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It is a matter of regret that I, without any fault, disregarded those two brothers who had come home, who had eyes like lotuses and faces like the moon. ||184|| The two brothers, whose bodies were scorched by the heat of summer, went out of the house with the goddess, i.e., Sita. That thought always remains in my heart like a thorn, constantly moving. ||185|| Doubtless, my sorrow will not end until I leave home and take the nirarambha initiation. ||186|| After that, hearing the news of Kapil's dispassion, the frightened and humble Susharma, along with the Brahmin woman, began to shed tears. ||187|| Kapil, eager to attain liberation, seeing his family immersed in the ocean of sorrow, spoke with a detached mind, saying, "O people! This creature, infatuated by the strange affection of family members, who are full of great desires, burns constantly. Don't you know this?" ||188-189|| Thus, moved by emotion, Kapil, the Brahmin, left behind the woman who had fainted from sorrow and his relatives who were experiencing great sorrow. He gave eighteen thousand white cows, a house filled with jewels, and servants and maids, along with his son and all his wealth, to Susharma, the Brahmin woman, and became a nirarambha, digambara sage. ||190-192|| The extremely ascetic muni, a disciple of Sahyanandamati, a great ocean of virtues and character, became his guru, i.e., he took initiation from him. ||193|| After that, the great ascetic Kapil, who wore the pure garland of character, whose mind was always engaged in the ultimate truth, and whose body was embraced by the wealth of the nirgrantha vow, began to wander the earth. ||194|| Gautama Swami says that the person who, free from ego, reads or hears this story of Kapil, becomes radiant like the sun and obtains the fruit of a thousand fasts. ||195|| Thus ends the thirty-fifth chapter, named the Kapilopkhyana, in the Padmacharita, composed by Ravishena, the Acharya, known as the Arsha. ||34||
..Bhanati bho janah. 2. Dhiradhi: M., B. ||