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Vidhi.
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On that special day of the Gnan Vidhi, I will sever the ropes of ignorance that have kept you bound for infinite lives. They need not be cut everyday. If that were the case, one would have to go and buy new blades each day. On the day that you decide, I will cut only one twist of the 'rope' and no more. You will then immediately realize that you are free. The experience of a sense of freedom is enough. You should experience the awareness that you have been freed. This liberation is not a joke. It is very real. I will give you just that!
What happens when you receive this Gnan? During the Gnan Vidhi, the fire of Knowledge (Gnan Agni) destroys two of the three forms of karma. The three forms of karma are analogous to steam, water and ice. During the Gnan Vidhi, the first two types of karma (steam and water) are destroyed, and one feels light and one's awareness is increased.
The only karma that remains are those in the form of ice. You have to suffer the effects of these karma (good or bad), because they have solidified and are at the point of their fruition. You cannot escape them. The karma in the form of steam and water will evaporate in the fire of Knowledge. This will make you feel light and your awareness will increase. Until one's karma are destroyed, one's awareness will not increase. Only the karma that have solidified, will have to be endured. To make these solidified karma easier to endure and to minimize the suffering that they may entail, I have shown you all the ways: Repeat Dada Bhagwan Na Aseem Jay Jaykar Ho; say the Trimantra and the Nav Kalamo etc. (See appendix)
Along with the destruction of these lighter karma during the Gnan Vidhi, many of the aavrans (layers of ignorance over the Soul) are broken down. At that time through Divine Grace,
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one becomes aware of the Self. Once awakened, the awareness never leaves. Pratiti (the conviction that 'I am the Pure Self') will always be there along with the awareness. Pratiti will only remain as long as there is awareness. First comes the experience of the awakening and then comes pratiti. Pratiti is the conviction that I am the Pure Self.' Anubhav (the experience), laksh (awareness) and pratiti (conviction) all three take hold. The pratiti is constant, whereas the laksh will waver and last for shorter periods. When we become distracted or engrossed in our work, we may lose that sense of awareness for that amount of time. But whenever we have a moment's respite from our work, it will return.
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Anubhav of the Self, is the experience that is felt when one is relieved from one's work and duties and when one sits in a meditative state. It will continue to grow because one will perceive what Chandulal is now, as opposed to what Chandulal was before. What makes this difference? It is the experience of the Atma. Before, one was in dehadhyas (conscious only of the actions and temperament of the physical body) whereas now, one is established as the Soul.
Questioner: What happens during experience of the
Soul?
Dadashri: The experience of the Self is the destruction of the experience that 'I am the body'. When the experience of 'I am this body' goes, new karma cease to bind you. What more could you want?
Questioner: I want you to show me this path of Gnan. That is all.
Dadashri: Yes, I will show you this path. Not only will I show you this path, but I will also give you your 'Atma' (Soul) in your hands.