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THE LORD'S BIOGRAPHY SOME IMAGES AND SKETCHES
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for a moment Vardhman was fully conscious of this filial affection Hence he resolved, so long as my parents survive let me not renounce the family.
Vardhman was strongly inspired to renounce householdership He had the full competence to do so Continence was his forte He set store by it it is evident from his later efforts meant to popularize continence
The Inner Conflict for Liberation
There are people who slumber when apparently awake and others who are awake when apparently asleep Those with an inert consciousness are slumberous while outwardly awake The ones with a ceaseless stream of consciousness are wide awake even when they are asleep
Kumar Vardhaman had attained the category of those who are blessed with a perennially waking consciousness Even when he had been in the womb of his mother he possessed extra-sensory-perception His heart was suffused with the light of natural consciousness Luxury and riches were his for the asking but he had no inclination to seek either
Once Kumar Vardhaman was absorbed in meditation His transparent mind delved in the unfathomed depths of inner consciousness He transcended the gross horizons and trode upon the astral realms He recaptitulated the memories of his prenatal existence 1 He saw that the chain of incarnation is interminable Its footmarks are seen all along the ceaseless truck of past
Certain events of his past impinged themselves upon his consciousness. He experienced the innermost depths of contemplation - Vivid reflections of the past events rallied before him 'I was demigod of the category called Vasudevas named as Tripristha Once a dance and music performance was arranged in my hall of amusement I attended it alongwith my 1 'Awashyakniryuktı', Theme 71