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THE INDIAN ANTIQUARY
ATUARY, 1912
B. Destroy Egoism. 1. My life is bearing the burden of a hungry stomach, and says, "How is it to-day? How will it be to-morrow?" It feels no disgust that it has come through so many births already, nor has it planned how to obtain liberation hereafter. Alas, this egoism never allows me to meditate upon God with constancy, and has killed me, O Kudalasangama Deva.
2. When I try to meditate upon one thing, egoism makes me meditate upon another. If I turn this way, it turns me that way. It makes me weep, and torments me. It makes me weary, and torments me. If I say, I will join with Kudalasaigama Deva, it confounds my way, this my egoism.
3. Alas! you all go riding an elephant. Alas! you go anointing yourselves with saffron and musk. Alas! you go riding a horse. But alas ! you do not understand the place of truth. Alas! you turn aside from sowing and reaping the fruits of virtue. Alas ! you are entangled in the three states, and go riding an elephant in rut called pride, and so spoil yourselves. Alas, through not knowing our Kudalasangama Deva, you become subjeot to hell.
4. When egoism has occupied your mind, where will the Linga be? Hence you should not give room to egoism, but should be Liiga-bodied. If you be without egoism, Kudalasangama Devs will remain within you
0. Seek the Protection of God. 1. The sea swells up at the rise of the full moon; but it ebbs when the moon wanes. When Rahu tries to swallow the moon, does the sea shout and rush up ? Or, when the sage was drinking up the sea, did the moon stop him? There is no helper for any one ; there is no friend for the distressed. Only Thou, O God, art the friend of the world, O Kudalasangama Deva.
2. When the fire is burning on the hearth, there is standing-room left; but if the whole earth catches fire, one can find no standing-room. If the dam drinks up the water in the tank; if the hedge eats up the crops in the garden; if the woman steals in her own house; if the mother poisons the milk and kills the child; alas, to whom shall I complain, O Kudalasangana Deva ?
3. Alas, it has happened to me as to a frog that seeks protection from a serpent. Alas! alas ! this life is false, and is passing fruitlessly away. O Creator, Kudalasangams Devs, free me from this state, and protect me, O Lord.
4. What is comparable with devotion towards God? O, how shall I obtain godly behaviour? I am tied down with the bonds of lust, anger, greed, passion, pride and jealousy. I am boiling in thirst, hunger and passions. The five senses and the seven fluids have made me a frying pan, and are tormenting me. Hear my cry, O Kudalasangama Deva.
6. Take from me and cast away my covetousness, lust, fierceness, falseness, sensuality. cunning, dissimulation, anger, meanness and lying; for they hinder me from approaching Thee, O Kadalasangama Deva.
6. Destructive weeds have grown in uncultivated soil. They do not allow me to understand, nor do they allow me to awake. Root out these weeds of wickedness and protect me, O Father Linga. There I shall plough and cultivate, O Kadalasangama Deva.
7. Oh, do not spread before me the green leaves of temptation. What does the heart know of them! It is tempted to them as being green leaves. But, O Kudalassigama Deva, make me void of temptation ; feed me to the full with the food of faith; pour wate of good knowledge upon me; and thus care for me and protect me,