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________________ ApaNe kyAM chIe? [ 17 ] pajusaNuparva Ave che tyAre AvatI jAnanI peThe enI rAha jovA che ane e parva pUruM thaI jAya che tyAre tene rasa vAsI thaI jAya che, e ApaNA rejanA anubhavanI vAta che. chApAMnI, temAM lakhanAranI ane tene vAMcanAranI paNa lagabhaga A ja sthiti che. AnuM kAraNuM vicAratAM mane ema lAge che ke ApaNe je kAMI vicArIe chIe ane temAM je sarva saMmatie mAnya karavA jevuM hoya che tene paNa amalamAM mUkatA nathI. mAtra niSkriyatAne ja sevatA rahIe chIe, ane temAM ja pAsaparvanI ItizrI ane pAraNuM bane mAnI laIe chIe, e che. mathALAmAM sUcita praznane. TUMkamAM uttara te e ja che ke ApaNe jyAM hatA tyAM ja chIe. paNa uttara game te heya, chatAM A sthiti nibhAvavA jevI te nathI ja. emAM parivartana karavuM hoya te ApaNe pajusaNaparva nimite e vize vicAra paNa karavA ghaTe che. pratyeka samajadAra jaina pajusaNuparvamAM eka athavA bIjI rIte kAMIne kAMI AtmanirIkSaNa te kare ja che, paNa te nirIkSaNa mATe bhAge vyakitagata ja hoya che. tenA AghAta-pratyAghAta paNa vyaktigata ja rahe che; ane AtmanirIkSaNane pariNAme jIvanamAM joItuM parivartana karI zake evA te gaNyAgAMThayA viralA ja hoya che. eTale AvuM vyaktigata AtmanirIkSaNa "niMdAmi garidvAmi thI AgaLa vadhatuM nathI. je vAtanI bhArebhAra niMdA ke gaha karI hoya tene ja pravAha teTalA vegathI, ane ghaNI vAra te bamaNA vegathI, pAcho zarU thAya che. nilI ke gahelI bAbata vosirAmi sudhI pahoMcatI ja nathI. pariNAme TALavAnA doSo ane nivAravAnI truTio jemanI tema kAyama rahevAthI jIvanamAM sadgaNonuM vidhAyaka baLa pratiSThA pAmatuM ja nathI; ane suparvanuM dharmacakra ghANanI peThe sadA gatizIla rahevA chatAM temAMthI koI pragati siddha thatI nathI. eTale evA AtmanirIkSaNa vize A sthaLe na lakhatAM huM sAmAjika daSTie e vize lakhavA icchuM chuM. sAmAjika baLa e ja mukhya baLa che. je samAjanuM vAtAvaraNa te ja tenI vyakti upara prabhAva paDe che. sAmAjika daSTie vicAra karIe eTale
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________________ 3pa0 ]. darzana ane ciMtana pratyeka vyaktine vicAra emAM AvI ja jAya che. jaina samAjanuM dharmanI dRSTie prathama aMga che sAdhusaMsthA. A vize vicAra karanAra ane cAlu sthiti nihALanAra koI paNa ema nahi mAnatA hoya ke AjanI sAdhusaMsthA je kare che temAM kAMI javAbadArInuM tattva raheluM che. jeTalA sAdhu eTalA ja guru ane teTalA ja vADA. emanI vacce keI kAryasAdhaka jIvanadAyI sumeLa nathI. eTaluM ja nahi, paNa ghaNuvAra te be AcAryo ke be guru-ziSyanA niprANa jhaghaDA pAchaLa vadhAremAM vadhAre sAmAjika baLa kharcAI jAya che ane mAtra navA yugane ja jaina nahi paNa zraddhALu gaNAte junavANI jaina paNa UMDe UMDe mUMge moDhe prathama pitAnA mAnItA rahyA hoya evA sAdhu ke guru pratye azraddhA seva hoya che. parvatithine vivAda jANItA che. hajI te enA pUrvayuddha virAma Avyo nathI--e virAma korTa ANe ke adhiSThAyaka deva ANe e ajJAta che tyAM te AvatA varSamAM AvanAra parvatithinA praznane atyArathI ja ceLavAmAM AvyuM che. kharI rIte parvatithinI tANakheMca e zvetAmbara samAjamAM dAkhala thayela pAkistAnahiMdustAnanI tANakheMca che. phera eTale ja che ke parvatithinA vivAdanA banne pakSakAre kAyade AjhamanI manodazA seve che. jo A sthiti hoya te eka nahi hajAra pajusaNa Ave ke jAya chatAMya samAjamAM buddhipUrvaka ze phera paDavAne che. eTale jyAM hatAM tyAM ja rahevAnA. parvatithinA vivAdanuM te meM eka jANItuM udAharaNa mAtra ApyuM che. bIjI