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I became straight and wise after taking beatings from people for so many lives. Just behold, when I became straight forward, then this Gnan expressed within, did it not? I too was not straight. The world will straighten you out. Those who are not straight will one day have to become straight. However, people remain obstinate even in their old age. This progeny of obstinacy is nothing ordinary. It makes one become obstinate in one's own home!
When a child dies, the grandfather will wail and cry out loudly, "My only grandchild is gone." He cries as if he is never going to die himself. Is he never going to die? Even if he has become a grandfather?! Yet he cries over his son's son! You fool, why don't you straighten up now that you are close to leaving this world? Is departure not imminent for the one who becomes a grandfather? The signal to exit this world has fallen from the day he became a grandfather. And yet he talks as if his train is never going to leave! The signal has fallen so wake up and be aware.
Questioner: The signal for the train's departure has
come.
Dadashri: Yes the signal has fallen, the train is ready to leave and so you need to straighten up.
If you admit to be being obstinate, you will defeat the obstinacy
What is obstinacy (aadayee)? Many a times you tell people, 'Hey! Why are you being obstinate?' Or sometimes people tell you, 'Why are you being obstinate?' Do you or do you not recognize obstinacy?
Questioner: Obstinacy is recognizable.
Dadashri: How long have you known it?
Questioner: From the time I understood it. Dadashri: So have you got rid of your stock of obstinacy
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or have you kept it? Have you kept it? You are saying 'yes'. If you say 'no' would obstinacy not leave?
Questioner: It will leave when we say 'yes'.
Dadashri: Is that so? Would it not leave if you say 'no"? Questioner: No, it will become stronger if one says 'no'. Dadashri: Do people not say 'no"? They say, 'I do not have any obstinacy in me."
Obstinacy: Common and Uncommon
Who does not have the experience of obstinacy? The greater the buddhi (intellect), the greater is one's obstinacy. Those who have wisdom (samaj - right understanding) are less obstinate. Those with heavy veils over spirituality are very obstinate. They will not let go of their obstinacy. Now what do you call such obstinacy? What is the difference between their obstinacy and that of an average person? What is the difference between common and uncommon obstinacy? Uncommon obstinacy is unshakeable (gaaddha) obstinacy. Such obstinacy cannot be rid of, just like this state of gaaddha samkit (gaaddha - unshakeable. Samkit - right belief and right vision of I am pure Soul), which can never leave; neither can the state of gaaddha mithyatva i.e. unshakable deeply entrenched wrong belief of 'I am Chandulal' ever leave. No matter how much you make a person understand, he will not let go of his position. Such is the uncommon obstinacy; it will not leave its position.
Obstinacy in men and women
Do you have a little bit of obstinacy (aadayee) in you? A little at least?! Then why not ask him to help you get rid of it? A few hurtful jabs from him will make the obstinacy in you go away.
Questioner: Does obstinacy leave only through hurtful
jabs?