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________________ 128 paribhramaNa karAyuM te karAyuM. have tenA pratyAkhyAna laIe to? vavANiyA, prathama bhAdra. suda 6, 1946 dharmecchaka bhAIo, prathama saMvatsarI ane e divasa paryata saMbaMdhImAM koI paNa prakAre tamAro avinaya, AzAtanA, asamAdhi mArA mana, vacana, kAyAnA koI paNa yogAdhyavasAyathI thaI hoya tene mATe punaH punaH kSamAvuM chuM. aMtartAnathI smaraNa karatAM evo koI kALa jaNAto nathI vA sAMbharato nathI ke je kALamAM, je samayamAM A jIve paribhramaNa na karyuM hoya, saMkalpa-vikalpanuM raTaNa na karyuM hoya, ane e vaDe 'samAdhi' na bhUlyo hoya. niraMtara e smaraNa rahyA kare che, ane e mahA vairAgyane Ape che. vaLI smaraNa thAya che ke e paribhramaNa kevaLa svacchedathI karatAM jIvane udAsInatA kema na AvI ? bIjA jIvo paratve krodha karatAM, mAna karatAM, mAyA karatAM, lobha karatAM ke anyathA karatAM te mAThuM che ema yathAyogya kAM na jANyuM ? arthAta ema jANavuM joItuM hatuM, chatAM na jANyuM e vaLI pharI paribhramaNa karavAno vairAgya Ape che. vaLI smaraNa thAya che ke jenA vinA eka paLa paNa huM nahIM jIvI zakuM evA keTalAka padArtho (strIAdika) te anaMta vAra choDatAM, teno viyoga thayAM anaMta kALa paNa thaI gayo; tathApi tenA vinA jivAyuM e kaMI thoDuM AzcaryakAraka nathI. arthAta je je veLA tevo prItibhAva karyo hato te te veLA te kalpita hato. evo prItibhAva kAM thayo ? e pharI pharI vairAgya Ape che. vaLI jenuM mukha koI kALe paNa nahIM jouM; jene koI kALe huM grahaNa nahIM ja karuM; tene ghera putrapaNe, strIpaNe, dAsapaNe, dAsIpaNe, nAnA jaMtupaNe zA mATe janmyo ? arthAta evA dveSathI evA rUpe janmavuM paDyuM ! ane tema karavAnI to icchA nahotI ! kaho e smaraNa thatAM A klezita AtmA paratve jugupsA nahIM AvatI hoya? arthAta Ave che. vadhAre zuM kahevuM ? je je pUrvanAM bhavAMtare bhrAMtipaNe bhramaNa karyuM, tenuM smaraNa thatAM have kema jIvavuM e ciMtanA thaI paDI che. pharI na ja janmavuM ane pharI ema na ja karavuM evuM draDhatva AtmAmAM prakAze che. paNa keTalIka nirupAyatA che tyAM kema karavuM ? je draDhatA che te pUrNa karavI; jarUra pUrNa paDavI e ja raTaNa che, paNa je kaMI ADuM Ave che, te kore karavuM paDe che, arthAta khaseDavuM paDe che, ane temAM kALa jAya che. jIvana cAlyuM jAya che, ene na javA devuM, jyAM sudhI yathAyogya jaya na thAya tyAM sudhI, ema draDhatA che tenuM kema karavuM ? kadApi koI rIte temAMnuM kaMI karIe to tenuM sthAna kyAM che ke jyAM jaIne rahIe ? arthAta tevA saMto kyAM che, ke jyAM jaIne e dazAmAM besI tenuM poSaNa pAmIe ? tyAre have kema karavuM ?
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________________ "game tema ho, game teTalAM duHkha veTho, game teTalA pariSaha sahana karo, game teTalA upasarga sahana karo, game teTalI vyAdhio sahana karo, game teTalI upAdhio AvI paDo, game teTalI Adhio AvI paDo, game to jIvanakALa eka samaya mAtra ho, ane dunimitta ho, paNa ema karavuM ja. tyAM sudhI he jIva! chUTako nathI." Ama nepathyamAMthI uttara maLe che, ane te yathAyogya lAge che. kSaNe kSaNe palaTAtI svabhAvavRtti nathI joItI. amuka kALa sudhI zUnya sivAya kaMI nathI joItuM; te na hoya to amuka kALa sudhI saMta sivAya kaMI nathI joItuM; te na hoya to amuka kALa sudhI satsaMga sivAya kaMI nathI joItuM; te na hoya to AryAcaraNa (Arya puruSoe karelAM AcaraNa) sivAya kaMI nathI joItuM; te na hoya to jinabhaktimAM ati zuddha bhAve lInatA sivAya kaMI nathI joItuM te na hoya to pachI mAgavAnI icchA paNa nathI. gama paDyA vinA Agama anarthakAraka thaI paDe che. satsaMga vinA dhyAna te taraMgarUpa thaI paDe che. saMta vinA aMtanI vAtamAM aMta pamAto nathI. lokasaMjJAthI lokAge javAtuM nathI. lokatyAga vinA vairAgya yathAyogya pAmavo durlabha che. "e kaMI khoTuM che ?" zuM ? paribhramaNa karAyuM te karAyuM. have tenA pratyAkhyAna laIe to ? laI zakAya. e paNa AzcaryakAraka che. atyAre e ja. pharI yogavAIe malIzuM. e ja vijJApana. vi. rAyacaMdanA yathAyogya