________________
I am the Soul
671 I am in the natural thought form of jnata-drushta. The feelings of knowing and seeing are my original true form. Jnana and darshana are my own qualities. The continuance of these qualities can happen only as jnata-drashta and not as kartabhokta. That is why the form of natural disposition of jnatadrashta, which is above all attachment and other affected disposition, is my true form.
There is infinite prosperity within me in the form of the anantachatushtaya - the four infinites. The chaitanya atma, which possesses this unlimited wealth, is the supreme abode of infinite bliss. I am the soul with the immeasurable power to discern the infinite virtues that reside in me.
Thus, all the perversions that had arisen due to the company of the par, in the feeling that atma and par were one and the same, get subsided. The jiva becomes aware of the own serene state. “I am but the soul; complete, indestructible, impassionate, formless, infinite, master of unrestrained bliss, discerning of the infinite virtues, completely Veetaraag in nature.' Such a neverbefore realisation occurred to the disciple, and he related the matter of this occurrence to Sri Guru.
Gurudev had lapsed into a trance, immersed in the self. And the disciple while recollecting the benevolence of the Gurudev, was explicitly describing to him, through his inner feelings, the unique state that he had attained. The knot of attachment and aversion had been cut. The heightened flow of mithyatva mohaniya was destroyed and charitra mohaniya had declined. A never-before energy of joy was released and the disciple attained the bheda vijnana towards all par bhavas - i.e. external feelings.
The atma and audarik body are different, the atma is different from the micro-body in the form of taijas-karman, the atma is different from the attachment-aversion and such affected
Jain Educationa International
For Personal and Private Use Only
www.jainelibrary.org