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As long as one is a doer (of aavega), there is no telling when it will give rise to emotional agitation (udvega). Yes, once doer-ship leaves, emotional agitation (udvega) will leave for sure. Udvega will not occur once the belief of doer-ship is destroyed. Nevertheless, udvega is still a result of karmic account. When the sense of doer-ship is broken, the effect of emotional agitation (udvega) will not manifest as udvega. It will express in some other form as a minor entanglement or suffocation.
One man tells me, 'Dada, I feel as if my head is going to explode. That verily is emotional agitation (udvega). What can one do? But you silly man, does the head ever explode? The skull is not likely to crack even with a hammer but just look at the difficulties of an udvega. It can be such that it will break open your blood vessels in the head. Emotional agitation (udvega) takes place even when one does not want it because udvega is bound to occur as long as one is a doer of aavega. After attaining our Gnan, doer-ship ceases and therefore udvega will not occur.
Questioner: But is udvega not the result of karma caused in the past life?
Dadashri: Yes, one will have to suffer the results of all past earnings! Does he not 'enjoy' the fruits of that udvega?
Questioner: Is there a relationship between anger and emotional agitation (udvega)?
Dadashri: Yes, udvega occurs only when there is anger. Aavega too occurs only in the presence of anger. Therefore, as long as one is a 'doer', there will be krodha, maan, maya and lobh (anger, pride, deceit and greed) and people continue doing what they do. As long as everything remains within normal limits, it is called aavega and when it goes out beyond one's control it is called udvega.
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Questioner: If one chants mantras with awareness when udvega arrives, will it make a difference?
Dadashri: There is no awareness during udvega. There will be some degree of awareness if it is a minor udvega, then that udvega could be stopped with chanting mantras but the awareness will not remain during a major udvega.
Did you understand the three words exactly, in their appropriate place?
Questioner: I would not understand these three words even if I read a book on them by some Ph.D. but I have understood them only because you explained them.
Dadashri: The correct meaning of words can only be arrived at if those words stand out and become effective in their right place, but not otherwise. They should fit appropriately in their place. What happens when you use the word vega in place of udvega? It would not be a suitable word in other places. People use words loosely; they do not care whether they fit or not.
Cunning people are suitable in their own places, pickpockets are suitable in their place and diamond merchants are suitable in their place. If a diamond merchant came together with a pickpocket, would that be suitable? He will be robbed from all directions; therefore, each has its own suitable place.
Our people reject and scorn the word randapo (widowhood; losing a spouse). This word randapo is appropriate in its place. Mandapo (marriage) and randapo (widowhood) are both exact.
Udvega so many difficulties
Questioner: Udvega can also occur because of separation due to difference of opinions, can it not?
Dadashri: Yes, udvega can also occur because of