Rag Part 02

Author(s): Niswarth
Publisher: Parmarth Pariwar
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/032871/1

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buka naM. 11 2 ) bhAga -2 (kAmaroga, haraNa, daSTiroga) rAlakhe pate para gavAye. I - ni:svArtha

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rA | bhAga - 2 (kAmaraga, haraNa, daSTirAga) lekhaka niHsvArtha prakAzaka paramArtha parivAra

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| prAptisthAna | parama ke. saMghavI Ara. ke. meTala IMDasTrIjha, 4/e, javAhara menzana bilDIMga, grAunDa phlora, phaNasa vADI, vinaya hoTalanI bAjumAM, muMbaI - 400 004 paramabhAI : 9820441030 alpezabhAI 9867162234 rAjubhAI : 9867170852 aMkItabhAI : 9867170831

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sukRta sahabhAgI zrI sidhdhAcala miAhatIrthAdhipati zrI AdinAthAya namaH zrI saMbhavanAtha svAmIne namaH zrI padama-jIta-hIra-kaka-devendra-kaMcana-kalApUrNa-kalAprabhasUri gurUbhyo nama: adhyAtmayogI pa.pU.A.de.zrI.vi.kalApUrNasUrIzvarajI ma.sA. nA ziSyaratna pravacana prabhAvaka pa.pU.A.de.zrI.vi.pUrNacaMdrasUrIzvarajI ma.sA. nI preraNAthI sarvazreSTha tIrthAdhirAja zatruMjaya mahAtIrthe pAlItANA nagare AvelA zrI kaccha vAgaDa - sAta - covIsI jaina samAja saMcAlita zrI velajI dAmajI bhaNazAlI jaina yAtrika bhavanamAM thayela jJAnakhAtAnI upajamAMthI pustaka prakAzanano lAbha lIdho che. tenI khuba khuba anumodanA : noMdha : gRhastha A pustakanI mAlikI karatAM pUrve rU.50 jJAnakhAtAmAM jamAM karavAnAM raheze.

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mananI vAta eka jANItA sAhityakAranA jIvananI ghaTanA emanI pAsethI ja sAMbhaLI hatI, te tamArI sAthe zera karuM chuM. e sAhityakAra potAnA gharanA oTalA para dararoja savAre TUthabraza karavA besatA hatA. emanI sAthe emano pAMca varSano bhatrIjo paNa besato. baMne jaNA amathIamathI vAto kare. emanA gharanI sAme eka cabUtaro hato. e cabUtarA para roja kabUtara Ave. sAhityakAra potAnA bhatrIjAne e kabUtara batAve. kyAreka kabUtara UDIne nIce Ave eTale sAhityakAra kahe, 'jo kabUtara kevuM UDIne nIce AvyuM!" AvuM vAraMvAra banyuM. eka vakhata comAsAnA divaso hatA. cabUtarAnA pagathiyA para eka deDako Avyo hato. sAhityakAre bhatrIjAne kahyuM, "jo , AdeDako kevo sarasa che!" eTalAmAM deDako ThekaDo mArIne nIce Avyo. e joIne bhatrIjo rAjI thaIne bolyo, "aMkala, deDako kevo UDIne nIce Avyo !" sAhityakAra kahe, "deDako UDIne nIce Avyo ema na kahevAya, kUdIne nIce Avyo kahevAya...' "evuM kema? kabUtara to UDIne nIce AvatuM hatuM!' bhatrIjAne vismaya thayuM. kabUtara ane deDakAnI uparathI nIce AvavAnI eka ja ghaTanA mATe sAhityakAranI alaga-alaga rajUAta enA gaLe na UtarI. eNe pUchyuM, UDavuM kone kahevAya? sAhityakAra mUMjhAyA. chatAM jevo sUjhayo evo javAba Apyo, "jene pAMkho hoya e UDe." bhatrIjAe e vAta potAnA dimAgamAM rajisTara karI lIdhI. thoDA divasa vItyA. eka vakhata sAhityakAra lakhavA beThA hatA, tyAM emanA Tebala parathI kAgaLa UDIne nIce paDyo. bhatrIjo tyAM hAjara ja hato. e bolyo, "aMkala, juo tamAro kAgaLa kUdIne nIce Avyo...' sAhityakAre kahyuM, 'kAgaLa kUdyo na kahevAya, UDyo kahevAya.' 'paNa tame

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sAhitya , to kahetA hatA ke jene pAMkho hoya ene UcuM kahevAya...' sAhityakAre kahyuM, 'tane dhImedhIme badhI vAta samajAze.' bhatrIjAne saMtoSa na thayo, paNa e tyAMthI cAlyo gayo. vaLI thoDI divasa pachI eka vakhata bhatrIjo bahArathI doDI Avyo ane sAhityakArane pUchavA lAgyo, "aMkala, phyujhane pAMkho hoya? kema, zI vAta che?' mArI mammI kahe che ke lAITa baMdha thaI gaI che. kadAca kyUjha UDI gayo lAge che. eTale yUjha UDe to enI pAMkho kema dekhAtI nathI?' sAhityakAra pAse javAbo khUTI rahyA hatA, ane bhatrIjo rojaroja navA savAlo laIne Avato hato. eka vakhata to eNe hada ja karI nAkhI. bahArathI AvIne eNe pUchyuM, "aMkala ! hamaNAM eka bhAI kahetA hatA ke gaNapatinI mUrti dUdha pIe che evI aphavA UDI che. to aphavAne paNa pAMkho che ke jethI e UDe che?' vicAravA jevuM che ke eka UDavuM kriyApada sAMgopAMga zikhavADavuM agharuM che, to vizvavyApI rAgane samajAvavo to kevo agharo hoya e sahaja samajAya evuM che. paNa zAstrakAra bhagavaMtoe vizvavyApI rAgane kAmarAga-sneharAgadaSTirAga vagere mAdhyamathI khUba sarasa rIte zAstromAM samajAvyo che. e rAgane gurUbhagavaMtae lokabhogya zailImAM suMdara rIte samajAvavAno prayatna karyo che. tethI paramArtha parivAra sadAya emano RNI raheze. A pustaka ApanI jIvanadizA badalavAmAM upayogI thaze to khUba AnaMda thaze. jinAjJAviruddha kaMI paNa chapAyuM hoya to kSamApArthI chIe ane dhyAna doravA namra vinaMtI sAthe... aMkita dozI, hADecA paramArtha parivAra

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anukramaNikA 4 prakaraNa - 8 .... 4 prakaraNa - 9 ......... 4 prakaraNa - 10..... 4 prakaraNa - 11 ...... * prakaraNa - 12 ....... 4 prakaraNa - 13 ... 4 prakaraNa - 14... 4 prakaraNa - 15.................

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH prakaraNa-8 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNau / daSTirAgastu pApIyAnuM duruccheda: satAmapi / vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka ApaNI vAta cAlatI hatI ke ajJAna ApaNo mahAzatru che. ajJAna(mithyAjJAna)thI rAga pedA thAya che. koI vakhata koIne chAtImAM duHkhAvo thAya ane lAge ke bAyapAsa karAvavAnI jarUra che. bAyapAsa karAvyA pachI khabara paDe ke du:khAvo vAyuno hato, to kevI upAdhi thAya ! ajJAna (mithyAjJAna) bhrama pedA kare che. ene bhrama zuM thayo ke hArTano humalo Avyo. kharekharavAyune kAraNe chAtI-kamara, mAthuM dukhatuM hatuM. | DaoNkTaro paNa Aje AvAM kaubhAMDo calAvatA hoya che. pezanTanAM svajano kahe ke bAyapAsa karAvavI paDaze, to DaoNkTaro vicAraze : bhale to bAyapAsa karI nAkho, ApaNuM zuM jAya che? ghaNI vakhata praoNpara nidAna thatuM ja nathI. riporTa karAve toya riporTamAM pakaDAtuM ja nathI ke tAva maleriyAno che. kyAreka ethI UlaTuM bane che. riporTamAM Ave maleriyA ane maleriyA hoya ja nahi evuM paNa bane. himAlaya pUrepUro baraphathI AcchAdita che. himAlaya para jayAM-jyAM najara karazo tyAM sarvatra barapha ja barapha dekhAze. tevI rIte sAdhu-saMto ane dhArmika loko sivAya olamosTa AkhuM jagata kAmarAgathI grasta che. dareka jagAe kAmarAganuM ekacakrI zAsana che. mArkeTamAM jozo to kAmarAganAM sAdhano sivAya kaMI dekhAze? ekaeka indriyanA bhogo mATe mANasa maraNAMta kaSTo sahana kare che! cora banyomisTara InDiyA ekacoranI vAta che. rAjagRhImAM ghaNI vakhata te corI karI jato, paNa pakaDAto nahi. eka vAra e cora jugAra ramavA beTho. eka dUSaNa hoya enI sAthe anya dUSaNonI AkhI phoja hoya. jugAramAM kevuM moTA bhAge loko hArI

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jAya, kyAreka jItI paNa jAya. pelo cora jItyo ane ene udAratA AvI. jItelA paisA garIbone ApI dIdhA. saMsAramAM vicitra kelakyulezana cAle che. tamAre ahIMthI jAtrAe javuM hoya to paisAnI gaNatarI thAya, paNa govA, mAtherAna ke mahAbaLezvara javuM hoya to keTalo kharco thAya enuM kelakyulezana thAya? guru mahArAja pAse tamAre bhaNavA ke vyAkhyAnamAM javuM hoya, paNa bAIka na hoya ke bagaDeluM hoya to kelakyulezana thAya ne sIdhuM? 100 rUpiyA TekSImAM AvavA-javAnA thAya. enA karatAM ghare sAmAyika karI lauM to? eTale ahIM sIdhuM kelakyulezana Ave che. vaLI tame kevA? kamAo eTalA vAparI nAkho. tame moTA bhAge dAna ja na karI zako. A core jugAramAM kamAyeluM dAnamAM vAparI nAkhyuM. pachI ene bhUkha lAgI. have pAse paisA nahotA. joke enI pAse eka vidyA hatI. eka aMjana hatuM e evuM ke tame AMjI do to tame adazya thaI jAo, Inavijhibala thaI jAo. e rAjamahela pAsethI nIkaLato hato. eNe A AMjaNa lagADI dIdhuM ane Inavijhibala thaI, rAjamahelamAM ghUsIne masta bhojana karI lIdhuM. peTa bharAI gayuM. eka vakhata rAjamahelanuM bhojana cAkhyuM eTale eno TesTa AvI gayo. jabaradasta khAvAnuM maLyuM eTale ene lAlaca lAgI. tene bIjuM koI bhojana have bhAvatuM nathI, tethI roja rAjamahelamAM jamavA javA lAgyo. rAjamahelamAM rAjAnA bhojananI vyavasthA alaga hoya. AcArya mahArAjanuM paNa evuM hoya. arthanI dezanA ApatA hoya ane zAsananI javAbadArIonuM vahana karatA hovAthI AcAryo mATenI gocarI alaga hoya. kema ke emane zAsananI ghaNI javAbadArIo saMbhALavAnI hoya tethI duzmana paNa ghaNA hoya. emanI gocarImAM koI jhera bheLavI nAkhe evAM kAraNosara AcArya mahArAja sAhebanI vyavasthA alaga hoya. cora rojaroja rAjA sAthe Inavijhibala rIte khAI jAya. rAjA divasedivase dubaLo thavA maMDyo. sau pUche che rAjAne ke, "thayuM zuM che? tame ATalA badhA dubaLA kema thaI gayA? tamane kAMI Tenzana che, praoNblema che, zarIramAM roga che?" maMtrIe pUchyuM to kahe, "zI vAta karuM, huM bhUkha hoya enA karatAM thALImAM Dabala bhojana lauM chuM, paNa e kyAM cAlyuM jAya che enI kaMI

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khabara nathI paDatI. vadhAre mAgatAM zarama Ave che. pIrasanArane paNa thAya ke A zuM kare che?" maMtrI baDo catura hato. koI vyakti che evI je rAjAnI sAthe besIne badhuM khAI jAya che. paNa ene pakaDavo kevI rIte ? maMtrIe daravAje thoDAMka sUkAM pattAM goThavI dIdhAM. koI Inavijhibala mANasa pAMdaDAM para paga mUkIne cAlaze eTale avAjathaze ane khabara paDI jaze. pachI cora Avyo. AMkhamAM AMjaNa lagADIne pote Inavijhibala thaI gayo. 'misTara inDiyA' lAla cazmAMthI dekhAto hato, paNa A cora to koI rIte dekhAto nahoto eTale maMtrIo e tyAM sUkAM pattAM daravAjA pAse mUkI dIdhAM. enA para koI paNa mANasano paga paDe ne eTale kaca kaca avAja Ave. core enTrI mArI. pattAMno avAja Avyo. je rUmamAM khAvAnuM hatuM e rUmamAM badhA beThA. rUmamAM cora pesatAM ja rUmanA badhA daravAjA baMdha karyA ane dhUpa cAlu karyo. evo dhUpa karyo ke zvAsa laI na zakAya ane gUMgaLAmaNa thAya. corane dhumADAnA kAraNe AMkhamAMthI pANI nIkaLyuM eTale aMjana sApha thaI gayuM. cora vijhibala thaI gayo ane pakaDAI gayo. tamArI pAse paNa eka aMjana che - paisA nAmanuM, viTAmina "ema" nAmanuM. tame rastA para eka pinkA khAI lIdho hoya, aMjana hatuM tamArI pAse. gharanAMne thAya ke Ane bhUkha kema nathI lAgatI? tamane pUche ke, "kema ATaluM ochuM khAya che?' tame kaho cho ke, "bhUkha lAgatI nathI." paNa tamAruM aMjana kyAreka pakaDAI jAya. tame bahAra khAtA ho ane koI joI jAya eTale ene rahasya samajAI jAya. roja bahAra barAbara jhApaTIne Ave che eTale bhUkha lAgatI nathI. cora paNa pakaDAI gayo. rAjAno guno karyo. rAjAnuM anna corI karavA gayo. have enI barAbaranI hAlata bagaDaze. ene phAMsInI sajA thaI zake. tame vicAra karo, eka khAvAnA kAraNe phAMsInI sajA maLe to bhale maLe ! A che kAmarAga. corane khabara hatI ke jo huM pakaDAI jaIza to bhAre panizamenTa maLaze. cora haMmezAM hoziyAra hoya. eno jJAnAvaraNIyano kSayopazama sAro hoya. cora loko pAkiTa mAre to koIne khabara paNa na paDe. e loko pAse viziSTa kaLA ane AvaData hoya. jJAnAvaraNIyano kSayopazama sAro hoya to - 2 3 4

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ja A kaLA Ave. eTale corane eTalI khabara to paDe che ke huM rAjAnuM bhojana khAI jAuM chuM eTale rAjAne thatuM to haze ke bhojana kyAM jAya che? TenzanamAM AvIne maMtrIone vAta karaze. maMtrIo to badhA smArTa hoya. huM pakaDAI jaIza to mAruM zuM thaze? chatAM ene Dara nathI lAgato. corane jema rAjAno ane maMtrIono ane sipAIono Dara nathI lAgato ema ApaNaneya paralokano Dara nathI lAgato. pANInA eka biMdumAM agaNita jIvo che. 790 kroDa, pa6 lAkha94 hajAra 150yojanathI adhika 1 gAu, 1515dhanuSya, 60 aMgula jeTaluM jaMbUdIpanuM kSetraphaLa che. ATalA moTA jaMbUdvIpane kabUtarothI chalochala bharo to keTalAM kabUtara emAM samAI zake ? enA karatAMya pANInA eka TIMpAmAM vadhAre jIva che. tamane voTarapArkamAM nahAtI vakhate Dara kyAM lAge che ke ATalA badhA jIvone mArIza to mAruM zuM thaze? je thavuM hoya e thAya mane kaMI praoNblema nathI. brahmadatta cakravartI hato. enuM 700 varSa AsapAsanuM AyuSya hatuM. enI aMdAje 36 karoDa 28 lAkha 80 hajAra miniTa thAya. e samaya daramyAna eNe je bhoga bhogavyA, enA kAraNe e marIne sAtamI narakamAM gayo. enuM sAtamI narakanuM AyuSya 33 sAgaropama. cakravartInA jIvananI bhogamaya eka miniTa sAme narakanAM vedanAmaya lAkho varSo paNa ochAM paDe. sAtaso varSabhoga bhogavyA emAM aDadhI jiMdagI to sUvAmAM gaI haze. eTale sAtaso varSanA aDadhA - sADA traNaso varSa bhogavavA maLyuM ane sAme sajA 33 sAgaropama. asaMkhya varSo barAbara eka palyopama, evA dasa koTAkoTI palyopama barAbara eka sAgaropama ane evA 33 sAgaropama sudhI ene sajA bhogavavAnI AvI! broDa mAInDeDabano Adhunika janapravAha kahe che ke broDa mAInDeDa thAo. ema mAre tamane kahevuM che tame thoDA broDamAInDeDa thAva, nero mAInDeDana thAva. nAhavAnuM maLyuM to navAI lIdhuM, hoTalamAM khAvAnuM maLe to khAI lIdhuM. pachI e baTeTA hoya ke kaMI paNa hoya. kadI vicAro cho ke e dasa-paMdara miniTa khAvAnI majAnI sajA

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kevI maLaze? ATalAM varSomAM kAmarAgane lIdhe ApaNe keTalAM duHkhI thaIe chIe, ekeeka rAga ApaNane keTalo herAna kare che ! ApaNe vicAravA mATe paNa taiyAra nathI. A eka kAmarAga mRtyu apAve che. A je bahAra khAya che emane phUDa poijhana thAya che. keTalAya marI jatA haze, paNa nyUjhamAM AvatuM nahi hoya. keTalA herAna thavAnuM ! chatAM khAvuM eTale khAvuM! hoTalomAM kevI rIte raMdhAtuM haze? loTa kevI rIte baMdhAto haze? bekarImAM breDa banatA hoya emAM je nakhAtuM hoya ke loTa pIlavAno hoya emAM badho pasIno bhaLato hoya. e badhuM mane cAlaze. mane bhAjIpAuM vagara cAlaze nahi. A badhAM kAraNe ApaNe keTalA badhA duHkhI thatA hoIe chIe ! jemanA jIvanamAM ekalo kAmarAga haze, bIjA neharAga vagere nahi hoya - e loko atyaMta tAmasI ane svArthI haze. e lokone garaja haze to ApaNI pAchaLa paDI jaze ane garaja pUrI thaI gayA pachI ApaNI sAmeya nahi jue. moTA bhAganA lokonI jiMdagI A kAmarAgamAM ja taNAyA karatI hoya che. be vocamena vAto karatA hatA. eka pUche che, "kyA karatA haipUrA dina yahAM ?' bIjo kahe, "Akho divasa beTho rahuM. ahIM bIjuM zuM karuM? paNa hA, mane kaMTALo nathI Avato. kAraNa ke ahIM liphaTamAM sIsITIvI kemerA lAgelA che. liphaTamAM koI paNa mANasa jAya pachI e jovAnI majA Ave. kAraNa ke liphaTamAM sAme ja arIso che. koI eka ja vyakti hoya to liphTano daravAjo baMdha karIne arIsAmAM joI avanavA cenacALA kare. eka jaminiTatyAM UbhA rahevAnuM hoya, eTalAmAM to kaMI ne kaMI nakharA kare. mAthuM joze, moTuM joze... e badhuM mane skrIna para dekhAya. sAthe koI hoya to vAto kare, paNa ekalo mANasa zuM kare? dUdhavALo bhaiyo Ave e paNa kena nIce mUke ane vALa sarakhA kare. ahIM upAzrayamAM daravAjA pAse arIso mUko to nIce jatI vakhate badhA potAnuM moTuM jotA jaze. are, bhAI ! tuM ahIM tAruM moDhuM dhoIne to Avyo

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hato have tAre ghare ja javAnuM che. pachI moDhuM jovuM keTaluM jarUrI? tamane lAgaze ke sAheba, tamArI dRSTi bahu TUMkI che, tame bahu nero mAInDeDa cho. tame amAruM pharavAnuM juo cho. paNa atyAre amArI uMmara che. jeTaluM enjoya karAya eTaluM karI laIe. lagna pachI badhI risponsibiliTIjha nibhAvavAnI Avaze. eTale atyAre pharAya eTaluM pharI laIe ne!" * keTalI majA, keTalI sajA? mAre basa eTaluM ja pUchavuM che ke A pharavAnI majA keTalI? ane e pharavAnI pachI maLanArI sajA keTalI? jemAM sajA moTI ane majA thoDI hoya evo khoTano sodo koNa kare ? tame ghaNI vakhata kaho cho ke chellA cAra mahinAthI bahAra gAma nathI gayo. bombemAM ja chuM. cAra mahinAnA soLeka ravivAra emAMthI ekeya ravivAra rakhaDyA vagara na rahyo hoya, chatAM kaheze ke huM to kaMTALI gayo ! pAMca indriyanAM sukho na maLe e loko duHkhI... kAmarAgamAM tamane koI maLyuM ane pAMca indriyane anukULa lAgyuM to e phrenDa. tamArI pAMca indriyonA bhoga mATe ekadama anukULa ane phrI che, enI pAse gADI che, rakhaDavAmAM kaMpanI maLaze to e be miniTamAM phrenDa thaI jAya. enA mATe lAMbA ke gADha paricayanI jarUra nahi. sneharAga evI rIte nahi thAya. lAMbA paricaya pachI sneharAga thaze. sneharAga jIvanamAMthI kADhavo hoya eNe lAMbo paricaya na karavo joIe. satata ceTiMga karavAthI lAMbo paricaya thAya che. tame be pAMca mahine ceTiMga karo to tamAre eTalI badhI phrenDazipa jAmaze nahi. bhagavAne amane sAdhuone kahyuM ke tamAre koIno gADha paricaya karavAno nahi. koI Ave to jhAjhI vAta nahi karavAnI. karavI ja paDe to dharmanI vAta karavAnI. saMsAranI vAta karavAnI ja nahi. tame kadAca AvuM na karI zakazo. eTale tamArA mATe sneharAga kADhavo agharo che. lAgaNInuM baMdhana jaladI toDI na zakAya. tamAre mahenata vadhAre karavI paDaze. sneharAga keTaluM balidAna apAve ane kevA khela karAve e mATe ApaNe IlAcIkumAranI vAta karatA hatA. naTakanyAno bApa IlAcIkumAra samakSa kanDizana kare che ke, "tAre naTabanIne, naTanA vividha khela karIne rAjAne rijhavavo paDaze. rAjA khuza thaIne tane InAma Ape pachI ja huM mArI chokarI

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tane paraNAvIza. Ama karavA jatAM kyAMka tuM uparathI paDyo ane hADakAM bhAMgyAM to mArI chokarI nA paNa pADIde." khANIpINI, raheNIkaraNI badhuM badalIne tAre naTa thavAnuM. amAro Akho samAja tane eksepTa karavo joIe. tAre badhI kaLA batAvIne rAjAne rijhavavAno ane emAM tuM paDI na jAya - hemakhema rahe to ja mArI chokarIne paraNAvuM. vicArajo, naTakanyA rUpavAna che. naTasamAjanA anya naTone paNa enI sAthe lagna karavAnI icchA hoya e samajI zakAya che. je naTone potAnA saMtAna sAthe A naTakanyA paraNAvavAnI icchA hoya te naTo ilAcIkumAranI nabaLAIo ane maryAdAo gote, e paNa svAbhAvika che. evA naTo pAsethI IlAcIkumAra naTakalAmAM pravINa thayo che evuM grIna signala levuM keTaluM agharuM che ! eTale ja abhimanyunA sAta koThA karatAM paNa agharA koThA ApyA. IlAcIkumAra kahe, 'tamArI tamAma kanDizansa Dana. badhuM svIkArI lIdhuM. have zarU thayuM - e phora epala, bI phora bola. tamAre amerikA javuM haze to IMgliza bolavuM ja paDaze. pacIsa varSa sudhI iMglizamAM bolavAnI phaluansI nathI AvI, paNa have lAgyuM ke iMgliza bolavuM ja paDaze eTale iMgliza spIkiMganA klAsa joIna karyA. IMgliza zIkhatAM kyAreka hAtha dukhI jAya, kyAreka garadana maraDAI jAya, kaMI ne kaMI thAya. e badhuMya maMjUra. ApaNe AjanA yuganA IlAcIkumAra ja chIe ne! paNa nA, hajI vAta adhUrI che. * IlAcIkumAranI AgaLanI kathA IlAcIkumAre have rAjAne rijhavavAno che. e mATe eNe naTanA khela karavAnA hatA. maMDapa baMdhAvyo hato. hajAronI medanI jamAM hatI. rAjA upasthita hato. IlAcIkumAra paNa phaoNrmamAM che. basa, A mArI pahelI maeNca barAbara thaI jAya to mArAM lagna thaI zakaze. pachI huM sukhI ja sukhI. pachI duHkhanuM to koI nAmanizAna nahi rahe! eNe prathama paraphormansa karavAnuM hatuM. paheluM paraphormansa kevuM hoya? virATane kepTana banyA pachI securI mAravI ja hoya, ema IlAcIkumAre paNa pahelo paraphormansa dhamAkedAra zarU karyo. eNe doraDA para nAcavAnuM zarU karyuM. naTakanyAe nIce Dhola vagADavAnuM cAlu karyuM.

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rAjAnI najara nartakI para paDI. enuM rUpa joIne rAjA mohita thaI gayo. rAjAne upara khela karatA IlAcIkumAramAM rasa ja nathI. e to basa, A kanyAne ja joyA kare che. naTa eTaluM badhuM nAcyo ke loko ApharIna thaI gayA. eNe avanavI kaLAo batAvI. pachI e nIce Utayo. rAjA jayAM sudhI eka rUpiyo na Ape tyAM sudhI koI prajA na ApI zake. ApaNe tyAM vyAkhyAnamAMthI ma. sA. jyAM sudhI sarvamaMgala karIne UbhA na thAya, tyAM sudhI ApaNe UbhA thavAya nahi. ema ahIM rAjA jayAM sudhI InAma na Ape tyAM sudhI bIjA loko paNa na Ape. have rAjAe InAma ApyuM nahi kema ke eNe kAMI joyuM ja nahotuM. IlAcIkumAra bIjI vakhata doraDA para caDhyo. aneka aphalAtUna kaLAo kare che. kintu rAjAnuM dhyAna hajIya pelI naTakanyAmAM ja che. rAjAe A vakhate paNa kaMI ApyuM nahi. kahe, "me barAbara joyuM ja nathI. mane jarA UMgha AvI gaI. pharI vAra karane..." IlAcIkumAra trIjI vakhata doraDA para caDhIne khela zarU kare che. thAkIne Utayo tyAre Akho nIcovAI gayo hato. zarIra thAkI gayuM hatuM. paNa rAjA kahe che, "bhAI, tuM bahu jaladI-jaladI pUruM karI nAkhe che. jarA barAbara batAva.' have cothI vAra doraDA para caDhavAnuM thayuM. rAta pUrepUrI vItI cUkI hatI. dUrathI pUrvamAM sUryodaya dekhAto hato. hatAza IlAcIkumArane thayuM have huM zuM karIza? rAjA khuza nahi thAya to? ane rAjA kevo lobhiyo che! e mane InAma ApavA nathI mAMgato ke zuM? chevaTe e upara caDhIne rAjA tarapha jue che. rAjA zuM kare che? enuM dhyAna kema mArA khela tarapha jatuM nathI? eNe joyuM to rAjAnI najara pelI chokarI para hatI. IlAcIkumArane thayuM nakkI rAjA paNa A naTakanyAmAM InTaresTeDa che. jo Ama hoya to mArAM lagna A naTakanyA sAthe thavAM asaMbhava che. rAjAnI niyatamAM khoTa lAge che. eTale ja e mane InAma nathI Apato. huM thAkIne doraDA parathI paDIne marI jAuM to nartakI potAne maLe evuM rAjA icchI rahyo lAge che. ene doraDA para ragheraghe vicAra Ave che, dhikkAra che mane. eka naTakanyA mATe meM mArAM mA-bApa choDyAM, kuLa choDyuM, mArA kuLanA AcAro choDyA, mArI badhI maryAdAo choDI.

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e doraDA para para AvA vicAre caDhelo che, sAthesAthe DAnsa paNa cAle eka mahArAja sAheba dekhAya che. emanI samakSa eka suhAgaNa strI hAthamAM lADavA vahorAvI rahI che. mahArAja sAheba nIcI najare vadhu vahoravA mATe inkAra kare che. suhAgaNa suMdarI vadhu vahoravA mATe Agraha kare che, paNa mahArAja sAheba enI sAme paNa jotA nathI. A tarapha rAjA pelI naTaDI sAme tAkI rahyo hato. be drazya hatAM. eka tarapha rAjA ane eka tarapha mahArAjA. ene thayuM dhanya che A sAdhuone ! emaNe kAmane kevI jItyo che ! AvI rUparUpanI aMbAra strI AgrahapUrvaka lADavA vahorAvI rahI che to paNa levA mATe e taiyAra nathI. jayAre huM A naTakanyA pAchaLa kevo gAMDo thayo chuM A vicAramAM caDhatA-caDhatA camatkAra thaI gayo... thoDI vAra pahelAM vikAronA vamaLamAM taNAtA IlAcIkumArane vicAranI dizA badalAtAM je kevaLajJAna thaI gayuM. mahotsava maMDAyo. devatAo padhAryA. dezanA prAraMbhAI. naTano khela pUro thaI gayo ane dezanA zarU thaI. IlAcIkumAra have badhAne samajAve che ke A bhavamAM kharekhara karavA jevuM zuM che ? badhI vAto sarasa rIte samajAvI. badhA padArtho samajAvyA. saMsAranI asAratA samajAvI. rAjA pUche che, "Apane A strI para kevI rIte anurAga thayo?' to kahe, "pUrvabhavanA kAmarAganA abhyAsathI A bhavamAM enA para mane tIvra anurAga thayo. ame baMne pUrvabhavamAM patipatnI hatAM. ame baMnee dIkSA lIdhI hatI. mArI patnIne kuLanuM ghamaMDa hatuM. dIkSA lIdhA pachI paNa bIjAM sAdhu-sAdhvI sAthe eNe evo vyavahAra karyA. e kAraNe te A naTakuLamAM utpanna thaI. huM vaNikakuLamAM. ene jotA ja pUrvabhavanA anurAgane kAraNe mane enA para rAga thayo. kramazaH Aje A kevaLajJAna thayuM.' IlAcIkumArane kevaLajJAna thayuM hatuM eTale rAjAne badhI vAta karI. tyAM upasthita rANIoe vicAryuM ke amArA rAjAya A strI para mohita thayA? kharekhara, kAmarAga bahu bhayaMkara che. have rAjAnI rANIone kevaLajJAna thayuM. A vArtA sAMbhaLatAM pelI naTaDI-nartakIne paNa kevaLajJAna thaI gayuM. rAjA badhuM joyA kare che. chevaTe ene paNa kevaLajJAna thaI gayuM. eTale aDadho kalAka pahelAM

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badhA eka khela mATe bhegA thayA hatA. e khelamAM ekAeka A zuM thaI gayuM kaMI khabara ja na paDI. ahIM ApaNe samajavAnuM che ke sneharAga keTalo tyAga karAve che. ApaNe jIvanamAM sneharAgane toDavAno che. sneharAgane toDavA zuM karavuM paDaze? cira paricaya nahi karavAno. kAmarAgane toDavA Tipsa ApI ke pAMca indriyanA anukULa viSayo choDo. rAtrIbhojana karavuM nathI. hoTalamAM javuM nathI, navAM kapaDAMno moha karavo nathI, derAsara-upAzrayamAM caMpala paheryA vagara AvIza. A rIte kAmarAgane toDavAno che. paraMtu tamArI hAlata kevI che e jANo cho? tophAnI chokarAo uMdarane pUMchaDIthI bAMdhe pachI thoDI DhIla Ape eTale uMdara dUra jAya. pAchI TIcakI ApI kheMcI le. tema kAmarAganA tyAgamAM paNa tamAruM evuM ja thAya che. aSADha suda 14thI saMvatsarI sudhI tamAro kAmarAga nahivat dekhAze, paNa jevI bhAdaravA suda-5 AvI ke tamAro kAmarAga phuphADA mArIne pradIpta thaI jaze. oLImAM paNa tamAro kAmarAga jarA osarI jaze. Aso vada-1nA pAcho beTho thaze. tamAruM AvuM ja cakra cAlyA kare che. * dRSTirAga sauthI moTo guMDo! have ApaNe dRSTirAgane samajIzuM. daSTirAga bhayaMkara che. kAmarAga pApa baMdhAve, sneharAga enAthI ochuM pApa baMdhAve ane dRSTirAga to evo ke kyAreka puNya paNa baMdhAve ! to pachI ene choDavAno kema? e bhayaMkara kema? daSTirAga anubaMdha to pApano ja pADaze. kAmarAga kharAba che. enA karatAM vadhAre kharAba sneharAga che. sneharAga karatAM vadhAre kharAba daSTirAga ! tamAma rAga guMDAo ja che. kAmarAga tamArI galIno TaporI. sneharAga AkhA eriyAno TaporI ane dA TarAga sauthI moTo guMDo. tame sAikala barAbara pArka na karI hoya to galIno TaporI havA kADhI nAkhe. ethI vadhAre kaMI na kare. bahubahu to be-pAMca rUpiyA cApANInA ApI devAnA eTale badhuM solva thaI jAya. eriyAnA moTA guMDA che. emane vAra-tahevAre pAMcaso-hajAra ApavAnA. kyAreka phaMDaphALoya ApavAno. draSTirAga khataranAka che. e ATalAthI calAvaze nahi. evA dRSTirAgane ApaNe choDavAno che. -> 10 -

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-9 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNI ! dRSTirAgatu pApIyAnuM durucchedaH satAmapi / vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka comAsu rogacALo laIne Ave, evI rIte ajJAna mohalaIne Ave che. mohathI rAga ane dveSa pedA thAya che. alabatta, keTalIka bAbatonuM ajJAna hoya toya AtmAne koI nukasAna thatuM nathI. jema ke amitAbha baccana eka philmamAM kAma karavAnA keTalA paisA le che, e kaI rIte DAyaloga yAda rAkhe che? A badhA ajJAnanuM samAdhAna ApaNane maratAM sudhI na maLe to cAle, kintu eka ajJAnamAM moTo praoNblema che. e ajJAna eTale huM koNa? mAruM koNa ? AmAM 'huM eTale AtmA. ene badale ApaNe huM eTale zarIra samajyA. jANe indriya ane mana eTale ApaNe ! AkhI vAta ja khoTI samajI beThA. mane duHkha na thavuM joIe eTale ApaNe samajI lIdhuM ke zarIrane, indriyane ane manane duHkha na thavuM joIe. zarIra, indriya ane manane duHkha na thAya e mATe ApaNe nakkI karyuM ke mAre eka ghara joIze. ghara mane varasAda, taDako, ThaMDI vagerethI bacAvaze. rahevA mATe dasa bAya dasanI rUma Inapha che, paNa indriya tamane kaheze ghara vizALa hovuM joIe, jethI saMkaDAza na lAge. ghara sIphesavALuM hovuM joIe jethI havA-ujAsa sarasa Ave. gharano luka paNa vaibhavazALI joIe, evIevI DimAnTsa indriya taraphathI AvI. zarIranI DimAnDa bhojana che. bhojanamAM roTalI Apo, khIcaDI Apo kaMI paNa cAle. paNa indriya vacce AvIne kaheze ke, "sAdI khIcaDI nahi cAle, vaghArelI joIze. emAM vividha masAlA nAkhelA hovA joIe." AjakAla evA masAlA AvyA che ke emAM nonaveja Ave. naoNnaveja Ave to bhale Ave, mArI rasanenindriya (jIbha)ne caTAkA paDavA joIe! eka jagAe vAMcyuM hatuM ke eka ajaina bahena rakSAbaMdhananA avasare enA bhAIne kahe che ke, "bhAI ! te Aja sudhI indriyabahenane sAcavI che, -- 11 -

