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completion is 7/8, and that will happen. You have become siddha (free), have you not? You have received the approval stamp, have you not? Then why have fear? If someone comes from above and says, "Sir, come on to liberation (moksha),' I will tell him, 'What is the big hurry?' If he says, 'We feel for you; we love you,' I would tell him, "Do not have feelings for me, I am not someone you need to have feelings for; I have my moksha with me! What else can be there after the state of happiness, the unaffected state of nirakudata? Otherwise, worries and anxiety will make you run around again and again. Egoism will make you roam around life after life.
Echoes of the Ego in the Worldly Life
Ego makes one blind. The greater one's ego, the blinder one becomes.
Questioner: Is ego not needed to do work?
Dadashri: No, that lifeless ego (nirjiv ahamkar) is different. That is not called ego at all. People will not even refer to such a person as being egotistic.
Questioner: Then which ego is harmful?
Dadashri: You all know me as a Gnani Purush, but do people outside in the worldly life know that I am a Gnani? Yet people will not see anything in me that will lead them to call me egotistic (ahamkari), whereas they might say that about you. It is the ego that has ruined everything.
Questioner: But does the worldly life not run on this ego?
Dadashri: The worldly life does not run on the ego. The ego should not go beyond its boundary; otherwise, it will be harmful.
Questioner: The echoes of our old ego have fallen on
others; this is why they see us as being egotistic.
Dadashri: You will have to wait until the echoes/effects from your old ego go away.
There was a boy from a much respected family who had a habit of stealing. He stopped stealing and came to me and told me, 'Dada, people still call me a thief.' I told him, "You had been stealing for the last ten years and people did not know of that. They considered you an honest man. Now that you are not a thief, even if you are honest, your past ten years of stealing will keep resonating. So tolerate it for ten years, but do not start stealing again because you may feel in your mind, "They call me a thief anyway, so I might as well steal!' Do not do that.
Hollowness, lack of substance and deceit will not go away. For me, too, the echoes prior to my enlightenment still resonate in my relatives.
Questioner: How can those echoes go away quickly?
Dadashri: They are leaving gradually. When a train leaves from here, what do people say? The train has gone to Bombay.
Questioner: One is a slow local train; one is the fast Rajdhani Express. We want the Rajdhani Express, the fast train.
Dadashri: That is the restless nature. If you do not let the rice cook all the way, everyone will have to eat uncooked rice. So when you have such food cooking, you have to be patient. The Results (Effects) are Not Under Your
Control
Questioner: The one who is doing something wrong knows what he is doing, yet why does he do wrong?
Dadashri: When something wrong happens, it is a result, an effect, of a charged karma of past life. If we throw a ball and then tell the ball to remain exactly where we threw it, is it possible?