Aur phir

Author(s): Jatanlal Rampuriya
Publisher: Z_Jain_Vidyalay_Granth_012030.pdf
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/210339/1

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3 jatanalAla rAmapuriyA kA saMgIta - una baccoM se bar3hakara, saca hI, aura kisa cIja kI kalpanA hama kareM? bacce sRSTi kI ananyatama kRti haiM - nirvikAra vRttiyA~, nizchala AcaraNa, niSkaluSa mn| sahaja, sarala aura prkRtigt| bhItara aura bAhara smruup| na koI mukhauTA, na ADambara, na aupcaariktaa| saba kucha anAvRta aura niraavrnn| lar3e, jhagar3eM, rUThe para dUsare hI kSaNa phira vahI aatmiiytaa| malinatA mana ko chuye hI nhiiN| khAmemi savvajIve - kSamAdAna aura kSamAyAcanA ke zabda oMThoM para nahIM, antara hI unase aaplaavit| adhyAtma kA hara pATha to inake svabhAva meM hai| phira kauna-sA jJAna inheM deM? balki inase to hama hI kucha siikheN| upadezoM kI AvazyakatA to yathArtha meM bar3oM ko hai| to thor3A apanI ora mudd'eN| yaha muhUrta sacamuca kucha dera thamane kA hai, eka cira-upekSita prazna kA samAdhAna pA lene kA hai - bacce bar3e hokara kyoM una vikAroM se grasta hote haiM jinase yaha dharatI trasta hai? jIva ke bAre meM batalA rahA vyakti anajAne hI ajIva kI vyAkhyA kara rahA hotA hai| puNya ke vizleSaNa meM pApa kI paribhASA chipI rahatI hai| Azrava (karma-grahaNa) kA jJAna nirjarA (karma-kSaya) kI aura phira? prakriyA hai| baMdha aura mokSa bhI eka dUsare kI parikramA karate haiM aura bilakala isa kSaNa taka merI kalpanA meM bacce the| unheM hI yahA~ bhI dekhiye, baccoM se prArambha haI bAta anAyAsa hI mujhe bar3oM ke sambodhita karane kI cAha liye maiM ye paMktiyA~ likhane baitthaa| para isI pAsa le AI; saprayAsa svayaM taka pahu~cane kA upakrama to saba bIca merI cha: varSIyA dauhitrI samatA AI aura mere pAsa baiThakara bAteM upalabdhiyoM kA prathama sopAna hai hii| karane lgii| bar3I sIdhI-sarala baccI hai| ucchaMkhalatA kA nAma bhI saprayAsa svayaM taka pahu~cane kA upakrama! do zabdoM kA saMdeza nhiiN| usake cacere bhAI ko saba 'cInU' kahakara bulAte haiN| vaha bhagavAna mahAvIra kA - tinnANaM taaryaannN| pahale svayaM tiro, phira samatA se eka-do varSa bar3A hai, kucha caMcala bhii| maiMne samatA se pUchA- dasaroM ko taaro| svayaM ko tAranA sArthaka jIvana kI varNamAlA ke "cIna tumheM mAratA hai kyA?" vaha bolI- "kabhI-kabhI mAra detA pahale akSara haiN| dasaroM kA tAranA to usakI aMtima paMkti hai| para hai|'' maiMne pUchA- "kyoM?'' usane jo javAba diyA vaha mere liye viDambanA aisI ki hama antima paMkti se hI apanI varNamAlA zaru baccoM ke nirmala-nirvikAra anta:karaNa kA sAkSAt darzana thaa| usane karate haiN| yaha kSaNa isa krama ko badalane kA hai| upadezoM kI jagaha kahA- "koI-koI samaya mujhase bhUla ho jAtI hai|" maiM acAnaka AcaraNa ko makharita karane kA hai: kacha vivekazIla vyaktiyoM ke jaise gaharI nIMda se jAgA - kahA~ osakaNoM kI pavitratA liye ye / ciMtana kI gaharAI meM utarane kA hai| bacce jinheM hama abodha kahate haiM aura kahA~ ahaM aura Agraha meM to Age bar3heM aba! AkaMTha DUbe hama! baccoM ke isa anta:svarUpa para jaba dRSTi par3I to merA mana kucha ulajha-ulajha gyaa| unheM kucha kahane se pUrva hI mere mere dAdAjI zrI pUnamacaMdajI rAmapuriyA - himmata ke dhanI, vicAroM ne karavaTa badala lii| puruSArtha ke pratIka, pratyutpannamati aura duurdrshii| usa samaya kI bAta prakRti ke varadAna ananta haiM, utane hI unake rUpa bhii| para baccoM jaba rAjasthAna ke bahuta se gharoM meM gAya-bhaiMsa hotI thiiN| hamAre ghara meM se bar3hakara vaha bhI aura kauna-sA upahAra hameM de| pakSiyoM kA kalarava bhI thiiN| adhikAMza parivAra kalakattA meM rahatA thaa| mahIne-do-mahIne jinakI bhASA hai aura pariyoM kA deza jinakA svapnaloka, jo hamAre bAda ghara kA ghI kalakattA bhejA jAtA thaa| kucha ghI ikaTThA huaa| mana meM indradhanuSa ke raMga bikherate haiM aura A~gana meM phUloM kI muskAna, dAdAjI ThAkura rAmasiMhajI ko ise paika karane kA kaha kara saMtoM kA jinakI hara zvAsa malayaja kA jhoMkA hai aura hara kilakArI nirjhara vyAkhyAna sunane cale gye| rAmasiMhajI DAlaDA ghI kA eka khAlI zikSA-eka yazasvI dazaka vidvata khaNDa/63