evI ghaNI bAbato gaNAvI zakAya. sastA ane sAMdhAratanA yugamAM sAdhuo vAste game teTale kharca thate te samAjane pAlavaDe; mAsAmAM e kharca leke hoMsathI karatA. Aje sthiti sAva badalAI che. samAjano moTe bhAge pitAnAM bALabaccAM ane kuTuMbane joItuM piSaNa ApI nathI zakatA. Ama chatAM moTA moTA pratiSThita gaNAtA sAdhuono kharca mAsAmAM ane zeSa kALamAM ekasarakhe ja cAlu che. ghaNuvAra vartamAna phugAvA sAthe emanA kharcane phugA dekhAya che. zuM AmAM samAja pratyenI keAI javAbadArInuM tattva che? zuM Ane lIdhe lekemAM sAdhusaMsthA pratye aNagamAnAM bIje nathI vavAtAM? je Ama che te game teTalAM saparvo Ave ke jAya, tethI samAjanI bhUmikAmAM zo phera paDavAne ? tIrtha ane maMdirane prazna sAmUhika che. jeno ekkasapaNe ema mAne che ke temanAM maMdiramAM hoya che tevI cekhAI anyatra nathI hotI. paNa zuM kaI jaina ema kahI zakaze ke maMdiranI AsapAsa ane tIrthabhUmimAM agara
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________________ ApaNu karyAM chIe ? I 351 sAM Ave? vAsasthAnAmAM e cekhkhAine eka paNa aza che? maMdira ane upAzrayamAM je cokhkhAI hoya che te karatAM anekagaNI gakkI tenI AsapAsa hAya che, e hakIkata dIvA jevI che. acitvanI bhAvanA mULe sAcAbhimAna dUra karavA agara cokhkhAI to rAga nivAravA mATe yojAyelI, paNa tenA sthAnamAM jainAe azucinu peSaNu eTaluM badhu karyuM che ke te joI kAIne paNa tenA pratye aNagamo ke DaeNSa AvyA vinA rahe nahi, rAga nivAravA jatAM dveSanu tattva pASAyuM ane samAje ArAgya tema ja pratiSThA gumAvyAM. zuM A prazna sAMvatsarika AtmanirIkSaNamAM sthAna nathI pAmatA ? jo hA, to A vAste kANu vicAra karaze ? sAdhu ke vahIvaTakartA ke banne ? jo eke pUrNa javAbadAra na hoya te supa Ave ke jAya tethI samAjanuM zuM vaLavAnuM ? devadravyano uddeza suMdara che, e vize tenA matabheda che ja nahi; paNa e uddeza sAdhI zakAya te karatAM vadhu pramANamAM ekaThuM thayeluM devadravya jyAM tyAM eka athavA bIje rUpe pathu' rahe, tenA kAI sAmAjika hitamAM upayAga thaI ja na zake ane chevaTe kAM te e sthAvara milakatarUpe rahe ane kAM tA jyAre tyAre jenA tenA hAthe bharakhAI jAya--A sthiti zuM punaHvicAraNA nathI mAgatI ? zuM vidvAna gaNAtA ane vidvAna che evA tyAgIonuM tema ja DAhyA gaNAtA vyApArI zrAvakAnuM mAnasa AmAMthI kAI ukela zodhavAnI zakti ja nathI dharAvatuM ? jo ema hoya te pannusaNa ke savatsarIpava Ave ne jAya e badhuM paththara upara pANI DhoLyA barAbara che. samAja te jyAM hatA tyAM ja che, agara samayanI dRSTie tulanAtmaka vicAra karIe to prathamathIye pAcho paDyo che ema mAnavuM joI e. tattvajJAna ane dharmanuM zikSaNa ApatI nAnImoTI aneka pAzALAo che, keTalAMka gurukuLa te brahmacaryAzrama paNa che, aneka chAtrAlayA paNa che. emAM tyAgIo, paMDita ane atyAranA suzikSita gaNAtA mahAzAne pUruMpUro hAtha che; ane tema chatAM temAM dhArmika ane tAttvika zikSaNa lenAranI dazA joIe chIe tyAre ema mAnavAnuM mana thaI jAya che ke jeTalA pramANamAM jeNe vadhAre dhazikSaNa lIdhu te teTalA pramANamAM vadhAre pAkA maulavI ke mulA. atyAre apAtu dharmanuM temaja tattvanuM jJAna ene lenAramAM kAI nave vicAra preratu Mya nathI ane 'tamaso mA jyeAtiyamaya'aMdhArAmAMthI ajavALAmAM laI jA evI mane dazAne khale cetiNe mA~ samo gamaya' evI maneAdazA sa che! kAI paNa sAce samajanAra ane nirbhaya dharmAMtattvajJa upara kahela evI sasthAnuM ane temAM zIkhatA vidyAthI enuM mAnasa joze te tene jaNAyA
