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________________ mArA jIvanamAM "prakAza" nuM sthAna [2] janmasthAna ane pAlaka piSaka bhAtapitA bhinna hovA chatAM prakAza patra ane huM uMmaranI dRSTie nAnA-moTA bhAMDara jevA chIe, chatAM enI sAthe mAre prAthamika paricaya te moTI uMmare ja thayo. vizeSAMkamAM lakhavA ghaNA viSaye spha chatAM atyAre prastuta viSaya ja sahetuka pasaMda karyo che. varSo thayAM zrI jaina dharma prakAza meM vAMcyuM nathI. Aje ene jUne ke no eka aMka mArI pAse nathI. jyAre vAMceluM tyAre paNa satata ema te nahi ja. acAnaka AvI gayuM ane bIjuM kAma te vakhate na hoya te e jeI javAnuM, paraMtu sauthI pahelAM e patra sAMbhaLavAne jyAre prasaMga AvyuM te vakhatanI mArI sthiti ajaba hatI. cakSunA sthUla prakAzayugamAM te meM chApAM jevI vastu jANelI ja nahIM. e yuga choDI sthUla aMdhakArayugamAM duHkhapUrvaka dAkhala thayA pachI beeka varSe prakAzanuM nAma kAne paDyuM. prakAza eTale mUrtipUjaka ane temAMye tapAgacchanuM mukhya patra. eno praveza sthAnakavAsI gAmamAM te saMbhavita ja na hatuM, paNa jANe mArA bhAgyabaLe ja (anyanA bhAgyanI te khabara nathI) e nAnakaDAzA vidya-saMskAravihIna gAmaDAmAM eka mUrtipUjaka bhAI vasatA hatA. ene lIdhe ane khAsa karIne vihAranA mArganuM sthAna hovAne lIdhe avAranavAra saMvagI sAdhu AvatA. koI eka saMvegI sAdhue e bhAIne gaLe prakAzapatra vaLagADyuM ane keTalAka prasAraka sabhAnAM bhASAMtara tema ja kathA pustaka parANe kharIdAvyAM. e grAhaka thanAra mArA mitra ane prakAzamAMthI avAranavAra lekhe saMbhaLAvatA. huM ati rasa ane ekAgratApUrvaka e sAMbhaLata. mAtApitA, kuTuMba ane samAjanA vArasAgata dharmasarakAre sthAnakavAsI hatA. rAta-divasanA satata sthAnakavAsI sAdhu-sAdhvInA zraddhApUrNa paricaya e saMskAromAM jijJAsAnA bIjanuM AropaNa karyuM hatuM, paNa sAthe sAthe * A lekhamAM paMDitajIe "prakAza" eTale bhAvanagarathI pragaTatA jaina dharma prakAza" aMge lakhyuM hovA chatAM emAM emanI pitAnI paNa amuka hakIkta AvatI hovAthI ene A vibhAgamAM sthAna ApyuM che.