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evI ja rIte mane paNa lAIphaTAIma sAcavaje." zarIrane kaMI paNa vAnagI khAvA Apo to peTa bharAI jAya, paNa indriyanI DimAnDa evI che ke phAIva sTAra hoTalamAM javuM che, to e tyAM laI jaze. IndriyabahenanI pAchaLa bhAI kevo pAgala ? bahenanI DimAnDa thAya pachI gameteTale dUra javAnuM hoya ke gameteTalo kharca thavAno hoya topaNa e karaze. kema ke eNe Indriyabahena sAthe evI rakSAbaMdhana karI che ke have mAre kyAreya A bahenane duHkhI karavAnI nathI! ghaNA loko kahe che, "sAheba, mAre zarIranI-indriyanI badhI DimAnDa pUrI thaI jAya evuM che. amArA ghare roja pAMcaso-hajAra rUpiyAnAM phUTalAvIne khAIe chIe. amane koI praoNblema nathI. praoNblema e che ke mArI sAsu mane vAraMvAra saMbhaLAve che: tArA bApanA ghare teM zuM joyuM hatuM? ahIM AvIne tuM phATI che. AnA karatAM huM koI garIba gharamAM paraNI hota to sAruM !' ene zarIranI, indriyanI badhI DimAsa pUrI thAya che, paNa mananI DimAnDa pUrI nathI thatI. sAsu-naNaMda vagere maheNAM mAre che. huM duHkhI chuM. AtmA kyAre duHkhI thAya e ApaNe samajatA nathI. AtmA rAga ane dveSathI duHkhI thAya. tuM duHkhI rAga ane dveSanA kAraNe che, nahi ke sAsu-naNaMdanA kAraNe. ene samajavA mATe ApaNe kAmarAga, sneharAga ane dRSTirAga samajavA paDaze. kAmarAgane kAraNe durdazA eka vAra zreNika mahArAjA patnI calaNA sAthe jharUkhAmAM beThA hatA. aSADhI mahino hato. jharamara-jharamara varasAda varasato hato. vIjaLI paNa camakatI hatI. madhyarAtrino samaya hato. celaNAe vIjaLInA ujAsamAM eka mANasane nadImAMthI lAkaDAM pakaDato joyo. e pUche che, "tamArA rAjyamAM AvI durdazA kema? tamArA rAjayamAM to sau sukhI hovA joIe.' ahIM patipatnIno rilezana paNa jojo. tame pati-patnI ekAMtamAM zAMtithI beThAM ho ane bIjAnI ciMtA karo to zuM thAya? "tame mane to bilakula TAIma ApatA nathI, tamane mArI kAMI ja paDI nathI ane A ajANyA garIba mANasanI ciMtA tame karo cho?' AvuM kazuM calaNA kahetI nathI. UlaTuM calaNAne karuNA UpajI. kahe che, "tamArA rAjyamAM prajAnI AvI hAlata? ene rAjasabhAmAM -> 12 H

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bolAvIne pUcho ke tane zo problema che? tuM kema AvI tophAnI varasAdI rAte, vahetI nadImAMthI lAkaDAM pakaDavAnI mahenata kare che ?' bIje divase ene rAjadarabAramAM bolAvIne pUche che, "tArI zI jarUrata che, bhAI? tuM kema ATalo badho herAna thAya che?' e mANasa bolyo, "khAsa kaMI nahi. mAre tyAM be baLada che e be baLadanAM cAra zIMgaDAMmAMthI traNa to thaI gayAM che, eka banAvavAnuM bAkI che enA mATe huM mahenata karuM chuM...!! oha ATalo nAnakaDo ja problema che? bola, tAre keTalA paisA joIe? rAjabhaMDAramAMthI hamaNAM ja ApI dauM...' zreNika rAjAe kahyuM. e to tame pote ja mArA ghare AvIne juo ane enI velyu karo tyAre khabara paDe..." rAjA enA ghare gayo ane joyuM to sonAnA be baLada hatA. emanAM ziMgaDAM ratnothI maDhelAM hatAM. daravAjA kholatAMnI sAthe ja e ratnonA jhagamagATathI rUmajhaLahaLI UThyo. ekaeka kImatI ratna! nadInA kinAre lAkaDAM vINato e AdamI eTale mammaNa zeTha! haribhadrasUrijI mahArAjanA vakhatamAM eka zrAvake dIvAlamAM hIro lagADyo hato. eno prakAza eTalo badho ke haribhadrasUrijI mahArAja enA prakAzamAM rAtre graMtho lakhI zakatA. thoDAM varSa pahelAM pAMtrIsa karoDanA hIrAnuM opzana hatuM. emAM enTrI-phI karoDa rUpiyA hatI. e hIrAno be-cAra phUTa sudhI prakAza Ave. evA hIrA zaMkhezvara-pAlitANAnA jinAlayamAM bhagavAnanA kapALa para lagADyA hoya to kevI utkRSTa zAsanaprabhAvanA thAya ! paNa tamane badhAne Tenzana thAya ke corAI jaze to? mukeza aMbANIne tyAM keTalI gADIo che? keTalI kImatI sAmagrIo che? enuM kaMI corAtuM nathI. ApaNe derAsaramAM lAvavAnuM hoya tyAre corIno bhaya lAge. sapaoNjha, pAMca mahinA sudhI rahyuM pachI corAI gayuM, to e daramyAna jeTalA lokoe darzana karyA eTalo to phAyado kharo ja ne ! Ameya e nAzavaMta ja che ne ! alabatta, carAvuM na joIe ane - 13 -

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ApaNe enI pUrI kALajI rAkhavI joIe. chatAM corAI gayuM to pApa thoDuM lAge ? tame derAsara banAvo ane koI kahe bhUkaMpamAM tUTI jaze to? evI dahezatathI derAsara na banAvo evuM karAya? banAvo. jeTalo vakhata sudhI rahyuM, jeTaluM rakSaNa karI zakAze eTaluM karazuM ane tUTI gayuM topaNa zuM? ApaNA pramAdathI tUTe to ja ApaNane pApa lAge. AvuM jo saMvigna gItArtho ekamate kahe topaNa tamAro jIva ATalA moMghA DAyamaMDa bhagavAnanA tilaka para lagADavAmAM cAle? zreNika rAjAe mammaNa zeThane tyAM je mAhola joyo, je sicuezana joI to udgAra sarI paDyA: 'imposibala !" pachI pAse UbhelI vAIphane kahe che, "A mANasanI tulanAe to ApaNe sAva daridra chIe ! ApaNo bharyobharyo samRddha rAjakoza sAva khAlI karI nAkhIe topaNa A baLadanuM eka ziMgaDuMya na thAya !' eTale mammaNane sIdhuM ja pUchyuM ke, 'tuM A baLadanuM trIjuM ziMgaDuM kevI rIte karIza? mArI ToTala saMpatti tane ApI dauM topaNa A trIjuM ziMgaDuM thavuM paoNsibala nathI. to tuM kevI rIte meneja karIza?' mammaNa zeTha kahe che, "mArA dIkarAo vahANavaTuM kare che. e phUlaTAima jaoNba kare che. ame eka sekanDa paNa vyartha veDaphatAM nathI. (Ameya e jamAnAmAM vaoNTsepa, phesabUka, TviTara vagere kyAM hatuM?) TAimanI karakasara thAya e mATe ame jamavAmAM mAtra coLA banAvIe chIe. pramAda jarAya na joIe. huM kazo vyavasAya nathI karato. mAre paisA to kamAvavA che, paNa vyavasAya karavAmAM lAkaDAM bhegAM karavAnuM kAma karuM chuM. e lAkaDAM vecIne paisA bhegA karuM chuM. baLadanA cothA ziMgaDAnuM mAruM basa eka ja aramAna che..." jyAre mananuM sukha? mananI DimAnDa Ave tyAre indriyanA badhA bhAgo bhAgI jaze. komeTika levA mATe taDakAmAM UbhA rahevuM paDaze to UbhAM raheze, dasa dukAnamAM pharavuM paDaze to pharaze, badhuM ja karaze. bliciMga karAvavA jAya ane bliciMgamAM pAvaDara vadhAre paDI jAya to cAmaDI baLI jAya e badhuM thaze to

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cAlaze. jeTalAM kaSTa veThavAM paDaze eTalAM veThIza, paNa indriyanAM sukho maLavA joIe. A kAmarAga ApaNe samajyA. pAMca indriyanA anukULa viSayo mATe ane mananA anukULa viSayo mATe e loko koIpaNa sekrIphAIjha karaze e kAmarAgache. sneharAgamAM lAgaNI hovAnA kAraNe pApa ja baMdhAze ja, paNa emAM mAIlDa pApa baMdhAze. e pApamAM taratamatA haze, thoDuM sekrIphAIjha haze, thoDo tyAga haze, thoDI ApavAnI vRtti haze. pApatoDephineTalI baMdhAvAnuM che, paNa emAM thoDI taratamatA Avaze eTale ochuM pApa baMdhAze. bhagavAnane paNa sTroharAga? bhagavatI sUtramAM bhagavAna mahAvIra mATe lakhyuM, gozALAne tejovezyA zIkhavI tenAM traNa rijhana hatAM. kalpasUtramAM to ema kahyuM che ke bhavitavyatA evI hatI, paNa bhagavatI sUtromAM navAMgI TIkAkAra abhayadevasUrijI mahArAja kahe che ke traNa kAraNathI ApI: eka bhavitavyatA, bIjuM gozALo bhagavAnanI sAthe rahyo eTale bhagavAnane rAga thaI gayo. Ama to bhagavAnanA jIvanacaritra mATe ApaNe evuM bolI paNa na zakIe, paNa navAMgI TIkAkAre lakhyuM che eTale mAnI laIe chIe ke bhagavAnane enI sAthe rAga thaI gayo. cira paricayanA kAraNe utpanna thayelA sneharAgane kAraNe bhagavAne ene tejalezyA zIkhavADI. bhagavAna to kAmarAga, sneharAga badhAthI para hovA chatAM cira paricayanA kAraNe rAga thayo. have AmAMthI ApaNe samajavuM joIe ke cira paricayathI rAga pedA thaI zake. rAga thayA pachI, mANasa koInuMya sAMbhaLe nahi. dareka mAbApe vicAravuM joIe. tamArA saMtAnane koI muslima chokarA ke chokarI pratye sneharAga thaI jaze to? tamAre tamArAM saMtAnone evI jagAe bhaNAvavAM na joIe ke jyAM kosmo vAtAvaraNa hoya. nahi to gametyAre game tenI sAthe rAga thaI zake che. sArAmAM sArA saMskAra ApelA hoya, topaNa koIkanI sAthe cha-cha kalAka rahe to rAga vadhe ja. - - 15 -

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sneharAgaDubADeya kharo.. ApaNe AdrakumAranI kathA samajIe. AdrakumAra anArya dezamAM janmyA che. enI rAjasabhAmAM eka vakhata zreNika rAjAno dUta Ave che. tene AdrakumAra pUche che ke tamArA rAjyanI sauthI moTI viziSTatA zI che? dUta kahe che ke , "mahAmaMtrI abhayakumAra amArA rAjayanI sauthI moTI viziSTatA che." abhayakumAra vicAre che ke DephineTalI A koI puNyazALI jIva hovo joIe. pUrvabhavanI virAdhanA karelI che mATe anArya dezamAM utpanna thayo che. giphaTamAM bhagavAnanI eka pratimA mokale che. vicAre che pUrvabhavamAM bhagavAnanI ArAdhanA karI haze to bhagavAnanAM darzana karyA haze. ApaNe tyAM ghaNA loko bhagavAnanAM darzana paNa nathI karatA. jainonI jeTalI vastI che e badhI derAsaramAM regyulara darzana karavA jAya to lAMbI lAMbI lAino lAge. abhayakumAra ene bhagavAnanI mUrti mokalAve che ane ekAMtamAM kholavAnuM kahe che. kema ke badhAnI sAme kholaze to DisTarba thaI jaze. ekAMtamAM kholatAM jAtismaraNa jJAna thAya ane ene pUrvabhava yAda AvI jAya to kAma thaI jAya. abhayakumAre giphTa pArsala mokalAvyuM. ekAMtamAM kholyuM ane joyuM. ene jAtismaraNa jJAna thayuM. have vana poInTa progrAma ke koIpaNa rIte abhayane maLavuM ja che. e bIjo koI savAla nathI pUchato. e kahe che ke abhaya mArA guru che. abhaya mAruM sarvasva che. badhA lokone eka ja savAla pUche che ke rAjagRhI nagarI javAno rasto kayo? abhayakumAra kyAM maLe? enA pitAne paNa thayuM ke A paMkhI kyAreka UDI jaze ane e UDI jaze to badhuM khalAsa thaI jaze. enA pitATenzanamAM AvI gayA. e rAjakumAra che. enA pitAe pAMcaso jaNanI cokI rAkhI hatI, chatAM eka divasa cokIdArone gaphalatamAM rAkhI sIdho Arya dezamAM AvI gayo hato. mAre je kahevuM che e have Ave che ke ahIM Avyo tyAM sudhI abhaya abhaya karato hato. ahIM AvyA pachI je mUrti hatI. abhayakumArane parata mokalAvI ane sIdhI dIkSA laI lIdhI. dIkSA letI vakhate AkAzavANI thAya che ke tArAM bhogAvalI karma hajI bAkI che, tuM dIkSA na laIza. topaNa eNe dIkSA laI lIdhI. tame vicAra karo ke dharmarAga kevo

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jabaradasta che ! sarasa majAnI dIkSAnI ArAdhanA kare che. nikAcita karmanA kAraNe AdrakumAranAM lagna thayAM. dIkaro paNa thAya che. dIkaro thayA pachI AdrakumAra pharI pAchI dIkSA levAnI vAta patnIne kare che, "have to tAre dIkaro che eTale tuM ene sahAre jIvI zakIza." dIkaro eka vakhata pelI yuvatI rU kAMtavA beThI hoya che tyAre pAse AvIne pUche che: "tuM AvuM majUrInuM kAma kema kare che?' yuvatI javAbamAM kahe che ke, "tArA pitAjI dIkSA leze, pachI ApaNe mahenata-majUrI karIne ja bharaNapoSaNa karavAnuM che. e sivAya bIjuM ApaNe zuM karIzuM?' dIkaro kahe che ke, "mArA pitA dIkSA nahi le, huM jo hamaNAM emane bAMdhI dauM..! ane eNe eka dorI laIne bAMdhI dIdhI ane AdrakumArane kahyuM ke, "pitAjI, have tamane meM bAMdhI dIdhA che. tame kevI rIte bhAgI zakazo? eTale kahe che "bhale, dIkarA! mane bAMdhavAmAM A dorInA te jeTalA AMTA mAryA che eTalAM varSa huM tamArI sAthe gharamAM rahIza, basa.' dorInA bAra AMTA hatA eTale kahyuM, "huM tamArI sAthe bAra varSa sudhI gharamAM rahIza...' dIkaro ahIM bAra AMTA mAre che enA mATe thaIne bAra varSa. vicArajo, je abhayakumArathI dharma pAmyA e abhayakumArane maLavA jeTalo paNa dIkSAmAM vilaMba na karanAra AdrakumAra, dIkarI pratyenA snehane kAraNe bAra-bAra varSa sudhI gRhasthAvasthAmAM rahyA. A sneharAge laTakAvyo. sneharAganA kAraNe bArabAra varSa sudhI dIkSA laTakI. tamane paNa kevo sneharAga che ! ghaNA loko vyAkhyAnamAM na Ave ke moDA Ave. emane kAraNa pUchIe to kahe, "sAheba, savAre ghare bahu majA Ave. chokarAMne ramADavAmAM TAima kyAM nIkaLI jAya enI khabara ja na paDe ! bhale ne chokarAo tamArI sAthe Dagale ne pagale uddhatAIpUrvakanuM vartana karatA hoya, chatAM tamane chokarAo vahAlA lAge che. A sneharAga che. sneharAgathI evA baMdhAyelA hoya ke vyAkhyAnamAM paNa Ave nahi. 0 17

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* sAdhu karatAM zrAvakakaI rIte mahAna? have daSTirAga samajIe. vItarAga-sarvajJa e ja bhagavAna hoI zake. zramaNa-nigraMtha ja guru hoI zake. vItarAga-sarvajJae prarUpelo ja dharma hoI zake. A yunivarsala TUtha che. emAM traNe kALamAM koI pheraphAra thaI zake nahi. enAthI viparIta mAnyatA e dRSTirAga. jIvane krodhAdi kaSAya kyAreya sukha na ApI zake. krodhAdi kaSAyamAM sukhanI buddhi e daSTirAga. kAmarAga-neharAgamAM upAdhyatAnI mAnyatA te daSTirAga. dRSTi=durAgraha. durAgrahane saraLatAthI samajavA mATe traNa artha karIe: 1. deva-guru-dharmanI bAbatamAM durAgraha. 2. svadoSanA pakSapAtamAM durAgraha. 3. khoTI mAnyatAmAM durAgraha. udAharaNa ApuM. amuka saMpradAya mAne ke duniyA bhagavAne banAvI che. ApaNe taTasthatAthI pUchIe ke bhagavAnane duniyA banAvavAnI jarUra kema paDI ? duniyA na banAve to bhagavAnane zo pharaka paDe ? ekeya javAba saMtoSakAraka na maLI zake. sapaoNjha, bhagavAne duniyA banAvI to eka amIra ane eka garIba, eka apaMga ane eka bahero-mUgo, eka mUrkha ane eka hoziyAra AvI vicitra duniyA kema banAvI? bhagavAna sArI vyakti che ke kharAba? jo sArI vyakti che to AvI vicitraduniyA kema banAve? jo AvI vicitratA karmane adhIna che to bhagavAnanI bhUmikA zI? tarkabaddha rIte paddhatipUrvaka samajAvavA jAva topaNa e samajavA mATe taiyAra ja na thAya. AnuM nAma dRSTirAga. Avo dRSTirAga tamane TheraThera jovA maLaze. keTalAka loko kahe che ke ame derAsara nathI jatA, ame TIlATapakAMmAM nathI mAnatA. ame aMdarathI bahu sApha chIe. ame jANIe chIe ke derAsara --> 18 7

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janArA loko kevA hoya che... eTale emanA mate derAsara javuM nakAmuM ane vyartha che. paoNsibala che ke derAsara janArA be-pAMca jaNa kharAba paNa hoI zake ane derAsara nahi janArA be-pAMca jaNa sArA paNa hoI zake. evuM paNa banI zake ne ke rojaroja oNphisa janAro AdamI phUTI koDIya na kamAto hoya (kyAreka to khoTa karIne paNa Avato hoya) ane ghare rahenAro phona para sodA karIne mabalaka kamAto paNa hoya. sAmAnya niyama evo che ke skUle jAya to bhaNe, oNphise jAya to kamAya, derAsare jAya te dharma kare. amuka lokonI mAnyatA kevI ke ApaNe to dayAbhAvamAM mAnIe. bhUkhyA garIbone khavaDAvavuM e ja dharma che. have ApaNe pUchIe ke bhagavAna mahAvIra dIkSA lIdhA pachI koI garIbane khavaDAvatA hatA? koI sAdhu mahArAja atyAre koI garIbane khavaDAve? gRhastho amane joIe eTalI gocarI vahorAvatA hoya, chatAM ame vadhAre vahorIne garIbone khavarAvavA kema nathI jatA? dayA e ja dharma hoya to ame evI dayA nathI karatA, to ame kevA kahevAIe? tamane dharmanI vyAkhyA ja khabara nathI. dayA kone kahevAya, bhakti kone kahevAya. dayA konI ane kaI bhUmikAvALAe karAya, dayAthI caDhiyAto dharma zo, enAthI nIco dharma zo, anukaMpA kyAre karAya - evI kaMI ja khabara ene nathI. eTale e zuM mAne? huM to garIbone khavaDAvuM. ApaNe to pazu-paMkhInI dayAmAM mAnIe. ApaNe mUgA jIvo katalakhAne jatA hoya emane bacAvavAmAM mAnIe. ApaNe AsAmAyika-pratikramaNamAM mAnatA nathI. ame sAdhuo lAIphaTAImanuM sAmAyika laIne beThA chIe, zuM e khoTuM che? katalakhAne jatI pazuo bharelI Trakane bacAvavA jAnanA jokhame ghaNA zrAvako jAya che. huM ahIMthI evI ekapaNa Traka pakaDavA jato nathI. to amArA bemAM UMco koNa? lokone khabara ja nathI. amAre tyAM AvIne paNa bole ke phalANA bhAInuM jIvana joIe to mahArAjasAheba karatAM caDhI jAya. e zrAvaka kevI rIte ma.sA. karatAM caDhI jAya? sapaoNjha, eka zrAvaka ekAsaNAM kare che ane eka sAdhumahArAja chUTuM mo rAkhe che, to A bemAM UMcuM koNa?

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sapaoNjha, eka zrAvakane mAsakSamaNa cAle che ane ma. sA. roja mAtra navakArazI ja kare che, to e bemAM UMcuM koNa? sapaoNjha, huM navakArazI vAparIne beTho chuM ane mane paga dukhe che. meM paga lAMbA karyA ane bAjumAM eka zrAvaka beTho che, mumukSu che, ene mAsakSamaNa paNa che. to amArA bemAMthI konA paga dabAvo to vadhAre puNya baMdhAya? savAla e che ke tyAga kono vadhAre che? mahAnatAno mApadaMDa tyAga che e na bhUlavuM joIe. mAsakSamaNavALA zrAvakane kaMI kAma paDe to vIsame mALe javA mATe liphTa vAparaze, huM jaIza liphTamAM? ene khabara paDe sonAnA bhAva vadhe ema che to sIdhA emasIeksamAM be sodA nAkhI deze, huM nAkhIza? ene badhAM vAhana vAparavAnI chuTTI che, mAre che ? ene garamI lAgaze to paMkho cAlu karaze, huM karIza? ene keTalAM paccakhANa che ane mAre keTalAM paccakhANa che? huM mAtra navakArazI karuM chuM emAM paNa mArI kanDizansa che ke huM vAparuM e vAnagI mAre mATe na banelI hoya, meM nA kIdhuM hoya, meM na karAvyuM hoya ane enI anumodanA paNa na karuM evI gocarI ja mAre khapaze. eTale ma. sA. bhale traNa TAima vAparatA hoya ene kAMI mAtra khAvAnAM ja paccakhANa che? zrAvaka suMvALA gAdalA para sUI jaze ke nahi? ene kahIe gulAba sUMghIza to anukULatA raheze. huM gulAba sUdhIza? eNe mAsakSamaNa karyuM che. emAM TIvI jovAnAM paccakhANa nahi Ave, huM TIvI joIza? eTale mArA aneka paccakhANa che ane tamAruM eka ja che. e paNa thoDA samaya mATe. moTA bhAganA loko A bhedarekhA samajatA ja nathI hotA. eTale bolI nAkhe ke phalANA zrAvaka to ma. sA karatAM UMcuM jIvana jIve che. koI zrAvaka ke gRhastha jIvadayA kare e sArI vastu che, anukaMpA kare e anumodanIya vAta che. prANIone bacAve che, jIvadayAnAM kAma kare che, garIbone dAna kare che e vastu kharAba nathI. paNa e vastune tame ma. sA. sAthe kaMpera karo, ye bAta kucha hajama hone vAlI nahi... tamane koI pUche ke, "rAju gAyane ghAsa khavaDAve che. alpeza sAmAyika kare che. alpezane sAmAyika karavAmAM paisA na lAge, jyAre - 20 -

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rAjune to ghAsanA paisA lAgaze. A baMnemAM UMco dharma kayo? rAju ghAsa khavaDAvaze eTale gAyanI bhUkha dUra karaze, jyAre alpeze sAmayika lIdhuM eTale 48 miniTa mATe eka paNa jIvanI hiMsA nahi karavAnuM paccakhANa lIdhuM. rAju ghAsa khabaDAvavA bAIka laIne jaI zake, to AgaLa aLasiyAM, kIDI, maMkoDA vagere marI jaI zake. ghAsa khakhaDAvatAM-khavaDAvatAM mobAIla para dhaMdhAnI vAta paNa karI zake che. jyAre alpeza sAmAyika pUratuM eka paNa jIvanI hiMsA nahi kare. duniyAmAM anaMtAnaMta jIvone abhayadAna ApyuM. mAtra bhUkhazamana. sAcuM bolo, AvuM sAmAyika karavAnuM mana tamane thAya? vyAkhyAnamAM eka kalAka beThA ja cho topaNa karo? sAmAyikanAM kapaDAM badalavAM, sAmAyika levuM ane pAravuM, A badhI jhaMjhaTa koNa kare? to pachI coryAzInAM cakkara kevI rIte aTakaze? * dRSTirAganA traNa pAyA daSTirAgamAM traNa vastu Avaze. daSTirAganA traNa pAyAche : 1. svadoSadarzana nahi, 2. deva-guru-dharma mATe viparIta mAnyatA, 3. khoTI mAnyatA. dharmanI bAbatamAM evI mAnyatA ke dAna limiTamAM karavAnuM. limiTa' zabda daSTirAgano dyotaka che. bhagavAne to kahyuM che ke dAna yathAzakti karavAnuM. yathAzakti" kevo sarasa zabda ! zabdane kholatAM AvaDe to bhAvavibhora thaI javAya. kumArapALa mahArAje pAMca koDInAM phUla caDhAvyAM hatAM. vyavahArathI pAMca koDI ja, paNa nizcayanayathI senTa parsanTa potAnI saghaLI mUDI ApI dIdhI hatI. ApaNe A badhuM samajatA nathI eTale mAtra pAMcanI phigara pakaDIe. kumArapALe pAMca koDI mUkI hatI. pAMca koDImAM atyAre kaMI AvatuM ja nathI, paNa e pAMca koDI che e pUrA haMDreDa parsanTa che. zaktithI atireka dharma nathI karavAno, ocho paNa nathI karavAno. ja - 21

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daSTirAga tame dharmakSetre dAna karIne ghare jazo, to sIdhI rAmAyaNa zarU thaI jaze : "ATalA badhA paisA lakhAvyA ! daravakhate lakhAvavAnA ? have comAsuM AvI ja rahyuM che ane comAsAnA phaMDamAM lakhAvavAnA ja hatA, to atyAre dasadasa rUpiyAnI prabhAvanA karavAnI zI jarUra hatI? A badhI mAnyatAo dRSTirAganI che. daSTirAgathI khoTI mAnyatAo Avaze. Ama nA karAya, tema na karAya. tapa paNa naoNrmala karAya, zarIrane nukasAna thAya evuM karAya? A dRSTirAganuM vAkya che. jyAre bhagavAna kaheze samAdhi jokhamamAM Ave tevo tapa na karAya. kAmarAga ane sneharAga pApano baMdha karAvaze. jayAre daSTirAga kyAreka puNya baMdhAvaze. tame amuka darzanane mAno to puNya paNa baMdhAya kAraNa ke e darzana je dAna-tapa vagere zIkhavaze enuM te jIva AcaraNa karIne puNya bAMdhaze. paraMtu jo viveka nahi hoya to pApano anubaMdha pADaze. pApano anubaMdha pApanI paraMparA calAvyA karaze. tame khokho gema ramyAcho ne? khokhomAM eka khelADI dAva laIne bhAge ane ene bIjo chokaro kho Ape, pachI bIjo bhAge ane ene koI trIjo kho Ape. eka pachI eka kho ApIne ramata ramavAnI. ema dRSTirAga kho ApyA karaze. AkhuM jagata kAmarAgathI grasta che. jayAM najara karazo pAMca indriyanA viSaya sivAya bIjuM kAMI dekhAze nahi ane AnA mATe ja puruSArtha dekhAze. daSTirAga tamArA kAmarAga ane sneharAgane jIvaMta rAkhaze. tamane ema ja lAgaze ke jIvanamAM kAmarAga, sneharAga na hoya to karavAnuM zuM? daSTirAga kaheze ke jIvanamAM dharma karavAnI nA nathI. kyAreka sAmAyika karavAnuM, AThama-caudasa hoya to pratikamaNa paNa karavAnuM. enI koI nA nathI, paNa jIvanamAM thoDI majA joIe. daSTirAga kaheze ke dharma karavo joIe paNa zuM lAIphamAM majA na hoya? pharavAnuM na hoya? Akho divasa basa sAmAyika ja karyA karavAnAM? dRSTirAga AvI mAnyatAothI gherI leze. tame kadAca AkhI jiMdagI pharazo to pApa baMdhAze - nukasAna thaze, paNa tame pharavAnuM Avazyaka mAnI lezo to kUTAI jazo - mahAnukasAna thaze. daSTirAga tamArA kAmarAga ane sneharAgane barAbara pakaDI rAkhaze ane ene khoTA mAnavA ja nahide. jas - 22 -

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-10 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNI / daSTirAgatu pApIyAnuM duruccheda: satAmapi // vitarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka saMsArarUpI roganuM mULa ajJAna che. ajJAna dUra thaI jAya to sukha sAva hAthavaguM che. ApaNane ajJAna duHkharUpa lAge che ane ajJAna mATe to ApaNane bharapUra dveSa paNa che, tethI ApaNe ajJAnane dUra karavuM che. bhagavAna paNa kahe che ke tamAma du:khonuM mULa ajJAna che ane ApaNaneya ajJAna phAvatuM nathI, to pachI bhagavAna sAthe ApaNI phrenDazipa jAmavI joIe ne ? ApaNane je vastu nathI joItI ene ja kADhavAnI vAta bhagavAna paNa kare che, to pachI ApaNI ane bhagavAna vacce praoNblemana ja rahe ne? sAmevALA tamane rasamalAIjamavA invAiTa kare che ane tamAre paNa rasamalAI jakhAvI che. e uparAMta pinjhA, pAstA, bargara vagere tamAre je kaMI khAvuM che e sAmevALo pIrase che to tamAre ke ene koI praoNblema Ave kharo? koMgresane a.ba.ka. vaDApradhAna nathI joItA ane bhAratIya janatA pakSane paNa a.ba.ka. vaDApradhAna ja nathI joItA, chatAM baMne vacce matabheda che. e ja rIte bhagavAnane ajJAna nathI joItuM ane tamAre paNa nathI joItuM, chatAM matabheda che, ema kema? ApaNe ajJAnano artha jJAnano abhAva karIe chIe, jayAre bhagavAna ajJAnano artha viparIta jJAna kare che. bhagavAnane mithyAjJAna sAthe moTo vAMdho che. ApaNane ajJAna sAme vAMdho che. mATe virodha che. hAlanA tabakke gameteTaluM ajJAna haze to cAlaze. sAdhanA AgaLa vadhatI jaze tematema jJAna prApta thatuM thaze ane ajJAna ogaLatuM jaze. "huM koNa" ane "mAruM koNa' A vijhana kliyara thAya to jaga jItyA ! A be bAbato spaSTa thaI jAya to duniyAnuM badhuM ajJAna tamArAmAMthI kramasara nIkaLI jaze. - 23 -

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vaijJAniko kahe che macchara karaDe che tyAre e potAnA DaMkhanI sAthe ApaNA zarIramAM kaMIka evAM IMDAM ghUsADe che ke jenA kAraNe maleriyA, Denga vagere roga thAya che. evI rIte A ajJAnarUpI macchara moharUpI IMDuM mUkI de che ane e mohanuM IMDuM rAga ane dveSanAM bIjAM IMDAM mUkI de che. emAMthI ja dhImedhIme badhI pArAyaNa zarU thAya che. ApaNe ajJAna sudhI pahoMcavuM hoya to? ajJAnathI moharUpI IMDuM ane moharUpI IMDAthI rAga-dveSarUpI IMDuM. emAM ApaNe rAgarUpI IMDAne samajI rahyA chIe. traNa prakAranA rAga samajavAnuM ApaNe zarU karyuM hatuM : kAmarAga, sneharAga ane dRSTirAga, kAmarAga eTale pAMca indriyanA anukULa viSayonI icchA. * kAyAnI kurUpatA, chatAM kAmarAganuM kAmaNa kAmarAgane samajavA eka navuM udAharaNa laIe. naMdISaNa garIba brAhmaNano chokaro che. enAM paeNranTsa mRtyu pAmyAM che. enuM AkhuM zarIra kadarUpuM che. bilADA jevI AMkho che, peTa gAgara jevuM che, hoTha UMTa jevA lAMbA ane labaDatA che. chatAM tamane UMTa para besavAnI majA Ave, UMTane sArA vastro paherAvelAM hoya to enI sAthe selphI paNa pADo ne? kharekhara UMTamAM kazI suMdaratA kharI? enA zarIranI ekaTipikala durgadha hoya che. enAM aDhAre aMga vAMkAM hoya che. evA UMTa para paNa besavAnI tamane majA Ave che rI'pAlita saMghamAM sAmAnanI heraphera mATe UMTa rAkhyAM hoya to sAMje UMTa para savArInI sahela mANavA tamArA jevA jatA hoya che. emAM paNa palANa nA hoya to UMTa para besavAthI badhAM aMgo duHkhavA mAMDe. AvA aDhAra vAMkA aMgavALA UMTa upara paNa besavAnuM tamane game che. ApaNe vAta cAlatI hatI ke kAmarAga kevo che. mA-bApa vagaranA bALaka naMdISaNanuM zarIra atyaMta kadarUpuM che. koI ene rAkhavA ke enI sAme jovAya taiyAra nathI. enA mAmAne thoDI lAgaNI thaI. emaNe kahyuM, "tuM mArA ghare raheje.' mAmAnA ghera rahIne ucharatA naMdISeNe kALakrame yauvananA UMbare paga mUkyo. jenA AkhA zarIre sUga caDhe evI gAMTho hoya, mAtra AMkho ja dekhAtI hoya, cAmaDImAMthI durgadha chalakAtI hoya ene - 24 -

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koNa kanyA Ape? AvA rogIne paraNavAnuM mana thAya che ema naMdISaNane paNa thayuM. kintu kAmarAga che ja evo! e evIevI icchAo kare ke ApaNane hasavuM Ave. ApaNe bIjA lokonI evI icchAo sAMbhaLIe eTale ApaNane hasavuM AvI jAya, paNa ApaNI icchAo kyAM enAthI judIche? ApaNane ApaNI icchAo para kema hasavuM AvatuM nathI ? e ApaNI mUrkhAmI ja che... naMdISaNane paNa evI ja icchA che. enA mAmA ene yogya kanyA maLe e mATe ghaNA TrAya kare che, paNa koI ene kanyA ApavA taiyAra nathI thatuM. mAmAne bhANeja naMdISeNa parasneharAga hovAnA kAraNe kahe che, "tuM ciMtA nahi kara. mArI sAta dIkarIo che, emAMthI eka huM tane ApIza.' e jamAnAmAM mAmA-phoInAM chokarAMnAM lagna thatAM hatAM. mAmAnI dIkarIo lagna jevaDI thatAM vArApharatI emane mAmA kahe che, "tuM naMdISeNa sAthe lagna kara.' dareka dIkarIno nakAramAM javAba maLyo. kahe, "naMdISeNa sAthe mArAM lagnanI vAta karazo to huM ApaghAta karIza.' sAtesAta dIkarIoe nA pADI dIdhI. mAmAneya naMdISaNanuM rUpa gamatuM to nathI ja, chatAM sneharAgathI potAnI dIkarI ApavA taiyAra thayA hatA. emaNe ghaNA prayatno karyA, dIkarIone samajAvavAnI ghaNI kozizo karI. emAM mAmAno neharAga hato. mAmAne dIkarIo para paNa sneharAga che ja, chatAM naMdISaNa pratye prabaLa sneharAga che. eTale potAnI dIkarI evA kadarUpAne ApavA mAge che. eka ja vyaktimAM kAmarAga ane sneharAga baMne hoI zake. sneharAga baMne pakSa tarapha paNa hoI zake. hA, koInA mATe vadhAre hoya ane koInA mATe ocho hoI zake. ahIM bhANeja naMdISeNa para adhika sneharAga che, tethI e potAnI dIkarInAM lagna enI sAthe karavA mAge che. naMdISeNane zarIra kadarUpuM hovA chatAM kAmarAgane lIdhe paraNavAnI icchA che. tamane tarata thaze ke ame bhale rUpALA nathI, paNa naoNrmala to chIe ja ne ! to pachI amane lagnanI icchA thAya to emAM khoTuM zuM? to sAMbhaLo, - 25 %

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tamArA zarIranI apekSAe naMdISaNanuM zarIra kadarUpuM lAge che, ema tame paNa devalokanA devatAonA rUpanI apekSAe to kadarUpA ja cho. devatAone manuSyonA zarIramAMthI bhayaMkara durgadha Ave che. are, devatAnI vAta choDo, koIne zArIrika praoNblemanA kAraNe atyAre vyAkhyAna-haoNlamAM saMDAsa thaI jAya to zuM thAya? AjanI vAta paNa choDo, tamane eTaluM jANavA maLe ke gaIkAle ahIM eka jaNa saMDAsa karI gayuM hatuM topaNa tame sUga caDhAvIne tarata UbhA thaI jazo. gaMdakInI vAta gaIkAlanI che, Aje jagA sApha hovA chatAM aNagamo thaI jAya che. Avo maLa ApaNe covIse kalAka ApaNA peTamAM, zarIramAM sAthe ne sAthe ja laIne pharIe chIe ! ApaNane to bIjAnA AvA gaMdA zarIra pratye AkarSaNa paNa thAya che. bahArathI bhale rUpALI kAyA lAgatI hoya, bhItara to maLa-mUtra, hADa-mAMsa vagerenI gaMdakI bharelI che ja ne! AvuM AkarSaNa karAvanAra che kAmarAga. naMdISaNane paNa Avo kAmarAga bahekAve che. yuvAna thayo to paNa koI enI sAthe lagna karavA hA pADatuM nathI. Akhare te ApaghAta karavA jAya che. * tameya "naMdISeNa" ja cho ne! naMdISeNanI have pachInI vAta ahIM aprAsaMgika lAgaze, tethI enA para pUrNavirAma mUkI daIe. mULa marma e samajavAno che ke zarIra kadarUpuM hovA chatAM viSayonI icchA TaLatI nathI. meM tamane udAharaNathI samajAvyuM ke UMTamAM kazI suMdaratA nathI, topaNa tamane UMTa para besavAnI majA Ave. mAunTa Abu para ke jUhu-copATI para tamane UMTanI savArI karavAnuM mana thAya che. tameya "naMdISeNa ja cho ne ! koI gharaghATI kahe ke mAre phalANI hIroIna sAthe lagna karavAM che, to ApaNe ene kahIzuM ke tAruM khasakI gayuM che. tArI sAthe lagna karavA kaI hIroIna taiyAra thaze? ApaNane khabara ja nathI paDatI ke ApaNI DimAnyUsa keTalI vicitra che! kAmarAga ApaNane ApaNI bhItaranI vicitratAo jovA ja nathI deto. e to jAtabhAtanI icchAo karyA karaze ane icchA hovI ja joIe ema kahIne e icchAone vAjabI TheravavAnuM kAma dRSTirAga karaze. pAMca indriyanA viSayonI icchAo kAmarAga karaze ane e icchAo barAbara che, jenyuina che, evI mahoradaSTirAga mAraze.

