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many people who joined your path much later have achieved moksha (liberation), but not me?
Few years ago in response to a similar question, Bhagwan had told me to eliminate my attachment for him. I had categorically rejected that option. Mahavir knew that I preferred to live in his blissful presence to the eternal bliss of formless moksha. Therefore, this time Bhagwan did not answer me directly.
He said, “Absolutely selfless love, without any attachment is the key to moksha. However, do not lose heart Goyama! You and I have been together not for just last thirty years. This relationship of our two souls and this longing for each other goes back to several previous births. In our celestial births I was Triprusta Vasudev and you were my chariot driver. You were my disciple Kapil in the past life when I was Marichi. With such past association, our souls are now destined to be equal, and this association shall continue."
I was puzzled by that answer. Certainly, I was oblivious to the pain and plight of the fellow human beings and animals before I joined this sangh. But, have I not redeemed myself? Have I not learnt the art of boundless love and compassion? Do I not love and even revere every living being large and small? Does my love still fall short? I was perplexed but did not ask him about my shortcomings. I wanted to contemplate upon his answer and then ask.
I was still thinking about Mahavir's promise, “Our souls are now destined to be equal upon leaving these bodies, and the association shall continue." I didn't want to be his equal; I am so attached to Mahavir that
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