the sūtra and the artha. At that time, the pain of the object did not arise, but he began to think curiously that the सिद्धान्त describes such a method. So, I will perform eightfold tapas, bhṛgupāta, anashana, eating poison, etc., all of which will please the guru class, so that they will also prevent me from becoming a deva and say that you have a long lifespan, you will not die. Enjoy your desires. Return the veśa-rajohaṛana to the guru mahārāja and go to another unknown land. After enjoying the fruits of your actions, practice severe vīra tapas. Sūtra- 901-905
Or, indeed, I am foolish. I am hurt by my own māyā-śalya. It is not considered appropriate for a śramaṇa to have such a thought in his mind. I will also make atonement for it later, lighten my soul, and accept the mahāvrat. Or, I will be called māyāvī again after making atonement. Then, for ten years, I will perform māsa-khaman and pāraṇa āyambil, for twenty years, I will perform continuous fasting for two months and pāraṇa āyambil, for twenty-five years, I will perform cāndrāyaṇa tapas. For eight years, I will perform chhathu, athūm, and four-four fasts, I will perform such severe atonement here of my own free will. I will perform this atonement here, staying at the lotus feet of the guru mahārāja. Sūtra - 906-909
Is this atonement not too much for me? Or, why would the tīrthankara Bhagavant have conceived this method? I am practicing it. And the one who has joined me in atonement, the all-knowing Bhagavant knows the truth, I will simply practice atonement. Whatever I have seen and thought here, may my sin be false. In this way, he performed severe atonement, which removes suffering, of his own accord, and by doing so, the one with the śalya died and became a vāṇavyantara deva. O Gautama! If he had made a proper atonement in front of the guru mahārāja and had practiced that much atonement, then he would have been born in the vimāna above the navagraiveyaka.
Muni Dīparatnasāgara Kṛt (Mahānishīth) Āgama Sūtra-Hindi Anuvāda
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