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________________ 217 paramAtmAmAM parama sneha game tevI vikaTa vATethI thato hoya to paNa karavo yogya ja che. muMbaI, mAha suda, 1947 parama pUjya, Apane sahaja vAMcananA upayogAthe ApanA praznano uttaravALo kAgaLa A sAthe bIDuM chuM. paramAtmAmAM parama sneha game tevI vikaTa vATethI thato hoya to paNa karavo yogya ja che. saraLa vATa maLyA chatAM upAdhinA kAraNathI tanmayabhakti rahetI nathI, ane ekatAra sneha UbharAto nathI. AthI kheda rahyA kare che ane vAraMvAra vanavAsanI icchA thayA kare che. joke vairAgya to evo rahe che ke ghara ane vanamAM ghaNuM karIne AtmAne bheda rahyo nathI, paraMtu upAdhinA prasaMgane lIdhe temAM upayoga rAkhavAnI vAraMvAra jarUra rahyA kare che, ke jethI parama sneha para te veLA AvaraNa ANavuM paDe; ane evI parama snehatA ane ananya premabhakti AvyA vinA dehatyAga karavAnI icchA thatI nathI. kadApi sarvAtmAnI evI ja icchA haze to game tevI dInatAthI paNa te icchA pheravazuM. paNa premabhakitanI pUrNa laya AvyA vinA dehatyAga nahIM karI zakAya ema rahe che, ane vAraMvAra e ja raTanA rahevAthI 'vanamAM jaIe' 'vanamAM jaIe' ema thaI Ave che. Apano niraMtara satsaMga hoya to amane ghara paNa vanavAsa ja che. gopAMganAnI jevI zrImad bhAgavatamAM premabhati varNavI che, evI premabhakti A kaLikALamAM prApta thavI durlabha che, ema joke sAmAnya lakSa che, tathApi kaLikALamAM nizcaLa matithI e ja laya lAge to paramAtmA anugraha karI zIdhra e bhakti Ape che. jaDabharatajInI zrImad bhAgavatamAM suMdara AkhyAyikA ApI che; e dazA vAraMvAra sAMbharI Ave che. ane evuM unmattapaNe paramAtmAne pAmavAnuM parama dvAra che. e dazA videhI hatI. bharatajIne haraNanA saMgathI janmanI vRddhi thaI hatI ane tethI jaDabharatanA bhavamAM asaMga rahyA hatA. evAM kAraNathI mane paNa asaMgatA bahu ja sAMbharI Ave che, ane keTalIka vakhata to evuM thaI jAya che ke te asaMgatA vinA parama duHkha thAya che. yama aMtakALe prANIne duHkhadAyaka nahIM lAgato hoya, paNa amane saMga duHkhadAyaka lAge che. ema aMtavRttio ghaNI che ke je eka ja pravAhanI che. lakhI jatI nathI; rahyuM jatuM nathI; ane Apano viyoga rahyA kare che. sugama upAya koI jaDato nathI. udayakarma bhogavatAM dInapaNuM anukULa nathI. bhaviSyanI eka kSaNano ghaNuM karIne vicAra paNa raheto nathI. 'sa-sata' enuM raTaNa che. ane satanuM sAdhana 'tame' te tyAM cho. adhika zuM kahIe ? IzvaranI icchA evI che, ane tene rAjI rAkhyA rahyA vinA chUTako nathI. nahIM to AvI upAdhiyukta dazAmAM na rahIe; ane dhAryuM karIe, parama pIyuSa ane premabhaktimaya ja rahIe ! paNa prArabdhakarma baLavattara che !
