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As such, all the monks proceeded towards that place. On the way Lallujiswami had fever, hence the articles of his use were taken over by Mohanlälji. Still Lallujiswämi had a bag on his hand and Mohanlälji wished that the same should be carried by Narasirakh. Since that was not done, Mohanlalji talked about it to Devkaranji after reaching Ahmedabad. Thereupon Devkaranji rebuked Narasirakh. Another monk, however, took the side of Narasirakh and Devkaranji's instructions remained ignored.
No one had told Shrimad about the matter; yet when all the monks went to Agakhän place to see Shrimad, he incidentally said, 'Monks, this soul has borne the load of spouses, children etc. but has not undertaken devotion of saints or religious persons without indolence.' So saying he asked Laxmichandji to carry the 'Jnänärnav' volume during the itinerary till Devkaranji finished its reading. Then he asked Devkaranji to read that book and offered it in alms to him. Similarly he offered "Kartikeyanuprekshä' to Lallujiswami and asked him to read it thoroughly. Simultaneously he asked Mohanlälji to carry the same.
Shrimad said to Lallujiswämi, “The author of Kärtikeyanuprekshä was celibate. His level of detachment truly corresponded to what he has narrated in the book. Contemplate over it at length at the place of retreat." Then he said to Devkaranji, "You should also read that book. After finishing the books given to both of you, please exchange and ponder over them."
Devkaranji: How has your body become so frail?
Shrimad: We have been against the body.
On the eve of going to Surendranagar, Shrimad went to Bhävsär place, where the monks were staying for the time being. Informing them about his plan to go to Surendranagar, he said to Lallujiswami with a tone of reproach, "You have been after us, you pursue us wherever we go, you do not leave us alone." Thereupon Lallujiswami thought that henceforth he would go to Shrimad when called for; so long as he does not call for, he would continue to stay in devotion.
The next day Shrimad called for Lallujiswämi and Devkaranji at Ägäkhän place and said, "Now we have no inclination but for detachment; do not conceive of any distinction between us and the detached Lords." Lallujiswämi and Devkaranji had that type of faith in Shrimad. They were highly delighted to hear it from his mouth. They were extremely happy to note that Shrimad had emptied his heart to them before leaving.
Shrimad left Ahmedabad for Surendranagar. After staying there for some time he went to Rajkot. There he left his body on Tuesday, April 9 1901. The news of his passing away was conveyed to Lallujiswämi through Zaverchand Bhagvändäs of Kävithä. The previous day Lallujiswämi had fasted and had spent the night in woods. When he came back in the morning for terminating the fast, Zaverchand and his brother were talking about giving the news to Lallujiswämi after termination of the fast. Thereupon he inquired about it and he was informed about Shrimad's passing away. On hearing that Lallujiswämi went back to woods and spent the whole day alone in devotion, Käusagga etc. without even taking water. He thus spent the day with pangs of separation in woods within the hot weather of April. Thereafter he went to Vaso.
Now the contact of Ambälälbhäi was the only source of consolation and encouragement. Lallujiswämi and other monks had stayed at Vaso during the monsoon of 1901. The following letter written by Ambälälbhäi that time inviting them to Khambhät is worth pondering over.
AUM
"Obeisance to the highly detached saints, who have renounced the worldly life.
"Let our devotional obeisance be at the feet of the detached monks. You have given up the sense of belonging for body by the grace of uniquely detached, enlightened souls. As such, you have been staying self-delighted and are imbibed with innate compassion towards the deserving people with a view to their spiritual uplift. It is my earnest desire to know that you are in peace.
"Your words have been imbibed with sense of detachment by virtue of having listened to the ambrosial words of the