Prabuddha Jivan 2016 07

SR No.: 526096
Original Sutra Author: N/A
Author: Sejal Shah
Publisher: Mumbai Jain Yuvak Sangh
Publication Year: 2016
Total Pages: 44
Language: Gujarati
Classification: Magazine, India_Prabuddha Jivan, & India
File Size: 2 MB

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PRABUDDH JEEVAN
JULY 2016
THE SECRER'S DIARY
MANTHAN - CHURNING
How does the Universe always know even before me, that there is this volcano churning inside of me?
How did Seial ben ask me to write about 'Manthan' - the inner churning. Was it so loud that she could hear it in between our long distances?
Well "manthan" - churning is a more positive process or rather a process with a positive result. When it's just churning but without a positive result or no result then we all can agree its just turmoil or conflict between need and desires. That inner churning that moves you forward, The inner churning that clamps you too as you know if it breaks the damwould bring a deluge with
I am churning in a turmoil way. The conflict between my need to belong and my need to be free. The conflict between my need of harmony with my need for growth and creativity which disturbs the balance. My need of fairness and justice over being practical. The conflict between narrow suffocating thinking of the very people you so broadly love. The conflict of conformity and breaking all traditions and of being in the boundary and breaking them.
Churning the water does not yield anything, but churning of milk leads to butter. So also with our thoughts; themanthan must be of the knowledge we have with the thoughts we have and which vields to an action out of that process. An action that we are able to own up and live with alongwith its consequences without regret and disappointment. It has to be something of consequence else it just, creates ripples like in water and takes away our tranquility.
Any churning that does not yield to any result leads to disappointment, stress, frustration because that churning does not have an outlet, it is not finding a way out. Churning if it is positive is good because it means there is no stagnation and if that positive churning leads to an outlet...an action then wow... then you have given yourself the chance for new freshness of thoughts, and of progress.
Yet; it rarely happens with us. There is a constant pull and push within. I lack clarity. I am often in the place of Trishanku-caught between two worlds. Do do what is good for me or what other expect of me. And it doesn't end only at that at times there are pulls and pushes from all sides. Dharma expects a particular action; my desires push me in another way and my loved one pull me towards their expectations. Its never an easy choice.
Do whatever I may; I end up guilty of not measuring up to someone's expectations. Like Arjun in Kurukshetra lays down his weapons and breaks down facing his own friends and family standing at war. Who should he fight with? What for? Will his winning the battle by killing his own give him happiness? It takes a Sadguru in the form of Sri Krishna to guide him to show the way. That what we call our weaknesses are actually so strong that they have sapped away our inner energies. That we have become weak towards our weaknesses instead of overcoming them and being strong. The fight is against our weaknesses, our raag's, our confusions and of choosing the right path.
I too am looking at that churning which leads to alignment of thoughts, actions and words.
What I think is what I say, and what I feel. But until that happens...
It is all so quiet around me and such a commotion within.
TrulyNa Koi Kaurav, na koi Pandav Na koi Raavan, Ram Jeevan keiss Kurukshetra main Pal Pal hai sangraam....
Reshma Jain The Narrators Email : reshma.jain7@gmail.com
‘પ્રબુદ્ધ જીવન ને પચ્ચીસ હજારનું અનુદાન આપી કોઈ પણ એક મહિનાનું સૌજન્ય પ્રાપ્ત કરશે. ‘પ્રબુદ્ધ જીવનના ખાસ અંક માટેના સૌજન્યનું અનુદાન રૂપિયા ચાલીસ હજાર છે.
સ્વજનને શબ્દાંજલિ જ્ઞાનકર્મથી અર્પી જ્ઞાનપુણ્ય પ્રાપ્ત કરશે.