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ahIM bhagavAne sarasa vyavasthA batAvI che. bhagavAne kahyuM ke zrAvakanI koIpaNa bhUmikAmAM hiMsA vagara jIvI ja nahi zakAya, zrAvakanI bhUmikAmAM paoNsibala che ke azubha rAga vagara jIvI zakAya, kintu hiMsA vagara nahi ja jIvI zakAya. * rAgamukta jIvavAnuM paoNsibala che. kAmarAga, sneharAga ane dRSTirAga azubha che. e kADhavA hoya to ArAmathI kADhI zakAya. bhagavAne potAnuM jIvana e rIte jIvIne udAharaNa batAvyuM che. eka pUrvavarSa barAbara 70560 abaja varSa, evAM 83 lAkha pUrvavarSa sudhI bhagavAna saMsAramAM rahyA ane eka pUrva dIkSA jIvanamAM rahyA. 83OOOOO pUrvavarSa sudhI bhagavAne kAmarAga, sneharAga ane dRSTirAga vagara jIvI batAvyuM. gRhasthapaNAmAM vAyukAya-jaLakAyanA sUkSma jIvonI hiMsA jANe-ajANya thavAnI ja. ekendriya, beIndriya jIvonI hiMsA paNa thAya. hiMsA vagara jIvavuM hoya to sAdhujIvanano koI vikalpa nathI ! bhagavAnane indriyanA viSayonI jabaradasta anukULatA maLatI hoya che. ApaNane evI anukULatA maLe to gAMDA thaI jaIe. sapaoNjha, tamArA ghare putrajanma thAya ane mukeza aMbANI tamArA chokarAne ramADavA Ave to kevo ghUgharo lAve? ghoDiyuM lAve to e ghoDiyuM kevuM hoya ? bhagavAna janmyA tyAre svayaM devatAo emanAM darzana karavA AvelA! e devatAo kevo ghUgharo laIne gayA haze! e ghUgharAnI kalA-kArIgarI kevI haze ! bhagavAnane pAMca indriyanA sukhanA jabaradasta viSayo maLelA. devatAo emane meruparvata para laI jAya, tyAM emano abhiSeka thAya, indriyanA khoLAmAM beselA bhagavAnane raMgaberaMgI suvarNakaLaza dekhAze. indriyasukhanA ekasTrA orDinarI viSayo maLaze. tyAM abhiSeka karavA AvelA rUpavAna devatAone bhagavAna jue che. vairAgI sAdhuo paNa devatAnuM rUpa jue ne to niyANuM kare, evuM emanuM rUpa kyAre jovA maLyuM? janma pachI kalAka-be kalAkamAM ja ! IndranI AjJAthI rUparUpanA aMbAra devatAo suMdara vastrAbhUSaNo sajIne - kevA banIThanIne AvyA hoya ! ane tyAM nRtya kevuM AphlAdaka kare ! bhakti kevI bhAvabharI kare ! saMgIta kevuM madhura - 27 47

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gAya! eka piksaranuM gIta khUba lokapriya banyuM haze. eka yuvAna kahe "meM pAMcaso kilomITarano pravAsa karyo, aDhIso kilomITara javAnA ane aDhIso kilomITara AvavAnA. AkhA rastAmAM basa e eka ja gIta sAMbhaLyA karyuM. eka ja gIta satata rIvAIDa karI-karIne sAMbhaLyuM. sAheba, e gIta sAMbhaLavAnI eTalI majA Ave ke na pUcho vAta ! have tame vicArajo, devalokamAM saMgIta kevuM adbhuta haze ! evuM divya saMgIta janmatAMnI sAthe sAMbhaLavA maLe, alaukika rUpa jovA maLe, indranA hAthano mRdusparza maLe to ApaNane kevAkevA rAga pedA thaI jAya ! IndranA hAthamAM bhagavAnane besavA maLyuM. kevo atyaMta komaLa sparza maLyo ! nAyagrA pholsa karatAM paNa moTA kaLazathI bhagavAna para abhiSeka thAya, e kaLazanI ghUgharInA madhura avAja AvatA hoya, nRtya cAlatuM hoya... AvA viSayo jovA chatAM bhagavAnane ekapaNa indriyanA viSayanI icchA nathI thatI ! bhoganAM jabaradasta nimitto maLe che, badhA bhogo pratyakSa che. chatAM kyAMya kAmarAga pedA thato nathI. derAsara devAlaya karatAM vadhAre suMdara hovuM joIe derAsaramAM koI vakhata tame paherelAM pUjAnAM kapaDAM joIe to dayA Ave! dhotiyuM masotA jevuM meluM. pUjAnAM kapaDAMnI varSojUnI e jajoDa. jUnA kapaDAnA badalAmAM plAsTikanI Dola vecavAvALIne Apo to tamArI pUjAjoDanA badalAmAM plAsTikanI camacI paNa Ave? Ivana, bhikhArIne Apo to e paNa na le ! are ! tamane joIne koI samaju zrAvakane kadAca vicAra AvI jAya ke 1000, 2000 rUpiyAnI pUjAjoDathI tamArI bhakti karavA jevI che. bhagavAnanuM aMgaluchaNuM paNa jIrNa ane kANAMvALuM. derAsara paNa gaMdu. game tyAM game te vastu paDelI hoya. bhaMDAra juo to elyuminiyamano ane kyAMka koI cheDethI enuM pataruM paNa UkhaDI gayeluM hoya ! tamArA gharanI ekaeka vastu juo. tamAro sophA kevo hoya, enA kalara kevA hoya, sophA pasaMda karavAmAM keTalo badho TAima Apo! tamArA saMDAsamAM TAIlsanuM kalara kombinezana kevuM dila ane dimAga doDAvIne karyuM hoya ! jyAre keTalAMka derAsaromAM to kevuM hoya? game tyAM lakhI nAkhyuM hoya 'bhaMDAramAM paisA nAkho', - 28 -

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mobAIla svicaoNpha rAkho' vagere. paccakhkhANanuM pATiyuMya kevuM gaMdu hoya? tamArA gharamAM to badhuM vyavasthita hoya! eka stavanamAM lakhyuM cheH "suMdaratA surasadanathI adhika jihAM zobhe prAsAda!" Adarza evo che ke derAsaro devAlayo karatAM paNa suMdara hovAM joIe, kintu vAstavikatA e che ke keTalAMka derAsaro tamArA sAmAnya ghara jeTalAMya suMdara ane svaccha nathI. devalokanAM devAlayo karatAM derAsarone raLiyAmaNAM na karI zako to kaMI nahi, paNa eTalisTa tamArA ghara karatAM to svaccha-suMdara karo! tamArA gharamAM pharnicara mATe keTalo TAIma Apo? dIvAla uparanA kalara mATe badhA mITiMga karaze. pAMca-pAMca kalAka sudhI to carcA thAya. A kalara nahi cAle, AvuM kalara-kaoNmbinezana joIze. AvuM nahi cAle, tevuM nahi cAle. tamAruM pharnicara joIne tamArA mitro bolI UThe, "mAInDa bloiMga... ekadama joradAra!" ane tamane lAge ke tame je TAima Apyo hato e vartha che. pAMca indriyanA viSayo je vartha lAge che e dRSTirAga che. bhagavAnane pArAvAra nimitto maLyAM, paNa kyAMya kAmarAga na thayo. nimitto maLavA chatAM rAga nahi! bhagavAnanA janma pachI 83OOOO0pUrva varSa sudhI, dIkSApUrve temaNe kyAreya ekAsaNA-biyAsaNA jevI koI tapazcaryA karI nathI. sajjano be TAima jamatA hoya ema bhagavAnaprAyaH be TaMka jamyA haze. RSabhadeva bhagavAne zuM khAdhuM? jaMbUdvIpanA madhyamAM, meru parvatanA upara bhAgamAM uttarakuru ane nIcenA bhAgamAM devakuru Ave. bhagavAne uttarakurunAM phaLo khAdhAM. keTalA puNyazALI kahevAya ! tamArA ghare kerI amerikAthI AvatI hoya to tame gauravathI kevuM kaho? "amane ahIMnI kerI bhAvatI ja nathI. amArA ghare amerikAthI kerI Ave che, badhAM phUTsa amerikAthI ja Ave che. bhagavAne 8300000 pUrvavarSa sudhI kyAM phaLa khAdhAM? uttarakuranAM, ahIMnuM kazuM khAdhuM ja nathI. AvI devatAo bhakti kare!

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* vaTa to paDe che, paNa prabhAva nathI paDato! sapaoNjha, huM jayAM jAuM tyAM mArI AgaLa-pAchaLa pacAsa-pacAsa jaNanuM ToLuM rahetuM hoya, mArI AsapAsa sikyuriTInA javAno rAyaphala sAthe covIse kalAka rahetA hoya to mAro kevo vaTa paDe! ApaNo kevo rUAba paDe? moTAmoTA AcAryono na paDato hoya evo! ATalA loko ApaNI AgaLapAchaLa phare che ! tarata mAna-kaSAya AvI jAya ne ! bhagavAna mATe ATalA divasa sudhI devalokathI Tiphina Ave che, chatAM emaNe kyAMya mAna-kaSAyane popyAM nathI. jaLa kSIrasamudranuM ! phaLo uttarakuranAM, jyAM parmananTa pahelo Aro hoya. tyAMnI mATI zarkarA eTale ke sAkara jevI mIThI hoya. ahIMnI mATI moDhAmAM mUkIe to bhAve? e ja mATImAMthI ratnAgiri hAphusa kerI kevI mIThI taiyAra thAya che? phikkIphasa mATImAMthI jo ATalI mIThI kerI taiyAra thatI hoya to jenI mATI sAkara jevI mIThI hoya tenAM phaLa kevAM madhurAM hoya chatAM bhagavAnane kAmarAga kyAMya sparze kharo? bhagavAnano parivAra paNa kevo hato ? ApaNA jevA sarakhesarakhA svArthI maLyA evuM nahi. tIrthakarano parivAra eksalujhiva hoya. je jIvo temanA parivAramAM pedA thayA hoya e guNaguNanA bhaMDAra hoya. jemanI sAthe 8300000 pUrvavarSa sudhI rahyA emanA mATe prabhune koI rAganI lAgaNI jAgI? eno dIkaro kevo che? ApaNe upara beThA hoIe ane koIne nIcethI eka copaDI lAvavAnuM kahevuM hoya to sattara vAra vicAra karavo paDe. ApaNe tenA mATe ghaNuM badhuM karyuM hoya topaNa ene ATaluM kahetA pahelAM vicAra karavo paDe. gharamAM pANIno glAsa mAMgo to pahele divase Apaze, bIje divase be vakhata mAMgavo paDaze ane trIje divase to sIdhuM saMbhaLAvaze ke, "jAte ja laI lo ne ! tamArAM hADakAM bhAMgI gayAM che? amane nokara samajo cho?" vagerevagere. A hAlata che ApaNI, tyAre bhagavAnane kevuM che? emanA samagra parivAramAM kevI guNiyalatA che! putra bharatane kahe che ke "huM dIkSA lauM chuM. mane saMsAramAM rasa nathI. A rAjayano tuM rAjA.'bharata zuM kahe che? 'tame dIkSA lo - 30

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to huM saMsAramAM rahIne zuM karIza? jyAM tame tyAM huM... ene dIkSA vize kAMI khabara paNa nathI, chatAM parivAra kevo hoya! sneharAganAM nimitto kevAM ! tame dIkSA levAnuM kaho to tamAro dIkaro zuM bole? "pachI mArA dIkarAne koNa rAkhaze? amAre pharavA javuM hoya to nAnAM bALakone konI pAse mUkIne jaIe?' matabala ke tamArA dIkarA tamane dIkSAnI nA pADe - potAnA svArtha mATe! jyAre bharata to sAthe ja dIkSA levA taiyAra thaI jAya che. bhagavAna jaMgalamAM nIkaLyA to cAra hajAra rAjAo emanI pAchaLa nIkaLI gayA. ekeyane dharmanI paribhASA khabara nathI. mAtra sneharAganuM nimitta ! lagnanA varaghoDAmAM pAMca jaNane bolAvavA hoya topaNa Tenzana hoya ke chellI ghaDIe e kyAMka bhAgI na jAya! varaghoDo hemakhema nIkaLe ane vararAjAne lAge ke vararAjAnA ghaNA sArA mitro che. eTaluM thaI jAya to jaMga jItyA ! ane ahIM cAra hajAra jaNa to dIkSA levA taiyAra che... dIkSA eTale zuM enI to ekeyane khabara nathI, zuM karavAnuM enIya kAMI khabara nathI. basa, e nIkaLyA eTale ApaNeya nIkaLI javAnuM ! e cAle tyAM ApaNe cAlavAnuM ane e bese tyAM ApaNe besavAnuM. cAra hajAre dIkSA lIdhI! bhagavAnanA dIkSA-mahotsavamAM karoDo devatAo AvyA. "jayajaya naMdA, jayajaya bhadA'nA jayaghoSa gUMjI UThyA. bhagavAna "vosirAmi' kahIne UbhA rahI gayA. divya mAhola hato, devatAo upasthita hatA. bhagavAne loca karyo. pachI prabhue vihAra zarU karyo ane rastAmAM jaMgala AvyuM. cAra hajArano samUha emanI sAthe ne sAthe ! tamane ahIM macchara karaDe to vyAkhyAnamAM besI na zako. soco, tyAM jaMgalamAM kevuM haze? * DuMgarA dUrathIja raLiyAmaNA? | muMbaInA goragAMva pAse Are kaoNlonImAM ame saMgha laIne vihAra karatA nIkaLyA hatA. saMsArIpaNAmAM paNa tyAMthI nIkaLatA tyAre majA AvatI hatI. cha kilomITarano rasto, gADI calAvatA hoIe. baMne bAjuthI ThaMDI sarasa havA Ave. ema lAge ke avasara maLe to Aje kolonImAM rokAvA AvI jaIe. kevuM masta vAtAvaraNa che ! saMgha laIne nIkaLyA tyAre Aje - 31 -

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kaoNlonImAM rokAvAnuM thayuM. jyAM rokAyA hatA tyAM maccharonuM sAmrAjya ! tyAMthI gADImAM pasAra thavA pUratuM barAbara, paNa eka rAtri rokAvuM hoya to koI paNa hisAbe rAta na nIkaLe ! jayAM juo tyAM kIDIonAM dara dekhAya. kiIDIoya kevI? sIdhI DaMkha mArIne tamane sojo lAvI de evI! DuMgarA dUrathI raLiyAmaNA' kahevatano artha samajAI jAya! mAtra bahArathI ane dUrathI ja e suMdara lAge. have A badhA cAra hajAra jaNA nIkaLyA. bhagavAna kAussagga dhyAnamAM che. sAthe AvelA rAjAoe svAbhAvika rIte ja kyAreya maccharonA trAsa anubhavyA nahotA. Ama paNa e loko trIjA ArAmAM, eTale emaNe saMsAramAM duHkha joyuM nahotuM. chatAM e sahu TADha, taDako, garamI, ThaMDI - badhuM ja sneharAganA kAraNe sahana kare che. ApaNane khabara paDe ke ApaNA mATe koIka sahana kare che, to enA mATe kevo sneharAga baMdhAya! bhagavAnane sneharAganAM prabaLa nimitto bharapUra maLyAM, paNa kyAMyaneharAganuM nAmonizAna nahi! * dRSTirAgInI traNaviparIta dRSTi dRSTirAgavALI vyaktimAM traNa viparIta dRSTi hoya : (1) svadoSa darzanamAM (2) devaguru-dharma mATe, (3) mAnyatAomAM. daSTirAgavALI vyakti kyAreya potAnA doSa na joI zake. ghaNI vyakti evI hoya ke temanAmAM doSa hoya, paNa ajJAna paNa hoya. samajAvo to samajI jAya. pelAmAM doSa hoya paraMtu e doSone choDavA taiyAra na thAya. jANato hoya ke doSache. chatAM svIkAravA taiyAra na thAya. gADha dRSTirAgIne pApano anubaMdha evo paDe ke eno DUco nIkaLI jAya. teno saMsAra analimiTeDa hoya. maMda daSTirAgIno saMsAra limiTeDa hoya. koI samajAve to samajavAnI taiyArI hoya. bhagavAnane kyAMya potAnA doSo mATe Agraha nahoto. teo ekadama taTastha hatA. deva, guru dharma kone kahevAya e bAbatamAM tIrthakaro ekadama kliyara hoya. dareka bhagavAna pUrvanA trIjA bhavamAM jeTaluM bhaNelA hoya eTaluM jJAna sAthe laIne Ave. mahAvIra svAmI naMdana rAjarSinA bhavamAM agiyAra aMga bhaNelA hatA. temane dIkSA _2 32

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letAM pahelAM agiyAra aMganuM jJAna hatuM. RSabhadeva bhagavAna pUrvanA trIjA bhavamAM cauda pUrvabhaNelA. cauda pUrvanuM jJAna devalokamAM sAthe laI jaI zakAya nahi. chellA cAra pUrvanA jJAna mATe kampalasarI dIkSA joIe. dIkSA vagara e jJAna na Take. dasa pUrva devalokamAM TakI zake. devalokamAM cAritra nathI, eTale tyAM chellA cAra pUrva na Take. Avazyaka nivRttimAM pATha evo maLe che ke RSabhadeva bhagavAna cauda pUrvadhara hatA. ethI emanAmAM samyagdarzana che. e kAraNe daSTirAga eTale ke khoTI mAnyatA temanA jIvanamAM na hoya. * zreNika mahArAjAnI jema tameya pAsa thajo! zreNika mahArAjA ahIMthI marIne prathama narakamAM gayA. narakanuM AyuSya pUrNa karIne teo sIdhA padmanAbha nAmanA tIrthakara thaze. jarA UMDA UtarIe. tIrthakaranA janmamAM sUtro vagere bhaNe nahi. zreNika mahArAjAnA bhavamAM emaNe dIkSA lIdhI nathI, tethI 11 aMgAdi AgamasUtrono abhyAsa karyo nathI. eTale padmanAbha tIrthakara 11 aMgAdi AgamasUtrone bhaNelA nathI, chatAM 30varSa saMsAramAM rahevA chatAM eka paNa aprazasta kaSAya emanA jIvanamAM karaze nahi! tamane thaze ke kevI rIte vagara sUtra abhyAse aprazasta kaSAya karaze nahi? zreNika mahArAjAnA bhavamAM teo sUtrathI Agama abhyAsa nathI karyo chatAM sUtronA bhAvArthane jANe che. tethI temane potAnI bhUmikAe kartavya-akartavya vagerenuM jJAna che. eka vakhata zreNika mahArAjAe garbhavatI sAdhvIne joyAM. sAmAnya vyakti sAdhunA kerekTara vize negeTiva vAto sAMbhaLe to negeTiva riekzana Ave. vizvAsa halI jAya. dharma karanAranA jIvanamAM paNa khAmIo hoI zake, paNa ethI kAMI dharma khoTo puravAra na thaI jAya. devo zreNika mahArAjanI parIkSA kare che ane garbhavatI sAdhvI batAve che. emanI zraddhA saheja paNa vicalita thatI nathI. e zuM kare che ? garbhavatI sAdhvIjInI gupta rIte suvAvaDa karAvavAnI vyavasthA karAve che. tame zuM karo ? phalANA mahArAja sAhebamAM amuka bhUla che eTalI khabara paDe to vaoNTsepa ane TviTara ane phesabUka jevA sozyala mIDiyA para "khabara paDI?" A khabara paDI ?" kAgAroLa karI mUko. tene kAraNe ghaNI vakhata sAmenI vyaktine dharma pratye napharata thaI jAya. A rIta khoTI che. oNparezana karavAnI - 33 -

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rIta hoya. pahelAM enestheziyA Apavo paDe. kesa henDala karatAM na AvaDe to Akho kesa bagaDI jAya. kharekhara tamAre to kAMI karavAnuM nahi. gurune pUchavAnuM ane guru kahe tema karavAnuM. gurue paNa game tyAre game tema ziSyane paNa bhUla na batAvAya. ziSyane paNa bhUla batAvavAnI rIta hoya. ucita rIte, ucita kALe kahevAya. ApaNe guru thaIne game tema bolIe to kyAreka suyogya ziSyano paNa pitto chaTakI jAya. sAme saMbhaLAvI de ke, "gurujI, bAMdhI mUThI rahevA do have. tamArAmAM bahu jayaNA joI..' ene dharma mATe paNa durbhAva thaI jAya. Ama karavAthI saMbaMdho bagaDI jAya. eTale kyAreya AvuM karatA nahi. garbhavatI sAdhvIjInI parIkSA pachI have zreNika mahArAjane batAve che ke sAdhu mahArAja mAchalI pakaDe che. sAmAnya vyakti hoya to zuM kahe? mahArAja sAheba thaIne mAchalIo mAre che? mahArAja sAheba AvA hoya? tamane koI kahe ke phalANA mahArAjasAheba dArU pIe che athavA phalANA mahArAjasAheba bahArathI pinjhA vagere maMgAvIne vApare che. to tame zuM karo ? emAM tame sAMbhaLo ke rAtanA paNa khAya che, dArU paNa pIe che, sigAreTa pItA joyA hatA. A badhuM tame sAMbhaLyuM hoya to tame zuM karazo? tamane thaze ke A vAtamAM sabhya darzanano saMbaMdha kevI rIte Avyo? to sAMbhaLo. ghaNA loko udAharaNane AdhAre nirNaya karanArA hoya che. comAsAmAM dIkSA nahi ApavAnI, to e kema nahi ApavAnI? amArA jIvanamAM kadAca kAraNe kAcA pANInI virAdhanA azakya parivAra tarIke paNa nUtana dIkSita joze. ane evAmAM ame bhaNAvavA besIe ke pANInA eka TIpAmAM paNa asaMkhya jIva che. to ene prazna thAya ke vartanamAM AvuM alaga kema che? amArI viparIta AcaraNanA kAraNe enI mAnyatA pharI zake. manuSyane vyaktino kaDavo anubhava thAya to mAnyatA para phaTako paDe. AvuM saMsAramAM banatuM hoya che. mAravADIo mATe gujarAtIo zuM kahe ? mammI cusa! evuM banyuM haze ke ekAda mAravADI makhkhI cusa nIkaLyo haze. paNa have AkhI kAsTa mATe thaI gayuM ne? gujarAtI o mATe mAravADIonI mAnyatA jas - 34 -

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kevI? eka rUpiyo vAparI na zake ! evuM banyuM haze ke koI gujarAtIe nahi vAparyA hoya, paNa mAnyatA AkhI jAti upara thAya ne? ema AkhA gAma upara mAnyatA thAya ke A gAmanA loko eTale AvA poravAla eTale AvA ane osvAla eTale AvA. eTale vyakti A mAnyatAne AgaLa vadhArato jaze. je vyaktino kharAba anubhava thAya e vyakti je dharmano hoya e dharmane paNa kharAba mAnavamAMDaze. hamaNAM huM sigAreTa pitA koI mahArAjasAhebano phoTo batAvuM to badhA halI jAya. evA koI sigAreTa ke dArU pItA mahArAjasAheba nathI ! evI kalpanA paNa nahi karatA. A to huM tamane mAtra samajAvavA mATe ekjhAmpala ApI rahyo chuM. zAstramAM vAta Ave che. koI sAdhu pUrvakarmanA udaye galata raste caDI gayA. gaNikAnA gaLAmAM hAtha, moDhAmAM pAna sAthe eka prominanTa zrAvake joI lIdhA. sAdhune tyAM ja be thappaDa lagAvI de to chaThThInuM dhAvaNa yAda AvI jAya evI tAkAtavALA zrAvaka che. emanA pakSamAM bIjA pAMcaso-hajAra zrAvako bese tevI emanI pratibhA che. emaNe sAdhune AvI hAlatamAM joyA. baMnenI AMkho maLI. sAdhunI AMkho zaramathI nIce DhaLI gaI... zrAvakane thayuM emanAmAM lAyakAta to che. (lAyakAta na hoya to alaga pagaluM vicAravuM paNa paDe.) eTale zrAvaka ekadama eksaTrIma rIte maeNca ramyA. ghaNI vakhata maeNcane bahu alaga rIte ramavI paDe. kyAreka kaTokaTI hoya, chellI ovaro hoya to phAsTa paNa ramavuM paDe. ahIM zrAvakane lAgyuM ke zAMtithI maeNca ramavAmAM kAMI vAMdho nathI. emaNe sAdhu pAse jaIne vaMdana karyuM. vezyAnA gALAmAM hAtha, moDhAmAM pAna, AvA sAdhune sIdhuM vaMdana karIne tyAMthI cUpacApa cAlatA thayA. pelA mahArAjasAhebane eTaluM gilTa phila thayuM ke na pUcho vAta! mULa je parpajha hato gilTa phila karAvavAno, e thaI gayo. moTA bhAganA loko A rIte samajI ja zakatA nathI. koI ApaNane kahe ke saoNrI, jarA A kAmamAM bhUla thaI gaI. pelAe sorI kahI dIdhA pachI paNa "tArA kAmamAM koI ThekANAM nathI, tane kAMI samaja paDatI nathI !' kahIne eTaluM Torcara kare ke pelo mANasa kAM bhAgI jAya kAM naphaphaTa thaI jAya. ene sudharavAno cAnsa to Apavo ja paDe. - 35 -

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* maunathI maeNseja ApI dIdho... ahIM A zrAvake mahArAja sAhebane je kahevA jevuM hatuM e maunathI kahI dIdhuM. mahArAja sAhebane eTaluM gilTI phila thayuM ke emanuM jIvana parivartana thaI gayuM ane sAcA sAdhaka banI gayA. moTA bhAganA loko bIjAnA doSane pacAvI nathI zakatA. meM ghaNA evA loko joyA che ke be-cAra kharAba anubhavo thAya to khaLabhaLI UThe. "amane khabara che, mahArAjasAhebo kevA hoya che !" emane mana to mAyA eTale mAyA. mahArAjasAheba paNa mAyA kare che. mAyAnA paNa ghaNA prakAra che. kaI mAyA khataranAka kahevAya, kaI mAyA ochuM nukasAna kare enI kAMI khabara na paDe. mahArAjasAhebane zAstrakAroe cokkasa paristhitimAM AjJA karI che ke mAyA karavAnI. amane zIkhavADyuM che, TreiniMga ApI che. amAre spaMDilajavuM hoya to pahelAMnA vakhatamAM zarIranI zuddhi mATe ukALelA pANIno ja upayoga karatA evuM nahi, chAsanI Asa (chAsanI uparanuM pANI) vagereno upayoga paNa karatA. amAre pANInA TAMkA bharIne rAkhavAnA na hoya. aMDila javuM hoya to pahelAM pANI vahoravA javAnuM. A bAju khetara hoya ane tyAM brAhmaNanuM ghara hoya to khabara hoya ke bhAtanuM osAmaNa maLaze. e laIne jaIe eTale tarata khabara paDe ke jaMgale gayA. pelo mANasa vicAra kare ke AnAthI sApha karaze? ene evo bhrama na thAya eTale amAre pANI kyAMthI vahoravAnuM? UMdhI dizAmAMthI vahoravAnuM. jethI koIne ema ja lAge ke upAzraya jaI rahyA che. amAre AvI mAyA paNa karavI paDe. AcArya mahArAja paNa mAyA kare. mAyA zA mATe karI e paNa samajavuM paDe. AcArya mahArAje vAjabI kAraNathI mAyA karI hoya. ApaNe pAchA AvuM sAMbhaLIne badhI bAbatamAM mAyA karatA nahithavAnuM. ApaNe saraLa banatAM zIkhavAnuM che. - 36 - .

