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whether that is pratikraman or atikraman, but there is one thing for sure, I do feel at peace after that.
Dadashri: When you do pratikraman, tremendous peace (shanti) arises. There is so much peace, it is the kind that you have never experienced before.
Questioner: But what should I do when pratikraman goes on for three days regarding only one individual?
Dadashri: It is more complicated and entangled. It is because of bigger 'books.' People with such large books never turn around, but the fact that some, like you, have - is a wonder, is it not?
Questioner: That is all I wanted to know... that I am not on the wrong path, am I?
Dadashri: No, You are not on the wrong path. You are on the 'safe side' path.
Questioner: Give us just that much more energy. Dadashri: Yes, 'we' keep giving you that energy, but it will increase when you come here.
I am convinced about that and that is why I have not paid any attention to him. I paid attention as long as there was no safe side for him (the questioner), but now he is on the safe side. He will get his work done in due time.
Frequency of Pratikraman Depends on the Size of the Kashay
Questioner: If I have enmity with someone and I do pratikraman for it, why then do I have to do pratikraman again?
Dadashri: Yes, you have to do pratikraman. The mistake was big and with pratikraman you removed one layer, but
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hundreds of thousands more layers still remain. So you have to keep doing pratikraman until all the layers are shed. With some people, all the layers are shed, by doing pratikraman for a month to two, whereas with some others it will take a whole lifetime if the karmic tuber is large. When you peel off one layer of an onion, it still looks like an onion, does it not?
Questioner: Yes.
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Dadashri: Similarly, this has such layers. When you do pratikraman, you shed that one layer for sure and you do not have to do any more pratikraman for that particular layer. Only one pratikraman per layer of mistake is necessary.
One Has to Become Free from His Own Bondage
He was not likely to survive that accident but he did. One can survive those worldly accidents, but you survived the tremendous accidents that occur on the path of kashays and you became liberated from the path of kashays.
Questioner: And if I were to walk that path of kashays, then accidents would be inevitable; that much I understand now.
Dadashri: You know that it is bound to occur.
Questioner: So I keep doing pratikraman, then I will have the solution. Whatever negativity I feel about all these people, they feel the same about me too, and thus they will trap me. So if I keep doing pratikraman, then what about the negativity they have towards me? Will they put me in karmic bondage again?
Dadashri: No, you have to become free from your bondage and they have to free themselves from their own bondage. Otherwise, one will remain bound forever. This is the law of Lord Mahavir. Otherwise, Lord Mahavir would never have been free, would he? Some bondage would have remained and He would not have been free. You have to become free from wherever you are bound.