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nurtured is in the way of my plans to run a railway line, I would take the track around it, but I would never uproot the plant! There has to be a principle (siddhant) in place. Once you have built something, you must never destroy it. Not just speaking about destroying, but the impression I have of you from the first time we meet, will always remain the same. It will not ever change; not even for a moment. Today, if I have decided that this gentleman is honest, and he takes money from my pocket, then even if someone came and told me that he had himself witnessed the man taking the money; I will still maintain that he is not a thief. That is because my understanding is different. I have seen what he has been like all along, so I would not make a mental note of his actions and dismiss his actions that are driven by circumstances. The whole world makes a mental note (nondha) about actions that are propelled by circumstances. The purva viradhak (those who have opposed and criticized in previous lifetimes) beings are prone to thoughts of viradhana (criticism and contempt); therefore, I do not regard them as being at fault. What I am saying is that it is not unusual to have such wayward thoughts, but You do not get caught up in it, and become that.
You will be able to go to moksha, if you have destroyed your every mistake. But without destroying your mistakes, you cannot go to moksha.
When you remain tranquil, under whatsoever circumstance, and your commitment to your goal does not change, then you can indeed say that you have attained religion. People “remain” good in order to appear good in the eyes of others or they remain good because adverse circumstances do not arise for them. Our goal is just Shuddhatma and moksha, and so nothing else affects us at all. Circumstances of the non-Self do not affect me (the Self). Presently your entire day is spent in a state of the non-Self, and you are looking for moksha?! You only need that single goal for moksha.