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I returned home. The pain of thirst was simply unbearable. Suddenly I was inspired from within to chant the Navakara Mantra.
It was around seven in the evening. I got all the doors closed so that there was no disturbance from outside. All members of the family were brought together. I sought pardon for all enmity, opposition and displeasures of others during my whole life. Then I declared friendship with all the Jivas in the world to state in the famous Mantra that "I seek the pardon of all the Jivas, may they all forgive me. I seek my friendship with all the Jivas; I nourish enmity towards none."
Then I prayed that, "Let all the Jivas in the world be happy, let them all be free from disease. Let all the Jivas be blessed. Let no Jiva commit sin or be unhappy. Let all the Jivas in the world be free from the effects of Karma."
I was engrossed myself in the meditation of the Navakara Mantra from the innermost depths of my consciousness. I had the fear that I might suffer from Durgati. I therefore lost myself in the Navakara Mantra in all attention and alertness. I desired nothing else now except Sadgati.
I chanted the Mantra some twentyfive times and prayed for my unflinching friendship with all the Jivas. I forget partially my pains because I was engrossed in all this. At eleven I had a severe vomitting. I became unconscious. Family members thought this was more or less the end and they began to weep and cry. But I then regained my consciousness and asked for water. I took plenty of water then. My only anxiety was that I should not swerve from my Sadgati. I continued with my chanting of the Navakara and my good wishes for all. My mother