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________________ 264] darzona ane ciMtana ajANapaNe paNa e saMskAza mAtra ekataraphI poSAI graMthirUpa anI gayA hatA. mane yAda che tyAM sudhI huM kahI zakuM ke kAI paNa sthAnakavAsI sAdhu-sAdhvI Ave tyAre huM temane viSe ema ja dhAro ke A kharekhara mahAvIranA sAkSAta ziSyA jevA che. vAstavika truTio temanAmAM je chatAM eka cogInI peThe mUDha bhAve, temanAmAM guNadaza na ja karatA ane mAnatA ke temanA AcAra-vicAra, bhASA, vyavahAra e badhuM sAkSAta mahAvIramAMthI ja AveluM hAI niHzaMka heya che. eka bAju A sIja graMthinI sthiti ane bIjI bAju prakAza patranuM taddana viredhI vAcana. emAM mUrti pUjAnI, tIrthInI, aSTaprakArI ane anyAnya prakArI pUjAnI, dhUpa, phUla vagerenI carcA Ave. batrIzane badale kacAreka pistAlIza Agamane ane TakhAne khale paMcAMgIne ullekha Ave. prAkRtane khadale dhaNIvAra saMskRta zlo sAMbhaLavA maLe. muhapati bAMdhavA viruddhanI carcA ane pILA kapaDAnAM samarthana paNa emAM Ave. mAre mana A badhuM te vakhate eka dhatIMga hatuM. vArasAgata ane pachIthI poSAyela saMskAro prakAza patramAM AvatI ghaNIkharI bAbatone mithyA mAnavA prere, paNa pelA mitranuM anusaraNa ane kAMIka aspaSTa jijJAsAbhAva e viruddha khelavA nA pADe. Ama kuLagata saMskArA upara prakAzapatranA vAcanadrArA taddana vire|dhI khIjA saMskAranA ghara manamAM baMdhAyA. jANe A thAne bhAra UMcakavA kartaNu hoya ane temAMthI kAMIka mArgo zodhavA mathatuM hoya tema te vakhatanuM mAruM mana tarkavitarka karavA lAgyuM. 'chappananA duSkALathI aThThAvananI sAla sudhInA gALAmAM mana krAMtinI dizAmAM hatuM. prakAza patramAMnA ane pracAraka sabhAnAM keTalAMka pustakAmAMthI sekaDA saMskRta zlokA yAda thaI gayelA, ane hajAro kaMThastha prAkRta padyonI manamAM pratiSThA chatAM saMskRta tarapha AkarSaNa pUravegathI vadhavA mAMDayuM, e AkarSaNe kuLagata saMskArane zithila karyA, chatAM kuTuMba ane kuLagurue nA mAnasika bhaya tema ja jaDatAnuM gADha AvaraNa eTaluM badhuM ke karavA sAhasa ja na thAya. chatAM prakAzanA te vakhatanA eka mAtra sthUla vAcanathI paNa mana judI ja rIte ghaDAvA maLyuM. kayAreka kautukabuddhie maMdiramAM javAnuM mana thAya, kayAreka TIkAdaSTie ane deveSakadraSTie saMvegI sAdhu pAse javA mana lalacAya. A badhuM thAya paNa kuLasaMskArAnI graMthi manane chUTathI vicAravA ja na de. vaLI prakAza patranA navanava aMkanA vAcanathI manamAM ema thaI Ave ke A pistAlIza ArgamA, A saMskRta sAhitya, A vyAkaraNu, A nyAya vagere badhuM jANavuM te joIe. kadAca te mithyA zaMkA vyakta
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________________ -mArA jIvanamAM "prakAza"nuM sthAna haze te bhale tema che, paNa mAtra batrIza Agama ne thokaDAomAM to racyApacyA rahI na zakAya. A rIte aThThAvananI sAla sudhImAM mane eka prabaLa baLavo karyo. cakkasa samaya yAda nathI paNa lagabhaga e ja gALAmAM prakAza patramAM vIra ane puruSArtha zrImAna dharmavijayajI mahArAjanA kAzImAM saMskRta abhyAsa mATe thanAra prayANanA samAcAra vAMcyA. prakAza patranA A samAcAra mArA bubhUkSita manane vadhAre uzkeryuM ane sAthe sAthe e aMdhAyugI jIvanakramamAM eka