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-11 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNa ! daSTirAgatu pApIyAnuM duruccheda: satAmapi / vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka tame duniyAnI koI paNa vyaktine pUcho ke tAre sukha joIe che ke duHkha? darekano eka ja javAba Avaze : sukha, duHkha koIne joItuM nathI, paNa TrejeDI e che ke saMsAramAM sukhI mANaso karatAM duHkhI mANaso vadhAre dekhAya che. sukhanI vyAkhyA ane dizA saunI alaga che. koInA sukhanI dizA 4 bIecake (cAra beDarUma, haoNla ane kIcana)nI hoya che. muMbaInA sArA eriyAmAM 4 bIecake thaI jAya to potAne sukhI mAne. anameriDa yuvakayuvatIone sAro lAIpha-pArTanara meLavavAmAM sukha dekhAya che, to peranTsane potAnA saMtAnanAM lagna thaI jAya emAM sukha dekhAya che. lagna pachI saMtAna pedA thAya - emAMya ghaNAMne dIkaro janme emAM sukha dekhAya che. koIne potAnI kalA batAvIne selibriTi banI javAmAM sukha dekhAya che, to koIne sattA meLavavAmAM. sau potapotAnuM sukha pAmavA mathe che, paNa sAcuM sukha zuM enI koIne khabara nathI. bhagavAna kahe che tane sAcA sukhanI khabara nathI paDatI enuM kAraNa tAruM ajJAna (mithyAjJAna) che, eTale tuM ajJAna (mithyAjJAna) dUra kara. ajJAna dUra thatAM ja tuM sukhI thaI jaIza. * ajJAna eTale zuM? ajJAna che ? ajJAna agaNita bAbatonuM hoya che : iMgliza barAbara nathI AvaDatuM e ajJAna che, DAnsa karatAM nathI AvaDatuM e ajJAna che, hoTalamAM phorkathI khAtAM nathI phAvatuM e ajJAna che. kaI pArTImAM kaI rIte javuM, koI marI gayuM hoya to enI sAme kevI rIte besavuM ke kharakharo kaI rIte karavo, koInA lagnaprasaMge jaIe to tyAM kevI rIte vartavuM, koIne tyAM dIkaro janmyo hoya to ene vadhAmaNI kevI rIte ApavI, koIe kazIka saphaLatA

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meLavI hoya to tene kevI rIte abhinaMdana ApavA e nathI AvaDatuM - A tamAma ajJAna che. kintu ahIM evAM badhAM ajJAnanI vAta nathI. ahIM to huM koNa? ane "mAruM koNa?' e bAbatanA ajJAnanI vAta che. jo A bAbatamAM tamane jJAna thaI jAya to tamArA sukhanI dizA svayaM sAva spaSTa thaI jaze. "eTale AtmA ane "mAruM" eTale AtmAnA guNo, e sivAyanI AkhI duniyA pArakI che. ajJAne moha pedA karyo ane mohanA kAraNe bhrama thayo ke "huM eTale AtmA nahi paraMtu zarIra, indriya ane mana. "mAruM koNa ?' to kahe mAro parivAra, mAruM ghara, mAruM gAma, ane mAro deza. ghaNA loko DaoNkTara pAse jAya, paNa emanA roganuM paraphekTa nidAna ja na thAya. hoya TAiphoIDa ane meleriyAnI davA karyA kare to zuM thAya ? TAiphoIDa vadhato jAya ane meleriyAnI davAnI sAIDaIphekTa paNa thatI jAya. ApaNuMya evuM ja thayuM che. "huM koNa?" ane "mAruM koNa?" A be bAbatamAM ApaNA ajJAna (mithyAjJAna)nA kAraNe ApaNe AkhI imArata khoTI khaDI karI beThA. ajJAne moha pedA karyo, moha eTale Ilyujhana ane IlyujhananA kAraNe goTALo thayo. have e goToLAnA kAraNe kAM to rAga thAya athavA dveSa thAya. kAmarAga, neharAga ane dRSTirAga A traNa rAga bahu bhayaMkara che. ApaNe dRSTirAga vize ApaNe vAta karI rahyA chIe. * dRSTirAga UMdhA cazamA paherAvI de che dRSTirAga evo kharAba che ke e tamArI mAnyatAne UlaTI karI nAkhaze. tamane e UMdhA cazmA paherAvI deze. e ema kaheze ke AkhI jiMdagI phakta dharma na karavAno hoya, dharma limiTamAM ane amuka uMmare ja karavo joIe. bacapana e kaMI dharma karavAnI uMmara nathI, dharma to buDhApAmAM ja karavAno hoya. ekAda sAmAyika karIne thoDI vAra TIvI joIe to emAM kaMI khoTuM nathI. cauvihAra karo, navakArazI karo, pUjA karo - e badhuM barAbara che; paNa dharma kAMI covIse kalAka karavAnI cIja nathI. A tamAma sTeTamenTsa - 38 -

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dRSTirAganAM che. daSTirAga tamArI bhItara viparIta mAnyatAo ThoMsI deze. * dRSTirAga konAmAM Ave? sauprathama to jenAmAM svadoSadarzananI kuzaLatA ke kSamatA na hoya eTale ke je vyakti potAnA doSo joI zakatI na hoya evI vyaktimAM dRSTirAga IjhIlI pravezI zake. ghaNA loko potAnI bhUla pote to nathI ja joI zakatA, paraMtu tame emanI bhUla batAvo topaNa e jAtajAtanAM bahAnAM banAvaze ane potAnI bhUla svIkAravAne badale chupAvavAnI koziza karaze. bIjA naMbare dRSTirAga enAmAM Ave jemanI dharma bAbate viparIta dRSTi hoya. mAtra sAdhuno veza paheryo eTale e saMsArI karatAM to mahAna ane pavitra ja hoya ema mAnavuM e paNa daSTirAga che. koI DaoNkTarano veza pahere eTalA mAtrathI kaMI DaoNkTara na banI javAya. DaoNkTaranA vezanI sAthe DaoNkTaranA pAyAnA guNadharma tathA AcAra paNa hovA joIe, DaoNkTaranuM naoNleja paNa joIe. ema sAdhuno veza paherelo hoya, paNa pAyAnA AcAra na hoya to? meM sAdhuno veza paheryo che paNa have huM gADImAM pharuM, karoDonA kArabhAra saMbhALuM : A badhuM karuM to huM mAtra nAmadhArI sAdhu ja kahevAuM. keTalAka loko kahe che ke deva, guru, dharma game tevA hoya ApaNe zuM? bAvasI game te hoya ApaNe jovAnuM nahi, e mAnyatA paNa daSTirAgache. trIjA naMbare dRSTirAganI khoTI mAnyatA e ke gharamAM gADI ane nokaracAkara joIe ja. tamane sArI nokarI maLe, gharamAM gADI Ave emAM (pAMca indriyanA viSayomAM) jIvananI sArthakatA lAge e daSTirAga kahevAya. Ama dRSTirAga sauthI bhayaMkara ane sauthI kharAba che kAraNa ke e ApaNane bhrAntimAM bharamAvIne UlaTI dizAmAM kheMcI jAya che. * kAmarAga, sneharAga, dRSTirAgavagaranuM jIvana ApaNe joyuM ke bhagavAnanA jIvanamAM kAmarAga, sneharAga ke daSTirAgano aMza paNa jovA maLato nathI. bhagavAnano janma madhyarAtrie thAya ane ekAda kalAkanI aMdara indra AvIne bhagavAnane meru parvata para laI jAya, tyAM abhiSeka thAya. (ghaNAne khabara paNa nahi hoya ke meru parvata

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sonAno banelo che.) abhiSeka mATenA ekaeka kaLazanA nALacAmAMthI relAtI dhArA nAyagrA pholsa karatAM vizALa hoya. bhagavAnano abhiSeka jovA jevo ke nAyagrA pholsa jovA jevo? pholsa jovA jAuM to dIkSA na laI zakAya ane yathArtha dIkSAthI mokSa thAya, mokSa nahi to chevaTe devaloka thAya. bhagavAnanA abhiSeka jovAnI amArI hAIcoIsa che. tame bhale rastA paranuM lArInuM khAI lo ame khAIe nahi. tame roDa para paNa pAuvaDA khAI lo. tame loko garIba cho, ame amIra chIe. amArI coIsa hAI che. ame mAtherAna, mahAbaLezvara jaIe paNa nahi ane joIe paNa nahi, kema ke jovA jevo bhautika rIte paNa meru parvata para janmotsava che. bALaka jevA tamane samajavA pUratuM A rIte lakhyuM che. kharekhara to AtmAnA guNa sivAya duniyAmAM kazuM jovA jevuM ke bhogavavA jevuM nathI. meru parvata para bhagavAnano abhiSeka thayo. tame ekaeka vastu jotA jAo. pahelAM to indra temane meru parvata para laI gayA. indranuM zarIra, emanuM rUpa badhuM kevuM nirALuM ! bhagavAnane indrano kevo divya sparza maLe ! emano hAtha phUla jevo mulAyama hoya. bhagavAnane emanA khoLAmAM besavA maLe. have juo bhagavAnane pAMceya indriyonA viSayono kevo AhvAda maLato haze...! 1. sparzanendriyano viSaya : paroDhanI havA zItaLa-gulAbI hoya. bhagavAnane madhyarAtrie laI jAya eTale bhagavAnanA zarIrane eno zIta sparza thAya. bhagavAnane abhiSeka kare to pANI emane anukULa Ave evuM hUMphALuM hoya, e sparzendriyano viSaya. vaLI bhagavAnanA janmotsava mATe upakaraNomAM suvarNanA, rUpAnA, ratnanA, suvarNa-rUpAnA, suvarNa-ratnanA, suvarNa-rUpA ane ratnanA, rUpA-ratnanA, ane mATInA ema ATha prakAranA suMdara kalAkArIgarIvALA kaLaza. darekanA 1008 suMdara kaLaza banAvyA hoya. jANe tribhovana bhImajI nahi, paraMtu AkhuM jhaverIbajAra tyAM utArI dIdhuM hoya evuM lAge ! chatAM bhagavAna emAM kyAMya lepAyA nahi. 2. rasanendriyano viSaya : bhagavAna janme eTale tarata emanA - 40 -

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aMgUThAmAM amRta vasI jAya. bhagavAna stanapAna na kare, potAno aMguTho cUse. emAM je addabhuta rasa hoya e rasanendriyano viSaya. 3. dhrANendriyano viSayaH meru parvata para Avela bhadrazALa, naMdana, saumanasa ane pAMDuka vanamAMthI gauzIrSacaMdana lAvIne devatAoe sugaMdhita dhUpa-dIpa abhuta pragaTAvyAM hoya e dhrANendriyano viSaya. 4. cakSurindriyano viSaya : indra-iMdrANIonAM rUpa adabhuta hoya eTale e cakSurindriyano viSaya. pa. karNendriyano viSaya : tyAM saMgIta aphalAtUna cAlatuM hoya e karmendriyano viSaya. Ama pAMca indriyanA viSayo maLavA chatAM bhagavAnane kyAMya kAmarAga sparyo nahi. have ApaNe sneharAganI vAta karIe. tamArA gharamAM tame dIkSA levAnI vAta karo to zuM thAya? pacAsa varSanA pitAjI ane mammI baMne dIkSA levAnI vAta kare to zuM thAya? tamAruM haiyuM harakhathI bolI UThe ke je gurujIe emane dharma pamADyo emane koTi koTi dhanyavAda! have A loko gharamAMthI jaze eTale kakaLATa ane kaTakaTa badhuM baMdha. have ApaNe pUrNa AjhAda ! have game tyAM pharo, game te Dresa pahero, game te rasoI karo. koI rokaToka nahi ane kazI kaTakaTa nahi ! moTA bhAge tamArI manaH sthiti AvI hoya che. jayAre RSabhadeva bhagavAne putra bharatane dIkSAnI vAta karI, tyAre bharata tarata kahe che ke huM paNa tamArI sAthe AvIza. tame ghara choDatA ho to huM paNa choDIza. jayAM tame, tyAM huM. A sneharAgache. bhagavAna phorsaphullI bharatane mUkIne jAya che. bhagavAna sAthe cAra hajAra rAjA dIkSA levA taiyAra che. tame comAsuM karavA pAlitANA jAva ke karIne pAchA pharo to tamane sTezane levA-mUkavA jeTalo paNa koIne bhAva hoya che kharo? dharma ane dIkSA zuM che enI 4 hajAra rAjAone kazI khabara nathI. bhagavAne dIkSA lIdhI ane vastro utArI nAkhyAM to A lokoe paNa utArI nAkhyAM. bhagavAna kare ema ja A loko paNa kare. bhagavAna gocarI-pANI --- 41 -

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vahoravA jAya che. eka varSa sudhI nirdoSa gocarI maLatI nathI. A lokone thAya ApaNe zuM karavuM? bhUkha lAgI che. bhagavAna to kaMI bolatAya nathI. pahelAM to jeTalA paNa prazno bhagavAnane pUchatA hatA, enA javAbo bhagavAna tarata ApatA hatA. have bhagavAna sAdhu thaI gayA che ane sAme paNa jotA nathI, bolatA ja nathI. bhagavAna cAle eTale ApaNe cAlavAnuM, e UbhA rahe to UbhA rahevAnuM. emanI pAchaLa pAchaLa pharyA karavAnuM. chatAM A lokono sneharAga jarA paNa ocho nathI thato. tame roja vaMdana karavA Avo, chatAM ame tamArI sAme paNa na joIe, to tamane vaMdanamAM ullAsa rahe? * bALa-vardhamAnanI kasoTI bhagavAna mahAvIra bALaka hatA tyAre emanuM nAma vardhamAna hatuM. devalokamAM indra vardhamAnakumAranAM bharapUra vakhANa karyA : "A bALavardhamAnanuM manobaLa abhuta che. enA jevuM manobaLa saMsAramAM koInuM nahi hoya! e koIthI Darato ke gabharAto nathI." devone thayuM ke ATalA nAnA ATha varSanA chokarAne gabharAvavo - DarAvavo e to DAbA hAthanuM kAma che. hamaNAM ene gabharAvIne AvI jAuM. deva vardhamAnanI parIkSA karavA gayA. vardhamAna emanA mitro sAthe ramatA hatA. e gema evI hatI ke je hArI jAya ene khabhA para UMcakIne javuM paDe. kasoTI karavA AvelA deva irAdApUrvaka hArI gayA. vardhamAnanA khabhA para besatI vakhate deve potAnA dehane virATa karI dIdho chatAM te jarAya na DaryA. bhagavAne avadhijJAnathI joyuM ke A to deva che ane kasoTI karavA AvyA che. vardhamAne sIdho mukko mAryo. hita hatuM eTale mAryuM. emAM badalo levAnI vRtti nahotI. ApaNI mAnasikatA kevI hoya che ? krodha tyAre ja karavAno jyAre pahoMcI zakIe ema lAge. sAmeno ekalo che ane ApaNe pacIsa jaNa chIe to be-cAra ThapakArI daIzuM, paNa sAme pacAsa jaNa haze ane ApaNe ekalA hoIzuM to sorI kahIne pAchA vaLI jaIzuM. sAcuM kahejo, ApaNe krodha icchIe chIe ke zAMti? potAnuM jora cAle tyAM krodha ane potAnuM jora cAle evuM na hoya to zAMti, kharuMne? krodha ApaNane kharekhara kharAba lAge che kharo ? krodha karavo ja na joIe evI ApaNI majabUta mAnyatA nathI. bhagavAne krodha karyo paNa prazasta krodha karyo. enA hita - 42

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mATe karyo. bhagavAna kyAreya aprazasta rAga-dveSa karatA ja nathI. * insalTa chatAM IjhI! rAjayanA loko kamaTha tApasanAM darzana karavA UmaTyA che, tyAre bhagavAna kamaThane zAMtithI samajAve che. A paMcAgni tapamAM hiMsA che. tyAre kamaTha bhagavAnane kahe che, "kamaTha kahe suNa rAjavI, tume azva khilAvo.' arthAt "tamane dharmamAM zI gatAgama paDe? dharma to amArA jevA yogIono viSaya che. tame rAjakumAra cho, tamane to mAtra ghoDA calAvatAM AvaDe !" bhagavAnanuM ghora insalTa thayuM topaNa bhagavAnane bilakula dveSa thayo nahi. anukULatAo maLe topaNa rAga nahi ane pratikULatAo maLe topaNa dveSa nahi. ye apane basa kI bAta nahi! tame kahezo ke bhagavAna AvuM karI zake. kAmarAga, sneharAga, dRSTirAga vagaranuM jIvana bhagavAna jIvI zakyA. ye hamAre basa kI bAta nahi hai...' to have tamArA jevA saMsArInuM ekjhAmpala sAMbhaLo. bhagavAna mahAvIranA parama bhakta zreNika mahArAjano dIkaro naMdISeNa pAMcaso kanyAone paraNyo che. bhagavAnanI dezanA sAMbhaLIne nIkaLI gayo. kAmarAgane daphanAvyo. eka vakhata potAnA ziSyomAMthI eka ziSyano dIkSAmAMthI bhAva UtarI gayo. have ene dharmamAM sthira kema karavo? naMdISeNe eka prayoga karyo. bhagavAnanuM samavasaraNa racAyeluM che. naMdiSeNe dIkSA lIdhI che eTale patnIoe sapheda sADI paherI che. koI vRMgAra nathI karelo. tamAma patnIoe have sobhAgI hovA chatAM brahmacarya pALavAnuM che. AthI sAdagI svIkArI che. AvI pAMcaso patnI tyAMthI nIkaLe che. naMdISaNa emanA ziSyane laI samavasaraNanA daravAjAnI bahAra UbhA che. badhI strIone jatI joIne e kahe che ke, "A badhI mArI patnIo hatI, emane choDIne meM dIkSA lIdhI che." ziSya samajI jAya che ke AvuM sukha choDIne emaNe dIkSA lIdhI? mane to AvuM sukha maLavAnuM paNa nathI... toya huM to kevI tuccha bAbatamAM huM rAgI thayo? naMdISeNanI patnIo padminI strIo hatI. padminI eTale e lokoe je kapaDuM paheryuM hoya ke kapaDAne tame taDakAmAM sUkAvo to emAMthI e lokonA

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pasInAnI evI sugaMdha Ave ke enA para bhamarA AvI jAya ! paraphyuma lagADavAnI jarUra ja nahi. AvI strIone choDI che ! naMdISeNe kAmarAgane daphanAvI daIne dIkSA lIdhI ane eno bhAI meghakumAra paNa kAmarAga, sneharAgane Thokara mAre che. paMdara-soLa varSanI uMmare ATha kanyAone paraNyo che enA pitAe eka alaga mahela laIne Apyo ane ATha patnIonA ATha mahela enI AjubAjumAM. vacce potAno mahela. Akho divasa vilAsa ane jalasA karavA sivAya kaMI ja kAma nahi karavAnuM. eka divasa bhagavAnanI dezanA sAMbhaLIne te dIkSA levAnI vAta kare che. enA jIvanamAM prabaLa sneharAganuM nimitta che. e pitAne kahe che, "mAre dIkSA levI che. tame hamaNAM gharamAM vAta karo. jo tamArI saunI hA hoya to huM Aje ja dIkSA laI lauM.." meghakumAre jevI vAta karI ke tarata mAtA behoza thaI gaI ! kevo sneharAga ! meghakumAranA virahane sAMbhaLI paNa na zake. pitA kahe che koI paNa hisAbe tane dIkSA nahi ApuM. pote bhagavAna mahAvIranA bhakta che ane dIkSA levA jevI che evuM samaje che, paNa sneharAgane kAraNe putrane dIkSAnI nA pADatAM kahe che, dIkarA ! tAre dIkSA levI hoya to eka zarata che. tuM eka vAra rAjA bana. tane eka vakhata rAjA banato jovAnuM mAruM aramAna che. pachI bhale tAre dIkSA levI hoya to leje." dIkaro bolyo, 'bhale pitAjI! ApanI zarata mane maMjUra che. Apa vahelI take rAjayAbhiSekanI taiyArI karo." maMgala muhUrta rAjyAbhiSeka prAraMbhAyo. navA rAjAne siMhAsana para besADe pachI niyama anusAra jUnA rAjAe navA rAjAne hAtha joDIne kahevAnuM ke, "AjJA pharamAvo. ApanI AjJA mane ziromAnya raheze. A dvArA ema sUcavAtuM ke have A navo rAjA che ane te mane paNa mAnya che. prajAe paNa havethI ene anusaravAnuM che. AvuM ja amAre AcAryapadavI vakhate thAya. AcAryapadavI Ape tyAre moTA AcArya mahArAja navA AcArya mahArAjane pATa para besADe. navA AcArya mahArAja ziSya hoya topaNa guru saunI samakSa emane guruvaMdana karIne pUche: "kaMI kAmakAja hoya to jaNAvo. e dvArA teo saMghane ema batAve che ke have mane paNa AcArya tarIke e mAnya che. tame mane je rispekTa Apo cho e ja rispekTa have emane paNa Apajo." - 44 6

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meghakumAre navA rAjA tarIke AjJA karI, "mAre tatkALa dIkSA levI che, varaghoDo kADhavAnI taiyArI karo !" joyuM? samagra magadhanuM sAmrAjaya maLyuM topaNa ene kAmarAga aDyo nahi. AvA premALa pitA hovA chatAM ene sneharAga naDyo nahi. teo saMsArI hovA chatAM emaNe kAmarAga, sneharAgane daphanAvI dIdhA che. eTale ApaNe paNa jo daphanAvavAnI mahenata karIzuM to ApaNe paNa saksesa thaIzuM. have ApaNe dRSTirAgane AgaLa joIe. svadoSadarzana nahi Ave tyAM sudhI daSTirAga jaze nahi. agnizarmAnuM ekjhAmpala yAda karavA jevuM che. agnizarmAnA jIvanamAM utkRSTa sAdhanA che. 60,000 varSa mAsakSamaNanA pAraNe mAsakSamaNa karyA che. eka varSanAM bAreka mAsakSamaNa eTale 60,000 varSanAM kula lagabhaga 7, 20,000 mAsakSamaNa thAya. AvuM koI tapasvI atyAre jaina saMghamAM che? ApaNuM eTaluM dIrgha AyuSya paNa nathI. ahIM to eka jaghare javAnuM ane tyAM je maLyuM e vAparIne mAsakSamaNa karavAnuM. agnizarmAnuM mAthuM trikoNa AkAranuM, ekadama vicitra che ane rAjAnA dIkarAe teno evo vicitra AkAra joyo eTale ene kutUhala thayuM. tame juo be phUTano mANasa atyAre vyAkhyAnamAM Ave to badhA jovA mATe ToLe vaLI jaze e mANasane be hAtha-be paga che, pharaka basa eTalo ja che ke enI hAITa ochI che emAM jovA jevuM zuM? e ja rIte koI nava-dasa phUTanI hAITavALo mANasa Ave topaNa saunuM dhyAna enA tarapha jaze. A kutUhalavRtti che. pelA rAjakumArane A vicitra AkAranA chokarAnI mastI karavAnI majA paDI gaI. rAjAno dIkaro herAna kare to ene koNa rokI zake? agnizarmAnAM mAbApa ene samajAve che ke tArA koI pUrvanA karmano udaya haze, tethI tuM sahana kara. rojaroja thatI kadarthanAthI kaMTALIne e potAnuM gAma choDIne nIkaLI jAya che. tApasInA eka AzramamAM jaI pahoMce che. tApasIe ene umaLakAthI AvakAryo. tApasIe ene evI uSmAthI AvakAryo ke eNe tyAM ja dIkSA laI lIdhI. tame vyAkhyAnamAM beThA ho ane koI Ave to ene besavA mATe jagA karI ApavI joIe chatAM ghaNA loko thoDuM eDajasTa karIne 9. 45 9

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besavAnI jagA karI ApatA nathI. are, bhAI ! eka-doDha kalAka pachI to Ameya A jagA choDI ja devAnI che. chatAM thoDI vAra mATe paNa mamatva rAkhe ke huM A jagA nahi choDuM. * taphAvata samajajo saMsAramAM loko agnizarmAnI majAka karatA hatA ane tApaso ene 'mahAtmA' zabdathI satkAre che. ahIM eka vAta samajajo. anya saMnyAsIonA AcAra ane jaina sAdhunA AcAramAM jamIna-AsamAnano pharaka che. anya saMnyAsIo gRhasthano vinaya kare, ene 'padhAro" kahI satkAre paNa kharA, cA-pANI dvArA svAgata paNa kare. amAro evo AcAra nathI. sapaoNjha, tame mane vaMdana karavA Avo to tamAruM svAgata-sanmAna karavAno mAro AcAra nathI. AvakAra paNa na ApIe ke "Avo', "beso ema paNa na kahIe. amArA AcAra sAva alaga che. agnizarmAe saMnyAsa laIne sAdhanA zarU karI. mAsakSamaNanA pAraNe mAsakSamaNa karavAnuM. kapaDAmAM jhADanI chAla paherI levAnI. zarIra lAkaDA jevuM thaI gayuM che. eka divasa rAjA guNasena ghoDA calAvato-calAvato tyAM Ave che ane pUche che ke, tamAre tyAM ATalA badhA sAdhako che emAM naMbara vana sAdhaka koNa che? mAre enAM darzana karavAM che. mukhya tApase kahyuM, "agnizarmA nAmano tApasa che enA jevI sAdhanA amArA AkhA AzramamAM koI nathI karatuM.' guNasena rAjA agnizarmA pAse jAya che. ene pacIsamo upavAsa che chatAM pAraNAnI koI ciMtA nathI. rAjA guNasena tene pUche che ke, "tamane Avo vairAgya kevI rIte thayo? tame A badhuM kevI rIte ane kayA hetuthI choDI zakyA?" agnizarmA kahe che, "guNasena nAmanA eka rAjakumArano mArA para upakAra che. eNe mArI khUba mazkarI karI, mane herAna karyo. e kAraNe Aje huM ahIM pahoMcI zakyo ane tApasa thayo!' tame vicAro, guNasena pratye ene jarAyadveSa nathI. A tarapha guNasana

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gilTa phIla kare che. e kahe che, "huM ja guNasena chuM ane Apa jevA mahAtmAnI meM kadarthanA karI eTale A kSaNe huM khUba dilagIrI anubhavuM chuM. have mArA para eka upakAra karo. have jyAre pAraNuM karavAnuM Ave tyAre mArA ghare rAkho.' agnizarmA kahe che, "AyakhAno zo etabAra? pAMca divasa pachI huM jIvato hoIza ke marelo hoIza enI kone khabara che? chatAM jo huM jIvIza to avazya tArA ghare AvIza." jaina sAdhu ane A lokonA AcArano A taphAvata paNa samajo. amane koI gocarInI vinaMtI kare to ame kanpharma nahi karIe. jo huM kanpharma karuM ane AvuM tyAre koI kAraNe tamAruM ghara baMdha hoya to mane dveSa thAya ke A mANasa akkala vagarano - bhAna vagarano che. pahelAM vinaMtI kare che ane pachI ghara baMdha karIne jato rahe che. paNa ame kanpharma karyuM ja na hoya eTale ame te vyaktine blema karI ja nahi zakIe. eNe jayAre kahyuM ke "gocarIpANIno lAbha Apajo" tyAre ame kahyuM, "vartamAna joga.' have enuM ghara baMdha hoya, enA ghare rasoIna banI hoya, to amane enA pratye dveSa nahi thAya. kAraNa ke ame ene khAtarI ApI nahotI ke tAre tyAM gocarI-pANI vahoravA AvIzuM. agnizarmAe to kanpharma karI nAkhyuM ke "jIvIza to huM tArA ghare AvIza." ane e enA ghare pahoMcyo. have e ja divase evuM banyuM ke rAjAne mAthuM du:khavA AvyuM. AkhI rAjasabhA TenzanamAM hatI. e ja samaye agnizarmA Ave che. koI ene jotuM ja nathI. e pAcho vaLIne navuM mAsakSamaNa laI le che. bIjA divase rAjAne khabara paDe che. pharI tenI pAse jAya che. agnizarmA kahe che, "have to mAruM navuM mAsakSamaNa zarU thaI gayuM che. rAjA mAphI mAge che ane kahe che, "ThIka che, have tamArA navA mAsakSamaNanA pAraNAno lAbha mane Apajo." agnizarmA bIjI vakhata pAraNA mATe gayo. A vakhate rAjAne tyAM dIkarAno janma thayo hato, sau harakhadhelA hovAnA kAraNe koI agnizarmA tarapha jotuM nathI. e pAcho Avyo. tame vicAro tamAre ekAsaNuM, AyaMbila ke biyAsaNuM hoya ane AvuM thAya to ? agnizarmAne rAjAe pAcho trIjI vakhata bolAvyo. trIjI vakhate yuddhanI taiyArI cAlatI hovAthI dhyAna na rahyuM. have Ano pitto gayo. ene gusso - 47 -

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karavAnuM nimitta maLyuM. tamArI rIte vicArIe to vAjabI nimitta che. nevuMnevuM upavAsa thayA hoya, vAraMvAra pAraNA mATe AmaMtrita karavA chatAM enA tarapha dhyAna na apAtuM hoya to gusso Ave ke na Ave? agnizamane thayuM ke A rAjA mane herAna karavA mATe ja Ama kare che. AzramanA kulapati ene samajAve che, "bhaIlA ! evuM nathI, Akasmika AvuM thaI jAya che. enA manamAM tane herAna karavAno bhAva nathI. tuM gusse na thA." e kahe, "Akasmika nathI thatuM, irAdApUrvaka thAya che. badhA bahu samajAve che, chatAM eno gusso ocho thato nathI ane niyANuM kare che ke jo mArA tapanI tAkAta hoya to Ane bhavobhava mAranAro thAuM ! 60,000 varSanI ugra sAdhanA eLe gaI. zAstromAM lakhyuM che ke jayAM sudhI tamane svadoSano gADha pakSapAta che, tame tamArA doSo joI nathI zakatA, tyAM sudhI dharmamAM tamArI enTrI paNa nathI thatI. ATalI ugra sAdhanA pachI paNa agnizamano saMsAra jarA paNa kapAyo nahi, UlaTAno anaMta saMsAra vadhyo. agnizarmAe ahIM vicAravuM joItuM hatuM ke huM duHkhI to pAraNAnI icchAne kAraNe chuM. A vAta e samajI na zakyo. * sva-doSa jovAnuM zIkhIe ApaNA jIvanamAM ApaNe svadoSane jotAM zIkhIe. ApaNane khabara paDavI joIe ke mArAmAM keTalA doSo che. ApaNane mAna-kaSAya hoya, mAyAkaSAya hoya, lobha-kaSAya hoya; e badhAne vAjabI gaNAvIe chIe. tamane pUchavAmAM Ave ke koInAM maeNreja che ane te vyakti mekaapa karIne Ave to e vAjabI kahevAya ke geravAjabI? tame kahezo mekaapa karIne AvyA emAM vaLI zuM geravAjabI? mekaapa eTale tame je nathI e tame batAvavA mAgo cho. tamArA hoTha lAla nathI ane tame tamArA hoTha lAla batAvavA mAgo cho. A eka prakAranI mAyA che. have A mAyAne tame vAjabI gaNazo to tamArAmAM daSTirAga Avaze. tame hoTha lAla karo enAthI pApa lAge paNa e daSTirAga nathI, paraMtu tame e meka-apane vAjabI Theravazo to daSTirAga Avaze. tamAro anaMta saMsAra vadhAraze. tamane thaze ke koI chokarInAM lagna hoya to eNe zRMgAra to karavAno ja hoya ne! e zRMgAra na kare to zuM vidhavAno veza paherIne jAya? tame mekaapa karo e alaga vAta, paNa mekaapane Avazyaka - 48 -

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samajavAnI khoTI mAnyatA AvI gaI to e khataranAka. evI agaNita bAbatomAM tamArI mAnyatA ja hoya che. lagna karyA hoya to hanImUna para jAya ja ne? hanImUna para na jAya to kyAM jAya? AkhuM varSa pharaze, pAMca-pacAsa varSa pharaze, duniyAnI koI jagA bAkI na rAkhe to pharanArane pApa baMdhAze. paNa hanImUna karavA jevuM che ema lAgaze to pApanA anubaMdho cAlaze. loko varSamAM vIsa-pacIsa divasa ke vadhAremAM vadhAre eka mahinAthI vadhAre bahAra pharavA nahi jatA hoya. paNa mAnyatAnA kAraNe covIsa kalAka pApa baMdhAya. pharavA jAya nahi tyAre paNa e lokone pApa baMdhAya. Aje nakkI karajo ke jemAM doSa lAge evI koI bAbatamAM mAro pakSapAta nahi ja hoya. tame kadAca kaMIka ayogya ke anucita karatA ho evuM banI zake, tamArA jIvanamAM koI vastu khoTI ke kharAba hoI zake, paNa ene kyAreya protsAhana na Apo. haDakAyA kUtarAne mArI nAkhyuM hoya ane e ema mAne ke meM pApa karyuM che to eno hajI paNa nikAla thaI zake; paNa jeo pApane karavA jevAM mAne emano nikAla koI kALe paoNsibala nathI. ApaNA dharmamAM bhagavAne pANI ukALeluM pIvAnI vyavasthA ApI che. AjanA DokTaro paNa ukALeluM pANI pIvuM sAruM kahe che. tame bhagavAnane pholo karo cho ke DokTarane? tame bhagavAnanA niyamone pholo nathI karatA, DokTara kahe eTalA niyamo ja pholo karo cho. bhagavAne kahyuM che eTale nahi, paNa DaoNkTara kahe ke rAtribhojanano tyAga karavAthI zarIranI phiTanesa TakI rahe, peTa paNa na vadhe. zarIra AkhuM simeTrikala rahe ane ApaNe pachI jImamAM jaIne je mahenata karIe chIe e mahenata vyartha na jAya - to ene tame pholo karazo. jaina AcArAsaMhitAnI A vaijJAnikatA ApaNe vAyA DaoNkTara samajavI paDe to e ApaNI majabUrI gaNAya, dhArmikatA nahi. - 49 -

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-1ra kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNa / dRSTirAgastu pApIyAnuM duruccheda: satAmapi | vitarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka ajJAna ja duHkhanuM mULa che. ajJAnathI moha ane mohathI rAga-dveSa thAya che. rAga-dveSa na hoya to koI duHkha nathI. "huM koNa" ane "mAruM koNa A bAbatanuM ajJAna cAlyuM jAya to ApaNuM kalyANa thAya. e ajJAna mohanA kAraNe jatuM nathI. huM eTale AtmA. mArA AtmAnA guNo e "mAruM" che. tamane lAge che ke dIkaro mAro che, bilDiMga mArI che, gADI mArI che. A badhuM ajJAna che. A ajJAna kema nathI jatuM? ajJAna moha para TakyuM che. mohanA kAraNe rAga ane dveSa pedA thAya che. rAga ane dveSanA kAraNe ApaNo saMsAra cAlyA kare che. e rAga ane dveSane ApaNe khatama karavA che. * rAgano krama ApaNe rAgane oLakhavAnI koziza karI rahyA chIe. traNa prakAranA kharAba rAga kADhI nAkhavA jevA che : kAmarAga, sneharAga ane dRSTirAga. A krama pAchaLa paNa kAraNa che. koI paNa vastune krama ApavAmAM khAsa kAraNa hoya. jinazAsanane bhaNavAnI paddhati tame zIkhI jajo ke krama sisTameTikalI ApavAmAM paNa kAraNa che. tame pratikramaNamAM sAta lAkha' sUtra bolo cho. jIvasRSTinI gaNatarI emAM che. sAta lAkha pRthvIkAya, sAta lAkha apakAya, sAta lAkha teukAya, sAta lAkha vAyukAya, dasa lAkha pratyeka vanaspatikAya. Avo krama kema batAvyo puthvIkAya prathama kema? sauthI mosTa anDara Devalapa jIva pRthvIkAyanA che. pRthvIkAyamAM jIva jevuM kaMI dekhAya ja nahi. pRthvIkAya olamosTa jaDa jevA che. emanAmAM jIvanAM lakSaNa nathI dekhAtAM. enA karatA thoDA Devalapa akAyanA jIva, tyArabAda teukAyanA jIva, pachI vAukAyanA jIva, chelle vanaspatikAyanA jIva. emanA vikAsakramamAM jIva jevAM lakSaNa dekhAya. vanaspatimAM jIvanAM lakSaNo dekhAya. krodha, mAna, mAyA spaSTa dekhAya. -- 50 -

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pRthvIkAya, akAya, teukAyamAM spaSTa dekhAya. jIvanAM lakSaNo sauthI vadhAre ekendriyamAM vanaspatimAM dekhAya ane sauthI ochAM pRthvIkAyamAM dekhAya. enAthI vadhu apakAyamAM, enAthI vadhAre teukAyamAM. mATe A krama Apyo che. ema ApaNe kAmarAga, sneharAga, daSTirAga pariharu e muhapattinA paDilehaNa vakhate bolIe chIe. pahelAM kAmarAga pachI neharAga pachI dRSTirAga kema bolavAnuM? kAmarAga kADhavo kaThina, tenA karatAM sneharAga kADhavo vadhAre kaThina ane dRSTirAga enA karatAM paNa kaThina che. ene kADhavo ati duSkara che. pahelA dhoraNa karatAM bIjuM dhoraNa kaThina, bIjA karatAM trIjuM, trIjA karatAM cothuM. kAmarAga kone kahevAya to kahe pAMca indriyanA anukULa viSayo eTale haravuM, pharavuM, khAvuM, paheravuM, nAcavuM, sAMbhaLavuM A badhA viSayo gamavA e che kAmarAga. kAmarAgI vyakti mukhyatve svArthI hoya. mAbApa dIkarAne janma Ape, uchere. mAbApa evI icchAthI uchere che ke dIkaro moTo thaIne amArA ghaDapaNano AdhAra banaze. mAbApano e kAmarAga che. dIkarAne paNa mAbApanI jarUra hatI tyAM sudhI emanA kahyAmAM rahyo. enuM bhaNatara patI gayuM, enAM lagna thaI gayAM, enI tamAma anukULatAo goThavAI gaI eTale e mAbApane bhUlI gayo. eno mAbApa pratyeno kAmarAga hato. kAmarAgavALI vyaktio AvI svArthI hoya. moTA bhAganI duniyA AvI ja hoya che. e loko dharmanA philDamAM Ave topaNa jue ke kayA ma. sA. pAse upadhAna karavA jaIe to prabhAvanA vadhAre maLaze ? kayA ma. sA.nA bhakto karoDapati che? emane tyAM jaIe to ApaNI oLakhANa thAya to ApaNA dIkarAne dhaMdhAmAM lagADavo hoya to kAma thAya. e lokonI dhAraNA khoTI paDe to nArAja thaIne kaheze ke A lokoe to moTImoTI jAherAto karI paNa kaMI ApyuM nahi. A kAmarAgache. sneharAgIo kevA hoya? mAbApe dIkarAne bhaNAvyo-gaNAvyo ane paraNAvyo. pachI dIkaro emanI sAme paNa nathI joto chatAM teo enuM kharAba nahi icche. enA pratye rAga yathAvata hoya. e che sneharAga. dIkaro muMbaI raheto hoya. mAbApa gAmaDAmAM rahetAM hoya ane mAbApane koI samAcAra

