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Was it the desire to impress the father - to gain his attention, his love, his respect, his admiration? Or was it the mother, the elder brother, the friend, or the old enemy? Was it the fear of poverty, destruction, of loneliness, of losing something? Was it the hope of meeting girls, boys, others, because we had little opportunity for that before? Was it the enthusiasm to achieve a certain goal - and who or what had caused that enthusiasm? Or did we only want to show others how brave we could be? -
Were we really aware of all this when we made these important decisions? Were we really clear about everything that went on beneath the polished surface?
No, let's not fool ourselves, - it's not us who select what reality to live in, it's the selection process that controls us. We are ruled by some unknown mechanism that makes thoughts, meanings, emotions and impulses for actions appear in our awareness. And we can only follow. We have no alternative, no concept how life could be without this automatic mechanism, can not observe this process from any outside point of view. - We have no idea what sometimes presents us the ever same painful events that keep tearing up our insides.
None of the modern material concepts of the world gives us a key to this mechanism. Our personal reality - that what we vividly experience within ourselves and in our environment - is influenced by more than mere laws of matter.
So - if we want to free ourselves from uncomfortable conditions and random events, if we want to steer our life on our own, then it is worth the effort to find out what really. WORKS in our life, - to find out what controls our selection process and how to take full charge of our fate.