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________________ 520 zrI mohamayI kSetrathI muMbaI, zrAvaNa vada 0)), gurU, 1950 zrI sAyalA grAme sthita, parama snehI zrI sobhAgane, zrI mohamayI kSetrathI - nA bhaktipUrvaka yathAyogya prApta thAya. vizeSa vinaMti ke tamAro lakhela kAgaLa pahoMcyo che. teno uttara nIcethI vicArazo. jJAnavArtAnA prasaMgamAM upakArI evAM keTalAMka prazno tamane thAya che, te tame amane lakhI jaNAvo cho, ane tenA samAdhAnanI tamArI icchA vizeSa rahe che, tethI koI paNa prakAre jo tamane te praznonAM samAdhAna lakhAya to sAruM, ema cittamAM rahyA karatA chatAM udayayogathI tema banatuM nathI. patra lakhavAmAM cittanI sthiratA ghaNI ja ochI rahe che. athavA citta te kAryamAM alpa mAtra chAyA jevo praveza karI zake che. jethI tamane vizeSa vigatathI patra lakhavAnuM thaI AvatuM nathI. eka eka kAgaLa lakhatAM dazadaza, pAMcapAMca vakhata babbe-caccAra lITI lakhI te kAgaLa adhUrA mUkavAnuM cittanI sthitine lIdhe bane che. kriyAne viSe ruci nahIM, tema prArabdhabaLa paNa te kriyAmAM hAla vizeSa udayamAna nahIM hovAthI tamane tema ja bIjA mumukSuone vizeSapaNe kaMI jJAnacarcA lakhI zakAtI nathI. cittamAM e viSe kheda rahe che, tathApi tene hAla to upazama karavAnuM ja citta rahe che. evI ja koI AtmadazAnI sthiti hAla varte che. ghaNuM karIne jANIne karavAmAM AvatuM nathI, arthAtu pramAdAdi doSe karI te kriyA nathI banatI ema jaNAtuM nathI. je mukharasa saMbaMdhI jJAna viSe 'samayasAra' graMthanA kavitAdimAM tame artha dhAro cho te tema ja che; ema sarvatra che, ema kahevA yogya nathI. banArasIdAse 'samayasAra' graMtha hindI bhASAmAM karatAM keTalAMka kavita, savaiyA vageremAM tenA jevI ja vAta kahI che; ane te koI rIte 'bIjajJAnane lagatI jaNAya che. tathApi kyAMka kyAMka tevA zabdo upamApaNe paNa Ave che. 'samayasAra' banArasIdAse karyo che, temAM te zabdo jyAM jyAM AvyA che, tyAM tyAM sarva sthaLe upamApaNe che ema jaNAtuM nathI, paNa keTaleka sthaLe vastapaNe kahyuM che, ema lAge che, joke e vAta kaMIka AgaLa gaye maLatI AvI zake ema che. eTale tame je 'bIjajJAna'mAM kAraNa gaNo cho tethI kaMIka AgaLa vadhatI vAta athavA te vAta vizeSa jJAne temAM aMgIkAra karI jaNAya che. banArasIdAsane kaMI tevo yoga banyo hoya ema 'samayasAra' graMthanI temanI racanA parathI jaNAya che. 'mULa samayasAramAM eTalI badhI spaSTa vArtA 'bIjajJAna' viSe kahI nathI jaNAtI, ane banArasIdAse to ghaNe ThekANe vastupaNe ane upamApaNe te vAta kahI che. je uparathI ema jaNAya che ke banArasIdAse sAthe potAnA AtmAne viSe je kaMI anubhava thayo che, teno paNa koI te prakAre prakAza karyo che, ke koI vicakSaNa jIvanA anubhavane te AdhArabhUta thAya, vizeSa sthira karanAra thAya. ema paNa lAge che ke banArasIdAse lakSaNAdi bhedathI jIvano vizeSa nirdhAra karyo hato, ane te te lakSaNAdinuM satata manana thayA karyAthI AtmasvarUpa kaMIka tIkSNapaNe temane anubhavamAM AvyuM che, ane avyaktapaNe
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________________ Atmadravyano paNa temane lakSa thayo che, ane te avyakta lakSathI te bIjajJAna temaNe gAyuM che. avyakta lakSano artha atre evo che ke cittavRtti AtmavicAramAM vizeSapaNe lAgI rahevAthI pariNAmanI nirmaLa dhArA banArasIdAsane je aMze pragaTI che, te nirmaLadhArAne lIdhe potAne dravya A ja che ema joke spaSTa jANavAmAM nathI, topaNa aspaSTapaNe eTale svAbhAvikapaNe paNa temanA AtmAmAM te chAyA bhAyamAna thaI che. ane jene lIdhe e vAta temanA mukhathI nIkaLI zakI che; ane sahaja AgaLa vadhatAM te vAta temane sAva spaSTa thaI jAya evI dazA te graMtha karatAM temanI prAye rahI che. zrI DuMgaranA aMtaramAM je kheda rahe che te koI rIte yogya che, ane te kheda ghaNuM karIne tamane paNa rahe che, te jANavAmAM che. temaja bIjA paNa keTalAka mumukSu jIvone e prakArano kheda