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Ape ke tamArA dIkarAnI tabiyata sArI nathI, enI patnI sAthe enuM jAmatuM nathI athavA ene dhaMdhAmAM bhAre nukasAna thayuM che; to sneharAgavALI vyakti duHkhI thaze. jenA pratye sneharAga che enA taraphathI kazI apekSA nahi rAkhe. enI upekSA sAme paNa e sneha ja vahAvaze. "arere, mAro dIkaro kevo duHkhI thAya che!' kAmarAgI vyakti ema kaheze ke e to e ja lAgano hato, jayAre sneharAgI vyakti saMvedanA anubhavaze. - trIjo rAga che daSTirAga. e kevo che? kAmarAgano pAyo che svArtha, sneharAgano pAyo che lAgaNI ane dRSTirAganA traNa pAyA che. pahelo pAyo che svadoSadarzanano abhAva.duniyAmAM moTA bhAganA loko potAnA doSonuM darzana karI ja nathI zakatA e kAraNe e duHkhI che. ApaNe agnizarmAnI vAta karI hatI. enA jIvanamAMthI kAmarAga ane sneharAga keTalI hada sudhI nIkaLI gayA hatA! agnizarmAe guNasenanI herAnagatithI saMnyAsa lIdho. saMnyAsa lIdhA pachI mAbApane choDyAM. mAbApa guNiyala hatAM. dIkaro game tevo hato chatAM enA pratye vAtsalya hatuM. mAbApe ene gharamAMthI kADhI nathI mUkyo ke nathI anAthAzramamAM mUkyo. evA mAbApane choDIne e nIkaLyo. eNe sneharAgane tilAMjali ApI. tApasa thayo. tApasa thayA pachI karavAnuM zuM? khAvAnuM kevuM? keTalI vakhata khAvAnuM? trIsa upavAsanA pAraNe trIsa upavAsa karavAnA ane AvuM 60,000 varSa sudhI karyuM! e 60000varSa jIvyo, vadhAre jIvyo hota to vadhAre karata. vaLI e paNa eka ja gharethI khAvAnuM! * gocarI gheragherathI zA mATe? amAre jaina sAdhuone kevuM? eka ghare vahoravA gayA ane tyAM bhIMDAnuM zAka che. "khapa nathI' kahIne bIjA ghare jaIe. tyAM dUdhInuM zAka che paNa emAM caNAnI dALa nAkhelI nathI to nathI joItuM, rijekTa karI nAkho. kAcAM keLAM ane TameTAnuM zAka che. laI lo. A kevuM sAruM! tame kaho ke AmAM Tapha AcAra kayo amAro ke tApasano? eka ja gharethI paMdara roTalI khAIe ne to kevuM lAge? yajamAnane thAya A keTaluM khAya che! alaga-alaga gharethI vahoryuM hoya to kaMI khabara paDe ? AvA kAraNe alaga-alaga gharethI gocarI levAno - 52 -

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AcAra nathI, paraMtu kyAreka eka ja gharethI saMpUrNa gocarI vahorI laIe -dhADa pADI daIe to pelAne pharIthI rasoI banAvavI paDe. AvI virAdhanAthI bacavA alaga-alaga ghare pharavAno AcAra che, judI-judI coIsa maLe e kAraNe nahi. sapaoNjha, koIne dIkSA mATe A rIte samajAvavAmAM Ave ke tArA ghare tArI mammI keTalI mIThAI banAve? jo tuM dIkSA le to tane ghaNIghaNI mIThAI maLe ! A kAmarAganuM pralobhana che. dIkSAmAM to badhuM choDavAnuM hoya che, chatAM lalacAve ke ahIM sAdhu-sAdhvIjI vahoravA gheraghera jAya tyAM ghaNI bahenoe kukiMgaklAsa karelA hoya. tArI mAe kukiMgaklAsa karyA che? nathI karyA. have A loko to phrenkI banAve, pinjhA banAve, pAstA banAve. badhuM ghare banAveluM pyaoNra jaina! keka, breDa ane pAuM paNa ghare banAvelAM! dIkSAjIvanamAM tane vadhAre majA Avaze. alaga-alaga gharanI manaphAvatI rasoI vahorI zakIe e mATe gocarIdharmagame to e khoTuM che. agnizarmAnA jIvanamAM kAmarAga bilakula nathI. rasanendriya para pUruM niyaMtraNa. trIsa upavAsanA pAraNe eka ja vakhata khAvAnuM ane pAchuM upavAsa karavAnA. pAchuM sUI javAnuM nahi, taDakAmAM dhyAna karavAnuM ! tApasonuM to ghAsanuM chAparuM hoya. comAsAmAM pANI TapakatuM hoya. rAtre sUvuM kevI rIte? chatAM koI phariyAda nathI. ziyALAmAM game teTalI ThaMDI lAge topaNa bahubahuto jhADanAM pattAM vIMTALavAnAM. kapaDAM paheravAnAM nahi. eTale pAMca indriyanA koI paNa bhoga enA jIvanamAM che? sneharAga paNa che enA jIvanamAM? kAmarAga, sneharAgane khatama karI nAkhyo che. agnizarmAe ATaluM badhuM khatama karyuM, paNa enA jIvanamAMthI svadoSano pakSapAta nathI gayo. alabatta, dekhItI rIte enAmAM koI pakSapAta nathI dekhAto. te pahelI vakhata rAjA guNasenane tyAM pAraNuM karavA gayo tyAre pAraNuM thayuM nahi chatAM mana upara jarA paNa asara na thaI. bIjI vakhata pAraNuM karavA jAya che tyAre paNa pAraNuM karyA vagara pAchA AvavuM paDe che. pAchA AvIne tarata navuM mAsakSamaNa zarU kare che. trIjI vakhata paNa pAraNuM karyA vagara ja pAchA vaLavuM paDe che. tyAre vicAravuM joItuM hatuM ke guNasenano kAMI doSa

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nathI. kharekhara to mane khAvAnI icchA che, ene tyAM maLyuM nahi eTale huM duHkhI thAuM chuM. rAganuM poSaNa, ApaNuM dUSaNa moTA bhAganA loko tAttvika vicAraNA nathI karI zakatA. ame charI pAlita saMghamAM gayA hatA. tyAM meM kahyuM ke ApaNe satata dareka bAbatamAM kAmarAgane poSavAnI koziza karIe chIe. derAsara ke upAzraye ke bhAvanAmAM pikyaranA gItanA rAga AdhArita stavana gavAya indriyano viSaya maLe) to majA Ave. charI' pAlita saMghamAM gayA. vacce eka kalAka maLe che to karavuM zuM? nikaTanA sagAe saMgha kADhayo che, eTale AvavuM paDyuM. emAM vacce be kalAka maLe to tyAM paNa kAmarAga bhogavI zakAya eTalA bhogavavAnA. rastAmAM ke vagaDAmAM paDAva hoya tyAM kare zuM? tyAM bIjuM to kaMI na maLe. TrAnsporTezana mATe UMTa rAkhyA hoya to UMTa para besIne pharavA javAnI koziza kare. meM vAta karI hatI ke UMTanI besavAnI ane UbhA thavAnI sTAila kevI che? e beTho hoya pachI Ubho thAya tyAre ADo thAya pachI rivarsamAM Ubho thAya have A loko besavA gayA enI para ane khabara nahi ke UMTa AvI rIte Ubho thAya che ane palANa hatuM nahi eTale pelo je vyakti beTho eNe barAbara TAiTa pakaDyuM nahi eTale jevo UMTa vAMko thayo eTale e paDI gayo. ane DAcuM raMgAI gayuM ! ekAda be TAMkA AvyA. AkhA saMghamAM to khabara hatI nahi. be-pAMca jaNA gayA hatA emane ja khabara hatI ke A bhAI paDI gayA che. have enA phrenDa badhAMne kahevA mAMDyuM ke A UMTa para besavA gayo ane paDyo eTale TAMkA AvyA che. pelAne gusso Avyo ke kema AkhA gAmamAM mArI vAta Diklera kare che? huM paDyo to paDyo, emAM tAre zuM che? ene gusso zeno che? tuM AkhA gAmamAM mArI jAherAta kema kare che? teNe kharekhara zuM vicAravuM joIe? mane UMTa para savArI karIne pharavAnI lAlaca hatI e kAraNe huM paDyo ane e kahe emAM zuM khoTuM che? ghaNA loko khAnagImAM ekalAekalA AIsakrIma khAvA jAya, pharavA jAya ane tyAM koI Akasmika gaMbhIra ghaTanA ghaTe, amuka loko phemilInI marajIviruddha parvata para TrekiMga karavA jAya ane paDyA hoya eTale hADakAM bhAMgyAM hoya. pADozIo pUche ke phrekTara kema AvyuM? koI AvuM pUche - 54 -

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to ene kevuM lAgaze? moTA bhAganA lokone potAno doSa nathI dekhAto. UlaTAno e doSane poSe che. pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanA pUrvabhavamAM teo be bhAI hatA. moTo bhAI nAnA bhAInI patnI sAthe kharAba vyavahAra kare che. nAnA bhAIne khabara paDI jAya che, paNa gharanI vAta kahevI kone? A to sagA bhAI ane patnInI AbarUno savAla hato. e khUba kanphayujhUDa hato. rAjA sAthe e lokone phaeNmilI-rilezana hatAM, eTale ene vAta kare che. rAjAe gusse thaIne kahyuM, AvI naTAI? Avo vyabhicAra? ene to gadheDA para besADIne AkhA gAmamAMthI bahAra kADhavo joIe!" | nAnA bhAIno irAdo to mAtra upAya karAvavAno hato, paNa rAjA kahe, "mArA rAjyamAM Avo vyabhicAra koI kALe nahi calAvI levAya. ene gadheDA para besADIne gAmanI bahAra kADhyo. Ama juo to A bhUla moTA bhAInI hatI, chatAM ene gusso Ave che ke mArA nAnA bhAIe mArI jiMdagI barabAda karI. * zvAnavRtti ane siMhavRtti ApaNe AvuM ja karIe chIe. nimitta para AkramaNa karIe chIe. siMha ane kUtarAmAM eka khAsa pharaka hoya che. tame kUtarAne paththara mArazo to e paththarane bacakuM bharavA jaze, A zvAnavRtti che. siMha evuM nahi kare, e joze ke paththara kaI dizAmAMthI Avyo? e paththara pheMkanAra para aTeka karaze, A siMhavRtti che. ApaNe siMhavRtti keLavavI joIe. ApaNe jyAM aTeka karavAno hoya, jene TArgeTa banAvavAno hoya e tarapha jotA ja nathI. kharekhara to ApaNane ApaNA doSo tarapha durbhAva thavo joIe. moTA bhAIe ema sacavuM joIe ke meM vyabhicAra karyo enuM A rijhalTa che. svadoSano jyAM sudhI pakSapAta raheze tyAM sudhI daSTirAga jaze nahi. ene kADhavA mATe selpha oNnjharvezana karavAnuM zIkhavuM paDaze. mane bIjAnA doSo nathI gamatA, to mArA doSo kone gamaze? koI vyakti abhimAnI hoya ane AtmazlAghA karyA ja kare, to kyAM sudhI sahana thAya? koI navI vahu sAsarAmAM AvIne enA piyaranAM ja guNagAna gAtI phare ke mArA pappAnA ghare to koI mahemAna

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Ave to sIdhuM hoTalamAMthI badhuM maMgAvI laIe. rasoInI AvI badhI japhA ame karIe nahi. dareka vAtamAM enA piyaranI baDAzo mAryA kare to sAsariyAMne e kema game ? ema ja lAge ke A vahu bahu abhimAnI che. bIjAnuM abhimAna tamane nathI gamatuM to tamAruM abhimAna bIjAne kema gamaze ? ApaNe haMmezAM ema mAnIe chIe ke ApaNA doSo bIjAone gamavA ja joIe. (bhale bIjAnA doSo ApaNane na gamatA hoya.) A doSa na nIkaLe tyAM sudhI daSTirAga nIkaLaze nahi. ApaNuM kalyANa thaze nahi. * bApahITalara ane mAhaMTaravALI? | dIkaro ekjhAmamAM phela thAya ane pappA ene tamAco mAre to e kaheze : mAro bApa hiTalara che! e ema nathI vicArato nathI ke huM bhaNyo nahi ne rakhaDyA karyuM eTale huM phela thayo. dIkaro bahAra rakhaDI-bhaTakIne rAte bahu moDo ghera Avyo. enI mammI ene laDI to kahe ke A mArI mA nathI, haMTaravALI che. enA mobAIlamAM mammInuM nAma "haMTara' seva kare. mammIno phona Ave to vaMcAya ke haMTarano phona Avyo ! dIkarAe kharekhara to prAyazcittapUrvaka ema socavuM joIe ke mAre samayasara ghare AvI javuM joIe, maryAdA pALavI joIe. ene badale mammI ene haMTara lAge. ApaNA doSo ApaNane dekhAtA ja nathI. sArA gharanA loko sUryAsta pachI khAsa kAraNa vagara gharanI bahAra paNa na nIkaLe. AjanI janarezana madharAta pachI pArTIomAM javA nIkaLe ! thoDAM varSa pahelAM to moDAmAM moDA agiyAra vAgye badhA gharabhegA thaIne sUI jatA. atyAre badhA mitro ke sALA-sALIo bhegAM thAya to paroDha sudhI mastI-majAka ane khANI-pINI karyA kare. pachI divase ghoryA kare athavA sustIthI kAma kare. e kAmamAM zo bhalIvAra Ave? rAtanA traNacAra traNa vAgyA sudhI pharyA kare ene to bhUta ja kahevAyane! jo tamane koI kaMI kahe to UlaTAno tamane enA para gusso Ave. dIkarIne vIsa varSeya rasoI karatAM na AvaDe ane enI mammI laDe to sAmI ArgyumenTa karaze ke Akho divasa tArI kaTakaTa cAlyA ja kare che. huM to trAsI gaI ! kharekhara to pote rasoI karatAM ane gharakAma karatAM zIkhavuM joIe. gRhiNIno e AcAra che. paNa ahIM to cora koTavAlane daMDe evo UlaTo nyAya prasarI gayo che! - 56 -

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* mAruM AyakhuM khUTe je ghaDIe... gaI kAle ja eka bhAI bapore Avyo ane kahe, "sAhebajI, mArAM dAdI mATe DaoNkTare kahI dIdhuM che have emanI thoDIka ja miniTa bAkI che, to emane navakAra ane mAMgalika saMbhaLAvavA padhArone! e pautre agAu kadIya ema nahotuM kahyuM ke mArAM dAdImA jIvatAM che, emanA hAtha-paga cAle che, tame gocarI vahoravA padhAro to tamane vahorAvI zakaze. dharma kyAre ane kevo karavAno? chelle navakAra saMbhaLAvI devA pUrato ja? bhaktigIta kevAM gAo cho? mAruM AyakhuM tUTe je ghaDIe tyAre mArA svajana banIne tame Avajo...! huM jIvuM tyAM sudhI mane bhaTakavA do, jayAre maravA paDuM tyAre Avajo ane dharmanA be-traNa zabdo saMbhaLAvajo . puNyaprakAzanuM e AkhuM stavana nahi samajAvatA, basa zorTamAM enuM krIma kahI dejo. "khAmemi savva jIve, savva jIvA khamaMtu me badhA jIvone huM namAvuM chuM, badhA jIvo mane khamAvo. pati-mahAzayone bhalAmaNa eka prazna Avyo hato ke phemilImAM koI vyakti Akho divasa sAmayika laIne besI jAya e thoDuM cAle? tame dIkSA nathI lIdhI eTale tamAre sAmAjika kartavyo nibhAvavAnAM Ave enI nA nathI, paNa dharmane na bhUlo. ghaNAMnA ghera patnI jAte badhI rasoI kare, nAstA ghare banAve, abhakSa vastu na lAve, enuM koI kartavya cUke nahi. ene phrI TAima maLe athavA TAimanuM maeNnejamaeNnTa karIne dharma karavA samaya kADhI le. paNa patine dharma gamato na hoya eTale kahe, zuM Akho divasa dharma-dharma kare che? patnI jo enuM gRhiNI tarIkenuM koI kartavya cUkatI hoya to enI bhUla gaNAya, paNa tamAma kartavyo nibhAvatI hoya ane dharma karatI hoya to enI anumodanA karavI joIe. tamAre ene yathAzakya helpa karavAnI vRtti rAkhavI joIe. tame nava-dasa vAgye UTho toya UlaTAno ropha mAro e kema cAle? tame yogya samaye UThI jatA ho to tamane garama cA-nAsto Ape. moDA UTho to tamArA mATe kiTalImAM bharIne e vyAkhyAnamAM gaI hoya to eno zo vAMka? tame evI apekSA rAkho ke huM moDo

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UThuM to eNe vyAkhyAnamAM javAnuM nahi. mane garamagaramacA-nAsto karAvavo e enuM kartavya che. to bhAI, tuMya sAMbhaLI le ke eNe tArI sAthe lagna karyA che, kAMI gulAmIkhata nathI lakhI Apyo. tuM kartavya ane gulAmI vacceno DipharansanathI samajato e tArI mUrkhAmI che. * cAlAka patnIone bhalAmaNa e ja rIte mAre patnIone paNa kahevuM che ke evarI sanDe tame DimAnDa karo ke mane bahAra laI jAo to tamAro pati paNa tamAro gulAma nathI. tamArA pitAjIe tamane koI roboTagiphTamAM nathI Apyo. tame kaho ke mane kaMTALo Ave che, bahAra pharavA laI jAo to e tamane pharavA laI ja jAya e jarUrI nathI. bejhika kartavyo baMne pakSe hoya, e badhAM phulaphila thAya eTaluM Inapha che. ghaNI baheno ema vicAre che ke amAre zuM A rasoInI japhA ja karyA karavAnI? ravivAre paNa zAMti nahi! are, bahena! tuM ravivAranI kyAM vAta kare che? te dIkSA laI lIdhI hota to tane 360 divasa zAMti maLI jAta. eke divasa rasoIna karavI paData! have lagna karyA che to evuM nahi bola ke ravivAre paNa mAre rasoI karavAnI ? bahAra pharavA nahi javAnuM? khoTI DimAnDa na karIza. ravivAre paNa rasoI karavI paDe to e tamArI pharajamAM ja Ave. koIne cauvihAra karavA hoya to tame ema na kahI zako ke tamAre rAte khAvuM paDaze. sAsunI sevA karavI paDe ane dAdIsAsunI sevA paNa karavI paDe. emAM mAthAkUTana karAya, nahi to tame pharaja cUkyAM kahevAya. phemilInAM vaDIlo mATe samayasara rasoI karyA vagara tame sAmAyika laIne besI jAo to ethI dharma niMdAya. bIjI tarapha vaDIlo paNa ema icche ke vahu covIse kalAka amArI sevAmAM raheto e paNa khoTuM che. amArI pAse ghaNI cAlAka baheno Ave che. emane khabara hoya A dharmano DipArTamenTa che, ahIM amuka leMgvajamAM ja bolavuM paDe. bahu ThAvaka thaIna kahe, "sAhebajI, mane to cauvihAra karavAnuM bahu mana che, paNa mArA zrAvakane phAve ja nahi eTale mAre rAte khAvuM paDe che. emanI sAthe mAre hoTalamAM javuM paDe che. eka chokarInI tAjItAjI sagAI thayelI. enA phiyAnsane laIne AvI ane kahe, "sAhebajI, A zrAvakane thoDuM dharmanuM - 58 -

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samajAvone. ene dharmanI vAta jarAya gamatI ja nathI. enA mAmAe dIkSA lIdhI che, mArA dAdAe paNa dIkSA lIdhI che. to pAyAnA thoDA to AcAra hovA joIene? pachI e chokarAe bolavAnuM zarU karyuM tyAre khabara paDI ke e chokarIne hoTalamAM khAvAnA bhAre casakA hatA. cAlAka baheno amArI sAme varNana to evuM kare ke e jANe koI kasAI bakarAne laI katalakhAne kheMcI jato hoya ema patnIne pati sAthe hoTalamAM javuM paDatuM hoya ! dharmanuM konsTiTyUzana saune dharmano samAna haka Ape che. tame koIne kampalasarI kahI na zako ke tuM rAtribhojana kara. e sADI paheravA icchatI hoya to tame ene phorsa na pADI zako ke tAre jInsa-TI-zarTa paheravAM ja paDaze. tame jhabhbho, dhotI ane pAghaDI paherIne jIvana jIvavA iccho to e paNa tamane na rokI zake. ghaNI patnIo emanA patine leMgho-jhabhbho paheravA nathI detI. adhikArapUrvaka kahe che ke tame leMghA-jhabhbhA lAvazo to huM e badhuM bahAra pheMkI daIza. A tamArI anadhikRta ceSTA che. pati tarIke e kartavya cUke, paisA kamAIne na lAve ane ghara pratye bejavAbadAra hoya to tamAro kahevAno rAITa che. pati bhagavAnanI koI AjJAno anAdara kare to kahevAno tamane rAiTa che, paNa maryAdA jALavIne. * gurujanono sAtha jagaDuzA zeThanI patnIe risAIne eka vakhata jagaDuzA sAthe che mahinA sudhI vAta na karI. cha mahinA sudhI abolA rahyA. enA abolAne AcArya mahArAje epriziyeTa karyA. tamArI bhASAmAM kahuM to AcArya mahArAje AgamAM peTrola chAMTavAnuM kAma karyuM. badhAe ekamate kahyuM ke te bahu sAruM karyuM che. patinI sAthe bolIza ja nahi, sAme paNa na jotI... bAra mahinA sudhI abolA cAle to calAvaje. saMvatsarI parvano divasa Ave toya tuM namatI nahi! e jhUke to jhUkavAnuM, bAkI tAre jhUkavAnI koI jarUra nathI. micchA mi dukkaDam' paNa nahi kahevAnuM. tuM kAMI ja khoTuM nathI karatI. cha mahinA sudhI enI patnI na bolI. pati dharma karato hoya to patnIno adhikAra nathI ke te ene aTakAvI zake ane patnI dharma karatI hoya, to pati paNa ene na aTakAvI zake. tame dharmano artha covihAra, navakArazI, pUjA ke kaMI bahAranuM nahi khAvAnuM - 59

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ATalo ja karo cho. paNa tamArI patnI dIkSA levAnuM kahe to ? rasoI, putrapAlana vagere kAryonI bIjA javAbadArI laI le to dIkSAnI paNa tamArAthI patnIne nA na paDAya. jayAre tame to 60varSanI patnI dIkSA levA taiyAra thAya topaNa nA pADo cho. have putravadhUoe ghara saMbhALI lIdhuM che, chatAM tame dIkSA mATe patnInI icchAne Teko Apo kharA? ekAunTamAM DebiTa karavAnuM hoya e kreDiTa karo ane kreDiTa karavAnuM hoya e DebiTa karo to zuM thAya? Aja sudhI ApaNe ApaNA doSo joyA ja nathI. jemaNe doSo batAvavAnI koziza karI e ApaNane kaDavA lAgyA che. tame koI guru ma. sA.nI nizrAmAM karoDa rUpiyA kharcyA. e ja guru ma.sA. UlaTAnuM tamane kaheH "tuM bhikhArI che. Akho divasa zuM dhaMdho karavA bIkesImAM jaIne vAMdarAnI jema kUdAkUda kare che? bhikhArI paNa amuka kalAka ja bhIkha mAge, Akho divasa nahi...! ma. sA. tamane AvA zabdo saMbhaLAve to kevuM lAge? ma. sA.ne bolavAnuM kaMI bhAna che? sAdhunI bhASA AvI hoya ! ma. sA.thI bhikhArI bolAya? ma. sA. sAthe paNa phAiTiMga thaI jAya ne? ma. sA.ne mAphI maMgAve ! kharekhara vicAravuM joIe ke mane keTalo badho lobha che !ane A lobhane kAraNe kUtarAnI jema eka galImAMthI bIjI galImAM dhaMdhA mATe bhaTakyA karuM chuM. mahArAja sAhebanI vAta sAcI che, huM kharekhara bhikhArI ja chuM. pakaDamAMthI chUTavuM paDaze.. varSothI AvA doSonI pakaDanA kAraNe ApaNe ApaNuM kalyANa karI zakyA nathI. A pakaDamAMthI chUTavAnI koziza karazo to ja tamAro dRSTirAga jaze. svadoSarAga kADhavo hoya to jIvanamAM saraLatA ane satya-zodhatA lAvavAnI. koI paNa mANasanI vAta samajavAnI koziza karo, ma. sA. zuM kahevA mAge che e pakaDavAnI koziza karo. saraLa banavAnI koziza nahi karo to vakratA Avaze. tame gharanI bahAra nIkaLatA ho ane koI pUche ke "kyAM jAo cho ?' tame kahezo ke "bahAra jAuM chuM." paNa sIdhuM nahi bolo ke huM relave sTezana jAuM chuM ke kapaDAM kharIdavA jAuM chuM athavA vyAkhyAnamAM jAuM chuM. tamArI mammIno phona Ave, tamane pUche ke tuM kyAM che?' to kahezo ke "bahAra > 60 -

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chuM.' tame bahAra cho e to ene khabara che, eTale to eNe phona karyo che. paNa bahAra kyAM che e e kahetA nathI. A vakratA che. sIdho koI javAba ja nahi. dareka praznanA ADAtaDA javAba ApavAnI ADoDAIne lIdhe ApaNAmAM eTalI badhI vakratA AvI gaI che ke saraLatA bilakula rahI ja nathI. pariNAme ApaNo saMsAra vadhato jAya che. saraLa banIe to nukasAna zuM che ? sIdhuM kahevAmAM vAMdho zo che? dIkaro govA pharavA gayo hoya ane pADozI pUche ke kyAM che tamAro dIkaro, dekhAto nathI? tame kaho cho ke e bahAragAma gayo che. jo tame spaSTa kaho ke "e govA pharavA gayo che to zuM e ema kaheze ke mArA dIkarAne kema na laI gayA? paNa basa chupAvavAnuM. kAraNa vagara AvI mAyA karavAnI. pAchI badhAne khabara paDI jAya ke ANe mAyA karI. trIjo pilaraHkhoTI mAnyatA have trIjo pilara samajIe. deva, guru ane dharma - A traNanI bAbatamAM viparIta mAnyatA e trIjo pilara che. deva, guru, dharmamAM kaMI khabara na paDe paNa chatAM badhA potapotAnA sarTiphikeTa ApyA kare. sAdhuno mAtra veza paherelo hoya eTale ene ApaNA karatA mahAna mAnI levAno. AvuM sTeTamenTa to bhagavAne to kyAMya karyuM ja nathI, koI AcArya mahArAja paNa evuM kahetA nathI, to AvI vAta tuM lAvyo kyAMthI? A vAta te kADhI kyAMthI ke mAtra veza paheryo hoya e mahAna? A vAta thaI gurunI. ema deva vize paNa mAnyatA hoya che. ATalA badhA loko ziraDI jAya che, tirUpati jAya che to zuM e bhagavAna nahi? basa, ApaNA ja eka bhagavAna evuM kaMI hotuM haze? e ja rIte dharma mATe paNa viparIta mAnyatA hoya che. bIjA koI dharmamAM baTeTA khAvAnI nA nathI, ApaNe tyAM ja manAI. zuM ApaNo ja eka dharma che ane bAkInA zuM dharma nathI? deva, guru ane dharma traNenI bAbatamAM AvI viparIta mAnyatA che. koI paNa doSane samarthana Apazo to phasAI jazo. daSTirAgamAM vyakti mUDha ke mugdha banI jAya che. je guru pakaDyA e je kahe e ja sAcuM, je dharma pakaDyo e dharmanI vAta ja satya. bIjuM badhuM mithyA ke khoTuM. taTasthatAthI vicAravAnI koziza ja nahi kare. A dRSTirAga che. emAM

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moTA bhAganA loko phasAyelA che. mArA gurue AvI vAta karI ja nathI, eTale AvuM hoI ja na zake. 'bhalA hai, bUrA hai - jaisA bhI hai, merA pati merA devatA hai" evI vAta saMsAramAM kadAca tame bhale calAvI lo, ahIM bilakula na cAle. "jaisA bhI hai, merA guru merA guru hai e na cAle. ahIM to gurunI kaMDizansamAMthI e pAsa thavA joIe. nAno sAdhu paNa guru hoI zake ane pacAsa-so ziSyone dIkSA ApanAra sAdhu guru na paNa hoya. AmAM moTA bhAganA loko chetarAya che ane phasAya che. eTalI hada sudhI phasAya che ke na pUcho vAta! enI eka sTorI tamane kahuM. * nAgila ane sumati magadha dezamAM kuzasthaLa nAmanA nagaramAM jIvA jIvAdika navatatvanA jANanAra sumati ane nAgila nAmanA be dhanADhya bhAI rahetA hatA. besumAra lakSmInA svAmI hovA chatAM e baMne mATe vizeSaNa vaparAtuM : "navatattvanA jANakAra'. karma anusAra jiMdagI potAnuM rUpa badale ema A lokonI jiMdagInuM rUpa badalAyuM. teo garIba thaI gayA. moTA bhAganA lokone to eka-be sAmAnya Apatti Ave eTale rodaNAM raDavA mAMDe, "ame loko zuM karIe? eka pachI eka problema AvyA ja kare che. pahelAM dIkaro bImAra thayo, e sAjo thayo tyAM nokare vidAya lIdhI. e patyuM tyAM dhaMdhAmAM nukasAnI thaI. zuM karIe, sAheba? ame kaMI kharAba karatA nathI toya AvuM kema thAya che? kaMI khabara ja nathI paDatI...' * dharma karavA chatAM Apatti kema? dharma karatA hatA chatAM amane AvuM thayuM. tamArI mAnyatA taddana khoTI che. dharma jevI sArI bAbatanuM phaLa koI divasa kharAba hoya? sArI vastunuM phaLa sAruM hoya. tame dayA karo to enI sAme kadIya krUratA Ave? enuM phaLa dayA ja maLe. ATaluM zorTa vijhana hoya che ! e vicAre che ke meM A bhavamAM koInuM kharAba nathI karyuM, to mArI sAthe kema AvuM thayuM? pahelAM ene pUchIe ke koInuM kharAba nathI karyuM eTale tuM konI vAta kare che? zuM te koInuM eTale ke manuSyanuM, gAyanuM, tiryaMcanuM, ekendriyanuM, bendriyanuM, koInuM kharAba nathI

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karyuM? tuM gADI laIne nIkaLe ane comAsAmAM aLasiyAM marI gayAM, aLasiyAMnuM te kharAba karyuM ke nahi? tamArA kahevAthI DIDITI chAMTavA Ave ane maccharone mArI nAkhe e koInuM kharAba karyuM ke na karyuM? tamane kacorI bhAve che eTale vaTANA bAphI nAkhyA e sAruM karyuM kahevAya ke kharAba? tame ema ja mAno cho ke meM koInuM kharAba nathI karyuM eTale koI mANasanuM kharAba karyuM nathI. koInuM khUna karyuM nathI eTale koI mANasanuM kharAba nathI karyuM. zuM ekendriya jIvane tame jIva nathI mAnatA? kIDI zuM jIva nathI? aLasiyAM zuM jIva nathI? gharamAM kokroca thAya eTale ene mAravAnI davA lAvIne hiMsA karavAnI? dIkarAne bijhanesa eksapAnDa karavA mATe moTI jagA joIe che, tethI vRkSo kApI nakhAvyAM. pRthvIkAyanA agaNita jIva marI gayA, paNa ApaNane lAge che meM koInuM kharAba karyuM nathI ! tamane khabara ja nathI ke A bhavamAM paNa tame keTakeTaluM kharAba karyuM che. tame eka pezAba karo toya anaMta jIvo mare. pezAbamAM uSNatA hoya, e gaTaromAM jAya ethI lIla-phUga mare. jyAM pANI rahetuM hoya tyAM lIla bAjhavAnI zakyatA rahe. gaTaromAM lIla jAmI hoya tyAM tamAro pezAba jAya. tame sAbuthI kapaDAM dhuo ane sAbupAvaDaravALuM pANI gaTaramAM jaze to tyAM rahelA ekendrIyanA jIvone khatama karI nAkhaze. e jIvone taDapAvI-taDapAvIne mAryA hoya ane tame kaho ke meM koInI sAthe kharAba vyavahAra karyo nathI. A badhAM pApathI bacavA pauSadha karo to ekAda divasa pUratuM e pApothI chUTI jazo. paraMtu tamane to pauSadhamAM Akho divasa kaMTALo Ave ! tamArA lokonA prazna paNa kevA ajIba hoya ! "mAre caudasano pauSadha karavo hoya to savAre pAMca vAgye nahAIne avAya? pauSadha kare toya nAhavAnuM cukAvuM na ja joIe, bolo! pelA baMne zrImaMta bhAIonI paristhiti evI bagaDI ke Dagale ne pagale nukasAna ja jAya. dhaMdho karyo to emAM nukasAna, koInI sAthe vAtavyavahAra kare to enI sAthe saMbaMdha bagaDe. dhImedhIme AbarU paNa ghaTavA mAMDI. baMne bhAI vicAre che ke "have ahIM rahevAmAM sAra nathI, have A nagara choDI devuM joIe. dravyahIna thayA chIe, tethI dhana upArjana karavA mATe paradeza jaIe.' baMne bhAI nagara choDIne jaI rahyA hatA. rastAmAM pAMca sAdhu - 63

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mahArAja ane eka zrAvaka maLI gayA. e loko paNa samajo ke amadAvAda jaI rahyA hatA ane A be bhAIo paNa amadAvAda jaI rahyA hatA. A pAMca sAdhu ane eka zrAvakane joIne baMne bhAI khuza thaI gayA. sapaoNjha, tame atyAre kaho ke, "sAhebajI, ame lonAvAlA jaIe chIe." huM kahyuM ke, "tyAM lonAvAlAmAM bIjA ma. sA. che..."tame vicArazo ke jo lonAvAlAmAM ma. sA. hoya to ApaNe tyAM javuM nathI. A baMne bhAIone sAdhu maLI gayA to khuza thaI gayA. paisA ane pratiSThA khovAyAM enuM duHkha nathI, sAdhu maLI gayA eno AnaMda che. baMnee rastAmAM cAlavAnuM zarU karyuM. * A sAdhu to zithilAcArI lAge che! cAlatAM-cAlatAM parasparano paricaya thayo. be bhAImAM ekanuM nAma sumati ane bIjAnuM nAma nAgila che. sumati bALajIva che, mAtra bAhya ADaMbarathI ipresa thaI jAya evo che. nAgila ene kahe che, "A ma. sA.nA AcAra sArA nathI, emanI sAthe rahIe to ApaNane bahu pApa lAge. meM neminAtha bhagavAna pAse sAMbhaLyuM che ke A prakAranA sAdhu avaMdanika hoya che. ApaNe A sAdhuono saMga choDI daIe, kema ke sAthe rahIe to e sAdhuo sAthe vAto karavI paDe, emano paricaya karavo paDe ane ema karatAM ApaNAmAM doSo Ave. e doSo AvI jAya ane bhUlecUkeya kyAMka emanI prazaMsA thaI gaI to bhAre pApamAM paDI jaIzuM.' sumatie kahyuM, 'bhAI, nAgila! tuM vakradRSTie doSa jonAro che. mane to A sAdhuo sAthe vAto karavI tathA gamanavagere karavuM yogya lAge che." nAgile javAba Apyo, 'bhAI sumati! huMmanathI paNa sAdhunA doSane grahaNa karato nathI, paraMtu meM tIrthakaranI pAse kuzIliyAne (zIlabhraSTane) nahi jovAno nizcaya karyo che." sumati bolyo, "bhAI, tuM to buddhi vinAno lAge che. tAro e tIrthakara paNa evo ja haze ke jeNe tane Avo niSedha karAvyo..." sumati AgaLa kAMI bole e pahelAM ja enA mukha para nAgile potAno hAtha mUkI dIdho ane kahyuM ke, "he baMdhu! saMsAranA kAraNarUpa AvuM ja 64 -

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bolIne tuM tIrthakaranI AzAtanA na kara. A sAdhuo aneka khAnagI viSayAdi doSothI dUSita che. huM to temano saMgachoDIne jAuM chuM." sumati bolyo, "huM to prANAte paNa emano saMga choDavAno nathI." sumatino spaSTa ane daDha javAba sAMbhaLIne nAgila ekalo nIkaLI paDyo. sumatie pelA sAdhuo pAse dIkSA grahaNa karI. te anaMtakALa rakhaDyo. sumatie je ma. sA. pakaDyA enA bahu moTA doSa paNa svIkAravA e taiyAra nathI thato. A daSTirAganuM daSTAMta che. * kevuM rijhalTa maLaze? | tame vicArI zako to A dRSTAMtamAM vicAravA jevI ghaNI mahattvanI vAta che. pelA pAMca sAdhuoe to bhagavAnano veza paherelo che, bhagavAnanI vAto karanArA che ane emanA AcAramAM zithilatA hovAthI emanI sAthe paNa rahevAnI nA pADe che. tame bALakone skUlamAM mUko cho, tyAM bhagavAnanI AjJAviruddhanuM ja bhaNAve che e vAta enI samajamAM AvI. kyAMka koI doSanuM samarthana AvI gayuM to kevuM rijhalTa maLaze! nAgilane A Dara che, eTale kahe che ke AnI sAthe rahevAya nahi. sumatie sIdhuM kahevA mAMDyuM, "zuM tArA bahu UMcA AcAra che? tuM bahu UMco ane ma. sA. bahu nIcA? koI ma. sA. gADImAM pharatA hoya ane koI zrAvaka kahe ke ma. sA.thI A na karAya to ma. sA. ene utArI pADaze ke, "tuM tAruM saMbhALane, bhAI. pote to dhaMdho karavA jAya che, lagna kare che ane sAdhune upadeza Ape che?" zrAvakanI bhUmikA alaga che ane sAdhunI bhUmikA alaga che e na bhUlavuM joIe. zrAvakanA jIvanamAM kadAca doSa haze to e doSa guNa nahi thaI jAya, paNa sAdhumAM doSa haze e nahi cAle. ghaNA loko kahe che, "mAruM khudanuM jIvana kyAM covIsa kereTanuM che ke huM bIjAmAM InTaraphiara karuM ? atyAre badhAno eTITyUDa Avo banI gayo che. joke amuka loko covaTiyA hoya che. e lokone pote to kaMI karavuM nathI ane sAdhunA nAnAmAM nAnA doSone maeNbliAIMga glAsathI enlArja karIne jue che, vAtevAte sAdhunI niMdA karyA - 65 -

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kare che. A baMne eksTrIma TALavA jevAM che. * moTA bhAge to... Aje hajAro sAdhu-sAdhvIjI mahArAjo uttama AcAra pALe che. huM tamane e paNa khAtarIpUrvaka kahuM chuM ke atyAre prAyaH daseka hajAra sAdhusAdhvIjI mahArAja che. e badhAM khAnadAna phemilImAMthI AvyAM che. emane khAvA-pIvAnA ke evA bIjA koI problema nahotA. AtmAnI ArAdhanA karavA mATe potAnAM paeNranTsane raDatAM mUkIne nIkaLyAM che. emanA saMyamamArgamAM tame koI paNa rIte aMtarAyakartA banazo to tamArA mATe narakanAM dvAra khUlI jaze. teo saMsAra choDIne nIkaLyAM che to emane pAchAM patanamAM na nAkho. tyAga karIne nIkaLyA pachI koI kAraNe emanAmAM koI doSa AvI gayo hoya to e doSane kADhavo joIe. enI jagAe tame kAM to sapaoNrTa karo cho athavA emanI niMdA karo cho. A bahu khoTuM che. moTAbhAge to bagADanArA paNa tame ane vagovanArA paNa tame ja cho.

