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MOUNT ABU
After about 25 long years when along with Chi. Kinnari, our youngest talented daughter, this humble self happened to reach Mt. Abu and meet indescribable Deedi VIMALAJI, it was not only a joy for us, but also for her! She untowardly kept mum for a while. It seemed as if she was peeping into this lengthy span of 25 years in silence and then she overwhelmingly uttered
"Everywhere I have had listening to your nice, tranquil voice through your records and cassettes here in India and abroad-U.S., Europe and all over. It has been a great pleasure throughout." To this I replied in humility and gratitudes-"This is all due to the grace of Paramgurus, the masters! Nothing of mine is there in these creations: " GHDO O DOD Don DD, DDD OG OD 2010!" I am only the instrument."
"Instrument you have become, it's an important thing. Everyone wants to be a "CREATOR" and no one an "INSTRUMENT", a NIMITTA..." And saying so with her silent graceful, blessings full gestures, she again peeped into silence and seemed to be extremely pleased with all humble spiritual, musical, literary creations that took shape at these humble hands. Then she asked, "Quality wise you have brought out remarkable, notable creation. In number, how many they will be?"
"A few", my reply came.
"few means ?"
"More than a hundred cassettes-records already produced and about twenty five published and unpublished books "I hesitatingly replied. "Tremendous...! Extensively you have worked, widely you have travelled. A good deal of spread and publicity of spiritual and cultural values you have accomplished.... Now the people, the society should make provisions for your future voyage, for your well being..."She went on telling her friends and inmates gathered over there for silent meditation, a heap of words in praise and appreciation of this humble self in my presence and absence, which I don't like to express here.
Then the meditation commenced and all of us were absorbed in that extremely pleasant and joyous "Voyage Within". This VOYAGE WITHIN WITH VIAMLAJI, after a very very long interval of time, took me to my own internal abode of the Self. This was my daily practice, but in my solitude, isolated solitude only. Here, now, it was in the presence and communion of Deedi Vimalaji, which had its own importance, its own charm, Its own place. When the souls alike track together on the same path, the voyage catches its weight and speed. It reaches unto the destination directly in no time. I didn't know, how that one hour, that silent complete hour slipped without any hindrance in Joy of the Self. Our first meeting was over. The cool breeze of Nakki Lake brought myself and Chi. Kinnari at Shiv Kutir where the trees and plants were blooming in air amidst overlapping sunshine and sunrays. It was very pleasant and excellent indeed.
Vimala Deedi welcomed us in an ecstasy like excitement with her usual warmth full of unbound love. With Chi. Kinnari, who was meeting her for the first time only, she was extremely joyous since yesterday and was a little sad to know that Sumitra had not been able to accompany us due to several reason-work, travel hazards, expenses of long travel, etc. She was worried much for both of us-Sumitra and myself simultaneously, when on the other hand, like yesterday, she was so happy with our creations that she could not prevent herself from unhesitatingly expressing additionally at the very outset with her caring intimacy and love that -
"You should be aptly rewarded for your untiring lifelong mission. You have carried the valuable word of Srimadji and other great Jain Saints across the universe..."
She was continuing yesterday's theme of her appreciations. On one hand I was feeling uneasy and on the other hand relived to find that after all someone is there to value our little humble contributions!
Deedi continued further and expressed her anguish also at the careless society around us utterly neglecting our works. In her spontaneous overflow of words rising from the depth of her meditative silence, there was again the unexpected valuation of our humble works, limitless love and compassion for whole of our family and suggestive posers for the society.:
"You should be provided by the society with rest relaxation and time for your own realisation now. It is quiet apparent that you have worked throughout without caring your family's well being and for your own physical comforts, health and care. How far this could go on? I experience a great deal of AGONY when I see your plight and