Who Am I

SR No.: 007562
Original Sutra Author: N/A
Author: Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation
Publication Year: 2002
Total Pages: 53
Language: English
Classification: Book_English & Akram Vigyan
File Size: 11 KB

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Who Am I?
Who Am I?
EXPERIENCE, AWARENESS AND
CONVICTION Questioner: What is conviction (pratiti) of the Soul?
Dadashri: It is the conviction, 'I am Soul', that becomes ingrained in one's being. This conviction has initially taken hold through the medium of words. Eventually one will experience 'I am Soul'. Your former conviction that you are Chandulal is now broken, and the absolute conviction that you are Pure Soul has been established, along with the laksh (awareness) of Pure Soul.
Once you become Pure Soul, your liberation is guaranteed. There is absolutely no doubt about this! How much of the Pure Soul state do you experience? It is primarily from the conviction. If you are awakened in the night, you immediately become aware that you are Shuddhatma. This means that there is a hundred-percent conviction and that the awareness has also been established. Awareness (laksh) means jagruti (alertness, vigilance, and state of spiritual awakening). This jagruti will keep increasing until it becomes complete. Thirdly, you have the experience (anubhav). It is due to this experience of the Pure Soul, that you are attending Satsang (Sat= absolute truth. Sang = association) daily, you have tasted something and found sweetness in it.
From now on you will have experience, awareness and conviction of your Real Self. This is a natural occurrence. The duration of time may vary. Experience and awareness fluctuate, whereas the conviction of the Pure state is constant. When the conviction is constant, such a state is called kshayak samkit. The conviction that fluctuates is called samyak darshan or upsham samkit. Awareness tends to change, depending on what
one is doing. If one is talking to someone, one's awareness will not be there. As for experience, this occurs when one is alone. So through these three aspects: conviction, experience and awareness (pratiti, anubhav and laksh), all mental and bodily tendencies (vrutis) that have wandered outwardly, for endless lives, now revert to the Self. They change direction, ending all aimless wanderings.
Questioner: What kind of tendencies (vrutis)?
Dadashri: All kinds. These are of the chitta (the component of inner vision and previous knowledge in the mind), those related to acquiring materialistic things, those wanting to experience sensual pleasures. There are many different kinds of tendencies. Those tendencies that used to wander off in the market-places of the world now revert back and return to the Self; they cease wandering.
THE STATE OF THE SELF IS
ABSOLUTELY PURE
After this Gnan, your preexisting illusion of, I am the Doer is shattered. You are Absolutely Pure. To perpetuate the state of the pure awareness, the state has been called 'Shuddhatma' (Pure Self). It represents the awareness that is pure.
Whatever happens, even if 'Chandulal' becomes angry and abusive towards someone, 'You are absolutely pure. In such negative circumstances however, 'You' have to tell Chandulal to do pratikraman and alert him about committing aggression (atikraman) that results in unhappiness for the other person.
If you have said and done anything that has hurt others, it is an act of aggression. It is an atikraman and therefore