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-13 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNI daSTirAgastu pApIyAnuM durucchedaH satAmapi // vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka ApaNe jANyuM ke kAmarAga, sneharAga ane daSTirAga A traNa rAga atyaMta kharAba che, e ApaNuM satyAnAza kare che. ekamAtra dharmarAga karavA jevo che. e dvArA ApaNuM AtmakalyANa karI zakAya che. kAmarAga eTale pAMca indriyanA anukULa viSayonI icchA. pAMca indriya che dhrANendriya (nAka), cakSurindriya (AMkha), zravaNendriya(kAna), sparzendriya (tvacA, skina) ane rasanendriya (jIbha). e darekanA alagaalaga viSaya che. dhrANendriyano viSaya sugaMdha che, cakSurindriyano viSaya rUpa che, zravaNendriyano viSaya saMgIta che, sparzendriyano viSaya mRdutA che, rasanendriyano viSaya bhojana che. A badhA viSayonI icchA eTale kAmarAga. kAmarAgane kAraNe mANasa maravA paNa taiyAra thAya. evI agaNita ghaTanAo ApaNe vAraMvAra joI, sAMbhaLI ke anubhavI che. sneharAga mANasane khokhalo karI nAkhe. koIpaNa vyakti pratye niHsvArtha lAgaNI e sneharAga che. sneharAga svArthane kAraNe na hoya. dIkaro ghaDapaNamAM kamAIne Apaze evI svArthavRtti hoya to e kAmarAga thayo, paNa dIkaro kazuM ja kamAIne na Ape, e DiprezanamAM raheto hoya ke thoDo gAMDo hoya chatAM paNa "mAro dIkaro" evI lAgaNI dhabakatI rahe ene sneharAga kahevAya. sneharAga kazA vaLataranI apekSA na rAkhe. sAmethI mane kaMI maLaze ke nahi evAM palAkhAM ene na hoya. janaro vA kuMjaro vA mahAbhAratanA yuddha vakhate bhIma ane arjune sneharAganI sTreTejIno upayoga karyo hato. emaNe vicAryuM ke neharAga vacce lAvIne yuddha jItavuM paDaze. e lokone yuddha jItavAmAM sAmA pakSe samartha aMtarAya rUpa guru - 67 -7

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droNAcArya che. droNAcAryanI sAme phAITa ApI zake evA A pakSe phakta arjuna ane bhImache, arjuna ane bhImadroNAcAryanI sAme laDI na zake kema ke baMnenA e guru che. tame to tamArA upakArI sAthe jhaghaDI-laDI zako. patnI kahe ke tamArI mammI Akho divasa kaTakaTa kare che to tame bezarama thaIne mammIne sIdhuM kahI dezo ke, mammI, tAruM kaTakaTa havethI baMdha karI deje.' jamAno badalAI gayo che. upakArInI sAme AvuM na bolAya. A lokone to upakArI gurunI sAme laDavAno prasaMga Avyo ! paNa guru sAme jItavAnuM eTaluM saraLa nahotuM. eTale koI yukti karavI Avazyaka hatI. guru droNAcAryano dIkaro azvatthAmA paNa yuddhamAM sAme pakSe hato. droNAcAryane putra pratye vAtsalyanI lAgaNI majabUta che. jo evuM jAhera karavAmAM Ave ke azvatthAmA yuddhamAM haNAI gayo, to gurunuM morala tUTI jAya ane jItI zakAya. paNa saune khabara che ApaNA bolI devAthI guru thoDA mAnI jAya ke azvatthAmA marAyo? koI bharosApAtra vyakti kahe to ja e mAnene ! e yuddhamAM azvatthAmA nAmano eka hAthI paNa hato. e hAthI marAyo ane cAre bAju hobALo macyo ke "azvatthAmA haNAyo...' droNAcAryane yudhiSThira para pUro vizvAsa hato ke e kadIya jUThuM nahi bole. yudhiSThira dharmarAjA hatA. e kyAreya asatya bolatA nahotA. A loko emane kanvinsa kare che ke tamAre vijaya mATe ATalI mAyA karavI paDaze. e jUThuM paNa nathI bolatA ane satya paNa nathI bolatA. droNAcArya jyAre yudhiSThirane pUche che, zuM azvatthAmA haNAyo? yudhiSThire javAba Apyo azvatthAmA haNAyo che e mane khabara che, paNa e azvatthAmA tamAro putra che ke hAthI enI mane khabara nathI. yudhiSThira "naro vA kuMjaro vA' bole che. droNAcAryane azvatthAmA haNAyo eTaluM ja saMbhaLAyuM. AjubAjunA ghoMghATane kAraNe "naro vA kuMjaro vA' saMbhaLAyuM nahi. droNAcAryanuM putra paranA sneharAgane kAraNe maoNrala tUTI gayuM. ApaNe A dvArA eTaluM zIkhavAnuM ke sneharAga moralane toDI nAkhe. ApaNuM Inara levala toDI nAkhe. rAga pedA thAya eTale becenI pedA thaze ja, tame jIravI ja nahi zako. kAmarAga ane sneharAga tamane bhayaMkara du:khI karaze. neharAgano pilara che niHsvArtha lAgaNI ane kAmarAgano pilara che - 68 -

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svArtha. ' have dRSTirAga. dRSTirAganA traNa pilara che. emAM ApaNe svadoSa pakSapAta vize vAta karatA hatA. emAM kAmarAganuM eka udAharaNa laIe ane emAM ja daSTirAganI vAta karIzuM. * kumAra naMdInuM dRSTAMta kumAra naMdI nAmanA sonIne indriyasukhonI evI tIvra talaba hatI ke e pAMcaso patnIone paraNyo hato. tamane lAgaze ke A mANasa kevo vyabhicArI haze ! paNa e vyabhicArI nahoto. je kuMvArI kanyA hoya ane enAM mAbApe enI sAthe paraNAvI hoya enI sAthe ja eno saMbaMdha raheto. A vaoNTsaepa vageree sadAcArano khAtmo bolAvI dIdho che. parapuruSo ane parastrIo sAthenA tamArA saMbaMdho vadhI rahyA che. tamArI konI sAthe ceTiMga cAle che enI koIne khabara ja na paDe. paraMtu kumAra naMdI evo mANasa nathI. te saMsArI kAmarAgI vyakti hovA chatAM enA thoDAka normsa che. e bIjI paraNelI strI sAthe vAto (ceTiMga) nahi kare. phakta potAnI patnI sAthe ja bhogo bhogavato, bAkI bIjA koI sAthe kazo saMbaMdha nahi. 500kanyAone paraNyo hato ane koI paNa sArI kanyAne jue to ene lagna karavAnuM mana thaI jatuM, paNa vyabhicArI nahoto. eka vakhata devalokamAM eka deva mRtyu pAmyA. enI devIo hAsA ane prahAsA vicAre che A posTa mATe have yogya deva koNa? je vyakti ahIM janmI zake evo yogya puruSa koNa? temane A kumAra naMdI dekhAyo. devIo enI pAse AvIne potAnuM rUpa batAve che. kumAra naMdI ApharIna thaI jAya che. devIo kumAra naMdIne kahe che ke tame paMcazIla parvata para maLo. paMcazIla parvata kevI jagA che? tame baramuDA TrAigalanuM nAma jANatA hazo. e TrAiMgalanI aMdara gayelI koI paNa vastu bahAra AvatI nathI. kAM to e aMdara ja khatama thaI jAya che athavA adazya thaI jAya che. baramuDA TrAigala jevI ja jagAethI pasAra thaIne paMcazIla parvata para pahoMcI zakAya. te paMcazIla parvata para pahoMcyo. devIo vicAre che A mANasa ekadama ApaNA kAmano che. paMcazIla parvata sudhI Avyo ane tyAM gayA pachI kahe che ame to devIo = 69 7

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chIe. tuM A zarIramAM hoya tyAM sudhI amAruM tArI sAthe milana na thaI zake. tAre jo amArI sAthe lagna karavA hoya to tAre maravuM paDaze, deva thavuM paDaze. kumAra naMdIniyANuM karIne maravA mATe paNa taiyAra thayo. devIo tene paMcazIla parvata parathI enA ghare mokale che. ghare AvyA pachI nakkI kare che ke have mAre jIvavuM nathI. pAMcaso patnIomAM have tene koI inTaresTa nathI. have to ene hAsA ane prahAsAmAM ja InTaresTa che. devalokamAM javuM hoya to ApaghAta karavo paDe. ApaghAta karavA mATe, jema smazAnamAM lAkaDAMnI citA khaDake ema citA banAvIne aNazaNa karyuM. e rIte marIne e devalokamAM jAya! kumAra naMdI kAmarAgane kAraNe maravA mATe paNa taiyAra thayo... nAgila karIne eno eka mitra tyAM Ave che ane ene pUche che, "tuM. ApaghAta karavA taiyAra thayo che? gAMDA, ApaghAta karAto haze? manuSyabhavanI sArthakatA zuM AmAM che? tane jeTaluM maLyuM che e tArA puNyathI maLyuM che. tane je vadhAre nathI maLyuM e tArAM pApane kAraNe nathI maLyuM. tAre A manuSyabhava hajI tuccha bhogaphaLa meLavavA mATe veDaphavo che?" nAgila ene ghaNuM samajAve che, paNa e samajavA mATe taiyAra nathI. koI vyakti ApaNI sAcI ane sArI vAta na mAne to ApaNane gusso Ave. paraMtu ahIM nAgila vicAre che ke saMsAranuM svarUpa kevuM vicitra ane vikRta che ! mAro mitra evI eka strI pAchaLa maravA taiyAra thayo che ke je maLaze ke nahi enI koI gerenTI nathI ! ATaATaluM samajAvuM chuM, paNa e samajavA taiyAra nathI ! evA vicAromAMthI e vairAgya pAmyo. dIkSA laI, AtmakalyANa karIne bAramA devalokamAM gayo. e paNa mare che. tame juo, kAmarAgIo keTakeTaluM sahana karatA hoya che. ApaNe saMvatsarInA pratikamaNa vakhate bArI pAsenI jagA mATe kevI paDApaDI karIe chIe! tyAM besavAnI khurazI mATe keTalI rAmAyaNa cAle! saMvatsarInuM pratikamaNa AkhA varSanAM pApa khapAvavA mATe karavAnuM hoya che. aDhI-traNa kalAkamAM pratikramaNa pUruM thaI jatuM hoya che. liphaTa ekAeka baMdha thaI jAya...aDadho kalAka sudhI liphTano daravAjo na khUle, tame emAM phasAI jAva to sahana karo ke nahi? kampalasarI je sahana karavuM paDe e karavAnuM, paNa

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derAsaramAM, pratikramaNamAM bArIvALI jagA joIe. esI haoNlamAM pratikramaNa karAvo to badhA tyAM javA taiyAra! kumAra naMdI bakarInI lIMDInI citA karAvI anazana kare che. bakarInI lIMDI khUba dhImedhIme baLe che. naMdInuM zarIra baLe che, lohI baLe che, mAMsa baLe che, chatAM e dhyAnamAM masta che. e marIne deva thAya che. deva thaIne bhogo bhogavavAnuM zarU karyuM. tamane devaloka sAro lAgato haze, paNa enI eka kamanasIbI che. tyAM je sTeTasa maLe e kAyama mATe rahe. emAM pheraphAra na thAya. tame nokara to nokara ane mAlika to mAlika ! tamArI DyuTI paNa phiksa. jhADuvALA thayA to jhADuvALA ja rahevAnuM. koI pheraphAra na thaI zake. - kumAra naMdI svAmI ahIM abajapati hato. eNe koI divasa hAthamAM jhADu paNa nahotuM lIdhuM. e mANasa tyAM devalokamAM deva thayo to Indra ene DholakAM vagADavAno Adeza Ape che. naMdIno mitra paNa UMcA devalokamAM ja hato, e jAtrA karavA Avyo ane eNe naMdIne joyo. tarata oLakhI gayo ke A to pUrvabhavano mAro mitra che. enI pAse jaIne pUche che ke tuM mane oLakhe che? naMdI ene oLakhato nathI. enuM avadhi jJAna ochuM che. pelo mitra ene pUrvabhavanI vAta kare che. have ene khyAla Ave che ke A to mAro mitra! ene e paNa samajAyuM ke tene kAmarAgano daMDa maLyo che. vaLI e paNa samajAyuM ke kAmarAganAM DaphaNAM paDavAthI eno kAmarAga thoDo maMda paDyo che. eTale have ene hoziyArIpUrvaka dharma samajAvavAnI koziza kare che. ghaNA loko ahIM vyAkhyAnamAM sAMbhaLelI dharmanI sArI vAtono ghera jaIne badhAM pAse amala karAvavA prayatna kare. gharanAM svajanone henDala karatAM na AvaDe eTale kaTakaTa kare. dharma samajAvavAnuM kAma khUba dhIrajapUrvaka ane samajadArI sAthe karavuM paDe. jo baLajabarIthI ke jaDatApUrvaka dharmanuM AcaraNa karAvavAmAM Ave to UlaTuM rijhalTa AvI zake che. eTale tamAre koIne dharma samajAvavo hoya to gurunA mArgadarzanamAM samajAvajo . nahi to tame kaTakaTa karIne enAmAM je yogyatA haze eno paNa nAza karI nAkhazo. pachI guru paNa ene dharma samajAvI zakaze nahi. 71 -

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have mitrane thayuM ke yogya TAima Avyo che. have kumAra naMdIne khabara paDI gaI che, pApa-puNyanAM phaLa paNa dekhAyAM che ke A mitre sAdhanA karI to e keTaluM badhuM pAmyo ane meM kAmarAgamAM taNAIne keTakeTaluM gumAvyuM! have kumAra naMdI mitrane pUche che ke huM zuM karuM? mitra ene sAdhanAno mArga batAve che. have ene kahevuM che ke bhagavAnanI mUrtimAM kevAkevA ane keTalA badhA guNo rahelA che. AvI mUrtine e jue ane enAmAM guNonuM AkarSaNa pedA thAya evuM karAvavuM che. e kahe che, "tuM eka kAma kara. siddhArtha mahArAjAne tyAM jA ane vardhamAna (bhagavAna mahAvIra) dIkSA mATe taiyArI karI rahyA che. tuM tyAM bhagavAnanI mUrti banAva..." mUrti banAvavI hoya to vAraMvAra ene dhArIdhArIne jovI paDe. mAtra jovAthI kAMI na thAya. bhagavAnane derAsaramAM to tame paNa roja joI Avo cho. mAtra jovAthI kaMI na thAya. mUrtine dhArIdhArIne jozo to bhagavAnanA ekaeka guNa pratye AkarSaNa jAgaze. tene samajAze ke bhagavAnamAM keTalI gaMbhIratA che, bhagavAnano vinaya, bhagavAnanuM aucitya badhuM tene samajAze ane e guNo pratye tene ahobhAva thaze. potAnA doSo dekhAze. ahobhAva thavAthI paoNsibala che ke e dharma pAmI jAya ane enuM kalyANa karI zake. pahelAM ene guNa samajAvatA hatA to guNa samajavAnI enI taiyArI nahotI. nAgila samajAvato hato ke A guNa nahi doSa che, AvI rIte marAya nahito enI sAMbhaLavAnI taiyArI paNa nahotI. have ahIM upAdAna krieTa thayuM che. mATe eNe besTa upAya tarIke bhagavAnanI mUrti banAvavAnI vAta kahI. bhagavAnane dhyAnapUrvaka jotAM jotAM bodhIbIja pAmI gayo. svadoSadarzanaHsiddhimaMtra svadoSadarzana jIvanano siddhimaMtra che. e maMtra meLavavA mATe jIvanamAM be vastu lAvavAnI : eka to bhUlane bhUla tarIke svIkArI zako eTalI saraLatA ane bIjI vAta satyano pakSapAta. saraLatA ane satyano pakSapAta lAvavAnAM. moTA bhAganA loko saMsAramAM paNa saraLatA nathI lAvatA, mAyA kare che.

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eka chokaro lagna mATe chokarI jovA gayo. chokarIe chokarAne pUchyuM keTaluM bhaNelA cho? chokarAe kahyuM, emabIbIepha. chokarIne thayuM Ane bahu pUchavAmAM majA nathI. A bahu bhaNelo lAge che ane meM phakta bIkoma ja karyuM che. eNe kaMI pUchyuM nahi. sagAI thaI gaI. chokaro dhaMdho karato hato, karoDapati hato. eka vakhata chokarIe pUchyuM, "tame emabIbIepha karyuM chene? e kaI DigrI che ? chokarAe kahyuM, "meTrika meM bAra bAra phela eTale emabIbIepha ! A vakratA che. pelIe pUchyuM hatuM ke tame zuM bhaNelA cho, to eNe esaesasI phela ema cokhkhuM kahevuM joIe. eNe evuM na kahyuM ane jUThuM paNa nathI bolyo. eka bhAIne pUchyuM ke tame keTaluM bhaNelA cho, to kahe hApha grejyueTa. ApaNane lAge ke ephavAya, esavAyamAM choDI dIdhuM haze. pharIthI pUchyuM ke hApha grejyueTa eTale zuM? to kahe sevantha pAsa! sAtamI pAsa kahe to kevuM lAge! hApha grejayueTa kahe eTale sAmevALAne lAge ke bhAI ejyukeTeDa che. TIvAya aDadhethI kadAca choDyuM haze, paNa kaoNleja to karelI che. jo e sevantha sTAnDarDa kaheto? tame ekaeka mAyA juo. ghaNA loko UMcI hIlavALAM caMpala pahere nahi kema ke cAlavAnuM na phAve to paDI javAya ke paga macakoDAI jAya. have koInI hAITa ochI hoya ane ene koI salAha Ape ke tuM UMcI hIlavALAM caMpala paherI ne ! to tArI hAITa levalamAM lAgaze. te ema nahi kahe ke mane eDIvALAM caMpalathI cAlavAnuM phAvatuM nathI. hAITa bhale thoDI ochI lAge, paNa paga maraDAI gayo ke phrekTara Ave to? koI parmananTa praoNblema AvI jAya to mane koI paraNaze nahi! hAITa thoDI ochI haze to hajI khapI jaIza.. AvuM sAcuM kahevAne badale e ema kaheze ke mane hIlavALAM caMpala nathI gamatAM. tame eka vAta mArka karajo moTA bhAge jene gharamAM sAruMsAruM bhojana banAvatAM AvaDatuM nahi hoya e ema kaheze ke ghera evuM badhuM banAvavAnI mAthAkUTa zI karavAnI? bajAramAMthI taiyAra lAvI devuM joIe. e sastuM paNa paDe ane TesTI paNa hoya. potAne banAvatA AvaDatuM nathI eTale "mAthAkUTa' kahe. jo banAvatA AvaDatuM hoya to kaheze, "bahAranuM te vaLI khavAtuM haze? - - 73

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emAM svacchatAnI zIkhAtarI? vaLIgharamAM badhuM banI zake che." AjanI yaMga janarezana hIro-hIroInane rolamaoNDela samaje che. koI piksaramAM hIroe koI TIzarTa paheryuM hoya to badhA evuM paheravAnuM cAlu karI de. hIro-hIroIna jevuM pahere evuM paheravAnuM. ghaNA loko gaMjI jevuM TIzarTa pahere ja nahi. ApaNe pUchIe ke kema nathI paherato? to kaheze, "mane evI badhI phezana gamatI nathI !' ekselI phezana game to che, paNa AkhA zarIre rIMcha jevA vALa che. eTale e chokaro slivalesa TIzarTa paheraze nahi ane kaheze penTa-zarTa pUrAM paheravA joIe ! ma. sA. paNa maryAdAmAM rahevAnuM kahetA hatAne!" emAM vacce ma.sA.ne nAkhaze. hakIkatamAM zarIra para eTalA badhA vALa che ke badhA kaheze bApanI khetI vAvI che, ghAsa ugADyuM che. A badhuM sAMbhaLavuM na paDe eTale kaheze ke mane gamatuM nathI. tame A badhI mAyAprapaMcathI bharelA cho. tamArA jIvanamAM kyAre svadoSadarzana Avaze? koI tamane pUche "dharmamAM keTaluM AvaDe?' tame kahezo, "sAheba bahu nathI AvaDatuM." have enuM posTamorTama karo. "bahu nathI AvaDatuM eTale thoDuM to AvaDe che. have pUchIe ke "emAM zuM AvaDe che?' to kahezo, paMciMdiya, navakAra pachInuM bIjuM sUtra." eTale lagabhaga kaMI nathI AvaDatuM! paNa ema nahi bole mane kaMI ja nathI AvaDatuM. ane ghaNI vAra ema paNa bole, "sAhebajI, dharmamAM bahu kaMI nathI AvaDatuM..." eTale ema lAge ke jANe ene be pratikamaNa jeTaluM to AvaDatuM haze. spaSTa bolo ke "mane logassathI AgaLa kaMI nathI AvaDatuM." eTale sAmevALAne khabara paDe ke tamAruM levala zuM che. paNa eka jagAe cokhyuM bolaze nahi. badhI jagAe mAyA, prapaMca karaze. koI chokarAvALAne dhArmika ane saMskArI chokarI joItI hoya ane e tamArI dIkarI mATe pUche ke ene dharmamAM kevI ruciche, to tame kahezo, "mArI dIkarI paryuSaNamAM to vyAkhyAnamAM jAya ! ene dharmamAM ruci che.' dIkarInI sagAI thaI jAya e mATe goLagoLa ane adhUrA javAbo Apazo, kharuMne? ApaNe mAyA-prapaMca eTalAM badhAM karIe chIe ke na pUcho vAta. "eka cahere pe kaIcahere lagA lete hailoga.' jyAM sudhI tamArAmAM svadoSadarzana nahi Ave tyAM sudhI tame kalyANa nahi karI zako. eTale AjathI ja nakkI karo ke koI tamane tamArI UNapo

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vize, tamArI bhUlo vize kaMI kahe to e sAMbhaLavAnI taiyArI rAkhazo. koI tamArA doSo batAve to e svIkArazo. ApaNA doSo sAMbhaLIne sIdhA smiganI jema uchaLI nahi paDavAnuM. atyAre huM tamane badhAne kahyuM ke tame badhA lobhiyA cho eka naMbaranA, to tamane kevuM lAge? hoya lobhiyA paNa batAvavuM che udAra hovAnuM. maryAdA nAmanIya nathI ane batAvavuM che maryAdAvAna hovAnuM. vinaya-vivekano chAMToya na hoya paNa batAvavuM che atyaMta vinayIvivekI hovAnuM. potAnA doSa sAMbhaLavAnI taiyArI ja nathI. eTaluM nakkI karo ke mAre mArA doSo jovAnI koziza karavI che to tamArAmAMthI daSTirAga dUra thaze. * kAmarAga to chUTe, paNa.. kAmarAga ane sneharAga choDanArA ghaNA che. meM agnizarmAnuM udAharaNa ApyuM hatuM. bhagavAna mahAvIranA jamAI jamAlIe paNa kAmarAga kevo choDyo hato ! duniyAmAM bhagavAnanA zarIra jevuM koInuM zarIra nathI. bhagavAnanI suMdaratA sAme Indra-IndrANInAM rUpa to pANI bhare ! bhagavAnanuM AvuM rUpa hoya to emanI dIkarI priyadarzanAnuM rUpa kevuM haze ! AvI rUpavAna priyadarzanAne choDIne jamAlIe dIkSA lIdhI. priyadarzanA jevI rUpavAna patnIne choDIne kAmarAgane kevo tamAco mAryo! eNe dIkSA lIdhI enI sAthe ja 500 yuvAnoe paNa dIkSA lIdhI! emanA parivAramAM sneharAga paNa ghaNo che. e saMsAra choDe to badhA lokone duHkha thAya che. sneharAga majabUta che. evI vyakti paNa utkRSTa sAdhanA kare che. chatAM eka vAra phasAI gayo. enAthI eka vAta bolAI gaI ke je kArya thatuM hoya ene thayuM na kahevAya. A vAtane e choDavA taiyAra thatA nathI. e kAraNe bhagavAna sAme baLavo pokAryo. usUtra bhASaNa sudhI pahoMcyo. bhagavAnanA zAsanamAMthI bahAra pheMkAI gayA. kAmarAga pUrepUro choDyo hato, sneharAga choDyo hato, paNa potAnI pakaDa choDI zakyo nahi. kadAgraha choDI zakyo nahi. satyane grahaNa karavAnI tAkAta na lagADI, to eno paNa saMsAra vadhyo. e to eNe sAro dharma karelo eTale paMdaramA bhavamAM ThekANuM paDI gayuM. bAkI usUtra bhASaNa kare ane utkRSTa bhAva hoya to anaMta saMsAra vadhI jAya. -2 75 - it

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marIcie paNa kAmarAga choDyo hato. eka to e cakravartIno dIkaro, vaLI enA zarIramAMthI evAM kiraNo nIkaLe ke AjubAju ajavALuM patharAya! AvA marIcie paNa saMsAra choDyo. traNa lAkha bhAIone choDIne nIkaLyA. kAmarAga ane sneharAga dRDhapaNe choDyA. marIcine tamAma viSaya sukha bhogavavA maLatAM hatAM. e badhuM choDIne nIkaLyA pachIya ziSyano moha pedA thayo ane utsutra bhASaNa thaI gayuM. doSane choDI zakyA nahi. eka koTAkoTi sAgaropamano saMsAra vadhyo. * to patana rokaDuM ja che! | doSono pakSapAta AvI jAya to patana rokaDuM thaI jAya. eTale nakkI karo ke havethI mAre ekadama saraLa banavuM che. Ameya tame saMpUrNa jUThuM to karI ja nahi zako. keTaluMka to sAruMya karavuM ja paDaze. tamane bhUkha lAgI hoya ane tamArI patnI pUche ke bhUkha lAgI che ke nahi? to tame nathI lAgI evuM thoDuM kahezo? keTalIka jagAe tamAre satya bolavuM ja paDaze. koI tamane pUche tamAruM nAma zuM? tamAre kahevuM ja paDaze jayaMtIbhAI. ramaNabhAI bolazo to nahi cAle. eTale satya bolavuM ja paDaze. ApaNane anukULa Ave tyAM ApaNe satya bolIe chIe, pratikULatA lAge tyAM asatya bolIe chIe. pUrNa satya paNa na phAve ane pUrNa asatya paNa na phAve. eka vAta yAda rAkhajo ke mAyA karazo to ochA kUTAzo, eno nikAla saMbhavataH thaI zakaze, paNa mAyA karavA jevI che evuM mAnazo to kuTAImarazo. ApaNe badhI jagAe mAyA-prapaMca karIe chIe. eTale AjathI koI pUche kyAM jAo cho ? to kahevAnuM dhaMdho karavA jAuM chuM. koI pUche Aje keTaluM kamAyA ? tamArI pAse cAra bIecakenuM ghara che eTale badhAne khabara che propara muMbaImAM e minimama cArathI pAMca karoDanI praoNparTI gaNAya. tamArI pAse pAMca karoDanI jagA che to tamArI kamANIno aMdAja saune AvI ja jazene? tame sAcI Avaka kahI dezo to zuM thaI jaze? tamane evo saMzaya haze ke koIkanI najara lAgI jaze athavA jenI inkama ochI hoya ene kadAca irSA utpanna thAya. to cAlo, have tamArA e

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saMzayanuM posTamorTama karIe. sapaoNjha, sAmenI vyakti pAse phoravhIlara nathI. neno kAra to doDheka lAkhamAM ja AvI jAya che. tame vicAro ke doDha lAkha rUpiyA mArI pAse rahe ke na rahe ane khAsa pharaka paDaze kharo? e du:khI che, to ene tame neno kAra laI Apazo? enI IrSAnI ciMtA karo cho to enI IrSAnA kAraNano upAya kema nathI karatA? bIjI rIte ema paNa vicArI zakAya ke koIne IrSA thAya emAM tamAro zo vAMka? eNe tamane pUchyuM ke keTalA kamAyA tyAre tame sAco javAba Apyo che. tame ene sAmethI kahevA to nathI gayAne? pachI tamane koI pApa lAge ? sAmevALAe jAte ApaghAta karyo ane maryo emAM tamane koI pApa na lAge. tame ene kahyuM hoya ke tuM mara ane e mare to tamane pApa lAge. e IrSA kare enuM pApa tamane nahi lAge. ciMtA na karo. thoDAM varasa agAu tamArA karatAM e paisAvALA hatA ane have e lokone krAIsIsa AvI gaI. have e loko Arthika saMkaDAzamAM AvI gayA che ane tamArA ghare bIemaDabalyu AvI gaI to tame zuM karo ? koIne IrSA thAya tamAro zo vAMka? tame abajopati thaI gayA ane tamArA koI saMbaMdhIne IrSA thAya che to zuM tame tamArA abajo rUpiyA pheMkI dezo? tamane eNe sAmethI pUchyuM che ke tame keTalA kamAyA? have ene IrSA thAya, maitrI thAya ke game te thAya; e mATe tamAre khoTuM zA mATe bolavAnuM? e bhale game te samaje, tamane kahevAmAM vAMdho zo? * patnI sAmeya mAyA-prapaMca! tame juo jagatanI sthiti kevI che ! potAnAM mAbApane tathA parivArane choDIne AvelI navInavI putravadhU enA patine pUche ke ApaNe keTalA kamAIe chIe? pelo sAco javAba nahi Ape. pati ThAvakAIthI kaheze huM pUratuM kamAuM chuM, tAre zuM Tenzana che? tane zuM joIe che e bola! tuM e mAthAkUTa mUka ke huM keTalA kamAuM chuM. patnIe kaMI mAMgyuM to nathI ja, chatAM pati sAco javAba ApavAnuM TALe che ! tame khUba kamAtA ho ane e kaMIka mAMge to tamAruM kartavya paNa che ke ene ApavuM joIe ! e je kaMI ucita mAge e lAvI ApavAnuM tamAruM pati tarIkenuM kartavya che. eNe tamane potAnuM samagra jIvana sopyuM che. e tamane kahe ke, "mAre sonAnI vIMTI joIe che, jo tame kamAyA

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ho to lAvI Apo." emAM geravAjabI mAgaNI zI che? tamArI pAse eNe sonAnI vIMTI mAMgI kAraNa ke tame lAkha rUpiyA kamAyA hatA. jo tame pacAsa lAkha kamAyA ho to e kahI zake ke mane riyala DAyamaMDanI vIMTI laI Apo. Ame tamAre pAMca lAkha kyAMka to lagADavA ja paData ne? to A sonuM laIne gharamAM rAkhyuM. bhaviSyamAM e kAmamAM ja AvavAnuM che. AmAM kyAM eNe kazuM veDaphI nAkhyA che? UlaTAnuM sonAnA bhAva vadhaze eno lAbha maLaze. tame pAMca lAkha rUpiyA koIne vyAje Apata ane pArTI UThI paNa jAta. enA karatA pAMca lAkha gharamAM to raheze. hA, patnI nI ayogya mAMgaNI hoya to ene nA pADI zakAya. e ema kahe ke mAre rojaroja dasa hajAranI sADI eka ja vakhata paherIne pheMkI devI che, to e enI ayogya DimAnDa che. tamArI patnI tamane be TAima rasoI karIne jamADe che. tamArAM saMtAnone uchere che, tamAro vicitra svabhAva Aja sudhI nabhAvyo che nahi to kyAranAya chUTAcheDA thaI gayA hota ! AvI patnI tamane kahe che ke jo tame kamAyA ho to mane lAvI Apo. topaNa tame kahevA taiyAra nathI e tamAro lobhakaSAya kahevAya. gADha lobha-kaSAyane lIdhe koI ma. sA. tamane kahe tame kharAba cho ane marIne narakamAM jazo to sAMbhaLI zako? tarata tame kahezo ke bhale ame marIne narakamAM jaIzuM tame ekalAekalA svargamAM jajo. tamAro lobhakaSAya kevo prabaLa che. tamane tamArI patnI pUche keTalA kamAyA tame sAco javAba ApI dezone? paoNsibala che ke tame tamArI patnIne pUcho ke tArI pAse keTalI sADI che, to e tamane kaheze ke, "che have, tamAre zuM che?' e sAco javAba nahi Ape. e vicAraze ke jo huM mArI pAse ekaso sADI che, ema kahIza to mane navI sADI lAvavA nahi de. A bahenono lobha-kaSAya che. doSone jovAnI koziza karajo. mA 78 ra

