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but God, a higher power, was in control. Now as his awareness increases even further, he will come to realize that everything around him is an illusion, a wrong belief and that God is not in control of anything. As his awareness increases, he realizes that circumstances alone are in control and that is when he experiences bliss of freedom from circumstances. In this way a change is taking place only in his awareness. If the experimenter becomes one with the experiment, if he becomes the experiment, it is a grave state of ignorance. But when he gains the awareness that he is separate from the circumstances around him, then he becomes free. Only then he will taste freedom.
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Innumerable circumstances are constantly arising - if you become absorbed in them, you will sow new seeds. How can you solve this problem? If you can remain just a Seer and Knower of circumstances, then no new seeds will be sown. There are infinite circumstances but as long as they do not result in any new sowing, there will be liberation.
Every human being is bound by circumstances. My Mahatmas are surrounded by circumstances, but they remain only the Knower and the Seer of these circumstances. Your energies become obscured if you become trapped and bound by circumstances. For a Gnani, circumstances come and go but He does not stop to greet them. All I do is observe them from afar and the circumstances disperse. Because the Self is selfilluminating, as well as non-Self illuminating, every circumstance will be illuminated through it. For this illumination, one has to acquire enlightened vision.
There is no chetan (consciousness) in circumstances. Our (the Self's) real nature is beyond circumstances. Positive or negative feelings towards anyone, is a circumstance and that circumstance is not Yours - it does not belong to the Self. No circumstance remains forever. That, which is transitory, that which
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comes and goes, is not your real nature. How can you believe it to be yours? Circumstances come and go, just like the neighbors. Those who lack the right understanding believe that any positive or benevolent thoughts they have is the Self within, but that is not the Self. Regardless of the kind of thoughts and feelings you have, they are not mine' (they are of the non-Self), is all you need to know. There should not be a feeling of ownership of any circumstance, whether it is a good thought or an evil one. I am telling the whole world everything and clearly as it really is :
*All tangible circumstances, subtle circumstances, and circumstances of speech are of the non-Self and are subject to the influences of the non-Self".
There are only two things: The Self and circumstances. Presence or absence of action too are dependent upon circumstances, they are under the control of the non-Self, not the Self. If anyone had control over circumstances, he would not let negative circumstances come his way and not let good ones leave and consequently no one would attain liberation.
Gnan is to know that all that is temporary, which comes and goes through the association and dissociation of circumstances, is 'not mine'. When all the phases of Knowledge are purified, it is infinite knowledge (anant gnan). Subtle circumstances can only be seen when certain phases of Knowledge become pure and when all the phases of Knoweldge become pure, that is the Knower of infinity, the Absolute, the Omniscient.
A person may not have the knowledge that circumstances are the only doers in any event, but if through his ego he believes so, he will bind tremendous punya (merit karma). He would become a great celestial being. But what do people do instead? If something they set out to do turns out wrong, they claim that