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I am the Soul The first Ganadhar of the Lord, Shri Gautamswami had experienced such a sorrow. Nine other ganadhars, much younger than him, who had received their lessons from him and many of his disciples attained omniscience and then proceeded to moksa while he was stuck in this false state. This sorrow he has expressed several times. He asks the Lord, “O Lord! Why do I not have omniscience?” This is the highest grade of the sensation of spiritual sorrow.
The sensory power of the atma works on all three - body, mind and soul - grounds.
Jiva is constant as a substance, it is constant in the state of its true form, it is constant in its virtue of knowledge. It is constant by itself, and its virtues are also constant.
Gurudev has proved to us the constant nature of the jiva. Now the jiva repeatedly goes through the cycle of life and death and notices a variety there, yet it is a proof of the constant. Gurudev, while trying to tell us about this, says -
क्रोधादि तरतम्यता, सर्पादिकनी मांय;
ya na itara, vita Fretat i ..... 69
A great variety is visible among the small and large jivas living on the canvas of the Universe. The course (gati) of life is different. Some are in Tiryancha and others are in the Manushya. The deva and naraki jivas are not visible here. The type (jati) is different - some are uni-sensory, some others bi-sensory, trisensory, quad-sensory or penta-sensory. The state is also different. Some have a long life, others have a short one. Each one has a different form, colour, shape, and variety. All this is externally different, visible as a difference from the bodily viewpoint.
In the same way, if we were to consider the mind - the true nature - the influences, they too are various. Some have a broad mind, others have a narrow one. Some have a Satvik mind, others
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