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| zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH | prakaraNa-14 kAmarAgAsneharAgAvISatkaranivAraNI ! daSTirAgastu pApIyAnuM duruccheda satAmapi // vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka * bahArathI dharmarAga, bhItarathI saMsArarAga! ajJAna (mithyAjJAna)ne kAraNe moha pedA thAya che. ame mumukSu hatA tyAre eka mumukSu sAruM gAtA hatA. pratikamaNamAM e mumukSue stavana suMdara rIte gAyuM. eka bhAIne bhrAMti thaI ke stavana meM gAyuM che, eTale bIje divase e bhAI mane kahe, 'tame stavana saMbhaLAvo ne! tamAro kaMTha madhura che. kAle tamArA kaMThe stavana sAMbhaLIne khUba AnaMda thayo.' meM kahyuM ke "gAyana bAbate mAro kaMTha jarAya sAro nathI." to kahe, "e to jeno kaMTha sAro hoya e AvuM ja bole ! tame pratikamaNamAM gAyuM e meM sAMbhaLyuM hatuM. meM khulAso karyo ke "e meM nahotuM gAyuM, bIjA mumukSue gAyuM hatuM.' to kahe, "nA, tame ja gAyuM hatuM ane tamAre atyAre saMbhaLAvavuM ja paDaze." emanI jidda vadhI paDI eTale meM eka stavananI paMkti gAI saMbhaLAvI to kahe, 'tamAre gAvuM na hoya to na gAo, paNa Ama bekAra na gAo...' have Ano upAya kevI rIte karavo ? enA manamAM bhrAMti besI gaI hatI ke mAro kaMTha bahu sAro che. bIjA divase derAsaramAM bhegA thayA to tyAM paNa jidda karI ke, caityavaMdanamAM tame ja stavana bolo..." meM zAMta svare chatAM makkama rIte kahyuM ke, riyalI mAro rAga sAro nathI ane plIjha tame evuM nahi samajo ke mane abhimAna che eTale huM nathI gAto. mane sAce ja gAtAM nathI phAvatuM.." paNa ajJAnane kAraNe e mAnavA ja taiyAra nahi. ajJAnane kAraNe moha pedA thayo, ilyujhana thayuM. mArA pratye rAga thayo. mArI sAthe ja bese. huM derAsaramAM stavana gAIne saMbhaLAvuM to emane sArA bhAva jAge evI apekSAthI emano rAga daDha thato gayo. kintu alTimeTalI emano mArA taraphano rAga phulaphila na thayo, kema ke huM barAbara gAI na zakyo. mULa kAraNa -- 79

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ajJAna (mithyAjJAna) che. ajJAnanA (mithyAjJAna) kAraNe moha thAya ane mohanA kAraNe rAga-dveSa thAya. eka bhAI mane kahe ke, "sAhebajI! tuM mane bhagavAna eka varadAna ApI de" bhaktigItanA zabdo kevA adbhuta che ! huM to e bhaktigIta sAMbhaLuM chuM tyAre tara-batara thaI jAuM chuM. A gIta rASTrIyagIta jevuM paoNpyulara thaI gayuM che. AtmanirIkSaNa karavA jevuM che. A gIta benDavALA varSothI vagADatA hatA. zabdo enA e ja hovA chatAM pahelAM e gIta eTaluM badhuM gamatuM nahotuM, paraMtu ketanabhAI deDhiyAe A gIta gAvAnI Dhaba cenja karIne navI ja rIte gAyuM, tyArathI te atyaMta prasiddha ane lokapriya thaI gayuM che. kharekhara, A gItamAM saMsAranI asAratAnuM je varNana che te agAu alaga DhabathI gavAtuM hatuM emAM paNa hatuM ja, chatAM navI DhabathI gavAyeluM gIta vadhu game che. to emAM evuM to nathI ne ke enI gAvAnI Dhaba game che ! ane jo mAtra gAvAnI Dhaba gamatI hoya to e to zrotendriyano viSaya thayo. eTale ene dharmarAga na kahevAya. paddhatisara gavAtAM gIto dharmapravezamAM kAraNa bane che. bhAvanAdimAM bhaktigIto sArI rIte gavAya te anivArya ane anumodanIya che." ApaNA jIvanane taTastha ane sUkSmanajare jotA jaIe to parigraha, lobha, krodha vagere jevA ApaNA tamAma kaSAya sAkSAta ane spaSTa jovA maLe. vyAkhyAnamAM besavA mATe jo jagAnuM bhADuM cUkavavuM paDatuM hoya to badhA potAnI sAmAyikanI bega khoLAmAM mUke. bhADuM cUkavavAnuM nathI hotuM eTale badhA pahoLA thaIne bese che. saMkaDAza thatI hoya to paNa potAnI bega haTAvavAnI koziza karaze nahi. A lobha kaSAya che. mAre kAraNe eka jIvane besavA mATe jagA ochI paDaze enA aMtarAyathI mAro saMsAra vadhaze, e vicArato ja nathI. ghaNAMne cha rI' pAlita saMghamAM majA Ave, paNa upadhAnamAM na Ave. kema ke cha rI' pAlita saMghamAM rojaroja gAma badalAya. savAre kudaratI vAtAvaraNa khIleluM hoya, baMne tarapha jhADa hoya, maMdamaMda havA vahetI hoya ane

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badhAM samUhamAM jatAM hoIe, baLadanA gaLAmAM ghaMTa ke ghUgharA raNakatA hoya. eTale cha rI' pAlita saMghamAM majA Ave. sAco dharmarAga hoya tyAre judI ja majA Ave. dilamAM pastAvo jAge ke Aja sudhI meM keTalAM vAhanono upayoga karyo ! atyAre huM bArabAra kilomITara pagapALA cAlI zakuM chuM. eka bilDiMgamAMthI bIjI bilDiMgamAM javA mATe meM skUTarane kika mArI hatI. mAruM jIvana kevuM pApamaya hatuM ! ane ahIM ArAdhanAnI kevI majA Ave che ! A thayo dharmarAga. jayAre vihAramAM bhale thoDo thAka lAge, paNa vihAra daramyAna je majA mANI e to lonAvAlA-mAtherAnamAM paNa na maLI. jamavAmAM traNa mIThAI, traNa pharasANa ane kAMsAnAM bhANAM hoya ane hAthapaMkho naMkhAto hoya. saMghapatie saghaLI vyavasthA karI hoya ! alabatta, A majA pAMca indriyanA viSayonI che. ApaNane ema thAya ke mArA dasa divasa dharmamAM pasAra thayA, paraMtu tyAM paNa moharAjA AvIne khatama karI nAkhe. ja sneharA paNa kyAM che? | sneharAganuM atyAre nAmonizAna jovA na maLe evI hAlata che. rAmane kahyuM ke tamAre rAjaya bharatane ApavAnuM che ane rAma tarata taiyAra thaI gayA. Aje evA putro ane evA bhAIo virala ja jovA maLe che. sneharAgamAM to niHsvArtha lAgaNI hoya. eka phemilImAM mA marI gaI. bhAI-baheno bhegAM thayAM ane vArasAmAM maLanArI saMpatti mATe AkhI rAta jhagaDyAM. kharekhara to badhAMne aphasosa thavo joIto hato ke upakArI mAtA cAlI gaI. ApaNe enI yogya sevA-bhakti na karI zakyAM. ene badale bhAI-bahena bhegAM thaIne AkhI rAta jhaghaDyAM. savAre mA marI gaI che, sAMje agnisaMskAra karIne AvyA che ane rAte badhAM bhAIbahena jhaghaDe che. mAtA pratye sneharAga hoya e mANasane che mahinA sudhI mIThAI sudhdhAM na bhAve. dharmarAganI vAta nathI ho, mAtra sneharAga hoya toya sau kahe ke milakatanI carcA nathI karavI. mahArAja koNika mRtyu pAmyA, tyAre emano putra udayana rAjA e rAjayamAM rahI nathI zakato. udayana kahe che ke jyAM jyAM mArI najara paDe che - 81 -

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tyAMtyAM mane mArA pitAnI tasavIra dekhAya che. have huM A rAjyamAM rahI nahi zakuM. A paNa kAMI dharmarAga nathI, sneharAga ja che. bilDiMgamAM ghaNAM varSathI sAthe rahetAM hoIe ane koI marI jAya to paNa tamane kaMI pharaka nathI paDato. sAMje cha vAge smazAnayAtrAmAM jaI AvIne rAtre ATha vAge hoTalamAM javuM hoya to tame jaI zako cho. gAmaDAmAM to atyAre paNa keTalIka jagAe koI mANasa marI gayuM hoya to cha mahinA sudhI gAmamAM zoka paLAya. AkhA gAmamAM koI mIThAIna khAya. atyAre to jenA gharamAM mRtyu thayuM hoya e paNa mahinA pachI hoTalamAM jovA maLe che. eTale sneharAga sAva khatama ja thaI gayo che. atyAre Akho samAja kAmarAgI banI gayo che. koIne kaMI levAdevA nathI. eka marAThI kavinI kavitAno bhAvArtha samajavA jevo che. emAM kavi kahe che ke Aje mANasa koInA besaNAmAMthI sIdho koInA lagnamAM ane koInA lagnamAMthI sIdho koInA besaNAmAM evI rIte jAya che, jANe e potAnA gharanA eka rUmamAMthI bIjA rUmamAM jato hoya ! zoka ane AnaMda evAM banAvaTI thaI gayAM che ke lAIpha sAthe jANe ene kazo nAto ja na hoya. janA, e bhUmino prabhAva nathI ja! tame pUchazo ke zuM A bhUmino prabhAva nathI? mAro javAba che ke nA, emAM mAtra bhUmino prabhAva nathI. bhUmi to sArI che. atyAre ghaNIghaNI dIkSAo thAya che. loko haryobharyo saMsAra tyAgIne nIkaLI jAya che. e lokone tIvra vairAgya thAya che ane bIjI tarapha keTalAka lokone potAnI sagI mAtA mRtyu pAmI hoya tyAre mAtra be mahinA mATe mIThAI baMdha karavAnuM paNa rucatuM nathI. Ano matalaba zo thayo? bhUmino prabhAva hoya to ahIM ATalI badhI dIkSAo kema thAya ? ATalAM nAnAM bALako mAsakSamaNa kevI rIte karI zake ? eTale bhUmino kharAba prabhAva hovAnI ArgyumenTa vAjabI nathI. A bhUmimAM to apAra vizeSatAo che. durbhAgyanI vAta e che ke atyAre zaheromAM ane gAmaDAMomAM paNa moDarna kalcara ghUsI gayuM che. aMgata svajananA mRtyuno zoka paNa have jANe junavANI

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jevo ane AuTaDeTeDalAge che. tame kadI vicAro cho kharA ke zoka rAkhavA pAchaLanuM rahasya zuM che? pahelI spaSTatA e karI lauM ke zoka rAkhavAno hoto nathI, e to sahajapaNe ja rahI jato hoya che. chatAM keTalIka bAbato vyavahAranI rIte paNa rAkhavAnI hoya. koI svajana cAlyuM jAya - vIsa-pacIsa ke pacAsa varSa tamArI sAthe rahyA pachI e vyakti tamArI kAyamI vidAya laI le to tame mIThAI khAI zako kharA ? raMgIna kapaDAM paheravAno UmaLako tame batAvI zako? atyAre philma sTAra lokonA jIvanamAM zuM che? koI komeDiyana avasAna pAmyo hoya to enI prArthanAmAM komeDIno kAryakrama rAkhe che! ene gamatuM hatuM e badhuM karo. tame A badhAne Adarza mAnatA gayA, maoNDarna samajavA lAgyA eTale A prArthanAsabhAo vagere cAlu thayuM. pahelAM sozyala rivAjo judA hatA ane enA hetuo paNa khAsa hatA. atyAre loko DiprezanamAM Ave che enuM kAraNa A ja che. mANasa mRtyu pAme tyAre amuka prakAranuM rudana paNa jarUrI hoya che. * zokapALavAnuM rahasya dharmarAganI kepesiTI saumAM nathI hotI. dharmarAgamAM jaI zake e sauthI sAruM, paNa emAM na jaI zake evA loko tUTI na jAya, DiprezanamAM DUbI na jAya e mATenI cokkasa Ayojita vyavasthA hatI. koI strIno pati avasAna pAmyo hoya to enuM mana udAsa hoya, enuM hRdaya pIDA anubhavatuM hoya. evA samaye thoDA divasa sudhI enA ghare bIjAM svajano ane mahemAno maLavA Ave eTale enuM mana thoDuM DAyavarTa thAya. koI maLavA Ave, vAtacIta thAya, manamAM bIjA vicAro Ave enA kAraNe enuM mana haLavuM thAya ane paMdaravIsa divasa nIkaLI jAya. eka kahevata che ke duHkhanuM osaDa dahADA. samaya koIpaNa saMkaTa ane samasyAnuM samAdhAna lAve che. tAjo ghA hoya tyAre enI pIDA vadhAre hoya, paNa kramazaH e ochI thatI thatI Akhare bhUMsAI jatI hoya che. Aje phorenanI jema inDiyAmAM paNa lokone Diprezana kema vaLagyuM che? pahelAMnA vakhatamAM koI vyakti vyavasAyamAM devALuM phUMke to eno Akho parivAra enI paDakhe rahIne ene bahAra kADhavAno prayAsa karato. atyAre

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pheliyaranI sAthe koI UbhuM na hoya. e manomana gUMcavAI - gUMgaLAI jAya ane kyAreka AtmahatyA sudhI pahoMcI jAya. manovijJAna kahe che ke AghAtagrasta vyaktinuM hRdaya khAlI thaI javuM anivArya che. e mATe ene raDAvavuM bahu jarUrI bane che. aMgrejImAM eka kavitA bhaNavAmAM AvatI hatI : zI masTavIpa, ora zIvala DAya'. eno marma samajavA jevo che. eka sainika yuddhamAM zahIda thaI gayo che. enI yuvAna strI pAse patino mRtadeha paDyo che. AsapAsamAM svajanonI bhIDa che. saunI AMkho bhInI che, kintu sainikanI patnI raDatI nathI. eno AghAta eTalo tIvra che ke e svayaM jaDavat banI gaI che. saune ciMtA thAya che. jo A strI nahiraDe to enuM hRdaya AghAtathI baMdha thaI jaze. loko ene sainikanI bahAdurInI vAto yAda karAve che, koI ene enA lagna vakhatanI vAto yAda karAve che. chatAM sainikapatnI avicaLa rahe che. koI bolyuM ane tAtkAlika raDAvavI jarUrI che, nahitara enA jIvanuM jokhama che. tyAM eka anubhavI vRddhA beThelAM hatAM. e cUpacApa UbhAM thayAM ane bahAra AMgaNAmAM ramatI sainikanI doDha-be varSanI bALakIne laI AvIne enA khoLAmAM mUkI dIdhI. potAnI dIkarIne joIne e strI raDI paDI. e bALakInI javAbadArI have eNe mAtA tarIke nibhAvavAnI hatI enuM ene smaraNa karAvyuM. patinI gerahAjarImAM bALakInA uchera mATe have eNe makkama thavAnuM che enI pratIkAtmaka rajUAta thaI. e strI dhodhamAra raDI paDI. AMsu vahI nIkaLe che tyAre AghAta jarA haLavo thAya che. AMsu raMdhAI jAya to DUmo bAjhI jAya ane e jIvaleNa thaI zake. RSabhadeva nirvANa pAmyA tyAre emanA putra bharata rAjAnI AMkhamAMthI AMsu nathI nIkaLatAM. teo sAva sunamuna thaI gayA che. indra emane raDIne batAve che. AMkhamAMthI AMsu vahI jAya to hRdaya khAlI thaI jAya. atyAre to phaoNrmala rilezananI bolabAlA che. badhuM uparachalluM ane ArTiphizyala. potAnA hRdayanI vAta koIne kahI zakAtI nathI. tethI loko DiprezanamAM phasAya che. koI koInuM sAMbhaLavA ja taiyAra nathI, koIne koInuM - 84 -

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sAMbhaLavAnI phurasada ja nathI. badhA bijhIbijhI rahe che. samAjavyavasthA ja AkhIDahoLAI gaI che. svajananA mRtyuprasaMge tame sneharAgathI raDazo topaNa pApa baMdhAze. pUrvanA samAjamAM sneharAga hato tethI raDatAM-have to sneharAga nahivat thato jAya che ane te dharmarAganA kAraNe nahi, kAmarAganA kAraNe ! svajananAM mRtyu pachI tame ArtadhyAna karo to te cokkasa pApa baMdhAve. have mAruM zuM thaze? have huM kevI rIte kArobAra saMbhALIza? huM bilakula ekalo thaI gayo athavA huM taddana ekalI thaI gaI, A badhA vicAro saMsAranA che. kadAca vyakti ArtadhyAnamAM jAya, paraMtu mArA upakArI svajana cAlyA gayA evI samaja sAthe, emanI yAdanA kAraNe, emanA guNonA kAraNe, emanI bhakti na karI zakyA evA koI kAraNe raDo to pApa na baMdhAya. mukhya vAta e che ke raDavA pAchaLanuM kAraNa zuM? eka putravadhUnI pALelI bilADI marI gaI. putravadhU khUba raDavA lAgI. patie pUchyuM, "ATaluM rudana to te koI mANasa pAchaLa paNa nathI karyuM... bilADInA mRtyuno tane Avo ghero AghAta kema lAgyo che?' tyAre patnIe javAba AvyA ke, "jyAre jayAre huM dUdha pI jatI ane sAsu pUche ke dUdha kema ochuM che to huM bilADInuM nAma ApatI. have konuM nAma ApIza mATe raDuM chuM." AvA rudanathI 100TakA pApa ja baMdhAya. AvedavAkema kahevAya? thoDAMka varSa pahelAMnA AMkaDA pramANe vizvamAM lagabhaga pacIsa karoDa lokone DAyAbiTIjha che. inDiyAmAM sADA traNa karoDa loko enA zikAra banelA che. 2030 sudhImAM ATha karoDa lokone DAyAbiTIjha thavAno aMdAjha che. A DAyAbiTIjha eTale zuM ? sAmAnya samaja evI che ke zarIramAM sugaralevala kaMTrolamAM na rahe, sAkarane pacAvavAnI zakti khatama thaI jAya e roganuM nAma DAyAbiTIjha. ApaNe sAkara khAIe to zarIramAM ene pacAvavAnI kSamatA hoya che. emAM kyAMya belensa khoravAya to sugara vadhI jAya. vadhArAnI sugara lohImAM bhaLe ene DAyAbiTIjha kahevAya. meDikala sAyansa DAyAbiTIjhanI davA - 85 -

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ApIne lohImAM bhaLelI sAkaranuM belensa jALavavA koziza kare che, paNa te evo koI ilAja nathI batAvatuM ke jethI sAkara pacAvavAnI tAkAta pharIthI pedA thAya. sAkara pacAvavAnI tAkAta utpanna thAya to roga ApoApa ghaTI jAya, paNa e loko DAyAbiTIjhanI davA athavA isyulinanAM ijekzana Ape che. lohImAM bhaLelI sAkarane pacAvavAnI tAkAtane e loko Devalapa karatA nathI. sAMbhaLyuM che ke hamaNAM hamaNAM je sAkara bane che e pacatI nathI. emAM eTalAM badhAM kemikalsa Ave che. AjanI sAkara svITa poIjhana . tamane sAkara vhAITa game. gaoNLano kalara vhAITa gamaze. gaoNLa zeraDImAMthI bane che. zeraDIno rasa grIniza brAuna jevo hoya che. enI para prosesa kare to gaoNLamAM kALAza Ave ja, paNa kALAza ApaNane gamatI nathI. ApaNane gaoNLa paNa sapheda game. eTale e loko milamAM gaoNLane kemikalathI vaoNza karIne ene vAITa kare. Ama tamane kemikalavALo goLa maLaze. kALA goLanI banAvelI sukhaDI kALI lAgaze je tamane nahi game. guNa karatAM rUpanuM mahattva vadhI jAya tyAre khoTa khAvAno vAro Ave ja. tamArA badhAnA kAmarAga eTalI hada sudhI phUlyAphAlyA che ke khatama nathI thatA. dUdhIno halavo hoya ke mohanathALa, badhAmAM kalara nAkhavAmAM Ave che. dekhAvathI matalaba che ke khAvAthI? kalarathI e vAnagI rUpALI lAge, paNa zarIrane bhAre nukasAna kare. topaNa dekhAvamAM sArI joIe. pAMca indriyanA viSayone anukULa lAgavI joIe. e kAmarAga thayo. kensara thAya to bhale thAya paNa kemikalavALI vAnagI ja Apo. goLa ekadama sapheda Apo. sAkarane sapheda karavA mATe hADakAMthI ene poliza karavAmAM Ave, chatAM ApaNane sAkara sapheda joIe. atyAre tame badhAM je kapaDAM pahero cho emAM ekaekamAM keTakeTalAM kemikalsa vaparAya che. e kemikalsanAM kevAM kevAM riekzansa Ave e badhuM tame vAMcatA ja nathI eTale tamane enI gaMbhIratAno aNasAra nathI. tame kazI paravA karatA nathI. tamArI chappananI chAtI che. kensarano Dara bhale batAvo

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ame to raMgIna kapaDAM ja paherazuM, ame to kemikalavALuM ja khAIzuM. maravAnuM to badhAne che. kemikala vagaranuM khAzo topaNa maravAnA ke nahi? to pachI khAo ane jalasA karo ne ! pAMca indriyanA viSayanI lolupatA tamane kyAMkyAM DhasaDI jAya che! roga mAtra mota nathI Apato, ribAmaNI Ape che. roga thatAM ja mota maLI thatuM nathI, paraMtu kensara vagere gaMbhIra rogo mANasane nathI jIvavA detA, nathI maravA detA. bharapUra ribAve che ane TriTamaeNnTa pAchaLa paisAnuM pANI paNa karAve che. evuMya nathI ke tamane A badhAM jokhamonI jANakArI nathI. tamane mArA karatAM vadhAre pahelethI khabara ja che. InTaraneTa para batAve ja che. megImAM zuM hoya che enI khabara hovA chatAM badhA jhApaTI jAya. cIjha, pinjhA, pAstA, bargara badhuM kone kahevAya enI mane khabara nathI, koI paNa nathI, jovAnAM aramAna paNa nathI. tamane barAbara khabara che ke e badhI vastuomAM zuM zuM Ave che, topaNa tame khAva cho. kAmarAga tamAro eTalo prabaLa che. eTama bombane koI sArI rIte zaNagArIne giphTabaoNksamAM Ape to tame loko laI lo. maryA to bhale maryA paNa baoNksa kevuM majAnuM hatuM ! pekiMga keTaluM sarasa hatuM ! majA AvI gaI ! AvA mUrkhAone to koI samajAvI ja na zake. A kAmarAga che. enAthI maravAnA thayA che. tamane huM daSTirAga para laI jaI rahyo hato. DAbAbiTIjhanI davAo lohImAM rahelI sAkarane dUra kare, paNa sAkarane pacAvavAnI tAkAta utpanna karatI nathI. ApaNane dRSTirAganA kAraNe guNo game che paNa enA ekacyala guNa nathI gamatA. tamArA svabhAvamAM kaMjusAI che. tamane tamArI e kaMjusAI hADohADa lAgI Ave che kAraNa ke tamAro dIkaro aThyAvIsa varSano thayo. phora bIecake che chatAM koI chokarI ApavA taiyAra nathI. have tamane lAge che ke A kaMjusAI khoTI. eTale paisA vAparavA iccho cho. ma.sA.nI nizrAmAM eka upadhAna karAvI nAkho eTale AkhA samAjamAM vAhavAha thaI jAya. dIkarAnuM sagapaNa nathI thatuM tyAre tamane kaMjusAI kharAba lAge che, paNa kaMjusAI mULathI kharAba

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nathI lAgatI. ema DAyAbiTIjhanI davAvALA rogane mULamAMthI nAbUda karavAnI koziza ja nathI karatA, emasaMsArIone guNo mULathI nathI gamatA. jarUra paDye upara-uparathI guNo keLavI le che. * dharmalimiTeDa kaMpanI amArI pAse AvIne ghaNAM mAbApa kahe ke, "sAheba, mArA dIkarAne thoDo dharma samajAvo. pahelethI ja kahI deH thoDo dharma samajAvo, vadhAre nahi. dIkSA levA sudhI pahoMcI jAya eTalo nahi! ene thoDo DAhyo karo eTale e mArI sevA kare, mane sAcave, mArI sAme na bole, enI patnInI vAtamAM na AvI jAya, mAruM kIdhuM kare eTalo dharma karAvo. ApaNAM zAstromAM kahyuM che ne ke mAbApanA upakArano badalo koI paNa hisAbe na vALI zakAya, eTale sAheba ene thoDuM samajAvo. mA-bApane phAyado karAve evo dharma game che. ApaNane dharmanA paNa mULa guNo nathI gamatA. Isyulina laI lo eTale lohImAM rahelI sugara ochI thaI jAya, paNa roga mULathI maTaze nahi. 4tame kone sAco javAba Apazo? ApaNe agnizarmAnI vAta karatA hatA. agnizarmAne enA kulapati samajAve che ke guNasena rAjA Avo nathI, paNa e sAMbhaLavA ja taiyAra nathI. svadoSanI pakaDa majabUta che. kumAranandInA mitre pUrvabhavamAM samajAvavAnI koziza karI ane ApaghAta kare che tyAre samajyo nahi paNa pAchaLathI samajyo. bhagavAna pArzvanAtha kamaThane samajAve che, tyAre e na samajyo paNa pAchaLathI samaje che. A lokono daSTirAga majabUta hato paNa pAchaLathI kliyara thayuM. agnizarmA to samajI ja na zakyo ema tame loko paNa tamArA doSone samajI nathI zakatA. pariNAme aneka praoNblemsa khaDA thAya che. tamane mULa guNo gamatA ja nathI. saraLatA lAvavA bAbate meM tamane prazna pUchelo ke tamArI patnI tamane pUche ke tame A varSe keTalA kamAyA, to tame zo javAba Apo? sAcuM kahI daIe to bephAma kharco kare evI dahezata che. paNa jo tamArI patnI bephAma kharca nathI karatI, pramANasara kharca ja kare che, kITI pArTIomAM jatI nathI, hoTalanuM khAtI ja nathI, ma. sA.nA TacamAM che, cauvihAra-navakArazI kare che, e patnI pUche che ke, "keTalA kamAyA?" topaNa

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tame patnIne sAco javAba kema nathI ApatA? A lobhakaSAya che. chUpo Dara che ke huM koIne sAcesAcuM kahIza ke huM ATalA kamAyo to jANe mArA paisA ochA thaI jaze. kevIkevI mAnyatAo che ke koInI najara lAgI jAya ! AkhI duniyAmAM tamane ja najara lAge che, bAkI koIne nathI lAgatI. badhA DAkaNa ne bhUvA ja AvyA hoya ke jANe sAMbhaLyuM ane tamArI para vazIkaraNano prayoga karI ane tamAro dhaMdho bAMdhI nAMkhaze ! ema jo dhaMdho bAMdhI zakAto hota to mukeza aMbANIno dhaMdho keTalA lokoe bAMdhyo hota? tame kaho cho patnI khoTA kharcA kare che, dIkarAne kahI do to e paNa khoTA kharcA kare. mitrane sAcI Avaka kahIe to e kadAca IrSA kare. have mane kaho, guru pUche to gurune sAcI Avaka kahevAya ke nahi? guru to khoTA kharcA nahi kare, guru IrSA paNa nahi kare, to gurune kahezo? *sAdhuno e AcAra ja nathI! | tame vicArazo ke pachI gurujI occhava-mahotsava karAvaze. amArA AcAra pramANe amane utsargathI dravyastava karAvavAnAM aramAna thAya to bhagavAnanI amane spaSTa AjJA che ke dIkSA choDI devAnI. mane upadhAna karAvavAnuM mana thAya to dIkSA choDI devAnI AjJA bhagavAne batAvI che. mane cha rI' pAlita saMgha karAvavAnuM mana thAya to bhagavAnanI AjJA kahe che ke bhAI, tuM nIkaLI jA. tAruM A philDamAM kAma nathI. koI yuvAna ArmImAM hoya ane kahe mAre rojanAM traNa piksara jovAM che, to ArmIvALA ene kaheze, tuM ahIMthI nIkaLa. tAruM ahIM kAma nathI. roja traNatraNa piksara jovAM hoya ane varSamAM cAra mahinA rajA joItI hoya to tAruM ArmImAM kaMI kAma nathI. ema ahIM amAro paNa e AcAra nathI ke ame koInI pAse paisA kharcAvIe. paisAne to ame eTamabomba, pApa samajIne choDyA. eTale amAre tamArI pAse kaMI karAvavAnI icchA ja nathI karavAnI. upadeza ApIne dravyastavanI mahAnatA samajAvavAnI che. bhagavAne sAdhuo mATe derAsara baMdhAvavAno AcAra paNa nathI batAvyo. ame hiMsAthI thato dharma choDI dIdho mATe bhagavAna amane hiMsAthI thato dharma karAvavAnuM kahetA nathI. bhagavAna amane kahetA paNa nathI ke tArI nizrAmAM eka paNa saMgha na nIkaLyo, eka paNa upadhAna na thayuM,

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eka paNa derAsara na banyuM eTale tArI dIkSA niSphaLa. amArI dIkSAnI saphaLatA-niSphaLatAno AdhAra amArI nizrAmAM keTalAM tapa thayAM, keTalI dIkSA thaI, keTalAM varSItapathayAM, keTalAderAsara banyA enI para ja nathI. sAmUhika tapa vagere karAvavuM e amAro AcAra nathI. sAmUhika tapa, upadhAna, cha rIpAlita saMgha, vividha anuSThAno tamAre karavA tathA karAvavA joIe ja. tamArI bhUmikAe te dharma che. paNa sAdhune evuM karAvavAnuM mana na thavuM joIe. sAmUhika anuSThAno khoTAM nathI. dhanano dhumADo nathI ke dhUmadhAme dhamAdhama nathI tamAre tapa ityAdi karavA-karAvavA jevuM che eTalo upadeza ApIe. tamAre upadhAna karavuM che ke cha rIpAlita saMgha kADhavo che to ame nizrA jarUra ApIe. basa, eTaluM ja. amAre ugharANAM ane phaMDaphALA karavAnAM kAma nathI karavAnAM. 'bhAI, tuM eka lAkha rUpiyA lakhAva, ApaNe pacIsa dAtA bhegA karIne cha rI'pAlita saMgha kADhIe. ATaluM badhuM kamAyo che to kema lobhiyo thAya che? - A rIte ekaekane pakaDIne bolAvavA e amAro sAdhu-AcAra nathI. sAdhue kadAca tamane pUchyuM ke keTalA paisA kamAyA. sAdhu mahArAja pUche paNa kharA. tamAruM AtmakalyANa karavuM hoya athavA mArkeTanI simyuezana jovI hoya, inkama zI che. atyAre loko kevI rIte kamAya che e sAttvika inpharmezana joItI hoya eTale pUchyuM hoya. koI projekTa mATe na pUchyuM hoya. tame emane paNa sAcuM nathI kahI zakatA. ma.sA.thI paNa tamane Dara lAge che. sAdhusAdhvIjI pUche ke keTaluM kamAyA to kahezo ke nahi? nA, keTalo lobhakaSAya che ! keTalo Dara lAge che ! sAhebajIne sametazikhara mATe miti lakhAvavAnI haze. sAhebajIno koI plAna lAge che. bhUlecUke bolAI gayuM ke so tolA sonuM che to sAheba kaheze 10TakA ApI do. eTale cokhkhuM nahi bole. tamArA pADozI, tamArA saMbaMdhI ke tamArA samAjanA lokoe koI divasa corI karI nathI, karavAnI tAkAta paNa nathI ane kare evA paNa nathI. teo pUche ke tArI pAse keTaluM sonuM che topaNa kaheze nahi. che have mArA pappA e ApyuM, mammIe ApyuM. paNa keTaluM ApyuM kliyarabolaze nahi. A lobhakaSAya kevo che ke bolavA nahi de.

