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also aware that 'Chandulal' is being scolded and not You.
Normally, during satsangs I would invite 'Chandulal' to come and sit in the front. On some days, I would not even acknowledge his presence. What is My intention? I know that he will feel rejected for having to sit in the back. I would continue to give him praise at one time and deflate him at another. By doing this, he would progress further in Gnan. I employ different tactics with each person for their progress in this Gnan; it is different for each person. Getting rid of the prakruti's (the nonSelf complex) weaknesses is very important, because how long can you go on keeping something that does not even belong to You?
Questioner: You are right; there is no escape as long as the weaknesses of the prakruti exist.
Dadashri: As for 'us,' it was this Gnan and Nature that helped 'us' get rid of 'our' prakruti. Yours will not go until "we," as your nimit (the one instrumental in a process), do it for
you.
For You, a lot of the prakruti is gone, but because the mistake is still there you still have to do pratikraman at night. You will have to get rid of that mistake. You realize that afterwards, don't you?
Questioner: Yes, immediately.
Dadashri: You will realize it later. Your whole night will pass in doing pratikraman.
As Mistakes Decrease, Awareness Increases
Questioner: It seems that for the last year or two, I am doing a lot less pratikraman than before. (321) Dadashri: Before, you were not even aware of the
mistake.
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Pratikraman
Questioner: Yes.
Dadashri: You never did any pratikraman and believed that it was only the other person's fault.
Questioner: Then pratikraman continued for two or three years and for the past six months to a year and a half, they have become fewer. Do I still have to do pratikraman even when the sense of mistakes has gone down?
Dadashri: Yes, because mistakes are going to occur right until the end. This body verily is made up of mistakes.
Questioner: The level of mistakes is going down.
Dadashri: 'You' (the Self) have to 'see' and 'know'. Your awareness will increase as the mistakes decrease. You may end up doing pratikraman the whole night, but you do not blame the other person. You turn it around, which you never did before. You now have to see through Gnan that all his 'letters' (hurt) are coming to you, but now you know that he too can see his own mistakes. So he must be doing pratikraman. You have to understand that, 'This is fine with me, let the 'letters' come to me.' The one that writes letters is the prakruti, and the one that does pratikraman is the Self (awakened Self). Even now, he continues to write letters; that is all the prakruti, but he also does pratikraman. The pratikraman is the part of the Self. The Worst Form of Atikraman
Questioner: What is the extreme, the worst form of
atikraman?
Dadashri: Only Vasudevas and Prativasudevas (Salakha Purush-human beings with extraordinary super human energies and accomplishments) have the extreme limit of atikraman. No one else can do atikraman beyond that. And also no one can suffer through hell, the worst level, the seventh hell, like them. The ultimate atikraman is when one kills and