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[13] Liberation from Artadhyan and Raudradhyan
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is not really at fault. Our kashays (anger-pride-deceit-greed) are the real culprits.
Your kashays are your own inner enemies. There are no other enemies on the outside. And those inner enemies are what are killing you; nothing on the outside is hurting you.
Repenting Changes the Dhyan If a person has committed severe raudradhyan, he can turn it into artadhyan by doing pratikraman. If two people are at fault of the same kind of raudradhyan, where they both have expressed a desire to kill someone, their inner state for violence is raudradhyan. If one of them goes home and sincerely repents for having such a destructive bhaav, his raudradhyan will become artadhyan, while the other will continue his raudradhyan.
If artadhyan takes place and you repent for it, the Lord has said that he will give you credit for that as dharmadhyan. Did the Lord (the Lord within) say anything wrong by this? Do you think that the Lord is wise or is he crazy?
Questioner: Where will we go by calling him crazy? The Lord is always wise. Pratikraman Converts Artadhyan to
Dharmadhyan Dadashri: Repent in the name of Dada. That will change it into dharmadhyan. Do at least what you know. Repent when raudradhyan (pain and hurt caused to others) occurs and also when artadhyan (pain to the self) occurs. It is not possible for one to do dharmadhyan in this era of the time cycle. Therefore, start a factory of converting artadhyan and raudradhyan into dharmadhyan. It is not possible for one to know how to do dharmadhyan directly, because even when he is doing darshan of the Lord, his dhyan is on his shoes that he left at the door. So the Lord himself says, 'When he is doing my darshan, he is also doing darshan of his shoes, so what can I do?
Through repentance, raudradhyan can be changed to artadhyan. With repentance, one is diverted from a birth in hell to a birth in the animal kingdom. With further intense repentance, one can turn raudradhyan into dharmadhyan. With initial repentance, raudradhyan turns into artadhyan and with repeated repentance it becomes dharmadhyan. Actions and events may not change, but changes are taking place from within.
The minute you turn your back on raudradhyan, by repenting, changes will occur. But if you take pleasure in it and insist, 'No, that man needs to be punished. I am correct in thinking that way,' then that will take you all the way to the lowest form of life (nigod). Coming back into the human form will be very difficult. So beware; to take pleasure in raudradhyan will make you regress back to the lowest life form.
Therefore, dharmadhyan is not possible in this time era. So what does Dada say? He says to repent for all the artadhyan that occurs, and doing that will give you the benefit of dharmadhyan. And without dharmadhyan, it is not possible to become free form this body complex (pudgal). This pudgal can never attain shukladhyan ("I am Shuddhatma-'; the state of the Self).
Therefore, there is nothing wrong if artadhyan occurs; it can be changed to dharmadhyan.
So never do raudradhyan and if it occurs, then repent for it. Also, never do artadhyan, and if it occurs then repent for it.
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You should ask, "Hey! Chandulal, why do you keep doing artadhyan? Now repent for the artadhyan you have done. Do pratikraman.' So it changes into dharmadhyan.