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________________ Aje ApanuM eka patra maLyuM. vAMcI hRdayagata karyuM. e viSe Apane uttara na lakhIe evI amArI sattA ApanI pAse yogya nahIM, tathApi Apane, aMtargata samajAyuM che, te jaNAvuM chuM, ke je kaMI thAya che te thavA devuM, na udAsIna, na anudyamI thavuM; na paramAtmA pratye paNa icchA karavI ane na mUMjhAvuM. kadApi Apa jaNAvo cho tema ahaMpaNuM ADuM AvatuM hoya to teno jeTalo bane teTalo rodha karavo; ane tema chatAM paNa te na TaLatuM hoya to tene IzvarArpaNa karI devuM, tathApi dInapaNuM na AvavA devuM. zuM thaze ? evo vicAra karavo nahIM, ane je thAya te karyA rahevuM. adhika jhAvAM nAkhavA prayatna karavuM nahIM. alpa paNa bhaya rAkhavo nahIM, upAdhi mATe bhaviSyanI eka paLanI paNa ciMtA karavI nahIM, karyAno je abhyAsa thaI gayo che, te vismaraNa karyA rahevuM to ja Izvara prasanna thaze, ane to ja paramabhakita pAmyAnuM phaLa che; to ja amAro tamAro saMyoga thayo yogya che, ane upAdhi viSe zuM thAya che te ApaNe AgaLa upara joI laIzuM. 'joI laIzuM' eno artha bahu gaMbhIra che. sarvAtmA hari samartha che. Apa ane mahaMta puruSonI kRpAthI nirbaLa mati ochI rahe che. ApanA upAdhiyoga viSe joke lakSa rahyA kare che; paNa je kaMI sattA che te te sarvAtmAne hAtha che. ane te sattA nirapekSa, nirAkAMkSa evA jJAnIne ja prApta hoya che, jyAM sudhI te sarvAtmA harinI icchA jema hoya tema jJAnIne paNa cAlavuM e AjJAMkita dharma che, ityAdika vAta ghaNI che. zabda lakhI zakato nathI, ane bIjo koI samAgama sivAya e vAta karavAno upAya hAthamAM nathI, jethI jyAre IzvarecchA haze tyAre e vAta karazuM. upara je upAdhimAMthI ahaMpaNuM mUkavAnAM vacano lakhyAM che, te Apa thoDo vakhata vicAra karazo, tyAM ja tevI dazA thaI rahe evI ApanI manovRtti che; ane evI gAMDI zikSA lakhavAnI sarvAtmA harinI icchA hovAthI meM Apane lakhI che. mATe jema bane tema ene avadhArajo. karI paNa Apane vijJApana che ke upAdhi viSe jema bane tema niHzaMkapaNe rahI udyama karavo. kema thaze ? e vicAra mUkI devo. AthI vizeSa cokhkhI vAta lakhavAnI yogyatA hAla mane Izvare ApavAno anugraha karyo nathI; ane tenuM kAraNa mArI tevI AdhIna bhakita nathI. Ape sarva prakAre nirbhaya rahevuM evI mArI pharI pharI vinaMtI che. e sivAya huM kaMI bIjuM lakhavA yogya nathI. A viSaya viSe samAgame ApaNe vAtacIta karIzuM. koI rIte Ape dilagIra thavuM nahIM. A dhIraja ApavA tarIkenI ja sammati che ema nathI, paNa jema aMtarathI UgI tema ApelI sammati che. vadhAre lakhI zakAtuM nathI, paNa Ape AkuLa rahevuM na joIe; e vinaMtI pharI pharI mAnajo. bAkI ame to nirbaLa chIe. jarUra mAnajo ke nirbaLa chIe; paNa upara lakhI che je sammati te sabaLa che, jevI tevI nathI, paNa sAcI che. Apane mATe e ja mArga yogya che. Apa jJAnakathA lakhazo. 'prabodhazataka' bhAI revAzaMkara hAla to vAMce che. ravivAra sudhImAM pAchuM mokalavuM ghaTaze to pAchuM mokalIza, nahIM to rAkhavA viSe lakhIza; ane tema chatAM tenA mAlika taraphanI utAvaLa hoya to jaNAvazo to mokalI ApIza.
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________________ ApanAM badhAM praznono mArI icchA pUrNa uttara lakhI zakyo nathI, upAdhiyogane lIdhe; paNa Apa mArA aMtarane samajI lezo, ema mane niHzaMkatA che. li. AjJAMkita rAyacaMda.