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something or not? This is how some have become sadhus. Only five to ten percent of them are real sadhus. There are some who leave behind millions of dollars in order to become a sadhu. If you ask them, "Did you not enjoy playing with all that money? Did you not enjoy playing with all that wealth? Did you not enjoy your life with your wife? What have you come here for? What toys have you come here to play?" They will say, "I have come here for the salvation of the world." You fool! In which previous life have you not done that? How are you going to do good for the world when you have not done anything for your own self?
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Now for how long can such lack of understanding continue? Will you not have to follow the right understanding of the vitarags? At the same time they also sing. "Get rid of parramanata (dwelling in the non-self), get rid of par-ramanata." What do you understand by par-ramanata? Everything that you play with is par-ramanata. So how would you get rid of all that? Some say, "They are looking after the well-being of the society. They are increasing the number of Jains." Why would you worry whether the number of Jains increase or decrease? Why would you worry about that, which Lord Mahavir did not concern Himself with? Your guru's guru, his guru and the guru of the whole world, Lord Mahavir, has not worried about increasing the number of Jains, then who are you to be worrying about that? Is your chit on a merry-go-round or what? You would have been better off increasing children at home; you would have at least five or a dozen. But instead, you abandoned your children! How can you call someone like this, a Jain? Will you not have to understand the truth? How long are you going to talk this way without any substance? You will have to know the truth, and then you will get to know the Self. Swa-ramanata will arise as par-ramanata goes away.
Do you now understand what ramanata is? Till the very end they make you 'play' with the scriptures. The guru engages
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the disciples in a play and vice versa and then they claim, "This is the path to moksha." This cannot be the path to moksha. The sadhus, maharajs, acharyas etc., they all play with scriptures. The Lord has said that man keeps playing with 'toys' till the end but what does he gain? You have played with these toys so get out, if it is liberation that you seek. You may argue, "But Lord, these are your scriptures and Agams." The Lord would tell you, "But you get out because you have only played with 'toys' you have never played with the Self." "We' give moksha through swa-ramanata! That is why 'we' have told you not to touch the scriptures.
Keep dwelling in the Self. Those who have not attained the Self, continue playing endlessly with the toys. All these acharyas and the likes in the world keep playing with toys incessantly. Only our mahatmas play with the Atma, the Self. They are in swa-ramanata. People do not understand this subtle fact and then whole day long they keep playing with scriptures and then they get upset when they cannot find their books. The Lord has made it very clear in the scriptures that you should not get upset and that you should not hurt anyone. But people do that anyway. Have the scriptures told anyone to get upset this way? People get upset when they lose the very book that tells them not to get upset! All these people play with toys so what good does it do when they get upset? They read scriptures for millions of years and yet they get more attached to the scriptures. When they get involved in the worldly ramanata, they get attached to that. They go back and forth from one fire to another. The scriptures too, are toys. The scriptures are there for one to proceed towards the Self so this purpose is valid, however the true ramanata (dwelling) is that of the Self, all other ramanata is par-ramanata; it is in the non-self.
One sadhu asked, "I do not have a single possession (parigraha) that is worldly, so will I attain moksha?" 'We' told him, "No, you will not." There is no moksha until there is Atma