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prazna hato ke patnIne kahevuM ke nahi? ApaNe tyAM syAdvAda che. patnIne kahevAya paNa kharuM ane na paNa kahevAya. eka dizA hoya to sAruM paDe kahevAnuM hoya to kahI devAnuM ane na kahevAnuM hoya to nahi kahevAnuM. paNa ApaNe tyAM be rastA batAvyA che. kahevAya paNa ane na paNa kahevAya. amuka simyuezanamAM kahevAya amukamAM na kahevAya. strIone na kahevAnuM e paNa eka kAraNa hatuM ke strIo TenzanamAM AvI jAya. tame kaho ke A varSe ApaNane pacAsa lAkhanuM nukasAna thayuM che to e lokonuM cAlu thAya ke pacAsa lAkhanuM nukasAna? derANIno chokaro jo thoDuM dUdha vadhAre pI gayo to kaheze eka to ATaluM nukasAna ane keTalA vadhAre kharcA kare che! jhaghaDA zarU thAya. eTale e lokone na kahevAnuM kAraNa e lokothI chupAvavA mATe nahi, enA kAraNe vadhAre problema na thAya e mATe. anupamA devI jevI strI hoya to ene badhuM kahevAya. vastupALane suvarNa maLyuM to AvIne anupamA devIne pUche che ke ATaluM suvarNa maLyuM to have zuM karuM? anupamA devI zuM kahe che? e ema nathI kahetAM ke mArA mATe baso tolA sonAnA dAgInA banAvo. mArI pAse pAMcaso tolA sonAno seTa nathI, mane e banAvI Apo. emaNe to UlaTAnuM ema kahyuM ke dhana nAzavaMta hoya che, mATe derAsara banAvIne AtmakalyANa karo ! AvI patnIne badhuM kahevAya. mayaNAne zrIpAla kahe paNa kharA. huM Ama karIza, Ama karIza. mAro A plAna che. bola, tane AmAM zuM karavA jevuM lAge che? ene pUche. tamArI patnI mayaNA ke anupamA devI jevI hoya to ene kahevAmAM koI vAMdho nathI. sAmAnya rIte nItizAstro kahe che ke pAtratA na hoya to strIne vAta karavAnI nahi, kema ke jo paisA kamAyA to e loko chakI jAya ane paisA gumAvyA to DiprezanamAM AvI jAya. jo ene khabara paDe ke mAro vara pAMca karoDa kamAyo to derANIne e tuccha samajaze ane ghamaMyukta vyavahAra karaze. eTale game tene kahevAya paNa nahi. svadoSadarzananI vAta have pUrI karIe. * evaLI zAnA bhagavAna? ' have dRSTirAgano bIjo pilara. deva, guru, dharma mATenI viparIta zraddhA. dRSTirAgIo game tene deva mAne, game tene guru mAne, game tene dharma mAne. tamArA badhAno atyAre ve opha eTiTyUDa, ve oNpha spIkiMga kevo che? tamane jI

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samajAvavA mATe atyAre huM tamArI zailImAM ja vAta karuM chuM. tame vidharmIonA ravADe caDI gayA cho. tame derAsaramAM hazo ane Thesa lAgaze to "oha mAya goDa' bolazo, namo arihaMtANam nahi bolo. e lokonA bhagavAnanuM jIvana tame juo. A sarve holIDe kema? to kahe bhagavAne somathI zanivAra sudhI AkhI pRthvInuM sarjana karyuM ane ravivAre thAkI gayA eTale bhagavAne resTa lIdho. have je thAkI jAya e bhagavAna zAnA? bhagavAne somathI zani ja kaDaka karyuM to saDenA je janmyA emane koNe banAvyA? e lokonAM ekaeka sTeTamenTa juo. e kahe mAtA to bhagavAnano avatAra che. jo mAtA bhagavAnanuM rUpa hoya to e eborzana karAve kharI? teo kahe che ke bALako paNa bhagavAnano aMza che. bALakonI sevA-bhakti karo e bhagavAnanI ja bhakti che. ApaNe joyu-anubhavyuM che ke bALako paNa mAyAvI hoya che, kapaTI, hoya che, prapaMcI hoya che. emanAmAM paNa kaSAyo hoya che. e paDI gayuM haze ane jo koI jotuM haze to raDaze. koI jotuM nathI, to UbhuM thaIne bhAgaze. A badhI mAyA, prapaMca bALakamAM paNa che. zuM e Izvarano aMza che? have e divaso AvI gayA che ke skUlomAM bAIbala ApavA maMDyA che. eka bhAI kahe, sAheba, mArI dIkarInI begamAM bAIbala hatuM. have e loko vAMcaze ke lava Ijha goDa. ApaNe tyAM rAgane to duzmana kIdho che ane e loko premane ja bhagavAna mAne che. prema e bhagavAna, bALakomAM Izvarano aMza - A badhI mAthA vagaranI vAto che. e loko kahe tAjuM janmeluM bALaka marI jAya to sIdhuM svargamAM jAya ane moTo thaIne marI jAya to narakamAM paNa jAya. lokone svargamAM mokalavA dharma che to pachI tAjAM janmelA bALakone tarata mArI nAkhavAM joIe. jethI emanuM kalyANa thaI jAya. A lokonI vAtono tAga kaMI na maLe, chatAM paNa dharma mAne. AgaLa vadhIe AryadezamAM juo gAyane pUje, sApanI pUjA kare. vaDanA jhADane paNa pherA pharI Ave. A badhAne dharma mAnavo e daSTirAga che. pAchA ApaNA loko samajayA vagara ja jasTIphAI kare ke bhagavAna pArzvanAtha sApane mAthe mUkyo ja che ne ! ApaNe pAlitANAmAM rAyaNa vRkSane nathI pUjatA? ApaNe paNa ekendrIyanI pUjA karIe chIe to e loko paNa kare,

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emAM problema zo? tame ekendriya jIvanI pUjA nathI karatA, paNa pAlitANAmAM rAyaNanA vRkSanI nIce ratnanI pratimA hovAnI mAnyatA che eTale kharekhara to bhagavAnane tame pradakSiNA Apo cho ane enA pratIka tarIke tame rAyaNanI pUjA karo cho. tame kAMI TheraThera rAyaNanA dareka vRkSane pUjatA nathI. bhAratamAM jeTalI jagAe rAyaNanuM vRkSa hoya enI pUjA nathI karatA. pAlitANAmAM enA pratIka tarIke pujAya che. pratIkanI velyu hoya. bhAratano rASTradhvaja che emAM traNa kalara che. have e traNa kalara jyAM paNa dekhAya tyAM rASTradhvaja na samajAya. rASTradhvaja rASTranuM pratIka che eTale pratIka tarIke enuM rispekTa karavuM e vastu alaga che, gAyanA pUMchaDAmAM devano vAsa samaje che ! kharekhara to gAya, nAga, sApa paMcendriya saMsArI jIva che. koIne zApa Ape, bIjAnuM khedAnamedAna karI nAkhe ene bhagavAna kahevAya? atyAre tame ja kaho, vyAkhyAnamAM AvatA bhAIomAMthI koInI sAthe huM snehapUrvaka vAta karuM ane keTalAkane uddhatAIthI javAba ApuM ke temanuM apamAna karI nAkhuM to tame zuM kahezo? huM zrAvako sAthe paNa evo vahevAra karuM to tame mane zuM kaho? have e bhagavAna koI bhakti kare ene varadAna Ape ane koI herAna kare to zApa, ene bhagavAna kahevAya? * AuTaplearane peveliyanamAM mokalo atyAre koI sAdhu gADImAM besatA hoya, sAdhunA AcAra sAthe snAnasUtakano paNa nAto na hoya ane bindAsa pharatA hoya to ApaNe kahIe ke saMgha bhego thaIne ene kapaDAM paherAvo. kapaDAM paherAvI devAnAM. zAsana apabhrAjana na thAya? krikeTamAM ramatAM koI pleara AuTa thayo to ene peveliyanamAM cAlyA javAnuM. ema A sAdhanAnuM sTeDiyama che. je AuTa thAya ene peveliyana (saMsAra)bhego karI devAno. savAla e che ke e sAdhu potAno doSa kabUla karavA taiyAra ja na thAya to zuM karavuM? pleara kahe huM to AuTa ja nathI... ampAyara kahe che tuM AuTa. paNa e kahe che huM nathI AuTa, huM nahi jAuM. to polIsa AvIne ene pakaDI jaze ane laI jaze peveliyanamAM. ema saMvigna, gItArtha AcArya mahArAja AuTa kahe to ja kapaDAM paherAvavAnAM. -9 93 -

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tame tamArI rIte nAnInAnI bhUlamAM kapaDAM paherAvavAnI vAta na karatAM saMvigna gItArtha kapaDAM paherAvavAnuM kahe topaNa tame zuM kaho ? ApaNe nisAsA na levAya. e zApa ApI de to? je sAdhu kapaDAM paherAvavA yogya che te tamane zApanI dhamakI Ape to tameDarI jAo ne? e tamArA gharanI bahAra bese, sAthiyo kare tyAM ja tamane thAya ke, hAM mujhe kucha ho rahA hai. tamane to tyAM ne tyAM aTeka AvI jAya. bhale e kaMI na karato hoya, mAtra sAthiyo karIne chuMmaMtara..', "svAhA, svAhA...' kare eTale tame DarI jAo. tamAro saMsArarAga evo prabaLa che ke tame khoTI vyaktithI paNa Daro. tame eTalA badhA nabaLAcho ke tamane DarAvavA, dhamakAvavA sahelA che. evA camatkArathI tamane zo lAbha? atyAre huM zarU karyuM ke, "huM upara beTho hato. zrAvako bhaNatA hatA ane ekAeka tyAM pIpaLo che enI nIce kaMkunAM pagalAM thayAM. to AkhA eriyAmAM vAta prasarI jaze ke upAzrayamAM kaMkunAM chAMTaNAM thayAM ! pachI bhalene mArA ja kahevAthI, mArA ja koIbhakta tyAM chAMTA karI dIdhA hoya! ane tame loko pachI namaskAra karavA lAgo ane pachI vinaMtI karavA maMDo ke sAheba mArA ghare pagalAM karo. huM tamArA ghare AvIne pagalAM karuM ane mArI pAchaLa mAro camaco hoya e cAra chAMTA chAMTI de to mAruM badhuM kAma patI jAya. pachI to mArI pAchaLa lAMbI lAina lAgI jAya. 31me mALe javuM hoya ane huM kahuM ke, bhAI, mAre caDhAze nahi, to loko kaheze "sAheba, ame tamane UMcakIne laI jaIzuM." mArA AvavAthI tamane zo lAbha thayo? tamAruM jIvana sudharI gayuM? tamane varSothI koI roga hato e maTI gayo? tamane apAra saMpatti maLI gaI? tamArI tamAma samasyAo UkalI gaI ? zuM thayuM? aphavAo pUrajozamAM cagavA lAgaze ke sAheba beThA hatA ne pAchaLathI amI jharatA hatA ! cAlo mAnI laIe ke kharekhara ja amI jharyA, topaNa zuM thayuM? tame keTalA badhA camatkAranI impazanamAM cho, daSTirAganA pUrA prabhAvamAM cho ! tamane koI kaMI paNa camatkAra batAve, to tarata ene sarenDara thaI jAva cho. jarA koI kahe ke, "A lokhaMDa pATiyuM sAheba bole tyAM sudhI halatuM rahe che ane jevuM baMdha kare

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ke e halatuM baMdha thaI jAya che!' camatkAra hoI zake. sAdhanA karatAM karatAM sAdhakamAM amuka prakAranI zaktino vikAsa thaI zake, paNa enAthI tamAruM AtmakalyANa thAya ja evo ekAMte niyama nathI. koI paNa camatkAra thAya tyAre vicAravAnuM ke emAM mAruM AtmakalyANa zuM?

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!! zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH prakaraNa-15 kAmarAganeharAgAvISatkaranivAraNau / daSTirAgastu pApIyAnuM durucheda: satAmapi / vItarAgastotra-6, prakAza 10 zloka ajJAna sauthI moTuM duHkha che. ajJAna dUra thAya to kAma thaI jAya. iMgliza ApaNane barAbara nathI AvaDatuM. enA eksenTa (uccAra) ApaNane barAbara nathI phAvatA. "sneka' (sApa) bolavAnuM hoya tyAM "sneka (nAsto, bolIe chIe. koI ApaNane kahe ke, tamane iMgliza barAbara AvaDatuM nathI, tyAre ApaNane khoTuM lAge che. TIcarsa kahe ke tamArA bALaka sAthe iMglizamAM na bolo. tamane praoNpara eksenTa AvaDatA nathI. tame ene khoTekhoTuM zIkhavADI dezo. baoNla' bolavAno hoya tyAM tame bola' bolavAnuM zIkhavADI do to hAMsI thaze, problama paNa thaze. ajJAnanA kAraNe tamane duHkha lAge che. mukeza aMbANI pAse jJAna che - paisA kaI rIte kamAI zakAya, mArkeTamAM koI navo projekTa kevI rIte ane kyAre lonca karavo jethI abajo rUpiyA kamAI zakAya. tamArI pAse e jJAna nathI, to tamane duHkha thAyachene? dhaMdhAmAM paisA kema kamAvA e tamane AvaDatuM nathI. tamArA pachI kamAvA AvelA abajopati thaI gayA ane tame rakhaDI gayA. A ajJAna tamane khaTake che. tamane navI gADI calAvatAM na AvaDe, leTesTa bAIka jhUmajhUma karatI phAsTa calAvatAM na AvaDe to tamane lAge ke tame AdivAsI jevA cho. AvuM ajJAna tamane TheraThera ane vAraMvAra duHkhI kare che. lekina-kintu-paraMtu bhagavAna A ajJAnanI vAta nathI karatA. AvuM ajJAna kadAca jiMdagIbhara rahe toya AtmakalyANa aTakaze nahi. tamane nAcatAM nathI AvaDatuM te sAruM che. AvaDI jAya to eka paNa divasa ghare raho ema nathI. nAcatAM nathI AvaDatuM to hajI thoDA sIdhA cho. krikeTa ramatAM nathI AvaDatuM eTale gharamAM raho cho, jo krikeTa ramavAnuM AvaDI jAya to gharamAM na raho. gharamAM besI rahelA cho eTale vyAkhyAnamAM AvI che. bAkI ghaNAne pUcho ke -96

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vyAkhyAnamAM kema nathI AvatA ? to kahe vahelAM UThAtuM nathI. volIbola, phUTabola ramavA javAnuM hoya to teo vahelA UThaze nahitara dasa vAge UThaze ! Amatamane pApanI vastu na AvaDe e zApa nathI, AzIrvAda che. bhagavAnane kayA ajJAna sAthe vAMdho che e jANavuM Avazyaka che. bhagavAna kahe che huM koNa ane mAruM koNa, A bejhika bAbatanuM ajJAna dUra thaI jAya to beDo pAra thaI jAya. paNa ApaNane A ajJAna dUra karavAmAM rasa nathI. huM AtmA chuM ane AtmAnA guNo mArA che enA sivAyanI AkhI duniyA nakAmI che. A jJAna thavuM jarUrI che. - bhagavAna kahe che A ajJAnanA kAraNe moha thAya che. huM koNa? to AtmA. ApaNane enI khabara nathI. ApaNe to basa eTaluM ja samajI beThA chIe ke huM eTale zarIra, indriya ane mana. vyAkhyAnamAM mane anukULatA rahevI joIe. AmAM mane eTale zarIrane. mane havAvALI, TekAvALI jagA maLavI joIe to mane sAruM paDe. ApaNI A mAnyatA che. ApaNane lAge che ke sArI TekAvALI jagA maLI to AjanuM vyAkhyAna saksesa ane TekAvALI je jagA para dararoja besatA hatA e Aje koIe vahelA AvIne paDAvI lIdhI to Aje vyAkhyAnamAM majA na AvI. zarIranuM sukha maLe, indriyanuM sukha maLe to majA, nahitara sajA ! ma. sA. koI sArI joka bole to majA Ave, mAtra tattvanI vAto kare to majA nahi Ave. ApaNe indriya zarIra ane manane potAnuM mAnyuM che. mAruM koNa? to kahe mAro parivAra, mAro deza, mAruM ghara e badhAne mAruM mAnyuM che. bhagavAna kahe che A ja ajJAna che. A ajJAnane dUra karo. A ajJAnathI moha pedA thAya che. mohane kAraNe parivAra "mAro lAge che. A mohanA kAraNe AgaLa jaIne tamane rAga ane dveSa thAya che. A zarIra mAruM mAnyuM che eTale tamane zarIra mATe rAga-dveSa thaze. tamane khabara paDe ke koI vAIrasa phare che ane tamane enA para dveSa thaze. jo tamane khabara paDe ke zarIra mATe e bAbata sArI che to enA para rAga thaze. traNa prakAranA kharAba rAga che, emAM ApaNe

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dRSTirAganI vAta karatA hatA. dRSTirAgano eka pilara deva-guru-dharma mATe khoTI mAnyatA hovI e che. sapojha, muMbaInI tamAma bilDiMgomAM derAsara hoya to kevuM! badhA kahe ke amArA bilDiMgamAM amAre derAsara karAvavuM che to tame zuM kahezo? tamArI pAse koI eka rUpiyo mAgatuM nathI. sau potapotAnI rIte banAvaze, paNa tame sahana karI zakazo nahi. tarata kahezo ATalAM badhAM derAsaranI vaLI zI jarUra che? paNa tame kadI ema nathI kahetA ke ATalAM badhAM thiyeTaronI zI jarUra che? ATalA badhA risorTanI zI jarUra che? amadAvAdathI muMbaI sudhImAM pacAsathI vadhu risorTsa thaI gayA che, enI zI jarUra che? tyAM svImiMga pulamAM loko nAhavA bhego pezAba paNa kare. AvI jagAe jAya pachI TAIphoIDa, maleriyA A badhA roga thaI zake. A badhuM lokone nukasAnakartA che, e badhuM baMdha karAvavuM joIe. chatAM e koI baMdha nahi karAve, paNa maMdira mATe tarata virodha karanArA khaDA thaI jaze. tamAre eka rUpiyo paNa ApavAno nathI. tamane koI kahetuM paNa nathI ke tame maMdiramAM jAo. tamArI kazI javAbadArI paNa nathI. chatAM eka maMdira bane, pachI bIjuM, pachI trIjuM bane to tame sahana na karI zako. derAsara vAstu mujaba hoya to saMghano bhautika tathA AdhyAtmika utkarSa thAya, chatAM AvI uttama sAdhanAnI jagA mATe paNa virodha A dharma mATe khoTo konsepTathayo. have ApaNe bIjo konsepTa laIe. deva, gurunA misakansepzananA kAraNe keTalAM pApa lAge che eno vicAra karIe. sumati ane nAgila nAmanA be bhAIche. atyAre be bhAI bhegA rahe to Azcarya. e loko lagna sudhI ja rAha jue. jevAM lagna thayAM ke tarata alaga thaI javAnuM. A baMne bhAI abajopati che. baMnenI vAIphane paraspara koI phariyAda nathI. pelo enI vAIpha sAthe vadhAre pharavA jAya che, enA mATe vadhAre sonuM le che Avo eka paNa prazna nahi. baMne zAMtithI jIve che. paNa saMsAra enuM nAma ke jayAM badhuM samuMsUtaruM na

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cAle. A lokonI paristhiti bagaDI ane garIba thaI gayA. sumati ane nAgila gAma choDIne jAya che. lokone ApavAnuM hatuM eTaluM ApI dIdhuM. have kaMI rahyuM nathI, paherela kapaDe nIkaLyA che. rastAmAM pAMca sAdhu ane eka zrAvaka maLyA. A loko khuza thaI gayA. sAdhu mahArAja maLyA, have rastAmAM satsaMga thaze, saphara ekadama suhAnI raheze. AgaLa jatAM eka bhAIne lAgyuM ke A sAdhuo AcAramAM barAbara nathI eTale bIjA bhAIne kahe che A sAdhuo barAbara AcAra pALatA nathI bIjo bhAI kahe che, zuM tuM eTalo mahAna ane pavitra thaI gayo ? pahelo bhAI kahe, huM kaMI moTo nathI. meM neminAtha bhagavAna pAse sAMbhaLyuM che. meM emanI parIkSA karI. teo emanA AcAramAM barAbara nathI lAgatA, eTale emanI sAthe rahevAya nahi. emanI saMgata karIe to ApaNane doSa lAge. bIjA bhAIne gusso Avyo. tamane gusso Ave to kevuM biheva karo? gusso Ave eTale sAcuM-khoTuM jema phAve tema bolavA lAgo. eka mAravADInI kaMjusAIno anubhava thayo hoya to badhA mAravADIone tame mammIcUsa kahezo. eka osavAlanA kharAba anubhavane AdhAre tame sTeTamenTa Apazo ke osavAlo badhA bekAra. basa, eka vakhata tamAruM boIlara phATavuM joIe. pachI bhagavAna hoya to bhagavAna paNa bekAra ! pelo bhAI gussAmAM kahe che, "tuM jaDabuddhi che ane tane AvuM kahenAra paNa jaDabuddhi che. eno saMga na karAya." pahelo bhAI kahe che, "maherabAnI karIne tuM bhagavAnanI AzAtanA na kara." ahIM vicAratA javAnuM, tamArA jIvanamAM aplAya karatA javAnuM. bhagavAne to batAvyuM che ke zrAvake derAsaranI pAse vANiyAvAsamAM rahevuM. atyAre moTA bhAganA lokone kosmomAM rahevA javuM che. ahIM to Akho divasa ghUMghaTa kADhIne nIkaLavuM paDe. ApaNe ApaNI jiMdagI kaMI jIvI ja zakatA nathI. tamArI A mAnyatA bhagavAnanI AjJAthI viruddha che. "tAraka mahetA kA UlTA cazmA' TIvI siriyalamAM kevI sosAyaTI batAvI che? tyAM pacaraMgI prajA hoya ane badhA bhegA thaI janmASTamI Ave to maTakI phoDe, ane ja > 99 -

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jugAra paNa rame. rakSAbaMdhana Ave to e selibreTa karavAnI. badhA tahevAro ujavavAnA eTale AkhI lAIpha kalaraphUla rahe! kosmomAM rahIe to badhuM karI zakIe ane ahIM rahIe to paryuSaNa karavAnAM ane ATha divasa sudhI ekAsaNAM-biyAsaNAM karavAnAM, tithio pALavAnI. eka jaNa AvIne mane kahe, "sAheba ! ApaNAM parvo keTalAM bekAra che! jainetaromAM rakSAbaMdhana eka divasa mATe hoya, hoLI-dhULeTI paNa eka-eka divasa mATe hoya ane ApaNe paryuSaNa ATha-ATha divasanAM ! amAro dama kADhI nAkhe che." A saunA mananI vAta che. koIe riprejhanTa karI dIdhI, koIe chupAvI rAkhI. ATha-ATha divasanAM paryuSaNano thAka khAIe tyAM to nava-nava divasanI oLI AvIne UbhI rahe! pAchI e zAzvatI oLI ! e to paryuSaNa karatAM paNa pavitra divasa. eTale emAM to nava divasa AyaMbila karavAnAM. varasamAM nava-nava divasanI pAchI oLI be vakhata Ave! ApaNAM parva kevAM nIrasa ane emanAM parva kevAM raMgIlAM ane rasadAra ! janmASTamInA divase savArathI sAMja maTakI phoDavA nIkaLI javAnuM ane sAMje maTakI phoDIne hoTalamAM khAvAnuM. sAheba, tame kaho cho ApaNo dharma ATalo mahAna che, UMco che. to ApaNA dharmamAM kema kAMI inTaresTiMga nathI AvatuM? emanI navarAtrImAM juo. nava rAta pachI dazerA paNa hoya. dasa-dasa rAta loko ramavA jAya, pAchuM paisA kharcIne jAya. ApaNe bhAvanAmAM paisA ApIne kalAkAra lAvavAno topaNa ene sAMbhaLavA koI Ave nahi. ane tyAM vizALa grAunDa paNa nAnuM paDe ! tyAM TikiTa na maLe ! ahIM vyAkhyAna najIkamAM hoya toya koI na Ave, paNa koI TelenTa zo gameteTale dUra rAkho topaNa tyAM bhIDa UmaTe. khabara paDe ke tyAM 500ja pAsa inzya thAya ema che to kevI mArAmArI thAya! TikiTa meLavavA mATe lAgavaga lagADe ane ahIM "Avo Avo" kahIne AmaMtraNa ApIe, prabhAvanA ApIe toya kAgaDA UDe ! ravivAre vyAkhyAna pachI jamavAnuM Apo to vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA Ave. e lokone vyAkhyAna saMbhaLAvavA mATe bhojanamAM paNa be mIThAI, be pharasANa ApavA paDe. jo normala curamAnA lADu ApI daIe to bIjA ravivAre saMkhyA ochI thaze. have to pAchI eka navA prakAranI jAherAta karavI paDe che ke vyAkhyAnamAM - 100

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ii dejo AvelI vyaktinuM AkhuM phemilI paNa jamavA AvI zakaze. bahenonI phariyAda hatI ke ame vyAkhyAnamAMthI ghare jaIne rasoI kyAre karI zakIe ? tame amArA pUrA parivArane jamADo, to ja ame AvI zakIe. eTale tamArA mATe ahIM jamavAnI sarasa ane saMpUrNa vyavasthA karIe tyAre tame vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA Avo ! emAM paNa jo huM pahelAM tattva cAlu karyuM ke pahelA guNasthAne karmanI keTalI prakRti baMdhAya, to bIjI miniTe badhAnAM bagAsAM cAlu thaI jAya. philmanI, hIro-hIroInanI, krikeTanI vAto karIe to tamane rasa paDe. hIroInonAM nAma laIe to tame e badhAthI paricita ane priyadarzanA, sudarzana, sujeThA e badhAM nAma lauM to kahezo ke, sAheba ! e eke nAma amane yAda rahetuM nathI. tame vartamAnanAM udAharaNa laIne kAmarAga samajAvo. zAstrIya udAharaNamAM amane kaMI khabara paDaze nahi. vaccevacce joksa paNa kahejo. ame ghare amArI patnIone kaMI kahI nathI zakatA eTale vyAkhyAnamAM tamArAthI jeTaluM kahevAya eTaluM kahI dejo. eka jaNe eka joka kahI hatI : "eka kiDanepare eka bhAInI patIne kiDanepa karI ane pachI enI eka AMgaLI kApIne ciThThI sAthe mokalI ApI : sabUta ke tora para usakI UMgalI bhejI hai..." eno hasabanDa javAbamAM kahe che "ItanA sabUta nahi calegA, usakI mUMDI bhejo." basa, AvA jarilezana che. patnInI AMgaLIthI kaMI nahi thAya, enI mUMDI mokalAvo eTale mAruM kAma thaI jAya.' bAjumAM Ubhelo bIjo kahe, "sAheba, eka peparamAM TacukaDI khabara AvI hatI ke lagnamAM eka ja vakhata paherelAM kapaDAM vecavAno che ane e paNa bhUlathI paherelAM che. sAheba ! lagna bhUlathI thAya che ane badhA eTalA trAsI gayA che ke na pUcho vAta! A mahilAo tamArI sAme vyAkhyAnamAM zAMta ane ThAvakI thaIne bese che, paNa bahAra nIkaLIne emanA ropha juo to khabara paDe! ahIM tamane lAge ke vAha, zuM kalcara che! badhI baheno mAthe oDhIne beThI che ! sAheba, tame saDenA ivaniMga-voca karavA nIkaLo to A badhI baheno jInsaTIzarTamAM dekhAze, tame oLakhI paNa nahi zako. tamane thaze ke huM losaenjalasamAM AvI gayo chuM.' - 101 -

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mAre kahevuM che ke A lokoe to hajI thoDI paNa maryAdA jALavI che, bAkI have ghaNI baheno ma. sA. pAse paNa jInsa paherIne AvavA mAMDI che. mAravADIomAM mAna-maryAdA jevuM thoDuMghaNuM bacyuM che. emanI mahilAo sAdhunI sAme jematema nathI AvatI. baheno jeTalI maryAdA pALaze emAM ja phAyado che, emAM koI nukasAna nathI. A badhI vastuo tame samajatA ja nathI. | mULa vAta nAnA bhAIno daSTirAga. e potAnA bhAIne kahe che tuM evo tArA bhagavAna paNa evA. tane AvI vAta karanAra paNa jaDabuddhi che. bIjo bhAI kahe che tIrthaMkaranI AzAtanA nahi kara. tamAruM paNa boIlara phATe - jo ame tamArI badhI bAbatamAM inTaraphiara karIe ke kapaDAM kevAM paheravAnAM vagere to. bhagavAne kapaDAM kevAM na paherAya e paNa kahyuM che. atyAre ghaNI baheno pUchavA Ave ke mokSadaMDakanI vidhi zI? paNa koI ema pUchavA nathI AvatuM ke roja mAre kevAM kapaDAM paheravAM joIe? emAM presakoDa zo? ApaNane je game e paherI levAnuM. TUMkamAM A dharma pUrepUro ApaNane gamato ja nathI. ApaNe ApaNA dharmane pUrepUro samajyA nathI. ApaNane ekAsaNAM-biyAsaNAM ke navakArazI karavAnI je amuka vastu pakaDAI che ene ja dharma samajIe chIe. kapaDAM kevAM paheravAnAM emAM ma. sA. inTaraphiara nahi karavAnI. e amane paheravA do. joke hajI tame ThIkaThIka saMskArI cho, paNa jo tame kosmomAM rahevA jAo to badhuM khatama thaIjAya. Ano bhAI samajAve che, paNa e samajato nathI. e ja guruo pAse dIkSA laI le che. AgaLa gayA ane e marI gayo have khAlI vicArajo . bolavAthI keTaluM pApa lAgyuM che ! deva, guru, dharma mATe game tema nahi bolavAnuM. dharma na samajAya ane kaMI na AvaDe to mauna rahevAnuM. koI kaMI bole to kahevAnuM ke mane AmAM khabara nathI paDatI. huM mAro koI opiniyana nahi ApuM. jema tamane koI pUche brenasarjarI ahIMthI karuM ke ahIMthI? to tame zuM kaho? A mAro viSaya nathI eTale tame koI brenasarjanane pUcho ke kyAMthI karAya. ema dharma zI cIja che, kayo dharma karAya ane kayo dharma na karAya e moTA bhAganA loko samajatA nathI hotA. - 102 -

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eka ma.sA.nI vaDI dIkSA hatI. emanA eka saMsArI mitre enA dAdAne kahyuM ke mAre 500 kilo cokhA joIe che. mArA phrenDanI vaDI dIkSA che. mAre emane vadhAvavA che. dIkSA vaDI dIkSA vakhate traNa pradakSiNA Ape tyAre zrI saMgha tarIke badhA AzIrvAda Ape emAM evI vidhi hoya che. pahelI pradakSiNA vakhate jeTalA cokhAthI vadhAvo enA karatAM bIjI pradakSiNA vakhate vadhAre cokhA levAnA ane trIjI pradakSiNAmAM ethI paNa vadhAre cokhAthI vadhAvavAnA. atyAre keTalIka jagAe to saMghamAM dIkSA vakhate nAnI thALImAM thoDA cokhA mUkelA hoya. capaTI-capaTI cokhAthI vadhAvavAmAM pahelI vAramAM ja thALI khAlI thaI gaI hoya. bIjI trIjI vAra mATe kaMI rahe ja nahi. e nUtanadIkSitanA saMsArI mitrane mana thayuM ke 500 kilo cokhA lAvavA che. eNe enA dAdAne vAta karI. dAdAe AzcaryathI pUchyuM, "dasa hajAra mANasono jamaNavAra hoya toya pa00 kilo cokhA na joIe, ane tAre mAtra vadhAmaNI karavA mATe 500 kilo cokhA joIe che?' atyAre koI ma. sA.no praveza thAya ane ma.sA. geTanI aMdara pravezatA hoya tyAM koI uparathI 500 kilo cokhAthI vadhAre to tame zuM kaho? enuM khasakI gayuM che. A kevo pAgala che ! cokhAno Avo bagADa karAto haze? tamArA paisA nathI lIdhA, tamArI pAsethI phALo ugharAvyo nathI. have kaho emAM khoTuM zuM che? tame tamArA menTala blokeja kholavAnI koziza karo. 500 kilo cokhAthI eNe enA gurune vadhAvyA enA kAraNe enA guru para ene bahumAna pedA thaze. guru kaheze ke dArU na pivAya to e choDI deze. hukkAsigAreTa na pivAya to e choDI deze. guru ene salAha Apaze ke khoTuM na bolAya. upadeza sAMbhaLIne e sadAcArI banaze. koI paNa kharAba kAma karaze nahi. ene bahumAna thayuM che enA guru para ane guru to sAruM ja kAma karAvaze. koInA lAkha rUpiyA laI emasIeksamAM lagADavAnuM kaheze nahi ane hAtha UMcA karavAnuM zIkhavaze nahi. guru para bahumAna hoya to e pote paNa vicAraze ke huM koInA dasa lAkha dabAvI laIza to mArA gurunuM nAma kharAba thaze. have tame kaho pa00 kilo cokhAthI eNe vadhAvyA emAM kharAba zuM? huM tamArA vatI boluM ke "badhA cokhA vesTa jAya, sAheba. bhAratamAM keTalI garabI -103

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che!" huM jANuM chuM ke bhAratamAM 20 TakA lokonI rojanI inkama 20 rUpiyAthI ochI che. kacarAmAMthI khAvAnuM zodhIne loko khAya che AvI garIbI che. have sAMbhaLo, pa00 kilo cokhAthI eNe vadhAvyA to jene e cokhA khAvA hoya te vINIne laI jaI zake che. e cokhA para koIno paga Avyo hoya to dhoI nAkhavAthI sApha thaI jaze. koI garIba laI jaze ane khAze. rastA para paDelA dANA kabUtara vagere paMkhIo ke anya jIvo khAI zakaze. comAsAno amAro praveza hato tyAre paMdara kilo cokhAthI vadhAmaNI thaI haze. huM cAra kalAka pachI tyAMthI pasAra thayo to cokhAno eka paNa dANo dekhAyo nahi. Akho rasto sApha thaI gayo hato. kabUtara, kIDI, maMkoDAne e khAvA maLyuM, chatAM tamane problema che. kema ke tamArI mAnyatA galata che. atyAre lagnamAM lokonAM sapanAM kevAM? phUlo kA eka zahera ho, phUlo kA eka ghara ho... ane ahIM derAsaramAM pUjA eka ja puSpathI karavAnI ? ghara AkhuM phUlonuM joIe, risepzanamAM keTalAM phUla vaparAya ? tyAM eka ja phUla rAkho to nahi cAle. janmadivasanI ujavaNI vakhate hoTalanI thALI 1000 rUpiyAnI hovI jarUrI che? eka zAka, mIThAImAM eka sukhaDI, bhAta ane dALa rAkho to 50 rUpiyAmAM thALI paDe. loko barAbara khAI paNa zake. tame cAinIjha, paMjAbI avanavI vAnagIonI DIzo rAkho cho. enAthI peTa bagaDe ane badhA khAI paNa nathI zakatA. pa0 rUpiyAnI thALInA 800-900 vadhAre ApavAnI jarUra zI? badhA thoDuM thoDuM laIne mUkI deze. hajAra rUpiyAnI DIza jeTaluM koI khAtuM nathI, ane ahIM ma. sA.ne 50 kilo cokhAthI vadhAvyA to vesTeja lAge. ApaNe kalpasUtra vAMcavAnuM Avaze ane emAM koI pa00 kilo cokhA lAvIne mUke to tame vadhAvI zako? paisA koI bIjI vyaktinA ane cokhA vadhAvavA Apo topaNa kalpasUtrane vadhAvI nahi zake. eka mUThIthI vadhAre vadhAvI nahi zake. jIva ja nahi cAle, kema ke aMdara dRSTirAga evo paDelo che ke emAM ene vesTeja ja lAge. A badhI mAnyatAo kliyara karatA jajo. bhAIe dIkSA lIdhI. AgaLa kalyANa karavAnuM hatuM, paNa bhagavAnanA vacananI viruddha bolyo enA kAraNe mRtyu pAmyo. marIne paramAdhAmI thayo. paramAdhAmI zuM kare ? e deva che paNa narakanA jIvone vedanA ApavAnuM kAma -104

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paramAdhAmI kare. ane paramAdhAmI marIne aDaMgolika manuSya thAya. ratnaicchuka manuSyo emane TrepamAM laIne eka varSa sudhI ghaMTImAM pIlaze, tyAre emanuM mRtyu thaze. tyAMthI marIne pAMcamI narake jAya. vicArajo, dRSTirAganuM kevuM pariNAma..! 105 -

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: noMdha: A pustaka Apane anya koI nAme prakAzita karavuM hoya to aMdaranI meTara yathAvat rAkhIne prakAzita karavAno hakka paramArtha parivAra Apane Ape che. A pustaka vAMcyA pachI jarUra na hoya to nIcenA ThekANe parata karavI Ara. ke. meTala IMDasTrIjha 4/e, javAhara menzana bilDIMga, grAunDa phlora, phaNasa vADI, vinaya hoTalanI bAjumAM, muMbaI - 400 004 mo. 9820441030

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: paramArtha-parivAra dvArA prakAzita pustako : 01) sArAMza 17) adbhuta 02) sukhanA samIkaraNo 18) puruSArtha 03) zrAvikA 19) avatAra mAnavIno... 04) samaja 20) Azaro 05) samarpita 21) vANI 06) saMyukta parivArano mahimA 22) ItihAsa 07) saccaurI maMDaNa 23) abhaya 08) mane veSa zramaNano maLajo... 24) sarjIkala sTrAIka (sunaMdA-rUpasena caritra) | 09) atithI satkAra eTale vihAra sevA grupa 10) rAga bhAga - 1 (kAmarAga, sneharAga, dRSTirAga) 11) rAga bhAga - 2 (kAmarAga, sneharAga, dRSTirAga) 12) kSamAdharma bhAga - 1 (upakArI kSamA, apakArI kSamA) 13) kSamAdharma bhAga - 2 (vipAkakSamA) 14) kSamAdharma bhAga - 3 (vacanakSamA, dharmakSamA). 15) prArthanA bhAga - 1 (jayavIyarAya sUtra) 16) prArthanA bhAga - 2 (jayavIyarAya sUtra) TPTELIC ENGLISH 25) Importance of Joint Family (saMyukta parivArano mahimA) 26) Wish You All the Best (jA saMyama paMthe dIkSArthI) 27) Journey of Enlightenment (saccaurI maMDaNa) 28) Authentic Sukh (sukhatA samIkaraNo) 29) Vihar Seva Group (vihAra sevA grupa) 30) Ideal House Wife (zrAvikA) 31) Understanding (samaja) rU5) zrAvikA (hindI) 32) Final Verdict (sArAMza) 36) saMyukta parivAra kI mahimA (hindI) 33) Marvelous (addabhuta) rU7) tithI sarvara (hindI) 34) Dedicated (samarpita) rU8) amRta (hindI) 21) Azraya (mAzo hindI) hindI