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Agam Sutra 39, Chhed Sutra-5, 'Mahanishith'
Study/Purpose/Sutra Number Sutra- 1174-1177
I am the first great Sadhvi within all the virtuous and chaste. I am ahead of all in the same way as a line. In the same way, there is an announcement in heaven. And everyone worships the dust of my feet. Because everyone is purified by its dust. In this way, my fame has spread in the world. Now if I am being criticized. If I reveal my mental fault to the Bhagvant, then my brothers, mother, father will be saddened by hearing this, or if I have thought something in my mind by mistake in any way, I have criticized it, just by hearing this, what sorrow will my relatives have? Sutra- 1178-1182
_ As soon as I was ready to take criticism by thinking in this way, I was standing, then a thorn pierced into the sole of my foot. At that time, the Sadhvi, being disheartened and hopeless, started thinking that oh dear! A thorn had never pierced my foot in this birth, so what will happen in this matter (inauspicious)? Or I understood the Dharma that two birds were fighting, I approved of them, because of that my virtuous vows were violated. Coral, deaf, blind, leprous, rotten-bodied, ashamed, even the gods praise him until he does not break his vows. The thorn pierced my foot, because of this, I have made a mistake, I will get great benefit from it. Sutra- 1183-1188
_ A woman who breaks her vows even in her mind, if she goes to the seven Narakas in the lineage of seven generations within the underworld. Why did I make this mistake? So now, until a thunderbolt or dust falls on me, until my heart is broken into a hundred pieces, even that will be considered a great wonder. Secondly, maybe I will be criticized for this, then people will think that the daughter of some people has made such an inauspicious decision in her mind. Because of that, I will do such an experiment, and others will have thought that how much penance should be given to her. I will be criticized in such a way that I have thought in such a way, no one else knows. The Bhagvant will give the penance for this sin, even if it is very severe and firm, even then I will do that much penance after hearing what he has said. Until the beautiful vows and character are free from the three types of impurities, the sin does not go away. Sutra- 1189-1194
Now that Lakshman Sadhvi started doing penance by accepting criticism on behalf of others, she fasted for fifty years for the sake of penance, for six days and eight days, she fasted for ten years. She did not do it for herself, nor did she get it done, no one prepared food by taking a vow of a Sadhu, the food was left over from the house of the householder who ate it, she would complete her fast with that food, she would eat chickpeas for two years. She would do the Masakshaman penance for sixteen years continuously. She would do the Ayambil penance for twenty years. She would not leave any necessary action on any day. She would do all this penance with a mind free from day and night, for the sake of penance, O Gautam! Then she started thinking that the penance I did, did it not remove the sin from my heart? What I had thought in my mind at that time. On the other hand, I have accepted penance. Will it not be considered as conduct? Thinking this, she died. Sutra- 1195-1198
By doing severe, painful, and extremely severe penance, that Lakshman Sadhvi, due to her free penance, was born as a light-hearted servant who did obscene work in the house of a prostitute, her name was Khandoṣṭhā. She was very sweet-spoken, she carried heavy loads of liquor and grass, she was humble to all the prostitutes.
Muni Diparatnasagar Krit (Mahanishith) Agam Sutra-Hindi Translation
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