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Aptavani-2
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Aptavani-2
Questioner : How can one change artadhyan and raudradhyan?
Dadashri : Having artadhyan and raudradhyan is the peculiarity of the karmas of the current era of this time cycle. However, whenever atikraman (aggression) occurs, do 'cash' (instant) pratikraman. You will have to do pratikraman anytime you do atikraman. If there is repentance for raudradhyan, then that raudradhyan changes to artadhyan and if pratikraman is done, as it should be, then raudradhyan becomes dharmadhyan. Alochana, pratikraman and pratyakhyan (confession, repentance and avowal to not repeat the fault), should be done at the same time. Even if you have only an idol of God in front of you, you should do alochana to that idol, making the idol your witness and make a firm decision not to do the same again.
Questioner: How should we take it if someone insults US?
meditation against others and adverse meditation within one's self, respectively) do occur because of the pressures of the current time cycle but the Lord has given us purusharth as a weapon with which we can remove them both. This is like eating food that is beneficial for you and rejecting food which is not. Similarly, you have to remove artadhyan and raudradhyan and do dharmadhyan (absence of both forms of adverse meditation)
Artadhyan - Raudradhyan Questioner : What is artadhyan and what is raudradhyan?
Dadashri : Any contemplation, even in the slightest degree, of depriving others of their happiness, is called raudradhyan. Even if you do not actually carry out the act of depriving someone, the mere contemplation of doing so is considered raudradhyan. The consequence of raudradhyan is a life in hell (narkagati).
Artadhyan is when you experience problems created by others or internal worries which you keep to yourself, where you tell no one and where you show no anger. Nowadays it is hard to find a person who has just artadhyan alone. Raudradhyan is rampant everywhere. In the current time cycle of Kaliyug, artadhyan and raudradhyan have also infested places of religion and worship. Hence the ascetics constantly experience artadhyan and raudradhyan. Getting upset with a disciple is raudradhyan and experiencing internal irritation and suffering is artadhyan. It is tremendous raudradhyan when a maharaj is preoccupied with thoughts of other maharaj having twenty-five disciples when he has only a few. It is terrible raudradhyan when one is preoccupied with increasing the number of his disciples. How can conduct like this compliment the throne of Lord Mahavir? One has entered a race course. The Fools! They leave behind three 'bells' (wife and two children) that hang around their necks and hang one hundred and eight (disciples) more! How can you call this the path of the vitarags?
Dadashri : Insult will not bother you if you are Selfrealized. If you do not have Gnan, then you have to tell yourself that being insulted must be the consequence of your mistake from your past life. It must be your fault that the other person insults you. The other person is avenging the karmic debt (hisaab) from the past life so take it and deposit' it into your karmic account. If you tell the person insulting you. "Sir, insult me again", he will ask you, "Do I not have anything better to do?" He gives you only that which is coming to you. From the time you are born till the time you die, everything is compulsory (farajiyat): you are bound for undergoing the experience of all unfolding circumstances in your life. There are many who pass their 'exams' (life's difficulties) and many who fail. Then there are those who do not even learn! Everything you have to experience is because of your karmic accounts from your past life. Who keeps a track of these accounts? There are tremendous energies within you that keep track and take