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DibbA kharIda lAe aura usameM ghara vAlA ghI bhara kara use sIla kara caina milatA na unheM khilAye binaa| yaha krama unakI mRtyu ke kucha diyaa| dAdAjI ghara lautte| DAlaDA kA Tina sAmane hI par3A thaa| cehare dina pUrva taka rhaa| para krodha ke bhAva ubhare - "DAlaDA kauna lAyA ghara meM?" eka dina mA~ ke hAtha se merI thAlI meM cAvala kucha jyAdA gira rAmasiMhajI bole - "DAlaDA nahIM hai| usake khAlI Tina meM gye| maiMne kahA - "mA~, Apane cAvala Aja jyAdA parosa diye| ve kalakattA bhejane ke liye maine ghara vAlA ghI paika kiyA hai|" Adeza jAnatI thI ki jUThA chor3anA mujhe apriya hai aura, icchA se yA anicchA milA - "ghI ko nikAla kara dUsare Dibbe meM paika kariye aura se, maiM pUre cAvala khA luuNgaa| kucha bolI nhiiN| jaba unheM lagA ki jitane DAlaDA ke Tina ko bAhara pheMka diijie| Age se vanaspati ghI kA cAvala mujhe khAne cAhiye utane maiM khA cukA hU~ to pAsa rakhI gilAsa khAlI Tina bhI kabhI ghara meM na laayeN|'' bAhara girAyA gayA vaha hAtha meM lI aura bace hue cAvaloM para pAnI ur3ela diyaa| tiraskRta Tina apane anAdara se kitanA kSubdha huA, maine nahIM dekhA, atibhojana hAnikAraka hotA hai - pA~cavIM yA chaThI kakSA ke para dAdAjI kA galata cIjoM ke prati kiMcita bhI mamatva na rakhane kA pAThyakrama meM zAmila svAsthya-vijJAna kI pustaka meM yaha bAta par3hI saMkalpa - mere antara meM usa dina jaise eka dIpa jlaa| maine thI, gunA use mA~ ne| zikSA aura jJAna do nitAnta bhinna sthitiyA~ haiM - deha aura videha kI taraha - pahalI bAra mujhe yaha bhAna huaa| mere agraja zrI tArAcandajI 12-13 varSa ke rahe hoMge aura maiM samajhA-bujhAkara athavA DA~Ta-DapaTakara thAlI meM AyA bhojana nigalavA 10-11 varSa kaa| cAra Ane meM eka philmI gAnoM kI pustaka / dene kI paramparA sadiyoM purAnI hai| anya kaI aniSTakArI rur3hiyoM aura kharIda laaye| pitAjI (zrIcandajI rAmapuriyA) kI dRSTi usa para pdd'ii| rIti-rivAjoM kI taraha usameM chipe anartha ko bhI mA~ ne dekhA aura pustaka hAtha meM lI aura bole - "maiM tumheM acchI-acchI kahAniyoM vivekapUrvaka svayaM ko usa pravAha se mukta rkhaa| thAlI meM par3e ve kI pustakeM lA duuNgaa| sinemA kI pustakeM mata paDhA kro|" mu~ha se tiraskRta cAvala apane anAdara se kitane kSubdha hue, maine nahIM dekhA, basa itanA hii| phira hAtha gatizIla he| dUsare hI kSaNa hamane para galata paramparAoM ko poSaNa na dene kA mA~ kA saMkalpa - mere visphArita A~khoM se pustaka ke cAra TakaDe hote dekhe aura tIsare antara meM usa dina aura eka dIpa jlaa| kSaNa vaha khir3akI kI rAha se sar3aka para pahu~ca cukI thii| cAra Ane bhI usa samaya hama baccoM ke liye dhana thaa| udhara 'candralekhA' ke mere dAdAjI, mere pitAjI aura merI maaN| galata cIjoM ke prati gAnoM ko kaNThastha karane kI dhuna thii| dhana aura dhuna - donoM kI saath| mamatva na rakhane kA saMkalpa, galata pravRttiyoM ko prazraya na dene kA anAdara se kitanI kSubdha haI, maine nahIM dekhA, para galata pravRttiyoM ko prazraya na dene kA pitAjI kA saMkalpa - mere antara meM usa dina phira eka dIpa jlaa| isI taraha baccoM ke mana meM dIpa jalAte raheM, jalAte rheN| aura phira? phira dIpa se dIpa jalate raheMge, jalate rheNge| phira to dIpa se dIpa jalate rheNge| 31 mArca, 1969 - caitra zuklA trayodazI ke dina pUjyA mA~ kA dehAnta huaa| disambara san 1963 meM unheM hRdaya kA daurA par3A thaa| taba se unakA svAsthya sadA cintanIya sthiti meM hI rhaa| usase pUrva bhI unhoMne asthamA, gaThiyA Adi zArIrika vyAdhiyA~ bahuta jhelii| saMyukta parivAra ke kAraNa gRhakArya ne bhI unheM sadA vyasta rkhaa| phira bhI baccoM ke lAlana-pAlana aura unakI sukha-suvidhAoM ke prati ve sadA atyanta sajaga rhiiN| subaha kA nAztA aura donoM samaya kA khAnA ve hama saba bhAiyoM ko svayaM pAsa baiTha kara khilaatii| vyApAra-vyavasAya sambandhita kAmakAja ke apane Agraha hote haiN| ghara pahu~cane meM hameM dera-sabera bhI hotI magara ve hamArI pratIkSA karatI rhtiiN| na hameM unake hAtha se khAye binA vidvata khaNDa/64 zikSA-eka yazasvI dazaka