AzAnuM kiraNa mArI sAme pheMkaDyuM. te pachI khAnagI vividha prayatnane pariNAme chevaTe huM 1960mAM navajIvanapravezaka ane piSaka zrImAna dharmavijaya mahArAjanAM caraNomAM kAzI sthaLe AvyA. A vakhatanI ane tyArapachInA atyAra lagInA lagabhaga ekatrIza varSanI AtmakathA kahevAnuM A sthAna nathI tema ja eTale samaya paNa atyAre nathI. huM jANuM chuM ke e AtmakathAmAM zAstramaMthana, zAstravicAraNA, dharmaciMtana, dharmamaMthana, samAjaparicaya, sAmAjika praznone uhAha, phirakAnA sthAnamAM samAjadaSTinuM ane samAjanA sthAnamAM rASTra tema ja vizvadaSTinuM sthAna ityAdi je viSaye anubhavagata che te je mokaLA mane pUra vakhata laI cavyuM te ghaNuM jaNa e vAMcI pitAnA anubhavone enI sAthe sarakhAvI sAme anubhavI zake ane tenA patana-utpatanamAMthI teo pitAnA viSe paNa kAMIka vicArI zake, paraMtu ahIM mAro uddeza parimita che ane te eTale ja ke prakAza patranuM mArA jIvanamAM zuM sthAna che e darzAvavuM. zrIyuta paramAnaMda kApaDiyAnA prakAza patra sAthenA saMbaMdha pachI je kAMI temAM vizALatA ane udAratAnI dizAmAM gheDa pheraphAra thaye che tene ane bIjA ati gheDA pheraphArane bAda karIe to e patra viSe A kSaNe mArA mana upara cogya patratvanI sArI chApa nathI. mArA mana upara evI chApa paDI che ke e patra tAvika rIte abhyAsapUrNa ane taddana niSpakSapaNe sAmAnya dharmane paNa vicAra nathI karatuM te pachI jainadharmane vicAra karavAnI ane te upara prakAza pheMkavAnI vAta te bAjue ja rahI. paraMtu je mArI A dhAraNA AMzika paNa sAcI hoya te te atyAranI mAnasika bhUmikAnI che. mAruM mana ghaNA nAnA-moTA vADA vaTAvI AgaLanA alakSita medAnamAM kUdakA-bhUsakA mAratuM hoya ane judI judI dizAo sparzavA bhaTakatuM hoya te e enA guNa ke doSathI prakAza patrane viSe ema kahyuM e
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________________ 26] darzana ane ciMtana sahaja che, chatAM jyAre huM mArA aMdhakArayugIna bhUtajIvananI jaTila graMthio viSe vicAra karuM chuM tyAre mane lAge che ke e patre eka nAnA bhAInI peThe. mane mUMjhavaNanA aMdhakAramAM prakAza ane daMDarUpe madada ApI che. eka vAra taddana nagaya lAgatI vastu paNa kyAreka keTalI jIvanaprada ane piSaka bane che ene A prakAza mArA jIvanamAM eka sacoTa dAkhala che. vyAkaraNa, kAvya, alaMkAra, tarka, bhinnabhinna darzana, Agama, piTakaveda, upaniSada, purANa, dharmazAstra AdinA hajAre pithAM pheMdI nAkhanAra asthira ane lagabhaga eka ja sthAne eka ja dizAmAM vicAra karanArA sthira mana vacce dhIre dhIre karatAM kALakrame moTuM aMtara paDI jAya te e svAbhAvika che, paNa tema chatAM e prakAzanA ati alpa vAcanamAMnA keTalAka le te atyAre paNa mArI najara sAme tAdaza khaDA thAya che. zrIyuta anupacaMdabhAIe kyAreka brahmacarya viSe ane kadAca tevA bIjA eka jIvanasparzI viSaya viSe prakAzamAM lekho lakhelA. tene prabhAva Aja paNa mArA jIvanamAM baLa prerI rahyo che. mane ghaNI vAra ema te lAgyuM ja che ke e patra bhale paMtha ane ga7 tema ja gurUvizeSanI bhAvanAmAMthI jagyuM hoya chatAM je ene vikAsa vartamAna saMge ane sAdhano pramANe pUrepUre thayo hota athavA hajI paNa thAya te e patra adha vacce pahoMcIne ghaDapaNamAM