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CHAPTER II, II.
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Without killing (my) preceptors—(men) of great glory—it is better to live even on alms in this world. But if killing them, though they are avaricious of worldly goods, I should only enjoy bloodtainted enjoyments. Nor do we know which of the two is better for us, whether that we should vanquish them, or that they should vanquish us. Even those, whom having killed, we do not wish to live-even those sons of Dhritarashtra stand (arrayed) against us. With a heart contaminated by the taint of helplessness', with a mind confounded about my duty, I ask you. Tell me what is assuredly good for me. I am your disciple; instruct me, who have thrown myself on your (indulgence). For I do not perceive what is to dispel that grief which will dry up my organs after I shall have obtained a prosperous kingdom on earth without a foe, or even the sovereignty of the gods :.
Sañgaya said: Having spoken thus to Hrishikesa, O terror of (your) foes! Gudakesa said to Govinda, 'I shall not engage in battle ;' and verily remained silent. To him thus desponding between the two armies, O descendant of Bharata! Hrishikesa spoke these words with a slight smile.
The Deity said: You have grieved for those who deserve no grief, "The commentators say that 'heart' here signifies the dispositions which are stated in chapter XVIII infra, p. 126. The feeling of 'belplessness' is incompatible with what is there stated as the proper disposition for a Kshatriya.
. I.e. by the beat of vexation; the meaning is, which will cause constant vexation of spirit.' .l.c. of the means employed are the sinful acus referred to.
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