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is destroyed is the wrong belief of one's identity; the false imposition of 'I am' where one is not, is removed and this 'T' is placed where the "Real l' is. Thereafter the ego that remains in the inner psyche will conduct one's remaining worldly activities. This discharge ego does not have to be curbed but it is to be rendered insipid.
Squeeze The Juice Out Of The Ego
You have acquired the main thing, the Self. Now you have to get rid of the juice (tasteful interest) out of the ego. If someone insults you, the ego arises; it becomes jarred at the slightest provocation. You get upset and even sulk. Why should you sulk? Now there is nothing left for you to get upset about. All you have to do is to take away the old juice from the ego.
Nobody likes insults but I am telling you that it is very helpful. Respect and insult are the sweet and bitter juices of the ego respectively. Those who insult you come to squeeze the bitter juice out of your ego. When someone tells you 'you have no sense', he extracts the bitter juice out of your ego and breaks it proportionately, without any effort of your part. The ego is full of juices. Before when you did not have the awareness (of Gnan) and someone squeezed the juice (insulted you), it caused you tremendous agony. Now with this understanding (Gnan), let the ego be squeezed knowingly and naturally. What is better than someone else doing this for you naturally? People can be extremely helpful in this matter.
In any way that you can, extract the juices of the ego in order to attain final liberation. The ego has a function after Gnan. It carries on your mundane worldly activities. The only thing that needs to be done is to render the ego juiceless. Others will do this cleansing of your ego for you. This is good for you. Otherwise you would have to do it yourself. The Gnanis are void of any intellect (abudha) and have so much power that
they can squeeze the "juices' out of the ego but you do not have such power. Therefore you should be happy if someone does it for you when they insult you. On the contrary they spare you the effort. For you there is only gain in it. You merely have to assess where your profit lies. For you there is tremendous profit in it.
It is the intrinsic nature of the ego to accomplish all your tasks for you in a make believe (dramatic - i.e. not real) unattached manner, provided the bittersweet juices of your ego are gone. The ego is not to be destroyed but rendered insipid and tasteless, void of the bittersweet juices.
For the worldly interactions however, you may even have to give compliments for a tasty meal.
Drink Poison With A Smile A person feels bitter if you hurt his or her ego. You know the consequence of hurting others and as far as possible; it is best that you hurt no one.
'The noble soul drinks poison with a smile, Detached and desireless, he needs no fame or recognition.'
I am nilkantha (refers to the blue throated Lord Shiva who could swallow all the poisons of the world). From a very young age I swallowed the poison (problems) people gave me with a smile and not only that but I also bestowed blessings upon them and that is why I am a nilkantha.
You too will have to drink the poison. It is your account (from the past life) and therefore the poison will come to you no matter what. So whether you like it or not, you will have to drink it with a smile or with a frown. People will force you to drink it, whether you like it or not. So why not drink it with a smile and bless those who make you drink? How else will you become a nilkantha? Those who offer you poison come to do so to bestow