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Questioner: In the Aptasutra (Dadashri's major volume of 4237 aphorisms) there is one which is, "Before attaining Gnan, 'we' had crossed the entire ocean of obstinacy. Meaning, this Gnan only manifested after each and every obstinacy was broken."
Dadashri: Yes, there was a lot of obstinacy. People could not see it but 'we could tell that there was obstinacy within. On the contrary, people saw me as being straight. There were small obstinacies, subtle obstinacies, egoistic ones. They were not of the body; not the kind that upset and noncommunicative risavoo. They were obstinacies of the ego. I could tell that the inner adjustment has taken a wrong turn with reference to the interaction with a certain person even though the other person would not be aware of it.
Questioner: Does that count as obstinacy?
Dadashri: Then what else? If the other person's talk is right and we do not accept it within, is that not madness of the ego?
Questioner: So is obstinacy not a distortion of the ego?
Dadashri: It is definitely the ego. The intellect intellect has nothing to do with it.
Questioner: But is it not a distorted ego?
Dadashri: Distorted indeed. What kind of a distortion? People will say behind your back, 'Just leave him alone, he is a little 'crack-mad' Don't even mention his name.' Hey you! How can there be a crack in the head if the engine is running?
In those situations you should be alert.
Questioner: There are many who pounce on us the moment we gently suggest, 'Sir, it is like this..."
Dadashri: Yes, there are some who will react that way but you should be careful before you say anything, otherwise anything is likely to happen. A fight will ensue because they do not understand what you are trying to say