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One will not be able to find his own mistakes as long as one is partial to his own self. Partiality for own self is the illusion and perpetuates it. When the force of karma unfolds one becomes absorbed in it, the awareness jagruti is blocked and the application upayog of the knowledge is missed. There, the awareness will be regained if one remains in the satsang of the Gnani Purush.
Awareness jagruti is a different matter and Gnan- experiential knowledge as the Self, is a different matter. To wake up from sleep is called awareness. In awareness, the kashayas are dormant but when kashayas are annihilated, it is called Gnan, anubhav. As the awareness goes up and up, pending karmas do not remain and there occurs complete purity inside.
As long as there is deceit within pride, awareness will be impaired. Deceit covers up and it always takes one on the wrong path. Deceit and ego that supports anger, pride-illusion-greed will take you on the wrong path.
When no deceit of any form is there, no thought of passion-sex is there at all and when kashayas have been eradicated; then awareness that arises will result in 'knowledge Gnan anubhav.
Whene one moves away from the shelter of the Gnani Purush , the kashayas will invade with all their family members. These kashayas will try any means to make one leave the shelter of the Gnani Purush. If a slightest sweetness is tasted, the kashayas get their food. If the kashays are not given any food at all, they will come to extinction. But if they are fed , they become strong!
The status of Gnani is achieved when there comes that level of awareness that not a single kashaya ever gets any feeding. Kashayas can be won over only if one is subservient adhin to the Gnani and remains under His shelter. Do not leave His shelter.
Unless the Gnani Purush certifies You, don't even attempt to preach. All the faults within you are ready and waiting to attack at a moments notice. When all the kashayas are eradicated, that stage will arrive by itself!
Awareness is the state where the thief of a kashaya is not allowed to enter. In such awareness, one can see all the faults and can also see the