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person help you swim? Never before have the circumstances been right but now the right circumstance of meeting a Gnani are here and your work will be done. Sooner or later you will have to destroy your mistakes, will you not? What is the most difficult thing? It is to find a bestower of moksha! Why would you be kept bound once you meet such a person?
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When 'we' bestow upon you, the state of the Self, the state you attain thereafter is much higher than even the state of 'sthita-pragnya' that Lord Krishna has referred to in the Bhagwat Gita. This here is pragnya (the continuous energy of the Soul that liberates) and with this you have to get rid of all attachment and abhorrence (raag-dwesh).
This world is Vyavasthit. The power of Vyavasthit sends to you the consequences of your mistakes of past life. You should let them come and settle with them all the while remaining in your moksha (liberated state). Whatever mistakes you made in your past life will come back to you in this life and trouble you even if you do nothing wrong in this life. That is what 'we' mean by liability and mistakes.
Liability of merit and demerit karma
There are two kinds of liabilities. When you offer 'us' flowers, it is a liability and when you throw stones at 'us' it is also a liability. Receiving flowers is a liability of punya and receiving stones is a liability of paap. What is this process like? Any mistake one makes is 'tried' in the 'courts' and justice is dispensed accordingly. Whatever mistakes one has made in the past, he has to face the consequences of those mistakes and suffer the results. He will have to settle those mistakes with equanimity. He is not to utter a word in the process. What happens when he remains silent? When the time comes, the mistake will come and once it is suffered, it will leave. Entanglements have been created because of saying anything, so remain silent in order to solve the entanglements.
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The speech of the Gnani Purush is the live presence of Goddess Saraswati (Goddess of speech), and so one will learn by listening to it continuously. Whoever comes to you as your nimit, will bring to you the consequences of your mistakes, which you will have to suffer. All pleasure that you enjoy is through a nimit and so is the pain that you suffer.
The Gnani Purush has not created any entanglements in the past life and that is why He continues to receive worldly comforts and luxuries. You have met a Gnani Purush in this life, so settle your old mistakes with equanimity and do not create any new ones, and thereafter you will not have to face them again and everything will be solved.
The multilayered nature of the faults
You should be able to see all your mistakes; the mistakes will then say, "We have to leave this home." Once You see a mistake, it has no choice but leave. Some mistakes are like layers of an onion. Onions have eight to ten or so layers, so do some mistakes. Some mistakes have two to five layers whereas some have hundreds of layers. That is why 'we' have said:
"Mun, vachan, kaaya ni tevo aney tena swabhav ne hu janu chhoon, ney mara swa-swabhav ne pun 'hoon' janu chhoon."
"I am the knower of the habits of the mind, body and speech and their nature and 'T' also know 'my' own nature."
Now, what do we mean by swabhav? It means some people may have an 'onion' with ten layers, some with one hundred layers and some with a hundred-thousand layers. The habits of the mind, body and speech can never be changed. We do not have any objection against habits, because prakruti cannot be changed but its swabhav (nature) can vanish (a hundred layered fault to zero layers where the fault is washed). The more pratikraman one does, the more layers get destroyed. The layers have no choice but to leave as one 'does'