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Questioner: Absolutely not! I feel bad after speaking such words. And does it not mean that asanyam expression of kashay, internal or external ; has happened, when such words come out? There is no benefit in that is there?
Dadashri: The first saiyam within is, 'No. This should not be so. Why does this happen?' That is the first saiyam. However, this saiyam must commence. This verily is the true saiyam. Then the last saiyam will come gradually.
Questioner: Sometimes when I am insulted in such a manner, the attack of the mind continues, although it may not manifest in speech.
Dadashri: We are not concerned with whatever happens at that time. Even if it ends up in a physical attack, the worldy interaction vyavahhar is dependant upon whatever energy shakti exists. The one in whom the energy shakti has manifested completely, his attack from the even the mind will cease. Still what do 'we' say? If an attack from the mind or speech occurs, or even if a physical attack occurs, if these weakenss of all three kinds has arisen, then one has to do the pratikramn of the three kinds have to be done.
Questioner: Say if someone insults me and my pride is so severely hurt that a state of manipulative tantrum tragu arises within me, against myself only, how far will I fall? In other words, I do not listen to what you have said above to deal with the insult.
Dadashri: One is already fallen, has he one not? The fact that obstinacy arises is the fall in itself. Manipulative tantrum tragu is the greatest danger. One has fallen completely; he cannot go down any further.
The fear of being insulted is the beggary of pride
What do 'we' say? It is not a problem if you do not like insult, but do not harbor a desire or beggary for respect.
Questioner: But do we not have to get rid of this weakness of the fear of being insulted?