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________________ darzana ane ciMtana." vinA nahi rahe ke emAM vicAranuM nUra ja nathI. je A sthiti samAjanI hoya te hajAra-hAra AtmaniMdA ke AtmagahanuM mUlya ajAgalastane karatAM. vadhAre lekhAze kharuM? chellAM patera varSamAM samAje yuganA dhakakAthI moDe moDe paNa AnAkAnI sAthe zAstraprakAzana zarU karyuM. emAM ghaNI bAbatamAM pragati paNa thaI, chatAM Aje e prakAzana pAchaLa samAjanuM jeTaluM dhana ane baLa kharcAya che te pramANamAM kAMI sudhAro ke navInatA thaI che ke nahi e zuM vicAravA jevuM nathI? che tevAM ja pustake makSi sthAne makSiA rAkhI mAtra sArA. kAgaLa ne sArA TAIpa agara sAruM bAInDiMga karI chApavAmAM Ave te zuM A yugamAM e pratiSThA pAmaze ? zuM enA saMpAdaka tarIkenA nAma sAthe paMDita, paMnyAsa, suri ane sUrisamrATanI upAdhio mAtrathI enuM mUlya ke upayogitA vadhI zakaze? AgamamaMdira jevI saMsthA ane kRtio pAchI varSo lagI samaya gALanAra, apAra zakti kharcanAra ane puSkaLa dhana kharcanAra vidvAna dhuradhare zuM e vicAre che ke temaNe ATalAM lAMbA zAstra-AgamanA pari. zIlanane pariNAme samAjane vArasAmAM koI nava vicAra ke nava dehana ApyuM che ke nahi ? jo ATaluM moTuM zAstrIya samudramaMthana nava vicAranuM amRta pUruM pADI na zake te e maMthana mAtra tramaMthana che, ema kaI taTastha kahe te ene zuM javAba ApI zakAya ? zuM A sthiti nabhAvavA jevI che ? jo hA, te pajusaNa parvanA rathane AvavA do ane javA de; ApaNe to jyAM tyAM rahI enA dharmacakranI ghUgharIonA madhura jhaNakAra ja sAMbhaLavAnA. jaina samAjanA ekeeka phirakAnA dareka chApAne laI e. zuM koI evuM jaina sAmayika che ke jene navIna jJAnapUrti, navIna jJAnavRddhi ke nirbhaya mArga darzananI daSTie kharIdavAnuM mana thAya ? sAmayika calAvanAra je nirbhaya hoya ane bIje kSetromAM kAma karavAnI zakti dharAvate heya te zuM te jaina sAmayika calAvaze? ane hA, to tene zuM jaina samAja vadhAvI leze? protsAhana Apaze ? je ne, te jaina sAmayiko mATe kevA saMcAlaka ane saMpAdaka maLavAnA? A rIte AkhuM jaina-sAmayika-taMtra laI enA upara vicAra karIe chIe, enI pAchaLa kharcAtAM nANAM, kharcAtI zakti---e badhAMne vicAra karIe chIe to ema lAge che ke jaina sAmayike mAtra anya sAmayikanI niSNANa chAyA che ane dhanike tema ja tyAgIonI kRpAprasAdI upara ja jIvI rahyAM che. AvI kRpAprasAdI meLavavAnI ane sAcavI rAkhavAnI vRtti hoya tyAM khuzAmata ane sAcuM kahevAne sthAne cupakIdI sivAya bIjuM saMbhavatuM ja nathI,
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________________ [ 3 je jaina sAmayika jainetaramAM pratiSThA meLavI na zake, evA punarukti, khuzAmata ane mAtra paralokaprazaMsA karanAra sAmayike cAlu rahevAnAM heya ane samAjane kazI sAcI doravaNI spaSTapaNe ApI zakatAM na hoya te sAMvatsarika dharmaparva tarIke aneka vAra gAvA chatAM ApaNuM sthitimAM che kera paDavAne ? uparanA prazno mAtra digdarzanarUpa che. pAMjarApoLa, aspRzyatAnivAraNa, sAdhuonI kAryadizAnuM parivartana, ehika Avazyaka pravRtiomAM rasa levAnI bhAvanA, svayaMsevaka daLa, akhADApravRtti, svabaLe sAcavI ane nabhAvI zakAya teTalAM ja maMdire ane tIrthonI vyavasthAne prazna vagere aneka muddAo tatkALa vicAraNuM ane ukela mAgI rahyA che, paNa e vize vAcaka pote ja vicAra karI le ane vicAra karatA thAya e ISTa che. A sthaLe je sAmAjika nirIkSaNa karyuM che te kriyAparyavasAyI bane e bhAvanAthI ja karAyeluM che; paNa evI bhUmikA taiyAra kaI rIte thAya ane evI taiyArI karavAnI javAbadArI kone zire che, agara evI javAbadArI uThAvavAnI javAnI kAnAmAM che e paNa prazna che. Ane uttara zANA ane skUrtivALA yuvake ja Ape.