________________ Discourses on Shrimad Rajchandra by Gandhiji 181 till his sad demise. With every passing day, my relationship with him grew stronger. It resulted in my deep adoration for him. He created such an impression on me that I once thought of making him my spiritual guide, my Guru. But Guru status cannot be designated merely by possessing a desire to have one! A True Guru can be had only when one performs true austerities for it, along with a very keen desire to acquire one. When we first met, my spiritual status was that of an inquisitive person and no more. I had several doubts about religion at that time. Today the position has changed so that it cannot be said that I have any doubts. At that time, my knowledge about religion and in particular about Hinduism, Gita etc was limited (although I had read Gita's English translation while in England). I will avoid talking about what I had obtained from my parents. It is not that I had learnt much through my own efforts. All the same, I was very eager to learn more. I, therefore, enjoyed the company of Raichandbhai and his words influenced me greatly. It is true that I was also influenced by Leo Tolstoy, but that influence was through his writings. In the case of Raichandbhai, the introduction with him was in flesh and blood and better still it was in the circumstances described above. That was the time when his Mokshamala was published. In addition, his disciples used to collect the letters he wrote to them to which I had free access. There was nothing in his life that I was not aware of and he did not keep anything secret from me. What can ordinary persons like us learn and imbibe from great souls like Raichandbhai? If ordinary persons like us want to study his life - how should we proceed to do so? Today I shall tell you briefly how this can be done.