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Autobiography of Gnani Purursh
Dadashri: He did, but with reservation about his own safety. He used to be afraid of being beaten up outside of school.
Questioner: Dada, were you that rebellious?
Dadashri: Yes, I was rebellious and mischievous. The whole stock (brought forth from past life) was of obstinacy and rebellion
Questioner: And in the midst of all that, this Gnan manifest within you. That is a wonder.
Dadashri: Gnan happened. I did not have attachment (mamta) whatsoever. The problem was only of the ego. The Gnan happened because of no attachment. I did not have a trace of attachment or greed, but if someone were to stir my ego, then I would not spare him. Many people would talk behind my back calling me all kinds of names related to a heavy ego. They used so many adjectives to describe me. I was aware of everything going on behind my back, but I had no attachment and that was my foremost attribute, and very commendable at that! The ego without attachment was such that it projected aura and power. On the other hand it does not matter how calm and friendly a person maybe, if he has attachment, then he is sunk deep in the worldly life. The joy I experienced was because I did not have any attachment. It is attachment that is the cause of the worldly life, not the ego.
Now I know that I have become ego less. Now, no one needs to do anything to straighten me out.
Questioner: How did you straighten out, Dada?
Dadashri: People straightened me up by hitting me with all manners of insults, negativities. Some even trapped me in
Autobiography of Gnani Purursh situations from which I had no recourse but soften up. I learnt a lot from these interactions.
Questioner: Did everything start clearing up for you from your past lives?
Dadashri: It was because I had begun to straighten out in several past lives that I was able to completely do so in this life. Interest in God, Not in Learning A Foreign Language
I told my English teacher, who was a friend of my elder brother Manibhai, you can say whatever you like but I am trapped in your class. I have been studying for fifteen years and still have not been able to pass matriculation. I would have discovered God in these many years. I have unnecessarily wasted my time in learning the English alphabets. Does one have to spend fifteen years learning someone else's language to graduate from high school? What kind of madness is that?' Half of a person's life is wasted in learning a foreign language.
Thus Discovered God
One has been learning the same thing over and over again for infinite life cycles and then he or she forgets; a veil of ignorance covers it all. Ignorance (worldly life) does not have to be studied; it comes naturally. Spiritual knowledge has to be acquired. I realized this at the age of thirteen because I had a very thin veil of ignorance over me even then. My math teacher told me to find the smallest indivisible number, which was present in all other given numbers (lowest common denominator) i.e. find the smallest indivisible number which could divide all the other given numbers. When I was young, I used to talk about people as 'numbers' and therefore this suited me. From this