praveza karavAne badale UlaTuM navajIvanamAM praveza kare. je koI vyakti jIvananI kaLA jANatI thAya te e jema jema uMmare vadhe tema tema ghaDapaNane badale vadhAre navajIvana ja mahAtmAjInI peThe anubhave, tema patranI bAbatamAM paNa che. enI uMmara jema jema vadhe tema tema jIvana vadhAre sabaLa ane tAjuM thavuM joIe. anubhavo, kAryadizAo ane bhAvanAo vadhavA ane badalAvAnA cuganI sAthe ja koI paNa patre egya rIte parivartana svIkAravuM ja joIe. ane te ja te vikasita bhUmikAmAM sthAna-mAna pAmI zake ane upayogI. thaI zake. vasaMtamAM jUnAM parNo jAya che te navInane mATe ja. mANasa, saMsthA ane dharma e badhAe vAsaMtika jIvana jIvavuM joIe. patra e te ukta vastuonuM pratinidhi che tethI ane kharI rIte e badhAnuM doranAra che tethI eNe te vicAra, abhyAsa ane nirbhayatApUrvaka vAsaMtika jIvana sarvaprathama dhAraNa karavuM joIe. mArA vAMcavAmAM AvatuM nathI eTale atyAranI prakAza patranI sthiti viSe huM ajJAta chuM. saMbhava che ke ene janmagata vADo palaTAI paNa gayo,
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________________ mArA jIvanamAM "prakAzanuM sthAna [26 hoya, chatAM enA vyApaka vikAsane atyAre paNa puSkaLa avakAza che, e bAbata te dIvA jevI che. jo emAM zuSka kriyAkAMDo, vAto ane ekataraphI dharmavidhAnanI carcA Aje paNa alpAMze thatI haze te A yugamAM have eNe zrI jaina dharma prakAza e nAma badalI anya ja sArthaka nAma dhAraNa karavuM yogya che ema kaI paNa taTastha vicAraka kahI zakaze. have emAM kaI kaI vicArapradhAna ane udAtta lekhanI je mALA viSe meM sAMbhaLyuM che tene badale te AkhuM patra ja tathAvidhi thaI javAnI AzA huM sevuM chuM. kAraNuM e enA saMcAlake ane sahAyaka paNa na jANe evI rIte mArA saMkucita jIvanamAM ane aMdhakAramaya bhAvanAomAM eka kImatI kiraNa pheMkI sAce ja prakAzaka siddha thayuM che. ane tethI jema koI pitAnA junA sAthI viSe unnata bhAvanAo seve tema huM e patranA vikAsa viSe ane sAthe sAthe e patranI piSaka tathA e patramAMthI janmatI badhI pravRttio viSe unnata. AzA sevuM chuM. huM samajuM chuM tyAM sudhI prakAza e sabhAnuM mukhapatra che. mULa, anuvAda ane sArAtmaka DhagalAbaMdha pustako pragaTa karI e sabhAe sAhitya pracAramAM. viziSTa phALo Ape che, chatAM have yuga badalAyo che. evI jAtanA sAhityapracAranI sAthe sAthe eNe gaMbhIra, vizALa ane taddana nipakSa evuM jena. sAhitya saMzodhananuM kAma paNa hAtha dharavuM joIe. paisAnI gaNatarI ane bAhya vaibhavanA AkarSaNathI mukta rahI eNe zuddha sAhityopAsanA zarU karavI joIe. je sabhA e pravRtti svIkAre te eNe viziSTa vidvAnane yathAzakti: saMgraha karavo ja paDaze. eNe pustakAlayanI vyApakatA vadhAravI paDaze. sAmAnya varga uparAMta viziSTa vidvAnolAyaka pravRtti zarU thatAM e evuM dhAma banaze ke deza-paradezanA viziSTa vidvAne AvI rahevA lalacAze. bhAvanagara bIjI rIte paNa bahu anukULa sthAna che. A vidyAvyAsaMgamAMthI UMDA ciMtana ane saMgharSaNe janmatAM ApoApa prakAzanI kAyA palTAze ne te sAMpradAyika chatAM sarvagrAhya ke mAnya thavAnI dizAmAM prasthAna karaze. zrI jainadharma prakAza : suvarNa mahatsava aMka [varSa 51 : aMka 1 : caitra, vi. saM. 1991 ,