rahe che e rIte jANavAmAM chatAM, ane tama sauno e kheda dUra karAya to sAruM ema manamAM rahetAM chatAM prArabdha vedIe chIe. vaLI amArA cittamAM e viSe atyaMta baLavAna kheda che. je kheda divasamAM prAye ghaNA ghaNA prasaMge spharyA kare che, ane te upazamAvavAnuM karavuM paDe che, ane ghaNuM karI tama vagerene paNa ame vizeSapaNe te kheda viSe lakhyuM nathI, ke jaNAvyuM nathI. amane tema jaNAvavAnuM paNa yogya lAgatuM nahotuM, paNa hAla zrI DuMgare jaNAvavAthI, prasaMgathI jaNAvavAnuM thayuM che. tamane ane DuMgarane je kheda rahe che, tethI te prakAra viSe amane asaMkhyAtaguNaviziSTa kheda raheto haze ema lAge che. kAraNa ke je je prasaMge te vAta AtmapradezamAM smaraNa thAya che, te te prasaMge badhA pradeza zithila jevA thaI jAya che, ane jIvano nitya svabhAva hovAthI jIva Avo kheda rAkhatAM chatAM jIve che; evA prakAranA kheda sudhI prApta thAya che. vaLI pariNAmAMtara thaI thoDA avakAze paNa tenI te vAta pradeze pradeze krurI nIkaLe che, ane tevI ne tevI dazA thaI Ave che, tathApi AtmA para atyaMta draSTi karI te prakArane hAla to upazamAvavo ja ghaTe che, ema jANI upazamAvavAmAM Ave che. zrI DuMgaranA ke tamArA cittamAM ema AvatuM hoya ke sAdhAraNa kAraNone lIdhe ame e prakAranI pravRtti karatA nathI, te yogya nathI. e prakAre jo rahetuM hoya to ghaNuM karI tema nathI, ema amane lAge che. nitya pratye te vAtano vicAra karavA chatAM haju baLavAna kAraNono te pratye saMbaMdha che, ema jANI je prakAranI tamArI icchA prabhAvanA hetumAM che te hetune DhIlamAM nAkhavAnuM thAya che, ane tene avarodhaka evAM kAraNone kSINa thavA devAmAM kaMI paNa AtmavIrya pariNAma pAmI sthitimAM varte che. tamArI icchA pramANe hAla je pravartAtuM nathI te viSe je baLavAna kAraNo avarodhaka che, te tamane vizeSapaNe jaNAvavAnuM citta thatuM nathI, kemake haju te vizeSapaNe jaNAvavAmAM avakAza javA devA yogya che. je baLavAna kAraNo prabhAvanA hetune avarodhaka che, temAM amAro kaMI paNa buddhipUrvaka pramAda hoya ema koI rIte saMbhavatuM nathI. tema ja avyaktapaNe eTale nahIM jANavAmAM chatAM saheja jIvathI thayA karato hoya evo pramAda hoya ema paNa jaNAtuM nathI, tathApi koI aMze te pramAda saMbhavamAM lakhatAM paNa tethI avarodhakapaNuM hoya ema lAgI zake ema nathI, kAraNa ke AtmAnI nizcayavRtti tethI asanmukha che.
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________________ lokomAM te pravRtti karatAM mAnabhaMga thavAno prasaMga Ave to te mAnabhaMga paNa sahana na thaI zake ema hovAthI prabhAvanA hetuthI upekSA karavAmAM AvatI hoya ema paNa lAgatuM nathI. kAraNa ke te mAnAmAna viSe citta ghaNuM karI udAsIna jevuM che, athavA te prakAramAM cittane vizeSa udAsIna karyuM hoya to thaI zake ema che. zabdAdi viSayo pratyenuM koI baLavAna kAraNa paNa avarodhaka hoya ema jaNAtuM nathI. kevaLa te viSayono sAyikabhAva che ema joke kahevA prasaMga nathI, tathApi temAM virasapaNuM bahapaNe bhAsI rahyuM che. udayathI paNa kyAreka maMda ruci janmatI hoya to te paNa vizeSa avasthA pAmyA prathama nAza pAme che, ane te maMda raci. vedatAM paNa AtmA khedamAM ja rahe che, eTale te ruci anAdhAra thatI jatI hovAthI baLavAna kAraNarUpa nathI. bIjA keTalAka prabhAvaka thayA che, te karatAM koI rIte vicAradazAdinuM baLavAnapaNuM paNa haze; ema lAge che ke tevA prabhAvaka puruSo Aje jaNAtA nathI, ane mAtra upadezakapaNe nAma jevI prabhAvanAe pravartatA koI jovAmAM, sAMbhaLavAmAM Ave che, temanA vidyamAnapaNAne lIdhe amane kaMI avarodhakapaNuM hoya ema paNa jaNAtuM nathI. atyAre to ATaluM lakhavAnuM banyuM che. vizeSa samAgama prasaMge ke bIje prasaMge jaNAvIzuM. A viSe tame ane zrI DuMgara jo kaMI paNa vizeSa jaNAvavA icchatA ho, to khuzIthI jaNAvazo. vaLI amArAM lakhelAM kAraNo sAva bahAnArUpa che ema vicAravA yogya nathI, eTalo lakSa rAkhajo.